A/N: sorry I haven't updated in a long time, but with work and my cold I
just haven't had time or energy. All of you that work you know how I feel.
When you work 40 hours a week you get so drained and tired and when you are
sick along with that you don't wanna do anything. So I apologize in head
of time.
"Matty?" I called out.
"Yea sweetie it's me." He said stroking my hair.
"Are you leaving?" I asked.
"Yea, I gotta go back to work." Matt said.
"Please don't go."
"I have to go babygurl." He said
"When will you come back?" I asked.
"I'll be back in a few days and you got my number so you can call me anytime day or night okay?"
"Ok bro. I love you." I said.
"I love you too sis. I gotta go, but you get better for me okay?"
"I will. Bye Matty." I said.
He smiled and left. I went back to sleep. I apparently slept all night and into the early morning. I heard my dad's truck leave for work. His truck was always a loud, bomber truck. I had to chuckle at that. I heard my door open and turned to see Jeff in the doorway.
"Hey sis. How you feeling?" Jeff asked as he came in.
I just shrugged. He walked over to me and felt my head.
"Your warm, but not as hot as you were last night." Jeff said.
"I'm surprised you're up this early. You usually sleep 24/7." I smiled tiredly.
"Do not" Jeff smiled.
"Yes you do. You are the king of sleep."
"Ha Ha Ha very funny." Jeff smiled.
"I know it is." I said. "Jeff, can I ask you a favor?"
"Sure sis"
"Carry me downstairs so we can watch Titanic," I said.
"Of course. I haven't watched Titanic in a while. I want to watch it too. You read my mind" Jeff smiled.
Jeff picked me up and took me downstairs where he laid me on the couch and put a pillow under my head and a blanket over me. He sat on the floor in front of the couch as we watched Titanic. When the movie was over with Jeff turned off the DVD player and TV and looked at me. I was sleeping. He slightly smiled and went outside with a notebook and pen and started to write. He was out there for a long time, but to him it didn't seem too long. I woke up and noticed he wasn't in the same room as me.
"Jeff? Jeff where are you?" I called out.
I walked into the kitchen and saw the back door was slightly opened. I opened it and went outside. I saw him sitting in the grass writing. I smiled and thought back to when I was little. One instance I believe I was 9 and I was spending the weekend with my dad. I was in the woods watching Matty wrestle. I looked around and Jeff wasn't there and he usually was. I saw Matty was busy wrestling his friend Shannon Moore so I just took off toward the house. I got to our backyard and Jeff was sitting in the grass writing. I smiled and walked to him. He looked up and smiled at me.
"Hey" I said.
"Hey"
"I'm glad I found you."
"You are?" He smiled as he put down his notebook and hugged me.
"Yea, you weren't at wrestling practice so I was worried." I said.
"I just didn't feel like wrestling today. I mean you know I love wrestling, but I just felt like writing today because..... I'm worried and well....."He started to say as tears filled his eyes.
"You always write when you got something on your mind." I said finishing his sentence.
"You know me so well."
"What are you worried about Jeffy?" I ask as I placed my head in his lap.
"I'm worried about dad." Jeff said stroking my hair.
"Is it because dad is acting weird?" I asked.
"Yea, Matt and I keep telling him to go to the doctors, but he's too proud of a man to go. He just keeps saying nothing wrong with me and Stacy, I'm scared to death. I lost my mom and I can't lose dad. I just can't." Jeff said as he cried.
I sat up and pulled him in my arms. We just sat there and cried. And that brings us back to right now. I sat down next to him and he looked at me.
"Hey sweetie. Are you feeling better?" He asked.
"A little bit." I smiled.
He smiled back and put down his notebook. He then pulled me into his body with a hug.
"Tell me what's bothering you." I said.
"Nothing sweetie."
"Jeffrey Nero Hardy! I know you better than that. You always come outside and write when you have something on your mind. Now what is it?" I demanded.
"When I was younger, I've always had this one fear."
"Which fear was that?" I asked softly.
"After being so close to my mom I was always afraid to get close to any females. Afraid they would leave me too." He said.
He looked into my eyes and tears were swimming in his eyes.
"I don't wanna lose you." He said.
"Jeffy, I'm not leaving you. I would never leave you. You're my brother. We are always going to be together." I said.
"But I have this feeling like something bad will happen and we won't be together anymore."
"Its going to all be ok bro. I promise." I said.
He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into his body and we stayed like that for a long time. We eventually got up and went inside. I sat on the kitchen cupboard and Jeff went into the cupboards and pulled out hot coco mix and then got out bread and butter. He made me hot coco and toast. I went and sat at the table and ate and drank while he cleaned up. When I was done I just sat there looking at him. I am so lucky to have a brother like him. He's been there for me. When I couldn't sleep at nights he would come and sing me to sleep or read me a book. Then this happens to me and he is there for me. I guess Jeff saw me starring at him and he sat in the chair next to me and took my hand.
"What's a matter sis?" He asked.
"Just thinking about how lucky I am to have you as my brother." I smiled.
He smiled and said, "No Stacy, I'm the lucky one."
I helped Jeff wash the dishes and Jeff took me upstairs to get some rest. Jeff tucked me in and sang me to sleep.
"You don't run with the crowd, you go your own way.
You don't play after dark, you light up my day.
Got your own kind of style that sets you apart, babygurl that's where you captured my heart.
I know sometimes you feel, like you don't fit in and this world doesn't know what you have within.
When I look at you, I see something rare, a rose that can grow anywhere."
When he saw I was asleep, he kissed my forehead and went downstairs. While Jeff watched TV, I started to have nightmares. You know the kind where you feel like you're actually there, but you're not really. Its like you can see the future, but the future can be changed.
A/N: Find out what the nightmare was in the next chapter that scared Stacy so much.
"Matty?" I called out.
"Yea sweetie it's me." He said stroking my hair.
"Are you leaving?" I asked.
"Yea, I gotta go back to work." Matt said.
"Please don't go."
"I have to go babygurl." He said
"When will you come back?" I asked.
"I'll be back in a few days and you got my number so you can call me anytime day or night okay?"
"Ok bro. I love you." I said.
"I love you too sis. I gotta go, but you get better for me okay?"
"I will. Bye Matty." I said.
He smiled and left. I went back to sleep. I apparently slept all night and into the early morning. I heard my dad's truck leave for work. His truck was always a loud, bomber truck. I had to chuckle at that. I heard my door open and turned to see Jeff in the doorway.
"Hey sis. How you feeling?" Jeff asked as he came in.
I just shrugged. He walked over to me and felt my head.
"Your warm, but not as hot as you were last night." Jeff said.
"I'm surprised you're up this early. You usually sleep 24/7." I smiled tiredly.
"Do not" Jeff smiled.
"Yes you do. You are the king of sleep."
"Ha Ha Ha very funny." Jeff smiled.
"I know it is." I said. "Jeff, can I ask you a favor?"
"Sure sis"
"Carry me downstairs so we can watch Titanic," I said.
"Of course. I haven't watched Titanic in a while. I want to watch it too. You read my mind" Jeff smiled.
Jeff picked me up and took me downstairs where he laid me on the couch and put a pillow under my head and a blanket over me. He sat on the floor in front of the couch as we watched Titanic. When the movie was over with Jeff turned off the DVD player and TV and looked at me. I was sleeping. He slightly smiled and went outside with a notebook and pen and started to write. He was out there for a long time, but to him it didn't seem too long. I woke up and noticed he wasn't in the same room as me.
"Jeff? Jeff where are you?" I called out.
I walked into the kitchen and saw the back door was slightly opened. I opened it and went outside. I saw him sitting in the grass writing. I smiled and thought back to when I was little. One instance I believe I was 9 and I was spending the weekend with my dad. I was in the woods watching Matty wrestle. I looked around and Jeff wasn't there and he usually was. I saw Matty was busy wrestling his friend Shannon Moore so I just took off toward the house. I got to our backyard and Jeff was sitting in the grass writing. I smiled and walked to him. He looked up and smiled at me.
"Hey" I said.
"Hey"
"I'm glad I found you."
"You are?" He smiled as he put down his notebook and hugged me.
"Yea, you weren't at wrestling practice so I was worried." I said.
"I just didn't feel like wrestling today. I mean you know I love wrestling, but I just felt like writing today because..... I'm worried and well....."He started to say as tears filled his eyes.
"You always write when you got something on your mind." I said finishing his sentence.
"You know me so well."
"What are you worried about Jeffy?" I ask as I placed my head in his lap.
"I'm worried about dad." Jeff said stroking my hair.
"Is it because dad is acting weird?" I asked.
"Yea, Matt and I keep telling him to go to the doctors, but he's too proud of a man to go. He just keeps saying nothing wrong with me and Stacy, I'm scared to death. I lost my mom and I can't lose dad. I just can't." Jeff said as he cried.
I sat up and pulled him in my arms. We just sat there and cried. And that brings us back to right now. I sat down next to him and he looked at me.
"Hey sweetie. Are you feeling better?" He asked.
"A little bit." I smiled.
He smiled back and put down his notebook. He then pulled me into his body with a hug.
"Tell me what's bothering you." I said.
"Nothing sweetie."
"Jeffrey Nero Hardy! I know you better than that. You always come outside and write when you have something on your mind. Now what is it?" I demanded.
"When I was younger, I've always had this one fear."
"Which fear was that?" I asked softly.
"After being so close to my mom I was always afraid to get close to any females. Afraid they would leave me too." He said.
He looked into my eyes and tears were swimming in his eyes.
"I don't wanna lose you." He said.
"Jeffy, I'm not leaving you. I would never leave you. You're my brother. We are always going to be together." I said.
"But I have this feeling like something bad will happen and we won't be together anymore."
"Its going to all be ok bro. I promise." I said.
He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into his body and we stayed like that for a long time. We eventually got up and went inside. I sat on the kitchen cupboard and Jeff went into the cupboards and pulled out hot coco mix and then got out bread and butter. He made me hot coco and toast. I went and sat at the table and ate and drank while he cleaned up. When I was done I just sat there looking at him. I am so lucky to have a brother like him. He's been there for me. When I couldn't sleep at nights he would come and sing me to sleep or read me a book. Then this happens to me and he is there for me. I guess Jeff saw me starring at him and he sat in the chair next to me and took my hand.
"What's a matter sis?" He asked.
"Just thinking about how lucky I am to have you as my brother." I smiled.
He smiled and said, "No Stacy, I'm the lucky one."
I helped Jeff wash the dishes and Jeff took me upstairs to get some rest. Jeff tucked me in and sang me to sleep.
"You don't run with the crowd, you go your own way.
You don't play after dark, you light up my day.
Got your own kind of style that sets you apart, babygurl that's where you captured my heart.
I know sometimes you feel, like you don't fit in and this world doesn't know what you have within.
When I look at you, I see something rare, a rose that can grow anywhere."
When he saw I was asleep, he kissed my forehead and went downstairs. While Jeff watched TV, I started to have nightmares. You know the kind where you feel like you're actually there, but you're not really. Its like you can see the future, but the future can be changed.
A/N: Find out what the nightmare was in the next chapter that scared Stacy so much.
