Living In Fear
By Stephanie L.
Summary: When Estel over hears a conversation between Lord Elrond and Gandalf he suddenly believes his father is dying, and it's his fault. He runs away, not wanting to kill his father. Can Elladan, Elrohir and Elrond save him before he dies?
Disclaimer: Don't own them, wish I did, but I do not. I simply barrow them for an extended amount of time, then eventually return them. If you have not noticed yet a song or poem will begin each story from this series "Before he was King" So please sit back relax and enjoy. Unsinable isn't mine
Rating: PG
Note: I completely and truly side with Cassia and Sio when they state that Estel was raised by Elrond and that Estel's mom died with Arthorn. So if you do not please do not continue reading, or read on and don't ask me what she's not in this (. Second note, there is spanking in this, only once, and as you'll read, Estel completely deserves it! Hehe sorry folks.
Feedback: Yes! Please keep it constructive,
2nd Note: ~^~^~ means flashback sequence, because I'm having problems making things Italics on FF.net. So anytime you see ~^~^~ that means it's a flashback
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Unsinkable Ship- Joe Nicholas
My dad chased monsters from the dark,
Checked underneath my bed.
He could lift me with one arm,
Way up over top his head.
He could loosen rusty bolts,
With a quick turn of his wrench.
He pulled splinters from his hand,
Never even flinched.
In 13 years I'd never seen him cry,
But the day that Grandpa died,
I realized
((chorus))
Unsinkable ships sink
Unbreakable walls break
Sometimes the things you think will never happen
Happen just like that
Unbendable steel bends
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable,
I've learned to never under estimate
The impossible
Then there was my junior year,
Billy had a brand new car.
It was late, the road was wet,
I guess the curve was just too sharp.
I walked away with out a scratch,
They brought the helicopter in.
Billy couldn't feel his legs,
They said he'd never walk again.
But Billy said he would, and his mom and daddy prayed,
and the day we graduated, he stood up to say,
((chorus))
**Bridge**
So don't tell me that it's over,
Don't give up on you and me
'cause there's no such thing as hopeless
if you believe
((chorus))
~Bad News~
"I'm sorry to have to break this to you Mellon nin, but there is no other way, we have tried everything possible," stated Gandalf sadly as they walked slowly in the gardens.
"How long before I need to tell them?" Elrond asked looking at his dear friend.
"Week, maybe two at most, I shall send for Galadriel as soon as I can. Obviously she will wish to be here at the end."
"Yes, well I will break it to the twins and Estel soon, I don't know where to even begin honestly," stated Elrond gently.
"Start with the truth my dear friend. They will accept nothing less. Do you have the herbs for the pain?"
"Yes, I will be running out soon, when will you be returning?"
"In three days, probably no less."
"Bring some with you, for I fear my herbs are growing old and the pain will grow worse."
"Ay, that I will mellon nin. When will you be telling the three?"
"I don't know, Elladan and Elrohir have been gone all morning, they'll be here sometime tomorrow evening I imagine, so probably shortly there after. I would tell Estel now, but well he is currently not speaking with us," Elrond said rubbing his temples at the blazing headache.
"Well, do not let that bother you. Did he become angry when his brothers left him?"
"What else, that boy is the most stubborn...Well, anyway, he gives me more headaches than he's worth sometimes," stated Elrond softly.
"Yes, he is quite a handful, well good luck my friend, I shall be back in three days, hopefully with Galadriel."
"Namaarie mellon nin," Elrond said as Gandalf mounted his horse.
"Namaarie Lord Elrond," with that the ancient wizard turned and rode off. Elrond shook his head and headed back up the winding stairs of his home in Imladris. Unseen to him in the tree just above where he and the wizard had been speaking sat Estel, in a high up branch. His usually tan face was now pale white, his blue gray eyes filled with silvery tears. He shook his head vigorously, this couldn't be, elves didn't get sick, they didn't die. However, Gandalf was an even better healer than Ada, and if he said Ada was dying, then he meant it.
Jumping down from his spot he looked around, for somewhere to hide so he could cry. Instead he raced up the stairs into his house and towards his room, where he threw himself onto the bed. His Ada was dying, and soon. No matter how hard the child tried, he could not get past that idea.
~*~
Elrond slowly opened the door to his youngest son's room. Having punished him early that morning Elrond felt bad for their earlier words. The child had thrown a tantrum when his brothers refused to take him on their hunting trip. Which then lead to Elrond's yelling at the young boy.
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"It's not fair! I never get to go anywhere!" Screamed Estel.
"You will hold you tongue in this house young man!" bit Elrond, Elven Lord to Rivendell. The twins sighed and shook their heads.
"If I were an elf I'd be going!"
"Not if you acted like this you wouldn't!"
"I'm not stupid little baby you can push around! I'm almost eight!"
"You are my son, you are living under my roof! You will hold your tongue at this dinning table or you will go to your room and remain there for the rest of the morning, afternoon and evening!"
"Anything is better than knowing I'm not good enough!"
"GO TO YOUR ROOM! GO NOW!" Yelled Lord Elrond, as the twins stared at him wide eyed. Lord Elrond rarely rose his voice in the house, and it was only when one of his children were being very bad.
"I don't wanna go!" Elladan was finding it hard to believe this child hadn't been smacked yet. Elrond was not a violent father, he rarely spanked his children, but Estel was cruising for a spanking at this point; and from the looks of their father's face, he was going to be getting one.
"If you are not in your room within the next ten seconds, you will be spending a great deal of time in that room, and in a corner, and on your stomach!" bit Elrond one last time. Estel finally got the hint, for a moment later he was up from the table and running for his room.
"Ada?"
"Elrohir, I really don't want to talk about this right now."
"'Ro, no offense but you baby him way too much," stated Elladan, although in his heart he knew he was just as guilty at that as Elrohir was.
"Well, I'm sorry, but he is only seven years old!" Elrohir scooted his chair out and got up from his place at the table. Marching off towards his younger brother's room; knocking on the door he slowly opened it to see Estel standing by the balcony looking out at the beautiful land that was Rivendell.
"Not many elves, or humans I know search for a spanking," came Elrohir's voice, snapping his unaware brother back to reality.
"I don't belong with the humans, and I don't belong here, Elrohir, I am always told I belong with you, 'Dan and Ada, but how come I can't go with you on a hunting trip?" Elrohir sighed and lifted his brother into his arms; sitting down in a nearby rocking chair 'Ro sighed.
"Because it's dangerous, and you're just learning how to ride a horse, you aren't allowed to handle weapons. There are many reasons tithen pen. You will be allowed to hunt with us when you are older. This I promise you."
"I feel left out when everyone but me goes."
"What about Ada?"
"He is always working."
"I guess I was lucky, when I was your age I had Elladan to play with, or attempt to at least. Usually he stole all my toys, however, I also had Arwen and Amme to play with. I'm sorry you feel left out. I will make a deal with you," Estel looked at him hopefully.
"You try and behave more often, as in stop arguing with Ada as often, and wait until we ask you to join us on the hunting trips; and I shall see if I can't perhaps find you a little playmate, such as that puppy you have been wanting," Estel smiled widely.
"I promise!" Estel said, causing Elrohir to chuckle lightly.
"Promise me nothing young one, for I do not seek such promises, just tell me you shall try your best."
"I will do my best 'Ro," Estel said as he leaned against his brother's chest for a moment.
"Why is Elladan made at me?"
"What do you mean?"
"It seems like he and I can never get along lately," stated Estel. Elrohir nodded, he had been seeing such a thing, and it was worrying him. It was a second reason 'Ro wanted to get out with his twin, so they could just talk.
"Estel, 'Dan loves you with all that is him, however, there's something on his mind of late, and I'm planning to speak with him about it while we are hunting tonight."
"'Ro, let's go, Glorfindel is waiting!" came Elladan's voice from the courtyard outside.
"Coming," he shouted back, then looked at his brother again, "I'll see you tomorrow evening, before dinner at least."
"Okay, with my puppy?"
"Most likely. Now, remember our agreement, you try and keep your tongue more civil and I will try to get you your puppy," Estel nodded with agreement. Elrohir nodded and sat the child on his bed, placing a kiss upon his head.
"I love you long shanks," Estel smiled at the new nickname. Everyone had agreed the nickname fit, for a child of seven and the boy had longer legs than most humans.
"I love you too 'Ro...'Ro, tell 'Dan I love him."
"I will gwador," with that and a soft smile Elrohir left the room. Estel raced to the balcony and watched his two brothers leave on their horses. Elrond waving goodbye to them.
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Elrond shook his head at the thought and walked over to the bed, his son lying flat on his back fast asleep. Touching the back softly Elrond gently shook the slim shoulder.
"Come tithen Estel, it is time for lunch," explained Elrond. However, his son only groaned and turned on his side away from Elrond. The Elven Lord chuckled and repeated the action.
"Come Estel, lunch is ready, and it is your favorite," he smiled as the little blue eyes fluttered open. Estel, now lying on his stomach, looked up at his father and suddenly felt pain enter his being. Tears clouding his eyes and filling his heart with despair. Elrond become confused as his son suddenly threw his arms around Elrond's neck and began to sob against him.
"I'm sorry Ada, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it," whimpered the child. Elrond, confused even more now, gently rubbed the back and whispered calming words in elfish.
"I know that child, you are no longer in trouble. It is all right, tell Ada what's wrong."
"Nothing...it was a nightmare, Ada, I'm not hungry," whispered the child. Elrond smiled softly and moved from his seat. Bringing back a wash cloth he began to clean the child's face off gently.
"Well how about you try and eat a little something, you didn't eat much breakfast," Elrond said as he finished cleaning the tear streaked face. The child nodded, the elven lord placed the cloth back on the dresser and returned to the boy. He was surprised when Estel reached up to be held, Estel was at the independence age, where he wanted to do everything by himself. Elrond was beginning to realize his little boy was growing up, and would no longer be able to fit into his lap soon. Wanting nothing more than to comfort his child, Elrond lifted the small lanky child into his arms and carried him into the dinning room.
Tithen--little
Ada--dad/daddy
Gwador--brother
Naamarie--Farewell
Mellon--friend
Nin-my/mine
Amme-mom/mommy
By Stephanie L.
Summary: When Estel over hears a conversation between Lord Elrond and Gandalf he suddenly believes his father is dying, and it's his fault. He runs away, not wanting to kill his father. Can Elladan, Elrohir and Elrond save him before he dies?
Disclaimer: Don't own them, wish I did, but I do not. I simply barrow them for an extended amount of time, then eventually return them. If you have not noticed yet a song or poem will begin each story from this series "Before he was King" So please sit back relax and enjoy. Unsinable isn't mine
Rating: PG
Note: I completely and truly side with Cassia and Sio when they state that Estel was raised by Elrond and that Estel's mom died with Arthorn. So if you do not please do not continue reading, or read on and don't ask me what she's not in this (. Second note, there is spanking in this, only once, and as you'll read, Estel completely deserves it! Hehe sorry folks.
Feedback: Yes! Please keep it constructive,
2nd Note: ~^~^~ means flashback sequence, because I'm having problems making things Italics on FF.net. So anytime you see ~^~^~ that means it's a flashback
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Unsinkable Ship- Joe Nicholas
My dad chased monsters from the dark,
Checked underneath my bed.
He could lift me with one arm,
Way up over top his head.
He could loosen rusty bolts,
With a quick turn of his wrench.
He pulled splinters from his hand,
Never even flinched.
In 13 years I'd never seen him cry,
But the day that Grandpa died,
I realized
((chorus))
Unsinkable ships sink
Unbreakable walls break
Sometimes the things you think will never happen
Happen just like that
Unbendable steel bends
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable,
I've learned to never under estimate
The impossible
Then there was my junior year,
Billy had a brand new car.
It was late, the road was wet,
I guess the curve was just too sharp.
I walked away with out a scratch,
They brought the helicopter in.
Billy couldn't feel his legs,
They said he'd never walk again.
But Billy said he would, and his mom and daddy prayed,
and the day we graduated, he stood up to say,
((chorus))
**Bridge**
So don't tell me that it's over,
Don't give up on you and me
'cause there's no such thing as hopeless
if you believe
((chorus))
~Bad News~
"I'm sorry to have to break this to you Mellon nin, but there is no other way, we have tried everything possible," stated Gandalf sadly as they walked slowly in the gardens.
"How long before I need to tell them?" Elrond asked looking at his dear friend.
"Week, maybe two at most, I shall send for Galadriel as soon as I can. Obviously she will wish to be here at the end."
"Yes, well I will break it to the twins and Estel soon, I don't know where to even begin honestly," stated Elrond gently.
"Start with the truth my dear friend. They will accept nothing less. Do you have the herbs for the pain?"
"Yes, I will be running out soon, when will you be returning?"
"In three days, probably no less."
"Bring some with you, for I fear my herbs are growing old and the pain will grow worse."
"Ay, that I will mellon nin. When will you be telling the three?"
"I don't know, Elladan and Elrohir have been gone all morning, they'll be here sometime tomorrow evening I imagine, so probably shortly there after. I would tell Estel now, but well he is currently not speaking with us," Elrond said rubbing his temples at the blazing headache.
"Well, do not let that bother you. Did he become angry when his brothers left him?"
"What else, that boy is the most stubborn...Well, anyway, he gives me more headaches than he's worth sometimes," stated Elrond softly.
"Yes, he is quite a handful, well good luck my friend, I shall be back in three days, hopefully with Galadriel."
"Namaarie mellon nin," Elrond said as Gandalf mounted his horse.
"Namaarie Lord Elrond," with that the ancient wizard turned and rode off. Elrond shook his head and headed back up the winding stairs of his home in Imladris. Unseen to him in the tree just above where he and the wizard had been speaking sat Estel, in a high up branch. His usually tan face was now pale white, his blue gray eyes filled with silvery tears. He shook his head vigorously, this couldn't be, elves didn't get sick, they didn't die. However, Gandalf was an even better healer than Ada, and if he said Ada was dying, then he meant it.
Jumping down from his spot he looked around, for somewhere to hide so he could cry. Instead he raced up the stairs into his house and towards his room, where he threw himself onto the bed. His Ada was dying, and soon. No matter how hard the child tried, he could not get past that idea.
~*~
Elrond slowly opened the door to his youngest son's room. Having punished him early that morning Elrond felt bad for their earlier words. The child had thrown a tantrum when his brothers refused to take him on their hunting trip. Which then lead to Elrond's yelling at the young boy.
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"It's not fair! I never get to go anywhere!" Screamed Estel.
"You will hold you tongue in this house young man!" bit Elrond, Elven Lord to Rivendell. The twins sighed and shook their heads.
"If I were an elf I'd be going!"
"Not if you acted like this you wouldn't!"
"I'm not stupid little baby you can push around! I'm almost eight!"
"You are my son, you are living under my roof! You will hold your tongue at this dinning table or you will go to your room and remain there for the rest of the morning, afternoon and evening!"
"Anything is better than knowing I'm not good enough!"
"GO TO YOUR ROOM! GO NOW!" Yelled Lord Elrond, as the twins stared at him wide eyed. Lord Elrond rarely rose his voice in the house, and it was only when one of his children were being very bad.
"I don't wanna go!" Elladan was finding it hard to believe this child hadn't been smacked yet. Elrond was not a violent father, he rarely spanked his children, but Estel was cruising for a spanking at this point; and from the looks of their father's face, he was going to be getting one.
"If you are not in your room within the next ten seconds, you will be spending a great deal of time in that room, and in a corner, and on your stomach!" bit Elrond one last time. Estel finally got the hint, for a moment later he was up from the table and running for his room.
"Ada?"
"Elrohir, I really don't want to talk about this right now."
"'Ro, no offense but you baby him way too much," stated Elladan, although in his heart he knew he was just as guilty at that as Elrohir was.
"Well, I'm sorry, but he is only seven years old!" Elrohir scooted his chair out and got up from his place at the table. Marching off towards his younger brother's room; knocking on the door he slowly opened it to see Estel standing by the balcony looking out at the beautiful land that was Rivendell.
"Not many elves, or humans I know search for a spanking," came Elrohir's voice, snapping his unaware brother back to reality.
"I don't belong with the humans, and I don't belong here, Elrohir, I am always told I belong with you, 'Dan and Ada, but how come I can't go with you on a hunting trip?" Elrohir sighed and lifted his brother into his arms; sitting down in a nearby rocking chair 'Ro sighed.
"Because it's dangerous, and you're just learning how to ride a horse, you aren't allowed to handle weapons. There are many reasons tithen pen. You will be allowed to hunt with us when you are older. This I promise you."
"I feel left out when everyone but me goes."
"What about Ada?"
"He is always working."
"I guess I was lucky, when I was your age I had Elladan to play with, or attempt to at least. Usually he stole all my toys, however, I also had Arwen and Amme to play with. I'm sorry you feel left out. I will make a deal with you," Estel looked at him hopefully.
"You try and behave more often, as in stop arguing with Ada as often, and wait until we ask you to join us on the hunting trips; and I shall see if I can't perhaps find you a little playmate, such as that puppy you have been wanting," Estel smiled widely.
"I promise!" Estel said, causing Elrohir to chuckle lightly.
"Promise me nothing young one, for I do not seek such promises, just tell me you shall try your best."
"I will do my best 'Ro," Estel said as he leaned against his brother's chest for a moment.
"Why is Elladan made at me?"
"What do you mean?"
"It seems like he and I can never get along lately," stated Estel. Elrohir nodded, he had been seeing such a thing, and it was worrying him. It was a second reason 'Ro wanted to get out with his twin, so they could just talk.
"Estel, 'Dan loves you with all that is him, however, there's something on his mind of late, and I'm planning to speak with him about it while we are hunting tonight."
"'Ro, let's go, Glorfindel is waiting!" came Elladan's voice from the courtyard outside.
"Coming," he shouted back, then looked at his brother again, "I'll see you tomorrow evening, before dinner at least."
"Okay, with my puppy?"
"Most likely. Now, remember our agreement, you try and keep your tongue more civil and I will try to get you your puppy," Estel nodded with agreement. Elrohir nodded and sat the child on his bed, placing a kiss upon his head.
"I love you long shanks," Estel smiled at the new nickname. Everyone had agreed the nickname fit, for a child of seven and the boy had longer legs than most humans.
"I love you too 'Ro...'Ro, tell 'Dan I love him."
"I will gwador," with that and a soft smile Elrohir left the room. Estel raced to the balcony and watched his two brothers leave on their horses. Elrond waving goodbye to them.
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Elrond shook his head at the thought and walked over to the bed, his son lying flat on his back fast asleep. Touching the back softly Elrond gently shook the slim shoulder.
"Come tithen Estel, it is time for lunch," explained Elrond. However, his son only groaned and turned on his side away from Elrond. The Elven Lord chuckled and repeated the action.
"Come Estel, lunch is ready, and it is your favorite," he smiled as the little blue eyes fluttered open. Estel, now lying on his stomach, looked up at his father and suddenly felt pain enter his being. Tears clouding his eyes and filling his heart with despair. Elrond become confused as his son suddenly threw his arms around Elrond's neck and began to sob against him.
"I'm sorry Ada, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it," whimpered the child. Elrond, confused even more now, gently rubbed the back and whispered calming words in elfish.
"I know that child, you are no longer in trouble. It is all right, tell Ada what's wrong."
"Nothing...it was a nightmare, Ada, I'm not hungry," whispered the child. Elrond smiled softly and moved from his seat. Bringing back a wash cloth he began to clean the child's face off gently.
"Well how about you try and eat a little something, you didn't eat much breakfast," Elrond said as he finished cleaning the tear streaked face. The child nodded, the elven lord placed the cloth back on the dresser and returned to the boy. He was surprised when Estel reached up to be held, Estel was at the independence age, where he wanted to do everything by himself. Elrond was beginning to realize his little boy was growing up, and would no longer be able to fit into his lap soon. Wanting nothing more than to comfort his child, Elrond lifted the small lanky child into his arms and carried him into the dinning room.
Tithen--little
Ada--dad/daddy
Gwador--brother
Naamarie--Farewell
Mellon--friend
Nin-my/mine
Amme-mom/mommy
