Author's Notes: I am trying to figure out something here. So you're reviews
will be most helpful. I'm thinking about having a romance with Kiera and
Dally, but on the other hand, maybe Cherry and Dally. With Kiera I
understand her a lot more and maybe that would work out (if it does I know
what to do about her boyfriend). But with Cherry I have no idea how she
acts and I'll probably ruin her. So please review and help me decide what
to do.
Chapter Three
I hadn't seen Kiera yet. I don't even know why I wanted to see her. I guess it was just some company that I've wanted that made me want to talk to her. When her aunt came in I asked if she was going to be here. She nodded and told me in awhile she hadn't got up yet.
I didn't expect this to happen. Then next thing I know Two-Bit Matthews the oldest of the gang and couldn't say anything smart if his life depended on it. Sodapop Curtis still dressed in his works uniform, he was the one with the looks of an actor. Steve whom was Soda's best friend. Ponyboy Curtis, the youngest of the Curtis brothers he still had his hair bleached, man did he look tuff.
"Well looks whose finally up," Two-Bit commented grinning again. He always grinned; it was as if it was that grin was stuck on his face. But this grin was even more happy than usual.
"Hey Two-Bit," I found it hard to be with them again. I don't know what it was. It was as if there was something missing. Of course, Johnny was. I felt hollow again inside, reminded of the pain that I haven't missed.
"Great to see you, Dal!" Soda said grinning as well. It was that grin that made the girls swoon. That lucky bastard, he had all the looks. He was the kind that could act drunk without having a single drop of booze, once again, that lucky bastard.
Steve joined in on the grinning and also said that it was great to see me. The whole atmosphere wasn't stale, but mingled with the excitement of the gang. I even found myself smiling.
Once they settled down, they pulled up chairs by the bedside and once again I tried sitting up. Damn it still hurt.this fucking pain was so annoying! After wincing for a while I gave up and sighed.
"Johnny's funeral is going to be next week. Maybe you'll be able to go," Ponyboy said to me finally. He looked much better than the last time we were together. He was taking Johnny's death hard too.
Nodding faintly I looked away now. I heard myself sigh as the sadness came again so I just closed my eyes. It seemed everyone was mentioning Johnny the only one who hadn't was Kiera. Maybe that's why I liked her company so much.
Ponyboy must've told them to leave us alone, because they filed out of the room looking back at me anxiously. "The nurse said that you'd probably be able to go."
I couldn't say anything. I didn't know what to say; if I did speak I would cry. I knew it. There was something about Ponyboy that made it easy to talk to. "I'll come," I said in a trembling voice.
Ponyboy looked at me and then looked away taking a note out of his pocket. "This is a.letter from Johnny. I think you should read it," He said handing it to me.
I took the note and opened my eyes to look at it. Sure enough it was Johnny's handwriting. Looking a Ponyboy for a moment, our eyes met. He had the same expression in his eyes like I did in mine. Finally I read the note.
Ponyboy, I asked the nurse to give you this book so you could finish it. The doctor came in a while ago but I knew anyway. I keep getting tireder and tireder.
Listen, I don't mind dying now. It's worth it. It's worth saving those
kids. Their lives are worth more than mine; they have more to live for. Some of their parents came by to thank me and I know it was worth it. Tell Dally it's worth it. I'm going to miss you guys. I've been thinking about it, and that poem, that guy who wrote it, he meant you're gold when you're
a kid, like green. When you're a kid everything is new, dawn. It's just
when you get used to everything that it's day. Like the way you dig sunsets, Pony. That's gold. Keep it that way; it's a good way to be. I want you to tell Dally to look at one. He'll probably think you're crazy, but
ask for me. I don't think he ever really seen a sunset. And don't be so bugged over being a greaser. You still have a lot of time to make yourself be what you want. There are still lots of good in the world. Tell Dally. I
don't think he knows.
Your buddy,
Johnny
I read it, and read it over again. And before I knew it, I was crying. In front of Ponyboy also, I didn't mean to cry. I didn't want to cry at all.
I It's worth it saving those kids. Tell Dally's it's worth it. I Damn it Johnny! It wasn't worth it! You died! You died and left me alone! How the hell can it be worth it? I thought to myself in rage and pain.
I I want you to tell Dally to look at one. He'll probably think you're crazy, but ask for me. I don't think he ever really seen a sunset.I Johnny was right, I never have looked at a sunset. Sure I've seen many, but usually passed them right up.
I There are still lots of good in the world. Tell Dally. I don't think he knows.I There is no fucking good in this world! I cried to myself, as the tears grew worst. Handing the letter back to Ponyboy.
"Tell me it's not true what he said, Ponyboy." I said to Ponyboy biting my lip wishing these tears would stop. But they didn't, and now Ponyboy was crying to. So together we cried like babies.
"It's true.I miss him too Dally. I want to believe that he's not dead. But he is, Dally." Ponyboy said wiping the tears away and looking away folding the letter up and placing it in his pocket carefully.
"Do you want me to tell the guys that you can't be visited right now?" Ponyboy asked standing up. Looking at me again, his eyes showed the same anguish that I felt. It was nice to have someone that understood.
"Yeah," I nodded. I couldn't let the boys see me cry like a baby. That wasn't the tuff thing to do. But it wasn't tuff when someone you loved die. "Hey Pony. Come and visit more, please. You dig okay."
Smiling weakly, Ponyboy nodded. "I will visit you more. Thanks, you dig okay too." He said heading towards the door and then left.
Sighing, I closed my eyes wiping away these tears and then slowly feel into uneasy sleep, with Johnny's words echoing in my mind.
Chapter Three
I hadn't seen Kiera yet. I don't even know why I wanted to see her. I guess it was just some company that I've wanted that made me want to talk to her. When her aunt came in I asked if she was going to be here. She nodded and told me in awhile she hadn't got up yet.
I didn't expect this to happen. Then next thing I know Two-Bit Matthews the oldest of the gang and couldn't say anything smart if his life depended on it. Sodapop Curtis still dressed in his works uniform, he was the one with the looks of an actor. Steve whom was Soda's best friend. Ponyboy Curtis, the youngest of the Curtis brothers he still had his hair bleached, man did he look tuff.
"Well looks whose finally up," Two-Bit commented grinning again. He always grinned; it was as if it was that grin was stuck on his face. But this grin was even more happy than usual.
"Hey Two-Bit," I found it hard to be with them again. I don't know what it was. It was as if there was something missing. Of course, Johnny was. I felt hollow again inside, reminded of the pain that I haven't missed.
"Great to see you, Dal!" Soda said grinning as well. It was that grin that made the girls swoon. That lucky bastard, he had all the looks. He was the kind that could act drunk without having a single drop of booze, once again, that lucky bastard.
Steve joined in on the grinning and also said that it was great to see me. The whole atmosphere wasn't stale, but mingled with the excitement of the gang. I even found myself smiling.
Once they settled down, they pulled up chairs by the bedside and once again I tried sitting up. Damn it still hurt.this fucking pain was so annoying! After wincing for a while I gave up and sighed.
"Johnny's funeral is going to be next week. Maybe you'll be able to go," Ponyboy said to me finally. He looked much better than the last time we were together. He was taking Johnny's death hard too.
Nodding faintly I looked away now. I heard myself sigh as the sadness came again so I just closed my eyes. It seemed everyone was mentioning Johnny the only one who hadn't was Kiera. Maybe that's why I liked her company so much.
Ponyboy must've told them to leave us alone, because they filed out of the room looking back at me anxiously. "The nurse said that you'd probably be able to go."
I couldn't say anything. I didn't know what to say; if I did speak I would cry. I knew it. There was something about Ponyboy that made it easy to talk to. "I'll come," I said in a trembling voice.
Ponyboy looked at me and then looked away taking a note out of his pocket. "This is a.letter from Johnny. I think you should read it," He said handing it to me.
I took the note and opened my eyes to look at it. Sure enough it was Johnny's handwriting. Looking a Ponyboy for a moment, our eyes met. He had the same expression in his eyes like I did in mine. Finally I read the note.
Ponyboy, I asked the nurse to give you this book so you could finish it. The doctor came in a while ago but I knew anyway. I keep getting tireder and tireder.
Listen, I don't mind dying now. It's worth it. It's worth saving those
kids. Their lives are worth more than mine; they have more to live for. Some of their parents came by to thank me and I know it was worth it. Tell Dally it's worth it. I'm going to miss you guys. I've been thinking about it, and that poem, that guy who wrote it, he meant you're gold when you're
a kid, like green. When you're a kid everything is new, dawn. It's just
when you get used to everything that it's day. Like the way you dig sunsets, Pony. That's gold. Keep it that way; it's a good way to be. I want you to tell Dally to look at one. He'll probably think you're crazy, but
ask for me. I don't think he ever really seen a sunset. And don't be so bugged over being a greaser. You still have a lot of time to make yourself be what you want. There are still lots of good in the world. Tell Dally. I
don't think he knows.
Your buddy,
Johnny
I read it, and read it over again. And before I knew it, I was crying. In front of Ponyboy also, I didn't mean to cry. I didn't want to cry at all.
I It's worth it saving those kids. Tell Dally's it's worth it. I Damn it Johnny! It wasn't worth it! You died! You died and left me alone! How the hell can it be worth it? I thought to myself in rage and pain.
I I want you to tell Dally to look at one. He'll probably think you're crazy, but ask for me. I don't think he ever really seen a sunset.I Johnny was right, I never have looked at a sunset. Sure I've seen many, but usually passed them right up.
I There are still lots of good in the world. Tell Dally. I don't think he knows.I There is no fucking good in this world! I cried to myself, as the tears grew worst. Handing the letter back to Ponyboy.
"Tell me it's not true what he said, Ponyboy." I said to Ponyboy biting my lip wishing these tears would stop. But they didn't, and now Ponyboy was crying to. So together we cried like babies.
"It's true.I miss him too Dally. I want to believe that he's not dead. But he is, Dally." Ponyboy said wiping the tears away and looking away folding the letter up and placing it in his pocket carefully.
"Do you want me to tell the guys that you can't be visited right now?" Ponyboy asked standing up. Looking at me again, his eyes showed the same anguish that I felt. It was nice to have someone that understood.
"Yeah," I nodded. I couldn't let the boys see me cry like a baby. That wasn't the tuff thing to do. But it wasn't tuff when someone you loved die. "Hey Pony. Come and visit more, please. You dig okay."
Smiling weakly, Ponyboy nodded. "I will visit you more. Thanks, you dig okay too." He said heading towards the door and then left.
Sighing, I closed my eyes wiping away these tears and then slowly feel into uneasy sleep, with Johnny's words echoing in my mind.
