I'm SO sorry that this is updated later, but I've had homework and
coursework, and I've been up pretty late trying to finish it all for the
deadlines. And my chosen date of finish will UNFORTUNATELY probably not be
ready by that time...so I'm sorry.
If I do however manage to finish this on my chosen date, I tell you it will
be a miracle... anyway enough of my bickering. Enjoy!
Double Past
"WHAT!?!" yelled Salima after Tala explained for the fourth time that Misao was not with him, and he didn't know where she was, "How could you be so stupid and let her out of your sight!"
"Tala, surely you realise that Misao is not accustomed to Tokyo living," said Kane reasonably, "I mean what possible reason would she have to just up and leave?"
"Besides the obvious that she hates me?" asked Tala wryly.
"Don't you DARE be cocky with me!" said Salima angrily, "You were put in charge of my friend, and you have lost her!"
"Geez, you make me sound like your long lost pet," came the voice of Misao as she entered the living room.
"Misao where have you been?" asked Kane after seeing the relieve on Salima's face.
"Out," said Misao simply as she walked into the living room, and took one look at Tala's blank expression. "What is he doing here?"
"He, Tala was worried about you and dec-," said Salima
"Ha!" said Misao, "Tala?!?! Worried about me?" She laughed loudly as she sat down on the chair, "This self centred cyberized person doesn't care for anyone but himself!"
"OK," said Kane as he tried to clear the tense atmosphere, "Tala, Misao explain, how did you get separated," Tala and Misao just sat quietly, refusing to give eye contact or talk to each other.
"He said about my past," said Misao simply as she sighed, "My shoplifting phase as he likes to call it,"
"You didn't!" said Salima and Kane equally horrified.
"She mentioned about me being a Demolition Boy, when I specifically tell all not to," said Tala, "And I did not call it your shoplifting phase,"
"Well you wanted too!" said Misao.
"But I didn't!" said Tala in the same tone that she used. Immediately they began to argue and fight, insulting each other.
"OK!" yelled Kane as he cut through, "Misao, don't say anything about Tala's past in the future and Tala, you do the same. OK?"
"Whatever," said Misao as she got up and slammed the door shut on her way out.
"Great!" said Salima as she threw her hands up in disbelief, "Here she goes again! Always fleeing at the first sign of problems, just like seven years ago,"
"What happened seven years ago?" asked Tala curiously, somehow he felt like Misao was mad for something other than the fact he mentioned her shoplifting.
"Misao's parents have split up. Her mother lives with her in Kyoto and her father is currently in jail, for alcohol abuse and abuse against Misao, and selling things in the black market," said Salima with a huge sigh, "When everything happened, she admitted it freely but wouldn't tell the truth about her father was doing and ran away from home, her mother came back and she came home and was persuaded skilfully to reveal the truth. Instead of staying in Tokyo, she begged her mother to take the job offered in Kyoto. My mother was told by her mother, but we were told not to tell,"
"Misao finds it really hard to face up to her problems," said Kane, "She's just like that...it must have taken a lot of confidence to come back to Tokyo and looking so well,"
"I'm sure it did," said Tala calmly as he realised what Misao meant.
Flashback
"Shut up!" said Misao as she refused to turn around, "You know, I don't need your help here! I can find my way around town fine!"
"Salima said that I-," said Tala.
"Salima says! Well I say that I don't need you reminding me about the past!" said Misao heated, "Especially when I've tried to move on and forget it,"
"Then you know how it feels to be reminded what you are!" said Tala in an equal rage.
"You used to be proud to be a Demolition Boy," said Misao, "Why the change of heart!"
End of flashback
"Proud to be a Demolition Boy, proud," said the thoughts that played in Tala's head as he thought back, ""Especially when I've tried to move on and forget it, move on and forget it," He thought long and hard while he revised the words that Misao threw in his face before realising. "What have I done?"
~*~*~*~*~
Misao had stormed out of the house and headed down into the park, it was pretty dark and she knew she should have stayed inside, but she wasn't scared... she'd done it several times before... staying out late at night, that's to her father and his abusive behaviour. She walked into the park as she sat down on the vacated bench, she watched as young lovers were walking hand in hand gazing at the magnificent sky looking at the twinkling stars and the luminous moon. She saw young kids running around in front of their beaming parents, proud of their children and their family.
"I can remember days like that, my mother, my father, Shiro and myself," thought Misao sadly as she remembered the day her elder brother died, "That's when everything went wrong, father went back to drugs and alcohol, and mother began to cope with her sorrow by leaving me all alone,"
Flashback
"My poor Shiro," said Misao's mother as she looked sadly at a young picture of her lost son, "I know that you are with the spirits of my beloved mother and father, and I know you are safe. But if you hear me...please remember that we will always love you," Her mother then lit an incense stick and placed it in the hole (Debbi-Aura says: I don't know what you call the think you stick the incense sticks in... so sorry!) and then left the room. Misao is watching from the corner, her long black hair hanging over one shoulder as she follows her mother into the main room where her father is lounging on the sofa with ten bottles or more on the table and taking swigs from the current bottle in his hand every 1 second.
Misao doesn't go into the family room because her parents begin to argue again about Shiro's death and blaming each other for it. Misao runs away as the abuse begins. She runs upstairs into her room where she has a picture of them all together happily and a separate picture of her brother.
"Why are they like this Shiro?" asked Misao, "Sure, they've lost you... but I'm still here! But they could never love you like they love their first born child... the clever one with a bright future ahead. Mother, father...don't turn back to the past...look to the future I'm still here! You haven't lost everything!"
End of flashback
"You haven't lost everything, I'm still here!" said Misao as she went over those words in her head as silent tears began to pour down her face. She dried her tears with the sleeve of her shirt as she sat there silently, "Why does everything bad always come back to haunt me!"
"Because you let it," said a calm voice from the darkness. Misao turned around as Tala stepped out of the shadows and into the view of Misao. Misao turned away from Tala as she moved up on the bench, "Is this an invitation to sit down?" Misao looked at him as she casually waved her hand. Tala took up the gesture as "do what you want," and sat down. Misao and Tala were silent for a few minutes, Tala thinking of what to say to her...he was never good at apologies, and Misao was still thinking about the past.
"You can't dawdle on the past," began Tala, "You've gotta look to the future, I know that I may never be uncyberized, but that's in the past. I look to the future, the idea of spending time with friends, people who care about me and like me for who I am. Not someone you pretend to be, but at the same time you can't run away every time the going gets tough,"
"Oh and you're such an expert how exactly?" asked Misao harshly.
"I never said I was an expert," said Tala, "I just believe in those few things,"
"There are things that I believed in such as fairytales and happy endings," said Misao as she turned her brown eyes to face him, "They don't and will never exist, I know that now,"
"Maybe if you took the time to talk your problems through with people and try to sort them with the help of your friends, than maybe there will be a happy ending for you," said Tala.
"If you think I'm going to pour all my dark secrets to you, you're seriously mistaken," said Misao, "You probably know them from Salima anyway,"
"She only told me in basic," said Tala, "And I wasn't saying that you talk to me, I was going to say that you probably talk to Salima or Kane or even your own family. Everyone wants to help you, but you never let them get close enough,"
"And how did you figure all this out?" asked Misao curiously.
"That look in your eyes, is the same one I ended up with when I first was cyberized, the look of emotionless and independence," said Tala, "Except... you shouldn't be independent at times like this,"
"Oh?" asked Misao.
"The more you try to be independent," said Tala, "The more you refuse the help of friends who care about you, soon you'll be as cyberized as me without being cyberized. In other words you will be unable to express any emotion, only hatred,"
"Do you know the full truth of my shoplifting phase?" asked Misao as she looked at Tala.
"Basics," said Tala, "But enough to know I was in the wrong and I'm sorry...I hope that you won't continue to hate me for getting it wrong. Look maybe I was a little distant to you in the beginning, but if you found out how long it took me to make the friends I have now, you will understand,"
"I'm sorry for talking about your past too," said Misao, "I realise that you did something bad as well, and you don't really want mention of it. Plus, I return to Kyoto in a few days and so...I guess there is not much point of us being friends,"
"Is that how you feel?" asked Tala curiously.
"Yeah," said Misao confidently, "I just don't see the point,"
"Well if you believe so...well I guess it does make sense," said Tala.
"Good," said Misao as she walked away.
~*~*~*~*~
AHHHH! I can't believe that Misao refuses to be Tala's friend after he apologised to her... and believe me apologising is not Tala's best trait. Well I did write it ^^ but you'll have to wait for the end to find out how they fall in love... so until next time
CYA!
Double Past
"WHAT!?!" yelled Salima after Tala explained for the fourth time that Misao was not with him, and he didn't know where she was, "How could you be so stupid and let her out of your sight!"
"Tala, surely you realise that Misao is not accustomed to Tokyo living," said Kane reasonably, "I mean what possible reason would she have to just up and leave?"
"Besides the obvious that she hates me?" asked Tala wryly.
"Don't you DARE be cocky with me!" said Salima angrily, "You were put in charge of my friend, and you have lost her!"
"Geez, you make me sound like your long lost pet," came the voice of Misao as she entered the living room.
"Misao where have you been?" asked Kane after seeing the relieve on Salima's face.
"Out," said Misao simply as she walked into the living room, and took one look at Tala's blank expression. "What is he doing here?"
"He, Tala was worried about you and dec-," said Salima
"Ha!" said Misao, "Tala?!?! Worried about me?" She laughed loudly as she sat down on the chair, "This self centred cyberized person doesn't care for anyone but himself!"
"OK," said Kane as he tried to clear the tense atmosphere, "Tala, Misao explain, how did you get separated," Tala and Misao just sat quietly, refusing to give eye contact or talk to each other.
"He said about my past," said Misao simply as she sighed, "My shoplifting phase as he likes to call it,"
"You didn't!" said Salima and Kane equally horrified.
"She mentioned about me being a Demolition Boy, when I specifically tell all not to," said Tala, "And I did not call it your shoplifting phase,"
"Well you wanted too!" said Misao.
"But I didn't!" said Tala in the same tone that she used. Immediately they began to argue and fight, insulting each other.
"OK!" yelled Kane as he cut through, "Misao, don't say anything about Tala's past in the future and Tala, you do the same. OK?"
"Whatever," said Misao as she got up and slammed the door shut on her way out.
"Great!" said Salima as she threw her hands up in disbelief, "Here she goes again! Always fleeing at the first sign of problems, just like seven years ago,"
"What happened seven years ago?" asked Tala curiously, somehow he felt like Misao was mad for something other than the fact he mentioned her shoplifting.
"Misao's parents have split up. Her mother lives with her in Kyoto and her father is currently in jail, for alcohol abuse and abuse against Misao, and selling things in the black market," said Salima with a huge sigh, "When everything happened, she admitted it freely but wouldn't tell the truth about her father was doing and ran away from home, her mother came back and she came home and was persuaded skilfully to reveal the truth. Instead of staying in Tokyo, she begged her mother to take the job offered in Kyoto. My mother was told by her mother, but we were told not to tell,"
"Misao finds it really hard to face up to her problems," said Kane, "She's just like that...it must have taken a lot of confidence to come back to Tokyo and looking so well,"
"I'm sure it did," said Tala calmly as he realised what Misao meant.
Flashback
"Shut up!" said Misao as she refused to turn around, "You know, I don't need your help here! I can find my way around town fine!"
"Salima said that I-," said Tala.
"Salima says! Well I say that I don't need you reminding me about the past!" said Misao heated, "Especially when I've tried to move on and forget it,"
"Then you know how it feels to be reminded what you are!" said Tala in an equal rage.
"You used to be proud to be a Demolition Boy," said Misao, "Why the change of heart!"
End of flashback
"Proud to be a Demolition Boy, proud," said the thoughts that played in Tala's head as he thought back, ""Especially when I've tried to move on and forget it, move on and forget it," He thought long and hard while he revised the words that Misao threw in his face before realising. "What have I done?"
~*~*~*~*~
Misao had stormed out of the house and headed down into the park, it was pretty dark and she knew she should have stayed inside, but she wasn't scared... she'd done it several times before... staying out late at night, that's to her father and his abusive behaviour. She walked into the park as she sat down on the vacated bench, she watched as young lovers were walking hand in hand gazing at the magnificent sky looking at the twinkling stars and the luminous moon. She saw young kids running around in front of their beaming parents, proud of their children and their family.
"I can remember days like that, my mother, my father, Shiro and myself," thought Misao sadly as she remembered the day her elder brother died, "That's when everything went wrong, father went back to drugs and alcohol, and mother began to cope with her sorrow by leaving me all alone,"
Flashback
"My poor Shiro," said Misao's mother as she looked sadly at a young picture of her lost son, "I know that you are with the spirits of my beloved mother and father, and I know you are safe. But if you hear me...please remember that we will always love you," Her mother then lit an incense stick and placed it in the hole (Debbi-Aura says: I don't know what you call the think you stick the incense sticks in... so sorry!) and then left the room. Misao is watching from the corner, her long black hair hanging over one shoulder as she follows her mother into the main room where her father is lounging on the sofa with ten bottles or more on the table and taking swigs from the current bottle in his hand every 1 second.
Misao doesn't go into the family room because her parents begin to argue again about Shiro's death and blaming each other for it. Misao runs away as the abuse begins. She runs upstairs into her room where she has a picture of them all together happily and a separate picture of her brother.
"Why are they like this Shiro?" asked Misao, "Sure, they've lost you... but I'm still here! But they could never love you like they love their first born child... the clever one with a bright future ahead. Mother, father...don't turn back to the past...look to the future I'm still here! You haven't lost everything!"
End of flashback
"You haven't lost everything, I'm still here!" said Misao as she went over those words in her head as silent tears began to pour down her face. She dried her tears with the sleeve of her shirt as she sat there silently, "Why does everything bad always come back to haunt me!"
"Because you let it," said a calm voice from the darkness. Misao turned around as Tala stepped out of the shadows and into the view of Misao. Misao turned away from Tala as she moved up on the bench, "Is this an invitation to sit down?" Misao looked at him as she casually waved her hand. Tala took up the gesture as "do what you want," and sat down. Misao and Tala were silent for a few minutes, Tala thinking of what to say to her...he was never good at apologies, and Misao was still thinking about the past.
"You can't dawdle on the past," began Tala, "You've gotta look to the future, I know that I may never be uncyberized, but that's in the past. I look to the future, the idea of spending time with friends, people who care about me and like me for who I am. Not someone you pretend to be, but at the same time you can't run away every time the going gets tough,"
"Oh and you're such an expert how exactly?" asked Misao harshly.
"I never said I was an expert," said Tala, "I just believe in those few things,"
"There are things that I believed in such as fairytales and happy endings," said Misao as she turned her brown eyes to face him, "They don't and will never exist, I know that now,"
"Maybe if you took the time to talk your problems through with people and try to sort them with the help of your friends, than maybe there will be a happy ending for you," said Tala.
"If you think I'm going to pour all my dark secrets to you, you're seriously mistaken," said Misao, "You probably know them from Salima anyway,"
"She only told me in basic," said Tala, "And I wasn't saying that you talk to me, I was going to say that you probably talk to Salima or Kane or even your own family. Everyone wants to help you, but you never let them get close enough,"
"And how did you figure all this out?" asked Misao curiously.
"That look in your eyes, is the same one I ended up with when I first was cyberized, the look of emotionless and independence," said Tala, "Except... you shouldn't be independent at times like this,"
"Oh?" asked Misao.
"The more you try to be independent," said Tala, "The more you refuse the help of friends who care about you, soon you'll be as cyberized as me without being cyberized. In other words you will be unable to express any emotion, only hatred,"
"Do you know the full truth of my shoplifting phase?" asked Misao as she looked at Tala.
"Basics," said Tala, "But enough to know I was in the wrong and I'm sorry...I hope that you won't continue to hate me for getting it wrong. Look maybe I was a little distant to you in the beginning, but if you found out how long it took me to make the friends I have now, you will understand,"
"I'm sorry for talking about your past too," said Misao, "I realise that you did something bad as well, and you don't really want mention of it. Plus, I return to Kyoto in a few days and so...I guess there is not much point of us being friends,"
"Is that how you feel?" asked Tala curiously.
"Yeah," said Misao confidently, "I just don't see the point,"
"Well if you believe so...well I guess it does make sense," said Tala.
"Good," said Misao as she walked away.
~*~*~*~*~
AHHHH! I can't believe that Misao refuses to be Tala's friend after he apologised to her... and believe me apologising is not Tala's best trait. Well I did write it ^^ but you'll have to wait for the end to find out how they fall in love... so until next time
CYA!
