Forever and beyond
Hi there everyone Forever and beyond is over, and this is my goodbye
chapter. The first chapter, but through Hiei's point of view. I know this
will probably solve some missing pieces from Kurama's p.o.v.
Disclaimers: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho etc. etc.
"Koenma," I start as I enter his office. He's in his teenage form and he's looking through a huge stack of papers. He looks up at me.
"Hullo Hiei." He looks back down at his desk. "How is Botan?" I snort.
"No better. You should know, you and Ayame are the one's who're taking her away!" He glares at me.
"It's not like I have a choice, Hiei!" He walks around his desk and glares at me. "Do you think I want to take her away?"
"You want to take her away from Kurama though." I snapped, Koenma turned a bit pink and then looked away. "Listen, I didn't come here to argue Koenma. I want to know, is Botan going to be reincarnated as a human?"
"She might, but what happens will happen." He answers still not looking at me.
"Well, Botan said she didn't want that. She said she wants to become a demon." Koenma turned red in the face and turned towards me.
"WELL, WE DON'T ALWAYS GET WHAT WE WANT NOW DO WE?" He yelled "WHAT ABOUT MY WANTS? DO YOU THINK I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT? NO! SO WHY SHOULD SHE GET WHATEVER SHE WANTS? I WANT-" His words were cut off as I walked out of the room and went back to human world.
"Hiei, it's about time!" Yuske greeted me as I walked into his house. "We were going to leave without you." Keiko walked down the stairs with a large bouquet of flowers. She smiled warmly at me.
"Hi. My Mom is taking care of Kenji for me so let's go." We followed her out the door and into the car. "I still can't believe she's dying..."
Yuske nods in agreement. "It's really upsetting and now she's lost the baby..."
We walk into the room where Botan lays, "Botan!" Keiko breathes, Yuske gives her a quick kiss on the cheek and then we both walk towards Kurama and Kuwabara at the window Keiko gives Botan a hug. I nod at Yukina, my sister and Botan smiles at me I smirk back and then turn back towards Kurama.
"I spoke to Koenma..." I start quietly Kurama makes a disgusted sound but nods at me. I continue "He doesn't know shit. All he said was 'What happens will happen.' When I asked him if she would be reincarnated as a human he said she might. And when I informed him that she didn't want to be, he turned red in the face and started screaming that nobody always get's what they want then he started yelling about his wants."
I heard Kurama snort and look at the window, probably to hide his angered face, Yuske and Kuwabara whisper angrily to us. "Damn him!" Yuske says. "We should tell Ayame, She'll get him to act his age!"
"Yeah, and if he still acts like a selfish jerk, we'll just tell his dad." Kuwabara added, I stifled a snort, those two idiots were acting as much of a child as Koenma. Telling on him? Hn. "I'm sure he can straiten him out." Kurama turns to us and grins.
It was midnight and only Kurama and I were there. Botan had fallen asleep and looked like she was in pain, her face was white and her lips and cheek had no color to them at all. Her body was very thin, her hand was swollen because of the I-V. Kurama looked as though he might cry as he ran a hand on her cheek.
I pat him on the shoulder and he stares at me, I fought desperately to keep my tears from falling. I don't know how long we stared at each other, but when he finally looked away, the doctor walked in with a clipboard. "Mr. Minamino?" He starts.
"Yes?" Kurama replies standing up and facing him.
"I have some news about your wife...My, she's very young." He adds flipping through some papers on the clipboard my heart rise to my throat. He looks back up at Kurama "She only has about two days before she-"
"Thank you." Kurama snaps turning away from him "Thank you for letting me know." he says more calmly. The doctor nodded at me and left.
"Kurama I..." I trailed off not knowing what to say, I felt terrible about everything. I wanted to help so badly but felt useless. I felt as though I would break down and cry but I refused, damn my pride. Poor Botan, poor Kurama they were both going to be alone for a long time. All this crap happened only three months ago...
3 months ago
"Hiei!" Botan shouted up at me with a big smile on her beautiful face. I opened up an eye and looked at her from my tree where I was napping.
"What?" I asked with no emotion.
"Will you come to dinner tonight?" She asked. I hopped out of the tree and stared at her.
"Why?" I asked suspiciously, she blushed slightly.
"Well, I erm..." She looked down at her hands and bit her bottom lip.
"Spit it out." I said impatiently, she looked up at me and frowned.
"Why should there be a reason for me inviting you to eat dinner?" She said, I raised my eyebrows and for a while we just stared at each other. "Are you going to come or not?" I shrugged.
"It depends," I said slowly stuffing my hands into my pockets "who's going to be there?"
"Everyone." She answered simply, I eyed her again and noticed something different about her. It wasn't really in appearance but her spirit energy, it seemed...heavier.
"What are you hiding?" I asked suspiciously making her jump.
"I-I'm not hiding anything." She stuttered "What are you hiding?" I raised an eyebrow, was she trying to use that reverse-psychology crap on me?
"Whatever," I said "I'll be there what time?"
"Seven, oh Hiei I'm so happy!" Botan squealed and hugged me, cutting off my air supply.
"C-can't –breathe!" I gasped, she immediately let go of me and blushed.
"Sorry." She said sheepishly "Well, I'll see you at seven, Bye!" I watched her walk away.
Later that night...
I rang the doorbell to Botan and Kurama's house, which was a very rare thing for me to do. Kurama answered the door and smiled. "You came through the door!" he greeted me.
"And rang the doorbell." I added stepping inside.
When everyone had arrived we all sat down to eat, after we had all finished Kurama stood up. "Botan and I have an announcement," he started "We're going to have a baby." At first everyone just stared at him, then they all started talking at once.
"Oh, Shuuichi that's wonderful!" Kurama's mother and step-father said at the same time.
"Cool!" Kurama's younger brother replied grinning "I'm going to be an uncle!"
"Yeah, nice going there!" The idiot Kuwabara said looking at Botan 'Is she blushing?' I wonder.
"I'm so happy for you!" My sister cried out clasping her hands together.
"Yeah, so am I!" Yuske's wife agreed.
"Well, it's about time!" Yuske joked, his wife slapped his arm and he rubbed it.
"Yay, Kenji don't have to be the baby anymore!" Kenji, Keiko and Yuske's son said it was my turn to say something.
"Congratulations." I muttered, it was eleven when Kenji fell asleep and when the celebration finally stopped.
"Would you like to stay the night?" Botan offered, I felt like I was in the way when I always stayed because they were usually doing their 'mating' in their room and Botan was......loud and Kurama.......was louder.
"I think it's safe now." I answered when Botan and I were sitting at the counter and Kurama behind it in the kitchen, eating cookies. Kurama gave me an odd look when I said this.
"What do you mean 'safe', safe from what?" He asked furrowing his brow. I glanced from him to Botan and then back to him.
"It's safe to stay here now." I answered the couple gave me confused looks "Last time I was here you two kept making the house shake from the noise you were making in your bedroom." Botan and Kurama blushed madly, I felt the grin creep across my face.
"Pervert." Botan muttered, I looked at Kurama and he smiled and shook his head "Oh, Kurama I'll be leaving early tomorrow morning to the doctor."
"Alright." Kurama answered "Do you want me to drive you?" His wife shook her pretty head.
"No I'll be leaving very early and you need rest" She said smiling.
"Fine then. Hiei can drive you." Botan spat her drink out and I started choking on my cookie.
"HELL NO!" We both yelled at the same time, Kurama gripped his stomach laughing, I glared at him and threw my cookie at his head. He stopped laughing and turned around to face us. Botan and I pointed at each other.
"I didn't have the cookie!" Botan defended herself.
"You took mine." I Lied, I glanced out of the corner of my eye and saw her wink at me, and I doubted Kurama had seen because he rolled his eyes.
I woke up around the time Botan had, I saw her closing her bedroom door slowly so she wouldn't wake Kurama up. "Wow, you did have to wake up early." I whispered she grinned and shook her head, I noticed something in her hand, it was Kurama's credit card I smirked and shook my head "He'll kill you when he finds out you took that." She put a finger up to her lips.
"If you don't tell him I'll buy you some sweet snow," She whispered back crashing my hopes of telling on her. Damn that sweet snow to the bottomless pits of hell. "Do we have a deal?"
"Strawberry flavored?" I asked, feeling like a greedy ningen child, Botan nodded and I sighed "Fine, I promise I won't tell." Botan giggled and walked downstairs whispering a goodbye before leaving. I rolled my eyes and walked back to the room and fell asleep again.
It was around noon, Kurama and I were watching the box with people in it when Botan came back. She looked as though someone had just yelled in her face. She sat down on the couch next to Kurama who wrapped an arm around her "What's wrong?" he asked she only stared at him "What did the doctor say?"
"He said I need to go to a specialist." She answered slowly, I glanced at her.
"A specialist for what?' Kurama replied, she sighed and stared at her hands.
"He said that I-he said that I'm showing signs of a rare sickness."
"What kind of signs?" Kurama said raising an eyebrow.
"Like, insomnia, stomach cramps, fever and these," She pulled up her sleeve to show him a deep bloody red and purplish patch of skin. "I thought it was a bruise, but......"
"But what?" I now faced them completely.
"But I have them on my back too," She continued averting her eyes from her hands to her shoes "He made an appointment for next week at noon."
"I'm coming with you this time." Kurama said firmly, for a moment I wondered what he was thinking my friend had become very protective over his wife just like I was with Yukina.
It was about two weeks later when I went back to their house, not knowing anything about the disease. Yuske, his wife, Yukina, the idiot, Shizuru and I were there together when Kurama told us. "WHAT?!" we all shouted
"Oh my God." Shizuru whispered looking up the stairs, Keiko and Yukina started to cry, Yuske and Kuwabara comforted them.
"Are, you sure?" Yuske asked holding Keiko close.
"Are you sure the doctor isn't just stupid?" Kuwabara added Kurama shook his head. Kuwabara glared at me "Hey, 'Mr. Insensitive' say something." "Hn." Was my reply, I knew Kurama understood me, so he would get the point that I wouldn't dare ay a thing in front of them. But I was damning my pride because I truly did want to say something, because honestly I loved Botan very deeply. When they left we were in the kitchen, he was making tea for Botan, desperately trying to find anything to cheer her up when we heard something heavy go down the stairs. We looked at each other and ran to the staircase.
"Botan!" Kurama screamed running to her body there was a thin line of blood running down Botan's chin, she was sweating and groan softly as though she was having a nightmare. "Botan, Botan please wake up. Hiei," he said turning to me "We have to leave now." I nodded and ran to get the coats. He drove to the hospital, I was in the backseat with Botan's head on my lap, it was the first time Kurama had ever driven like a maniac he nearly hit two ningens because he was continuously looking in the rearview mirror at us checking on her.
For a month Botan had been in the hospital and I had been looking all over Demon World trying to find a cure, Kurama looking n the Spirit World library. I doubt that he even looked at Koenma while he was there. Koenma had been acting like a stupid, selfish brat ever since Kurama and Botan had gotten married. And with every passing moment, Botan became weaker and weaker, I just knew Kurama was killing himself because he couldn't help her. But I felt the same way so I could sympathize.
I went to visit Yukina to see how she was doing, when I arrived at her house Kuwabara was getting into his car. "Hey," he said softly it didn't sound like his normally loud annoyingly happy voice. "I'm going to the store"
"Where's my sister?" I asked, it was on their wedding day that I told them Yukina was my sister, Kuwabara sighed and ran a hand through his orange hair "She's really depressed, she hasn't been wanting to do anything since......well you know." I sighed as well.
"Take me to the hospital I'd run but I've been in Demon World." I said getting into the car, Kuwabara drove in silence getting a ticket for running a red light because he was off in his own little world. "Pathetic, just more time wasted, I could've already been there by now if I had walked." Kuwabara frowned obviously not wanting to argue with me at the moment. When we got to the hospital, Kurama was walking out of the elevator he waved and walked over to us.
I noticed something about him, aside from the fact that he hadn't eaten very much the past two months and he was extremely skinny, something else about him worried me. "How is she?" Kuwabara asked, I snorted and thought 'how do you think she is? Cured?'
"No better, she's been running a higher fever and they've been giving her more shots." he paused. "And, we lost the baby." he winced, and I knew why. He was lying, my eyes widened and I felt like punching him. 'Has he forgotten about my Jagan?' I wondered.
I-I'm so sorry, Kurama." Kuwabara said looking down "That's awful. Botan must really be upset."
"Well, I sort of knew it would happen." Kurama said he glanced at me and I glared at him "She wouldn't have lived long enough to give birth." Kuwabara shook his head sympathetically.
"I'm really sorry. Listen, I can't leave Yukina alone. She's been crying a lot lately, and I only brought him here." He said nodding at me. "So, I'm going to leave now, give Botan my love. Bye." He left us and I had my back turned on Kurama, not wanting to look at his lying ass.
We were in the elevator going back up to the room before I finally spoke. "What the hell were you thinking?" I said angrily.
"What are you-"he started but I cut him off.
"You fed that idiot the lie about the baby, but don't play stupid with me!" I growled facing him "Did you think I wouldn't know? I bet you gave her that lie too, didn't you?" he said nothing. "You're a heartless jerk. Are you just going to let her die without letting her know that you had her get an abortion? Or are you-"
"Since when do you care about Botan?" He snapped I closed my mouth and turned away from him, that hurt. I did care about her and I knew he regretted saying that. "I'm sorry."
"Hn." I said not wanting to talk to him, Botan smiled as we walked into her room.
"Hiei, hello." She greeted me I stood by her bed and smirked "it's nice to get some company."
"Yeah, I had to put up with Yukina's idiot husband's driving." I said making her laugh I winced as the laugh turned into a cough.
"Oh, Botan." Kurama said smacking his head "I forgot your juice I'll be right back. Do you want anything Hiei?" I shook my head and he left us. I stared at Botan she squirmed a bit under my stare. I smiled and put my hand on hers. She started to cry a bit.
"What's wrong?" I asked, stupid question. "Botan-"
"Hiei, I'm sorry." She sobbed "I've been a terrible person. I was so scared of you all these years I was afraid to be in the same room as you. I'm so sorry. And I said terrible things about you and I'm sorry. I almost told Yukina so many times, but I was too scared to go through with it." She sobbed even harder and every tear that fell from her eyes felt like a knife plunging into my heart. "And I know you hate me but-"I cut her off.
"Botan no," I said painfully "I know I was a real asshole but that's not true." She looked up at me with tears in her eyes. The look she gave me made my heart melt and it was like I was watching me pour my heart out to her.
"Hiei," she said, that was it her voice was the last straw. I bent down and kissed her passionately. I could feel her trying to get out from the kiss but she was too weak, she groaned so softly that I barely heard her she was probably angry or shocked I couldn't tell. Her body shook slightly as she closed her eyes. "Hiei stop..." she whispered into my mouth, I stood up and stared into her eyes her pale face slightly flushed.
"I'm sorry," I said touching her cheek "But, I love you. I can't hide it anymore, I'm betraying my best friend but I wanted you to know." I straitened up and I could see the frustration and hurt in her eyes.
"Hiei-I" But before she could finish her sentence Kurama walked into the room with a smile on his face. I know he saw something but he would never say anything about it.
"Here's your drink!" he said handing her the drink.
"Thank you Kurama." She said taking a sip, but as she took in some of the juice she started to choke and cough out blood.
"BOTAN!" Kurama and I cried out, as he rushed to her side I ran into the hallway and called for one of those women in white dresses.
~PRESENT DAY~
She's wheezing, trying to get air into her lungs. It's the day she will leave us Kurama is on the verge of tears I can tell. I'm standing by his side "Kurama," she says in a husky whisper. Koenma walked in with Ayame and I could tell Kurama started to panic, I wanted to throw them out and tell them to never come back "I love you, I'll love you forever." Tears began forming in her eyes and I felt a pang of guilt for kissing her, I know she'll never love me. Never, not the way she loves Kurama she loves him and always will.
"And I will love you forever and beyond." He whispers kissing her softly, her breathing ceases I can't hear her heart beat anymore. My best friend is crying and I want to comfort him I put a hand on his shoulder.
"She loved you," I choke out the tears falling from my eyes, Kurama looks at me and I knew then he understood that though I loved Botan she would never love me back. And I have accepted that. "I will love you forever..."He whispers turning away from me to the lifeless body of his wife "And beyond."
~~~~~~~~This is the end of Forever and Beyond. No more revising or anything because I cry whenever I write or think about this! Thank you all for those of you who read my story and reviewed and made suggestions to make more chapters . Because originally this was going to be a one shot fic. But I changed it. Again thank you all.
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Disclaimers: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho etc. etc.
"Koenma," I start as I enter his office. He's in his teenage form and he's looking through a huge stack of papers. He looks up at me.
"Hullo Hiei." He looks back down at his desk. "How is Botan?" I snort.
"No better. You should know, you and Ayame are the one's who're taking her away!" He glares at me.
"It's not like I have a choice, Hiei!" He walks around his desk and glares at me. "Do you think I want to take her away?"
"You want to take her away from Kurama though." I snapped, Koenma turned a bit pink and then looked away. "Listen, I didn't come here to argue Koenma. I want to know, is Botan going to be reincarnated as a human?"
"She might, but what happens will happen." He answers still not looking at me.
"Well, Botan said she didn't want that. She said she wants to become a demon." Koenma turned red in the face and turned towards me.
"WELL, WE DON'T ALWAYS GET WHAT WE WANT NOW DO WE?" He yelled "WHAT ABOUT MY WANTS? DO YOU THINK I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT? NO! SO WHY SHOULD SHE GET WHATEVER SHE WANTS? I WANT-" His words were cut off as I walked out of the room and went back to human world.
"Hiei, it's about time!" Yuske greeted me as I walked into his house. "We were going to leave without you." Keiko walked down the stairs with a large bouquet of flowers. She smiled warmly at me.
"Hi. My Mom is taking care of Kenji for me so let's go." We followed her out the door and into the car. "I still can't believe she's dying..."
Yuske nods in agreement. "It's really upsetting and now she's lost the baby..."
We walk into the room where Botan lays, "Botan!" Keiko breathes, Yuske gives her a quick kiss on the cheek and then we both walk towards Kurama and Kuwabara at the window Keiko gives Botan a hug. I nod at Yukina, my sister and Botan smiles at me I smirk back and then turn back towards Kurama.
"I spoke to Koenma..." I start quietly Kurama makes a disgusted sound but nods at me. I continue "He doesn't know shit. All he said was 'What happens will happen.' When I asked him if she would be reincarnated as a human he said she might. And when I informed him that she didn't want to be, he turned red in the face and started screaming that nobody always get's what they want then he started yelling about his wants."
I heard Kurama snort and look at the window, probably to hide his angered face, Yuske and Kuwabara whisper angrily to us. "Damn him!" Yuske says. "We should tell Ayame, She'll get him to act his age!"
"Yeah, and if he still acts like a selfish jerk, we'll just tell his dad." Kuwabara added, I stifled a snort, those two idiots were acting as much of a child as Koenma. Telling on him? Hn. "I'm sure he can straiten him out." Kurama turns to us and grins.
It was midnight and only Kurama and I were there. Botan had fallen asleep and looked like she was in pain, her face was white and her lips and cheek had no color to them at all. Her body was very thin, her hand was swollen because of the I-V. Kurama looked as though he might cry as he ran a hand on her cheek.
I pat him on the shoulder and he stares at me, I fought desperately to keep my tears from falling. I don't know how long we stared at each other, but when he finally looked away, the doctor walked in with a clipboard. "Mr. Minamino?" He starts.
"Yes?" Kurama replies standing up and facing him.
"I have some news about your wife...My, she's very young." He adds flipping through some papers on the clipboard my heart rise to my throat. He looks back up at Kurama "She only has about two days before she-"
"Thank you." Kurama snaps turning away from him "Thank you for letting me know." he says more calmly. The doctor nodded at me and left.
"Kurama I..." I trailed off not knowing what to say, I felt terrible about everything. I wanted to help so badly but felt useless. I felt as though I would break down and cry but I refused, damn my pride. Poor Botan, poor Kurama they were both going to be alone for a long time. All this crap happened only three months ago...
3 months ago
"Hiei!" Botan shouted up at me with a big smile on her beautiful face. I opened up an eye and looked at her from my tree where I was napping.
"What?" I asked with no emotion.
"Will you come to dinner tonight?" She asked. I hopped out of the tree and stared at her.
"Why?" I asked suspiciously, she blushed slightly.
"Well, I erm..." She looked down at her hands and bit her bottom lip.
"Spit it out." I said impatiently, she looked up at me and frowned.
"Why should there be a reason for me inviting you to eat dinner?" She said, I raised my eyebrows and for a while we just stared at each other. "Are you going to come or not?" I shrugged.
"It depends," I said slowly stuffing my hands into my pockets "who's going to be there?"
"Everyone." She answered simply, I eyed her again and noticed something different about her. It wasn't really in appearance but her spirit energy, it seemed...heavier.
"What are you hiding?" I asked suspiciously making her jump.
"I-I'm not hiding anything." She stuttered "What are you hiding?" I raised an eyebrow, was she trying to use that reverse-psychology crap on me?
"Whatever," I said "I'll be there what time?"
"Seven, oh Hiei I'm so happy!" Botan squealed and hugged me, cutting off my air supply.
"C-can't –breathe!" I gasped, she immediately let go of me and blushed.
"Sorry." She said sheepishly "Well, I'll see you at seven, Bye!" I watched her walk away.
Later that night...
I rang the doorbell to Botan and Kurama's house, which was a very rare thing for me to do. Kurama answered the door and smiled. "You came through the door!" he greeted me.
"And rang the doorbell." I added stepping inside.
When everyone had arrived we all sat down to eat, after we had all finished Kurama stood up. "Botan and I have an announcement," he started "We're going to have a baby." At first everyone just stared at him, then they all started talking at once.
"Oh, Shuuichi that's wonderful!" Kurama's mother and step-father said at the same time.
"Cool!" Kurama's younger brother replied grinning "I'm going to be an uncle!"
"Yeah, nice going there!" The idiot Kuwabara said looking at Botan 'Is she blushing?' I wonder.
"I'm so happy for you!" My sister cried out clasping her hands together.
"Yeah, so am I!" Yuske's wife agreed.
"Well, it's about time!" Yuske joked, his wife slapped his arm and he rubbed it.
"Yay, Kenji don't have to be the baby anymore!" Kenji, Keiko and Yuske's son said it was my turn to say something.
"Congratulations." I muttered, it was eleven when Kenji fell asleep and when the celebration finally stopped.
"Would you like to stay the night?" Botan offered, I felt like I was in the way when I always stayed because they were usually doing their 'mating' in their room and Botan was......loud and Kurama.......was louder.
"I think it's safe now." I answered when Botan and I were sitting at the counter and Kurama behind it in the kitchen, eating cookies. Kurama gave me an odd look when I said this.
"What do you mean 'safe', safe from what?" He asked furrowing his brow. I glanced from him to Botan and then back to him.
"It's safe to stay here now." I answered the couple gave me confused looks "Last time I was here you two kept making the house shake from the noise you were making in your bedroom." Botan and Kurama blushed madly, I felt the grin creep across my face.
"Pervert." Botan muttered, I looked at Kurama and he smiled and shook his head "Oh, Kurama I'll be leaving early tomorrow morning to the doctor."
"Alright." Kurama answered "Do you want me to drive you?" His wife shook her pretty head.
"No I'll be leaving very early and you need rest" She said smiling.
"Fine then. Hiei can drive you." Botan spat her drink out and I started choking on my cookie.
"HELL NO!" We both yelled at the same time, Kurama gripped his stomach laughing, I glared at him and threw my cookie at his head. He stopped laughing and turned around to face us. Botan and I pointed at each other.
"I didn't have the cookie!" Botan defended herself.
"You took mine." I Lied, I glanced out of the corner of my eye and saw her wink at me, and I doubted Kurama had seen because he rolled his eyes.
I woke up around the time Botan had, I saw her closing her bedroom door slowly so she wouldn't wake Kurama up. "Wow, you did have to wake up early." I whispered she grinned and shook her head, I noticed something in her hand, it was Kurama's credit card I smirked and shook my head "He'll kill you when he finds out you took that." She put a finger up to her lips.
"If you don't tell him I'll buy you some sweet snow," She whispered back crashing my hopes of telling on her. Damn that sweet snow to the bottomless pits of hell. "Do we have a deal?"
"Strawberry flavored?" I asked, feeling like a greedy ningen child, Botan nodded and I sighed "Fine, I promise I won't tell." Botan giggled and walked downstairs whispering a goodbye before leaving. I rolled my eyes and walked back to the room and fell asleep again.
It was around noon, Kurama and I were watching the box with people in it when Botan came back. She looked as though someone had just yelled in her face. She sat down on the couch next to Kurama who wrapped an arm around her "What's wrong?" he asked she only stared at him "What did the doctor say?"
"He said I need to go to a specialist." She answered slowly, I glanced at her.
"A specialist for what?' Kurama replied, she sighed and stared at her hands.
"He said that I-he said that I'm showing signs of a rare sickness."
"What kind of signs?" Kurama said raising an eyebrow.
"Like, insomnia, stomach cramps, fever and these," She pulled up her sleeve to show him a deep bloody red and purplish patch of skin. "I thought it was a bruise, but......"
"But what?" I now faced them completely.
"But I have them on my back too," She continued averting her eyes from her hands to her shoes "He made an appointment for next week at noon."
"I'm coming with you this time." Kurama said firmly, for a moment I wondered what he was thinking my friend had become very protective over his wife just like I was with Yukina.
It was about two weeks later when I went back to their house, not knowing anything about the disease. Yuske, his wife, Yukina, the idiot, Shizuru and I were there together when Kurama told us. "WHAT?!" we all shouted
"Oh my God." Shizuru whispered looking up the stairs, Keiko and Yukina started to cry, Yuske and Kuwabara comforted them.
"Are, you sure?" Yuske asked holding Keiko close.
"Are you sure the doctor isn't just stupid?" Kuwabara added Kurama shook his head. Kuwabara glared at me "Hey, 'Mr. Insensitive' say something." "Hn." Was my reply, I knew Kurama understood me, so he would get the point that I wouldn't dare ay a thing in front of them. But I was damning my pride because I truly did want to say something, because honestly I loved Botan very deeply. When they left we were in the kitchen, he was making tea for Botan, desperately trying to find anything to cheer her up when we heard something heavy go down the stairs. We looked at each other and ran to the staircase.
"Botan!" Kurama screamed running to her body there was a thin line of blood running down Botan's chin, she was sweating and groan softly as though she was having a nightmare. "Botan, Botan please wake up. Hiei," he said turning to me "We have to leave now." I nodded and ran to get the coats. He drove to the hospital, I was in the backseat with Botan's head on my lap, it was the first time Kurama had ever driven like a maniac he nearly hit two ningens because he was continuously looking in the rearview mirror at us checking on her.
For a month Botan had been in the hospital and I had been looking all over Demon World trying to find a cure, Kurama looking n the Spirit World library. I doubt that he even looked at Koenma while he was there. Koenma had been acting like a stupid, selfish brat ever since Kurama and Botan had gotten married. And with every passing moment, Botan became weaker and weaker, I just knew Kurama was killing himself because he couldn't help her. But I felt the same way so I could sympathize.
I went to visit Yukina to see how she was doing, when I arrived at her house Kuwabara was getting into his car. "Hey," he said softly it didn't sound like his normally loud annoyingly happy voice. "I'm going to the store"
"Where's my sister?" I asked, it was on their wedding day that I told them Yukina was my sister, Kuwabara sighed and ran a hand through his orange hair "She's really depressed, she hasn't been wanting to do anything since......well you know." I sighed as well.
"Take me to the hospital I'd run but I've been in Demon World." I said getting into the car, Kuwabara drove in silence getting a ticket for running a red light because he was off in his own little world. "Pathetic, just more time wasted, I could've already been there by now if I had walked." Kuwabara frowned obviously not wanting to argue with me at the moment. When we got to the hospital, Kurama was walking out of the elevator he waved and walked over to us.
I noticed something about him, aside from the fact that he hadn't eaten very much the past two months and he was extremely skinny, something else about him worried me. "How is she?" Kuwabara asked, I snorted and thought 'how do you think she is? Cured?'
"No better, she's been running a higher fever and they've been giving her more shots." he paused. "And, we lost the baby." he winced, and I knew why. He was lying, my eyes widened and I felt like punching him. 'Has he forgotten about my Jagan?' I wondered.
I-I'm so sorry, Kurama." Kuwabara said looking down "That's awful. Botan must really be upset."
"Well, I sort of knew it would happen." Kurama said he glanced at me and I glared at him "She wouldn't have lived long enough to give birth." Kuwabara shook his head sympathetically.
"I'm really sorry. Listen, I can't leave Yukina alone. She's been crying a lot lately, and I only brought him here." He said nodding at me. "So, I'm going to leave now, give Botan my love. Bye." He left us and I had my back turned on Kurama, not wanting to look at his lying ass.
We were in the elevator going back up to the room before I finally spoke. "What the hell were you thinking?" I said angrily.
"What are you-"he started but I cut him off.
"You fed that idiot the lie about the baby, but don't play stupid with me!" I growled facing him "Did you think I wouldn't know? I bet you gave her that lie too, didn't you?" he said nothing. "You're a heartless jerk. Are you just going to let her die without letting her know that you had her get an abortion? Or are you-"
"Since when do you care about Botan?" He snapped I closed my mouth and turned away from him, that hurt. I did care about her and I knew he regretted saying that. "I'm sorry."
"Hn." I said not wanting to talk to him, Botan smiled as we walked into her room.
"Hiei, hello." She greeted me I stood by her bed and smirked "it's nice to get some company."
"Yeah, I had to put up with Yukina's idiot husband's driving." I said making her laugh I winced as the laugh turned into a cough.
"Oh, Botan." Kurama said smacking his head "I forgot your juice I'll be right back. Do you want anything Hiei?" I shook my head and he left us. I stared at Botan she squirmed a bit under my stare. I smiled and put my hand on hers. She started to cry a bit.
"What's wrong?" I asked, stupid question. "Botan-"
"Hiei, I'm sorry." She sobbed "I've been a terrible person. I was so scared of you all these years I was afraid to be in the same room as you. I'm so sorry. And I said terrible things about you and I'm sorry. I almost told Yukina so many times, but I was too scared to go through with it." She sobbed even harder and every tear that fell from her eyes felt like a knife plunging into my heart. "And I know you hate me but-"I cut her off.
"Botan no," I said painfully "I know I was a real asshole but that's not true." She looked up at me with tears in her eyes. The look she gave me made my heart melt and it was like I was watching me pour my heart out to her.
"Hiei," she said, that was it her voice was the last straw. I bent down and kissed her passionately. I could feel her trying to get out from the kiss but she was too weak, she groaned so softly that I barely heard her she was probably angry or shocked I couldn't tell. Her body shook slightly as she closed her eyes. "Hiei stop..." she whispered into my mouth, I stood up and stared into her eyes her pale face slightly flushed.
"I'm sorry," I said touching her cheek "But, I love you. I can't hide it anymore, I'm betraying my best friend but I wanted you to know." I straitened up and I could see the frustration and hurt in her eyes.
"Hiei-I" But before she could finish her sentence Kurama walked into the room with a smile on his face. I know he saw something but he would never say anything about it.
"Here's your drink!" he said handing her the drink.
"Thank you Kurama." She said taking a sip, but as she took in some of the juice she started to choke and cough out blood.
"BOTAN!" Kurama and I cried out, as he rushed to her side I ran into the hallway and called for one of those women in white dresses.
~PRESENT DAY~
She's wheezing, trying to get air into her lungs. It's the day she will leave us Kurama is on the verge of tears I can tell. I'm standing by his side "Kurama," she says in a husky whisper. Koenma walked in with Ayame and I could tell Kurama started to panic, I wanted to throw them out and tell them to never come back "I love you, I'll love you forever." Tears began forming in her eyes and I felt a pang of guilt for kissing her, I know she'll never love me. Never, not the way she loves Kurama she loves him and always will.
"And I will love you forever and beyond." He whispers kissing her softly, her breathing ceases I can't hear her heart beat anymore. My best friend is crying and I want to comfort him I put a hand on his shoulder.
"She loved you," I choke out the tears falling from my eyes, Kurama looks at me and I knew then he understood that though I loved Botan she would never love me back. And I have accepted that. "I will love you forever..."He whispers turning away from me to the lifeless body of his wife "And beyond."
~~~~~~~~This is the end of Forever and Beyond. No more revising or anything because I cry whenever I write or think about this! Thank you all for those of you who read my story and reviewed and made suggestions to make more chapters . Because originally this was going to be a one shot fic. But I changed it. Again thank you all.
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