Chp. 4; Over the time
Conzeta finished her story and ran out of the tent, her body wracking with sobs.
~Whenever my feelings were hurt, I couldn't see anything because I held a lie in my heart.~
*FLASHBACK TO HER FIRST DAY AT CAMP*
"Hey there hottie, what are you in for? Breaking another girls nail?" a group of boys hooted with laughter. Conzeta stared straight ahead, replaying the murder in her mind, oblivious to where she was at, or even that she had gotten of the bus. Her heart felt like a heavy brick incased in ice. She hadn't done anything, it wasn't her fault Sarah and her family were dead! 'I'll bury it, I'll never think of their death again. I refuse to relive that horrible moment of my life over again!' so she did. She buried her memories of her best friend and her entire family.
*END FLASHBACK*
~Time moved faster then I could react...so I pulled myself away from everything.~ ~But now...I can't stop anything at all!~
"My life isn't worth the living for! It was gone the moment I killed my father. Time is moving so fast, my four years here are nothing but a giant blur.' Conzeta thought as she stopped and sat down behind the messhall. looking at the stars
~Accepting everything, I rise up. I'll fly over all of time...~
Conzeta thought of the first time she had come. She pressed the rewind botton in her head and watched the last four years play by in her head. The laughter and ridicule she had endured from her fellow campers was horrendus. She cringed as she remembered when Zig Zag had hit her with a shovel.
~..While holding on to your presence...the light encompassing this world.~
'Sarah.' she thought. 'I banished your memory into the back of my mind and the bottom of my heart, all because I was too afraid to face your murder once again. I am a horrible person. I'm so sorry Sarah! I didn't do anything to help you! ' "I didn't even try! I just cried like now! Why am I so weak as to not have helped you!?" Conzeta choked out.
~ A never ending sky...Your never changing eyes...I wanted to love these things.~ ~No matter the distance or if we are seperated...We are always conected.~
'Sarah I love you, and I will forever miss you and my family, as I have for the past four years. But I promise to you, I won't hide from it anymore, I will face this, whether I'm alone or not, I will. I will never try to forget you or my family ever again!' Conzeta stood up amd wiped her eyes. "I'm sorry I couldn't help you Sarah, Mama, Mickie, Keahi. From now on I will be strong, I will get stronger! Emotionly and physicly, I will take care of myself, since there is no one left to care for me." "But I care Zeta, I always have, and I always will.." Conzeta turned around and smiled for the first time in four years. "I care for you too Alan, I always have. I'm sorry I tried to ignore you." "Don't worry anymore, I wont let anything happen to you ever again. I promise." He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her close to him. He rested his chin on her head as she buried hers into his chest and cried herself out. "I promise." he repeated.
~Want you here tonight!~
Conzeta finished her story and ran out of the tent, her body wracking with sobs.
~Whenever my feelings were hurt, I couldn't see anything because I held a lie in my heart.~
*FLASHBACK TO HER FIRST DAY AT CAMP*
"Hey there hottie, what are you in for? Breaking another girls nail?" a group of boys hooted with laughter. Conzeta stared straight ahead, replaying the murder in her mind, oblivious to where she was at, or even that she had gotten of the bus. Her heart felt like a heavy brick incased in ice. She hadn't done anything, it wasn't her fault Sarah and her family were dead! 'I'll bury it, I'll never think of their death again. I refuse to relive that horrible moment of my life over again!' so she did. She buried her memories of her best friend and her entire family.
*END FLASHBACK*
~Time moved faster then I could react...so I pulled myself away from everything.~ ~But now...I can't stop anything at all!~
"My life isn't worth the living for! It was gone the moment I killed my father. Time is moving so fast, my four years here are nothing but a giant blur.' Conzeta thought as she stopped and sat down behind the messhall. looking at the stars
~Accepting everything, I rise up. I'll fly over all of time...~
Conzeta thought of the first time she had come. She pressed the rewind botton in her head and watched the last four years play by in her head. The laughter and ridicule she had endured from her fellow campers was horrendus. She cringed as she remembered when Zig Zag had hit her with a shovel.
~..While holding on to your presence...the light encompassing this world.~
'Sarah.' she thought. 'I banished your memory into the back of my mind and the bottom of my heart, all because I was too afraid to face your murder once again. I am a horrible person. I'm so sorry Sarah! I didn't do anything to help you! ' "I didn't even try! I just cried like now! Why am I so weak as to not have helped you!?" Conzeta choked out.
~ A never ending sky...Your never changing eyes...I wanted to love these things.~ ~No matter the distance or if we are seperated...We are always conected.~
'Sarah I love you, and I will forever miss you and my family, as I have for the past four years. But I promise to you, I won't hide from it anymore, I will face this, whether I'm alone or not, I will. I will never try to forget you or my family ever again!' Conzeta stood up amd wiped her eyes. "I'm sorry I couldn't help you Sarah, Mama, Mickie, Keahi. From now on I will be strong, I will get stronger! Emotionly and physicly, I will take care of myself, since there is no one left to care for me." "But I care Zeta, I always have, and I always will.." Conzeta turned around and smiled for the first time in four years. "I care for you too Alan, I always have. I'm sorry I tried to ignore you." "Don't worry anymore, I wont let anything happen to you ever again. I promise." He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her close to him. He rested his chin on her head as she buried hers into his chest and cried herself out. "I promise." he repeated.
~Want you here tonight!~
