Author's Notes: Thank you for all those reviews. It's really helping. I
don't really want to drop the girls because for some reason I love some
romance in fan fictions. I'll just take a moment to explain the purpose of
Kiera. See from what I know about my Dally is he needs some girl that he
can at least try and care about. And that she is one step of the healing
process. Of course Ponyboy will have a major part in this and they will be
become great friends. I'm hoping that I can hopefully blend these two
things together better. So please be patient. I know the girls aren't that
important in this, but for me I think it's fun to write someone else
besides males. Hopefully you guys understand. Thank you for all the helpful
reviews.
Chapter Four
For the next day it seemed I couldn't get Johnny's voice out of my head. It wasn't the "it was worth it saving those kids" thing. I wasn't convinced on that. I would never be, well I wasn't convinced now. And it wasn't the "there is still a lot of good in the world" thing either. It was the "I don't think Dally ever seen a sunset thing". And it was absolutely true also. I haven't ever seen a sunset. I passed them up like it wasn't there. It wasn't tuff. You know what I mean? It wasn't tuff to sit there staring at a sunset. It was tuff to be fighting some soc or slashing some tires. Even though there was a doubt in my mind that maybe just maybe staring a sunset might be worth it.
I never viewed Ponyboy that well. You know, he was just some kid that was trying to act tuff. But never quite succeeded. He hadn't been much like Darry or Soda even. And when he ran off to save those kids, if I had lost control I would've killed them both. But yesterday was the first time I ever really talked to him the same. What the hell was going on with me? I just wanted to me my old tuff self.I didn't want to be bothered by these damn emotions!
It was in the afternoon now, lying there on the uncomfortable bed. I wanted to get up and roam around. And this hospital gown was getting uncomfortable too. I was finally getting to where I could finally sit up. The nurse had told me that I should start working on getting my heart strengthened.
I heard the door open; opening my eyes I looked at the figure. It was Kiera; man was I glad to see her. This boredom was getting to me. She had a coke in her hand and had a tired look on her face.
"Hey," I said looking at her a small smile tugging on the corner of my lips. As I sat up slowly ignoring the slight pangs of pain in my chest as I did this. But I was proud that I could at least sit up again.
"Hey Dally," Kiera said placing her coke down then looked at me and smiled. "You're sitting up now. That's great." She said as she headed towards me now.
"How was you're concert?" I asked casually as I scratched the back of my neck with a little yawn. Going back to watching her. Man, it was great to have some company that didn't constantly say sorry about Johnny.
"It was so awesome," Kiera grinned now as she watched me. Her eyes had lit up as she grinned making her green eyes lively. "Though I did loose my voice and Kevin and Cherry was yelling at me to shut up most the time."
"Kevin, eh? That the name of you're boyfriend?" I asked leaning forward now. "If it is. He's a lucky bastard," I said more softly watching her. Some of my old feelings were returning. You know, I didn't mean too but I always went after the girls that had a boyfriend.
"Yeah. That's his name." She nodded looking at me for a second, than looked away. "Lucky bastard? Why would you call him a lucky bastard?" She then asked raising an eyebrow.
"Because he has you," I answered simply with a roughish smile. Then it made me realize. That it wasn't the idea of owning her. It was the feeling of having someone who loves you that mattered.
"I'm sure he'd be flattered if he heard you," Kiera said as she turned to her back to me going back to her coke. Though I saw a little blush on her face as she turned away. I'm so good.
"But what about you?" I asked as I watched her smirking. "Hey Kiera," I said suddenly the smirk falling off my face as I gazed out the window, looking back at her.
"Yeah?" She said turning back to me as she took a sip of her coke again placing the bottle back down. Sitting on the edge of my bed she watched me with an interested expression.
"Do you watch sunsets or sunrises?" I asked her resisting the urge to lie back down. The only thing I wanted to do is get close to her. But I barely resisted that urge to touch her.
"Um." Kiera said blinking for a moment. This question had caught her off guard. "Sometimes I do when I have the time. But usually.no, I mean I would love to. But I'm usually so busy that I can't."
"Do you think that you could take me to see.a sunset?" I asked biting my lip. Staring at her with a questioning look, I knew it was a lot softer than I intended.
"Yeah, of course," Kiera said watching me fascinated yet confused. "The sunset is in an hour or so or something. I'll be back. I just need some sugar so I don't fall asleep right here."
"I wouldn't mind if you feel asleep right here," I said almost smirking once again. Once again I thought of Sylvia. The last time I held her was the night before I found out that she had been screwing around with other guys. I remembered they way it felt to have my arms around her and the comfort it gave. But no matter what I did, Sylvia had wanted the relationship on a passionate level. And of course that was great, but sometimes it was nice of it was on a more tender moment.
"I know you wouldn't mind. But it would be wrong," Kiera said slowly standing up. "I'll be back in a few minutes." She said heading towards the door. Leaving me alone again.
It was about forty-five minutes later when Kiera and I headed to a balcony thing someplace around the hospital. It hurt the more I moved. But I would watch this sunset. I know Johnny had referred to sunrise. And maybe I would get the chance to do that.
I had walked on my own for a while but after awhile the pain took over. So I had to have Kiera help me. Which in a way I didn't mind at all. I mean her touch was great.
Once on the balcony, I had leaned on the bar slightly hanging my head, "damn that was tiring." It was close to the sunset and you know. I was anxious. It wasn't the fact that it was a sunset, but I never had watched a sunset.
"You did good," Kiera said rested her elbows on the bar as she looked out to the sky. Pushing away some strands of the reddish-brown hair out of her eyes as some wind pushed them there.
Watching her for a moment, then I remembered what Johnny said 'there is still a lot of good in this world'. And you know it was starting to make sense. Like Kiera, she had a lot of good things going for her. She was good looking; she was on the better side but was stuck up. She had almost everything. Yet she talked with me and watched over me. And that was a great thing.
"Here it is," Kiera smiled looking at me as if she felt my gaze on her. For a moment she stared at me before looking away.
Before I knew it, I had lost that control. I didn't want to make a mess in her life by getting close to her when she would feel guilty about that with her boyfriend. But I blew it and placed my arm around her waist and held her by my side. It felt great, it really did. Looking at her, she stared at me for a moment before she looked back at the sky.
The sunset was nice after all. It was a really dark red, mixed with orange, yellow, and some traces of a light blue. There was something so beautiful about the sunset that I didn't look away till it was dark. Johnny was right.I never had looked at a sunset or sunrise. And it was great. It wasn't something that I didn't want to do all the time. But as I had watched there was something so peaceful about that.
"Was that good enough?" Kiera asked me as she looked at me. Almost forgetting that she was by my side and I had an arm draped around her waist. Though there was some traces of regret in her eyes, but otherwise she watched me with the same fascinated look.
"It was great," I said softly hanging my head with thoughts of Johnny filling my head again. Johnny's words about good and those sunrises and sunsets filling my head.
"Dally.. I want to thank you," Kiera said as she smiled softly at me. "You, Johnny, and Ponyboy saved my little sister. She was one of those girls trapped in the church house. That's why I offered to watch over you. I couldn't loose her, she's one of the only things I have left."
I stared at her surprised as she said this. But.wait.huh? Was an example of what was going through my head as I continued to stare at her. She was smiling at me; it was one of those dazzling smiles, like her way of thanking me.
I couldn't sort these things out. First Johnny had told me that it was worth it saving those kids. And you know what. Maybe it was worth it, though I still wasn't sold out on the idea. Then had said that I should watch a sunset, and I did, I understood. Then said that there were still lots of good in the world, and I was starting to see that. Johnny was guiding me when he was even dead.
Ponyboy and I were closer than we ever had been before. You know it was sort of like having Johnny again. Who knows maybe I could earn Ponyboy's trust. And I could protect him too. But I wasn't the best at these sorts of things. Maybe I would find the answers soon enough.
Chapter Four
For the next day it seemed I couldn't get Johnny's voice out of my head. It wasn't the "it was worth it saving those kids" thing. I wasn't convinced on that. I would never be, well I wasn't convinced now. And it wasn't the "there is still a lot of good in the world" thing either. It was the "I don't think Dally ever seen a sunset thing". And it was absolutely true also. I haven't ever seen a sunset. I passed them up like it wasn't there. It wasn't tuff. You know what I mean? It wasn't tuff to sit there staring at a sunset. It was tuff to be fighting some soc or slashing some tires. Even though there was a doubt in my mind that maybe just maybe staring a sunset might be worth it.
I never viewed Ponyboy that well. You know, he was just some kid that was trying to act tuff. But never quite succeeded. He hadn't been much like Darry or Soda even. And when he ran off to save those kids, if I had lost control I would've killed them both. But yesterday was the first time I ever really talked to him the same. What the hell was going on with me? I just wanted to me my old tuff self.I didn't want to be bothered by these damn emotions!
It was in the afternoon now, lying there on the uncomfortable bed. I wanted to get up and roam around. And this hospital gown was getting uncomfortable too. I was finally getting to where I could finally sit up. The nurse had told me that I should start working on getting my heart strengthened.
I heard the door open; opening my eyes I looked at the figure. It was Kiera; man was I glad to see her. This boredom was getting to me. She had a coke in her hand and had a tired look on her face.
"Hey," I said looking at her a small smile tugging on the corner of my lips. As I sat up slowly ignoring the slight pangs of pain in my chest as I did this. But I was proud that I could at least sit up again.
"Hey Dally," Kiera said placing her coke down then looked at me and smiled. "You're sitting up now. That's great." She said as she headed towards me now.
"How was you're concert?" I asked casually as I scratched the back of my neck with a little yawn. Going back to watching her. Man, it was great to have some company that didn't constantly say sorry about Johnny.
"It was so awesome," Kiera grinned now as she watched me. Her eyes had lit up as she grinned making her green eyes lively. "Though I did loose my voice and Kevin and Cherry was yelling at me to shut up most the time."
"Kevin, eh? That the name of you're boyfriend?" I asked leaning forward now. "If it is. He's a lucky bastard," I said more softly watching her. Some of my old feelings were returning. You know, I didn't mean too but I always went after the girls that had a boyfriend.
"Yeah. That's his name." She nodded looking at me for a second, than looked away. "Lucky bastard? Why would you call him a lucky bastard?" She then asked raising an eyebrow.
"Because he has you," I answered simply with a roughish smile. Then it made me realize. That it wasn't the idea of owning her. It was the feeling of having someone who loves you that mattered.
"I'm sure he'd be flattered if he heard you," Kiera said as she turned to her back to me going back to her coke. Though I saw a little blush on her face as she turned away. I'm so good.
"But what about you?" I asked as I watched her smirking. "Hey Kiera," I said suddenly the smirk falling off my face as I gazed out the window, looking back at her.
"Yeah?" She said turning back to me as she took a sip of her coke again placing the bottle back down. Sitting on the edge of my bed she watched me with an interested expression.
"Do you watch sunsets or sunrises?" I asked her resisting the urge to lie back down. The only thing I wanted to do is get close to her. But I barely resisted that urge to touch her.
"Um." Kiera said blinking for a moment. This question had caught her off guard. "Sometimes I do when I have the time. But usually.no, I mean I would love to. But I'm usually so busy that I can't."
"Do you think that you could take me to see.a sunset?" I asked biting my lip. Staring at her with a questioning look, I knew it was a lot softer than I intended.
"Yeah, of course," Kiera said watching me fascinated yet confused. "The sunset is in an hour or so or something. I'll be back. I just need some sugar so I don't fall asleep right here."
"I wouldn't mind if you feel asleep right here," I said almost smirking once again. Once again I thought of Sylvia. The last time I held her was the night before I found out that she had been screwing around with other guys. I remembered they way it felt to have my arms around her and the comfort it gave. But no matter what I did, Sylvia had wanted the relationship on a passionate level. And of course that was great, but sometimes it was nice of it was on a more tender moment.
"I know you wouldn't mind. But it would be wrong," Kiera said slowly standing up. "I'll be back in a few minutes." She said heading towards the door. Leaving me alone again.
It was about forty-five minutes later when Kiera and I headed to a balcony thing someplace around the hospital. It hurt the more I moved. But I would watch this sunset. I know Johnny had referred to sunrise. And maybe I would get the chance to do that.
I had walked on my own for a while but after awhile the pain took over. So I had to have Kiera help me. Which in a way I didn't mind at all. I mean her touch was great.
Once on the balcony, I had leaned on the bar slightly hanging my head, "damn that was tiring." It was close to the sunset and you know. I was anxious. It wasn't the fact that it was a sunset, but I never had watched a sunset.
"You did good," Kiera said rested her elbows on the bar as she looked out to the sky. Pushing away some strands of the reddish-brown hair out of her eyes as some wind pushed them there.
Watching her for a moment, then I remembered what Johnny said 'there is still a lot of good in this world'. And you know it was starting to make sense. Like Kiera, she had a lot of good things going for her. She was good looking; she was on the better side but was stuck up. She had almost everything. Yet she talked with me and watched over me. And that was a great thing.
"Here it is," Kiera smiled looking at me as if she felt my gaze on her. For a moment she stared at me before looking away.
Before I knew it, I had lost that control. I didn't want to make a mess in her life by getting close to her when she would feel guilty about that with her boyfriend. But I blew it and placed my arm around her waist and held her by my side. It felt great, it really did. Looking at her, she stared at me for a moment before she looked back at the sky.
The sunset was nice after all. It was a really dark red, mixed with orange, yellow, and some traces of a light blue. There was something so beautiful about the sunset that I didn't look away till it was dark. Johnny was right.I never had looked at a sunset or sunrise. And it was great. It wasn't something that I didn't want to do all the time. But as I had watched there was something so peaceful about that.
"Was that good enough?" Kiera asked me as she looked at me. Almost forgetting that she was by my side and I had an arm draped around her waist. Though there was some traces of regret in her eyes, but otherwise she watched me with the same fascinated look.
"It was great," I said softly hanging my head with thoughts of Johnny filling my head again. Johnny's words about good and those sunrises and sunsets filling my head.
"Dally.. I want to thank you," Kiera said as she smiled softly at me. "You, Johnny, and Ponyboy saved my little sister. She was one of those girls trapped in the church house. That's why I offered to watch over you. I couldn't loose her, she's one of the only things I have left."
I stared at her surprised as she said this. But.wait.huh? Was an example of what was going through my head as I continued to stare at her. She was smiling at me; it was one of those dazzling smiles, like her way of thanking me.
I couldn't sort these things out. First Johnny had told me that it was worth it saving those kids. And you know what. Maybe it was worth it, though I still wasn't sold out on the idea. Then had said that I should watch a sunset, and I did, I understood. Then said that there were still lots of good in the world, and I was starting to see that. Johnny was guiding me when he was even dead.
Ponyboy and I were closer than we ever had been before. You know it was sort of like having Johnny again. Who knows maybe I could earn Ponyboy's trust. And I could protect him too. But I wasn't the best at these sorts of things. Maybe I would find the answers soon enough.
