Confessions
xxGinnyxx
A/N: HA! I got my three reviews, so as promised, here is your chapter that
goes up to James' admittance that he's still a virgin. Also, I would really
appreciate any reviews for my other story entitled Nameless, I haven't
gotten any reviews for that fic yet and I don't know weather or not to
continue with it. I am however going to continue with this fic.
"Your boyfriend?" Lily was starting to get upset; I could see the fire in
her eyes.
"Yes, do you have a problem with that?" Courtney responded. Catfight.
"No, just that your 'boyfriend' snogged me on the train." Lily replied.
I was in deep shit now. I had half a mind to run now, out of the hospital
wing. I fallowed that half of my mind and sprinted out of the Hospital
wing, making my way down to the Great Hall. I managed to make my way down
there with out any trouble, slowed down a bit when I reached the Gryffindor
table. "Help me!" I hissed at Sirius.
"Calm down, what's wrong?" He said turning around to look at me.
"Come with me." I said and dragged him out of the great hall while he
reached for one more brownie. I pulled him all the way t the boy's
bathrooms where we could talk without being discovered by any girls.
"Co, wets gon on?" Sirius said with his mouth half full of brownie. But I
managed to decipher what he said with ease having been with him for about
half my life.
"Lily" I said simply. Sirius swallowed.
""I heard you got knocked out by Chris, why?" Why was Sirius being so
concerned? That was very out of character.
"Because. well, I snogged Lily on the train." I continued with the story
and when I finished all Sirius could do was let his mouth hang open, which
trust me was not pleasant as his breath smelled of onions, no brownie could
ever cover up that odor. Why Sirius likes raw onions is beyond me. "So,
what should I do?" I asked.
"No idea. You've just lost yourself two hot babes. That's never happened to
me before." Sirius started smiling slightly. "Just get another girl I
guess, and keep your pants on when you're around Lily. I know you think she
still loves you, but it's not true. She'll want to blow your bloody brains
out." (A/N: Sirius obviously has no experience with love, poor him. Maybe
he should. GIVE OPINIONS IN REVIEWS)
Sirius was right. Whoa, that sounded weird, Sirius and right have never
been on the same sentence before. Well he was right; I had screwed up so
bad that I'd lost all my chances with Lily. Her love for me was probably
not strong enough for her to forgive me for what I've just put her through,
but she was a hell of a good kisser. "You're right" there it is again "Well
I'm going to bed. I'm not hungry."
"Okay, I'll see you later. And try not to get all hung up on Evans, this
was for the best, I think." Then Sirius left back to the feast, and I
headed to the common room. Guess who I saw there. Lily Evans, sitting on
the couch balling her eyes out saying something like "Damn Potter with his
good looks." Then she looked up as she heard the portrait door close. I
just stood there gazing at her.
***LPOV***
Dear god, I wonder how much he heard. But that didn't matter now. No, I
couldn't believe that I'd fallen for a cheating bastard. "What do you want
Potter?" I said not looking into his eyes, my major weakness.
"I just wanted to say I'm sorry Lily. I love you. I've told you that I
don't know how many times, but I don't think you believed me. I asked Her
out on the train because it entered my mind that you would never go out
with me, so to forget my pain I decided to turn to someone else. I'm so
sorry Lily. I never meant to hurt you, you mean to much to me. You are the
reason I try to live. I'd do anything to be with you. You- I- you mean
everything to me Lily. Kinda like Romeo and Juliet, you are the sun in my
life, and I revolve around you. I can only hope you can forgive me for my
stupid actions, because I know that nothing will ever replace you in my
life." (Awh, James has a sensitive side.)
That was so charming, I couldn't help but look into his eyes and then I
knew that he was genuinely sorry. I simply ran up to him and we started
snogging. This felt so right. How was I able to go seventeen years of my
life without experiencing this wonderful sensation that was at this very
moment flooding my body with happiness. We continued kissing for five
minutes, and then I pulled away, hearing some noise coming down the
corridor. Oh my god, had the feast ended already?
"This way" James pulled me upstairs into his dormitory, closed the
curtains, and put a silencing charm around his bed. We started kissing
again.
***JPOV***
God did this feel right (repetitive I know). He was right now showing Lily
his true feelings, something he never imagined would happen. Her tong was
making its way through my mouth, while mine was doing the same. Then Lily
began to cry, and I pulled away this time. "What's wrong?" I asked.
"Oh James, I'm just a bit worried that you are using me for a one night
stand. If you broke up with me I don't know what I'd do. I love you so
much." She said through sniffles.
I began to stroke her hair in a comforting manner and said, "I love you
too, too much to go and through away of something as good as we have right
now. You might think I'm slow but I'm not slow enough to not realize that
what we have is too good to give up."
This cheered her up to some extent. "Yeah, thank you James. You're so
sweet. Well, I'm going to bed." She said and made to get up.
"Wait! There's a perfectly good bed right here for us to sleep on." I said.
"I need to sleep and I don't think I'd manage to by sleeping in the same
bed as you." She responded. That was a bit cruel getting a guy's hopes up
like that. I however accepted her excuse, no matter how disappointed by the
response. I didn't want to rush things if she wasn't ready. I did, like I
said, not want to lose her, especially over something as stupid as her
being in my bed.
"Well, before you leave, I just want to ask you one more thing, will you go
out with me, tomorrow night at 8?" I asked
She smiled at me and replied, "Sounds great, I'll meet you back up here."
Then she left me to dell on thoughts of where to take her tomorrow night. I
decided on the room of requirement as we could have anything we needed if
things progressed to the next step. It would be my first time, yeah sure
I'd gotten pretty close, but I' never let myself go that far. I was saving
myself for Lily, and knowing that I was her first boyfriend, I had beaten
up all others that even attempted to ask her out, even Sirius, so I'd be
her first. With that thought I drifted off to sleep.
***LPOV***
I can't believe it. I had enough strength to not go all the way with James
the first night, no matter how tempted I was to stay. Then my mind turned
to think about how many times James must have done it. 5? 15? I didn't care
too much as long as he was mine now. Next I was just standing outside my
dormitory thinking of the feeling that rushed through me when he kissed me.
God did I love him, and thought that maybe soon I'd let him introduce his
body to mine. I'd done it only once before, last summer my boyfriend and I
did it, as I was trying to forget about what James had done to me earlier
that day in Diagon Ally. I regret now losing my virginity to that git,
because after he had me he left. But that didn't stop my pursuit of love,
because I was stronger than that. (Does that answer your question
xxGinnyxx?) I went into the dorm and unfortunately woke up Serene, who just
happened to be a light sleeper.
"Where have you been? You weren't at the feast, and it's 10 at night."
Serene hissed.
"I was with Potter." I answered simply.
"You two were snogging!" She hissed again.
"No we weren't!" I was hissing now.
"Well you two were doing something, I can see your bruised lip." Damn it
why did she have to be so observant?
"Fine we were snogging. So?" I asked.
"So?! You said you'd never snog that guy, what made my best mate change her
mind?" She asked.
"He really loves me, and for some reason that I can not fathom, I love him
too." I answered.
"He said he loved you?" Serene asked.
"Yeah, he did." What was the big deal?
"He said the same thing when we were dating, which reminds me, he never
shagged me (Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that Serene and James dated in 6th
year). I mean we snogged yeah, but never shagged. He said he 'didn't want
to rush it'" What? When did they date?
"Wait, when did you date?"
"Over the summer for a month between fifth and sixth year." She answered.
"And why didn't you tell me about this?"
"Because nothing came of it. It was a one moth thing." Serene responded.
"Well, anyways, all he seems to want to do is shag me. You don't
think.maybe he's still a- nah. He must have done it with someone right?" I
asked.
"I guess, but he just might be." Serene responded.
"It'd be weird thought, taking away a guy's .virginity." I said but there
was no answer as Serene had fallen back asleep. I however stayed awake
wondering. I'd ask him first thing tomorrow. And with that I settled into a
restless sleep.

A/N: There you go the info you've been waiting for. Next day=
confrontation! HA! I'll update soon, but the chapter won't be as long
seeing as I have a short attention span. Hope you got what you were hoping
for. Ha, that sounded pathetic. Talk to you soon, and there needs to be hm,
7 reviews for the next update. Ha, I have demands!