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Claimer: This will be the last time I post this. If you haven't seen it in the first chapter I'll post it again. Copyright © Son Cheena.
AN: Hope you all enjoyed chapter one. There aren't many journal entries but to gain the point of the story, you'll need to read these. Just hang in there, the story is coming soon. Hold on and prepare for it. I'll try not to disappoint you when the time comes. Hope you enjoy these entries. Catch you at the end.
~Cheena's POV: Page Two~
Dec 26.
Well it's a day after Christmas and I'm still thinking over the events that took place. I was always one that was big on the holiday's especially Christmas but this one was a holiday I could have done without. Between Thanksgiving and Christmas, Bulma somehow got my mother to agree to head over to her place to a Christmas party. She said that everyone was going to be there and it would be a way for us to get out of the house and see everyone. Goten and I was glad to go but my mother wasn't as ecstatic as the two of us. Eventually we got her to come along just to get out of the house. All three of us dressed up seeing as how this was a party and a Bulma Briefs party to be exact. I'm not fond of what I wore; it was a dress for goodness sake. Mom made me wear it and even though I could have protested, I didn't. I didn't want to upset her in anyway. As a matter of fact, Goten and I tried our best to help when we could and slowly we were seeing some improvement in her. It was great to see. Well, we went to the party and as Bulma said before, everyone was there. It was great seeing Krillin, 18 and Marron. Yamcha was there as well as Tien, Hercule and even Piccolo. I watched as Pan and Bra ran around playing one of those games you play when you're just a kid. Oh how I missed those days. I spent most the evening talking with Trunks and Miyuki as did Goten. We had our own little circle and we went to it each and every time we wanted to discuss something. I looked around for Risika but she wasn't there. I was told she was spending the holiday with her sister so she wouldn't be there. I wish she was though but it's ok.
Occasionally I glanced at my mom to see how she was and I was pleased to see a smile on her face as she spoke with Bulma, Videl and 18. It was a great site to see believe me. Soon it was time for all of us to eat which was the best part of the night. Bulma sure does know how to cater up some food. The night was going by smoothly then it came time for us all to swap presents. That was a great time because it gave me a chance to give everyone I cared about a present, except Vegeta. I'm kidding. I got him something as well. The last present that I gave out went to my mother. I didn't know what to get her actually because I was afraid, afraid of making her upset but I thought it was a nice gift. As she unwrapped the gift I practically stood still as I waited to see the expression on her face. It was a picture frame with a picture of the entire family inside. I thought she would like it. Goten got on my case about it saying it would make her upset to see a picture of our father but to his and even my surprise, my mother was laughing. She embraced me with a hug as she glanced at the picture. By now everyone was looking at her confused as was I. I mean, I didn't expect her to laugh over the picture. She walked away after that leaving me standing there with a stupid look on my face. I remember Miyuki coming to me and asking me what that was about. I just shrugged and said "I guess she likes it".
That was our Christmas Party. I enjoyed it but one thing still troubled me. The gift that I just couldn't give away. The gift I bought for my father. It's still sitting there on my dresser. I don't know why I bought it, no, that would be a lie. I do know why I bought it. I bought it because I was expecting him to come back home to us. Sadly, he still didn't come back but I'm sure he will. I'm sure he'll come soon and when he does his gift will be waiting for him. I won't say what it is, however. I know he'll be coming home soon. I just know it. I will end my entry here on that note.
Jan 5.
Well a new year is upon us and I could say that it's a good sign but it's really not. My father has still not shown his face to us or anyone. I've tried not to concentrate on him and worry more about my studies and my personal life. We had a New Years Eve party recently and it was ok. This time everyone came over to my house to party since my mother insisted on it. It was a shock for me to have her actually want people over to bring in the New Year but the party went well kinda. You see, I wasn't in the mood to party. I was even upset. Why you ask? Well I was upset at everyone just sitting around, reminiscing about old times, old times with my father. I couldn't take it. I went up to my room and lay on my bed. The last thing I wanted to hear was about the old times. Trunks, Goten and Miyuki came up to my room and we just talked about the good times we had together. I felt better, in fact we all did. Maybe I could have talked about my father and the good times but I just couldn't do it, not yet at least. As we counted down to the New Year I was thinking about everything that happened in the past year and what stayed on my mind the most was the fact that my father still wasn't here. As we all cheered as the clock struck midnight and the New Year was upon us, I couldn't help but smile slightly with one thought on my mind. It was a new year meaning new things could happen. Almost anything could happen including the return of my father. I'm not giving up hope. I know he'll return, he promised. I'll leave it at that.
Feb 18
Well my father still has not come home to us, to his family. I've almost forgotten about his leaving us behind at the tournament but its still in my mind somewhere, just not out front as it once was. I've been busy with my life as a whole. My family life seems to be changing from previous events and entries. My mother for one seems happier then she normally was. It actually caught me off guard seeing as how I'm so used to her walking around the house as if the life was sucked out of her and now I see her smiling and singing about. I really don't know what to think about her behavior. I mean, I should be happy that she seems to be happy. Isn't that what I want from her? Then I think about if she should be happy. I'm happy, of course I am, but I'm not 100% happy. I'm missing someone and so is she. Then the question comes into mind. Has she forgotten about her husband? About my father? I immediately push that question out my mind because my mother would never forget about my father. She loves him too much. I should just be happy that she's happy. I'll end my entry here because I have work to do. Being a mechanic isn't an easy job but it pays and that's what matters most.
May 2
I've missed two months of writing in here. I've just been so busy with schoolwork. You'd think they (as in the teachers) would have something better to do then give tons of work but we have finals coming up so it's for the best. I don't have much to say but I can say that the behavior around this house is strange. Well maybe not, but for me it is. It's my mother. Yes she is ok but the thing that is strange is she's happy. Ok, maybe that isn't strange but it is for her. I mean just awhile ago she was sad, wouldn't say a word and now she's happy and singing. I wonder sometimes if she's forgotten her husband but that can't be it. I mean my mother loved my dad and she still does. She would never forget about him. At least I would hope not.
*turn and look at the door before continuing to write*
I can hear my mother yelling at me from downstairs. Just what I need. I think she can see through anything. I better get back to studying before she comes up here. Whoever said she's not into Goten and my studies like my older brother Gohan doesn't really know my mother. I have to end my entry here. Later.
May 30
I'm so fired up right now that flames can be seen in my eyes and smoke out of my ears. I wanted to so much to write about this when it happened but I was just enraged. I wouldn't dare pick up a pencil, hell, I've been training my ass off for days now but finally I've come in here to write this down. This must be known and said so here goes. My father came back but he didn't come back, hell, I didn't even spend much time with him. Let me start off with some good news at least before I go into this mess. Five days ago Goten and I finally turned 18. Seemed to take forever in my eyes but now we are no longer 17. Three days after our birthday we were all at the house. My mother was there as well as my brothers, Videl, Pan and of course myself. I was out back working on a few motor bikes. (That is my hobby/job). Ok, so I may be a girl but that don't mean I can't go and do things that guys normally would be doing. I'm not a bad mechanic, hell, I'm great. Anyway, I was out back when I heard a few yells coming from my mother. Occasionally I'd run to find out what was wrong but I was too into my work and I figured Gohan and Goten was there so I wasn't needed. I could hear faint cries and more laughter from inside the house.
My curiosity got the better of me by now and I quickly dropped my tools. Looking at the kitchen door I saw Pan looking at me with a smile on her face.
"Grandpa came back Che. Grandpa came back" she yelled before she ran back into the house. My reaction was one of shock. I didn't know what to say or even do. I can go as far as to say that I stopped breathing at one point. I remember going into the house and looking around. There he was with Pan in his arms. My breathing became slightly labored and I felt like a small child. I smiled and folded my arms across my chest before quickly greeting the man that left us all those months ago.
"Welcome back dad" I said, waiting for him to thank me and say a few more words. Setting Pan down, he looked at me with a frown on his face, something I didn't expect.
"Well I can't stay Che. I just came to say hi" he said.
*slam my fists down on the desk before continuing to write*
Do you believe him? Do you!? He promised he was going to come back, to be with his family and then he pulls this? I didn't let my anger show but maybe I should have. I just decided to ask him some more questions. Maybe I'd be able to get him to stay with us for good.
"Why can't you stay with us?" I asked him.
"Uub still isn't at the level I want him to be so we have more training to do" he responded.
"And your still not where I want you to be and that's home with your family" I said to myself but I kept it that way to myself. I was not going to say that to him but now that I think about it I damn sure should have but what difference would it of made, huh? Could it have been the key factor, I doubt it.
"But dad you promised." I started to say but never got to finish due to my mother cutting me off. I was shocked beyond belief. Just the thought of her cutting me off fueled me up with anger to the point of no return.
"Cheena, let your father be. Besides I'm sure he's hungry" she said as she looked at him. I've had lots of questions to ask and she cut me off to offer food? I was outraged. As my parents walked into the kitchen I just had millions of questions and thoughts running around in my head. I didn't know what to say. Goten and Gohan didn't either I guess, that or, they just wanted to be quiet for the time being. I just shook my head and came up to my room. I couldn't take it. After that he just left. He ate and left without even a damn goodbye. He knew where I was or if he didn't I'm sure Gohan or Goten would have said something. I bet he didn't say anything to them either. Right now I hate him and I'm truly upset. I don't even know if I can write anymore. For once my own father, my flesh and blood has hurt me and I don't know why or what I've done to deserve this. I have to end my entry here before I write my hand off. I don't know when I'll return to writing down my thoughts. Maybe when the thoughts in my head are clear then I'll return. Goodbye dear journal.
AN2: Cheena has ended her time in journal writing but it's not over yet. Will anyone pick up where she left of? Who do you think is next? Next Chapter will be up soon. Now can ya do me a favor and review? Please and Thank you. Later.
Claimer: This will be the last time I post this. If you haven't seen it in the first chapter I'll post it again. Copyright © Son Cheena.
AN: Hope you all enjoyed chapter one. There aren't many journal entries but to gain the point of the story, you'll need to read these. Just hang in there, the story is coming soon. Hold on and prepare for it. I'll try not to disappoint you when the time comes. Hope you enjoy these entries. Catch you at the end.
~Cheena's POV: Page Two~
Dec 26.
Well it's a day after Christmas and I'm still thinking over the events that took place. I was always one that was big on the holiday's especially Christmas but this one was a holiday I could have done without. Between Thanksgiving and Christmas, Bulma somehow got my mother to agree to head over to her place to a Christmas party. She said that everyone was going to be there and it would be a way for us to get out of the house and see everyone. Goten and I was glad to go but my mother wasn't as ecstatic as the two of us. Eventually we got her to come along just to get out of the house. All three of us dressed up seeing as how this was a party and a Bulma Briefs party to be exact. I'm not fond of what I wore; it was a dress for goodness sake. Mom made me wear it and even though I could have protested, I didn't. I didn't want to upset her in anyway. As a matter of fact, Goten and I tried our best to help when we could and slowly we were seeing some improvement in her. It was great to see. Well, we went to the party and as Bulma said before, everyone was there. It was great seeing Krillin, 18 and Marron. Yamcha was there as well as Tien, Hercule and even Piccolo. I watched as Pan and Bra ran around playing one of those games you play when you're just a kid. Oh how I missed those days. I spent most the evening talking with Trunks and Miyuki as did Goten. We had our own little circle and we went to it each and every time we wanted to discuss something. I looked around for Risika but she wasn't there. I was told she was spending the holiday with her sister so she wouldn't be there. I wish she was though but it's ok.
Occasionally I glanced at my mom to see how she was and I was pleased to see a smile on her face as she spoke with Bulma, Videl and 18. It was a great site to see believe me. Soon it was time for all of us to eat which was the best part of the night. Bulma sure does know how to cater up some food. The night was going by smoothly then it came time for us all to swap presents. That was a great time because it gave me a chance to give everyone I cared about a present, except Vegeta. I'm kidding. I got him something as well. The last present that I gave out went to my mother. I didn't know what to get her actually because I was afraid, afraid of making her upset but I thought it was a nice gift. As she unwrapped the gift I practically stood still as I waited to see the expression on her face. It was a picture frame with a picture of the entire family inside. I thought she would like it. Goten got on my case about it saying it would make her upset to see a picture of our father but to his and even my surprise, my mother was laughing. She embraced me with a hug as she glanced at the picture. By now everyone was looking at her confused as was I. I mean, I didn't expect her to laugh over the picture. She walked away after that leaving me standing there with a stupid look on my face. I remember Miyuki coming to me and asking me what that was about. I just shrugged and said "I guess she likes it".
That was our Christmas Party. I enjoyed it but one thing still troubled me. The gift that I just couldn't give away. The gift I bought for my father. It's still sitting there on my dresser. I don't know why I bought it, no, that would be a lie. I do know why I bought it. I bought it because I was expecting him to come back home to us. Sadly, he still didn't come back but I'm sure he will. I'm sure he'll come soon and when he does his gift will be waiting for him. I won't say what it is, however. I know he'll be coming home soon. I just know it. I will end my entry here on that note.
Jan 5.
Well a new year is upon us and I could say that it's a good sign but it's really not. My father has still not shown his face to us or anyone. I've tried not to concentrate on him and worry more about my studies and my personal life. We had a New Years Eve party recently and it was ok. This time everyone came over to my house to party since my mother insisted on it. It was a shock for me to have her actually want people over to bring in the New Year but the party went well kinda. You see, I wasn't in the mood to party. I was even upset. Why you ask? Well I was upset at everyone just sitting around, reminiscing about old times, old times with my father. I couldn't take it. I went up to my room and lay on my bed. The last thing I wanted to hear was about the old times. Trunks, Goten and Miyuki came up to my room and we just talked about the good times we had together. I felt better, in fact we all did. Maybe I could have talked about my father and the good times but I just couldn't do it, not yet at least. As we counted down to the New Year I was thinking about everything that happened in the past year and what stayed on my mind the most was the fact that my father still wasn't here. As we all cheered as the clock struck midnight and the New Year was upon us, I couldn't help but smile slightly with one thought on my mind. It was a new year meaning new things could happen. Almost anything could happen including the return of my father. I'm not giving up hope. I know he'll return, he promised. I'll leave it at that.
Feb 18
Well my father still has not come home to us, to his family. I've almost forgotten about his leaving us behind at the tournament but its still in my mind somewhere, just not out front as it once was. I've been busy with my life as a whole. My family life seems to be changing from previous events and entries. My mother for one seems happier then she normally was. It actually caught me off guard seeing as how I'm so used to her walking around the house as if the life was sucked out of her and now I see her smiling and singing about. I really don't know what to think about her behavior. I mean, I should be happy that she seems to be happy. Isn't that what I want from her? Then I think about if she should be happy. I'm happy, of course I am, but I'm not 100% happy. I'm missing someone and so is she. Then the question comes into mind. Has she forgotten about her husband? About my father? I immediately push that question out my mind because my mother would never forget about my father. She loves him too much. I should just be happy that she's happy. I'll end my entry here because I have work to do. Being a mechanic isn't an easy job but it pays and that's what matters most.
May 2
I've missed two months of writing in here. I've just been so busy with schoolwork. You'd think they (as in the teachers) would have something better to do then give tons of work but we have finals coming up so it's for the best. I don't have much to say but I can say that the behavior around this house is strange. Well maybe not, but for me it is. It's my mother. Yes she is ok but the thing that is strange is she's happy. Ok, maybe that isn't strange but it is for her. I mean just awhile ago she was sad, wouldn't say a word and now she's happy and singing. I wonder sometimes if she's forgotten her husband but that can't be it. I mean my mother loved my dad and she still does. She would never forget about him. At least I would hope not.
*turn and look at the door before continuing to write*
I can hear my mother yelling at me from downstairs. Just what I need. I think she can see through anything. I better get back to studying before she comes up here. Whoever said she's not into Goten and my studies like my older brother Gohan doesn't really know my mother. I have to end my entry here. Later.
May 30
I'm so fired up right now that flames can be seen in my eyes and smoke out of my ears. I wanted to so much to write about this when it happened but I was just enraged. I wouldn't dare pick up a pencil, hell, I've been training my ass off for days now but finally I've come in here to write this down. This must be known and said so here goes. My father came back but he didn't come back, hell, I didn't even spend much time with him. Let me start off with some good news at least before I go into this mess. Five days ago Goten and I finally turned 18. Seemed to take forever in my eyes but now we are no longer 17. Three days after our birthday we were all at the house. My mother was there as well as my brothers, Videl, Pan and of course myself. I was out back working on a few motor bikes. (That is my hobby/job). Ok, so I may be a girl but that don't mean I can't go and do things that guys normally would be doing. I'm not a bad mechanic, hell, I'm great. Anyway, I was out back when I heard a few yells coming from my mother. Occasionally I'd run to find out what was wrong but I was too into my work and I figured Gohan and Goten was there so I wasn't needed. I could hear faint cries and more laughter from inside the house.
My curiosity got the better of me by now and I quickly dropped my tools. Looking at the kitchen door I saw Pan looking at me with a smile on her face.
"Grandpa came back Che. Grandpa came back" she yelled before she ran back into the house. My reaction was one of shock. I didn't know what to say or even do. I can go as far as to say that I stopped breathing at one point. I remember going into the house and looking around. There he was with Pan in his arms. My breathing became slightly labored and I felt like a small child. I smiled and folded my arms across my chest before quickly greeting the man that left us all those months ago.
"Welcome back dad" I said, waiting for him to thank me and say a few more words. Setting Pan down, he looked at me with a frown on his face, something I didn't expect.
"Well I can't stay Che. I just came to say hi" he said.
*slam my fists down on the desk before continuing to write*
Do you believe him? Do you!? He promised he was going to come back, to be with his family and then he pulls this? I didn't let my anger show but maybe I should have. I just decided to ask him some more questions. Maybe I'd be able to get him to stay with us for good.
"Why can't you stay with us?" I asked him.
"Uub still isn't at the level I want him to be so we have more training to do" he responded.
"And your still not where I want you to be and that's home with your family" I said to myself but I kept it that way to myself. I was not going to say that to him but now that I think about it I damn sure should have but what difference would it of made, huh? Could it have been the key factor, I doubt it.
"But dad you promised." I started to say but never got to finish due to my mother cutting me off. I was shocked beyond belief. Just the thought of her cutting me off fueled me up with anger to the point of no return.
"Cheena, let your father be. Besides I'm sure he's hungry" she said as she looked at him. I've had lots of questions to ask and she cut me off to offer food? I was outraged. As my parents walked into the kitchen I just had millions of questions and thoughts running around in my head. I didn't know what to say. Goten and Gohan didn't either I guess, that or, they just wanted to be quiet for the time being. I just shook my head and came up to my room. I couldn't take it. After that he just left. He ate and left without even a damn goodbye. He knew where I was or if he didn't I'm sure Gohan or Goten would have said something. I bet he didn't say anything to them either. Right now I hate him and I'm truly upset. I don't even know if I can write anymore. For once my own father, my flesh and blood has hurt me and I don't know why or what I've done to deserve this. I have to end my entry here before I write my hand off. I don't know when I'll return to writing down my thoughts. Maybe when the thoughts in my head are clear then I'll return. Goodbye dear journal.
AN2: Cheena has ended her time in journal writing but it's not over yet. Will anyone pick up where she left of? Who do you think is next? Next Chapter will be up soon. Now can ya do me a favor and review? Please and Thank you. Later.
