Hey guys, I'm really sorry that I took so long to update, but with midterms
and all these projects my teachers shoved at us for the end of this term, I
haven't had time to look at my computer, much less type on it, but it's a
new term now, so things have slowed down and I should be able to update
more frequently. You all have no idea how badly I've wanted to update, but
my parent's are really strict when it comes to grades, so I've been busy.
Anyways, I'm back and I won't hold you up further from the story.
Chapter 12: Insanity and a look into the past
"A date?" Kasey eyed her pacing roommate in amusement. "With the aforementioned Spawn of Satan?" She shoveled another bite of cookie dough fudge mint chip icecream in her mouth, trying not to laugh at Rory's behaviour.
"I've gone insane, haven't I?" Rory flung her hands up in the air. "You should lock me in the nuthouse and throw away the key because I just accepted a date with Tristan Dugrey."
Kasey chuckled and scootd over on the couch, as Rory plopped, rather ungracefully beside her. "I'd be a hypocrite if I did so." She handed Rory the ice cream and tucked her knees up to her chest.
"Why would you be a hypocrite?" Rory mumbled around a mouthful of ice cream, staring at her friend inquisitively.
"Because I'm starting a new friendship with Max. We're going to startover, as he says." Kasey shook her head. "So, I should be locked up right beside you."
"At least you didn't accept going on a date with him." Rory pointed out. "I did, so I'm more insane than you are."
"True, but I just as open to getting hurt again, like you are. Max and I never had a date, yet he was still able to hurt me like he did." Kasey sighed. "I really don't want to get hurt again, but when he talked to me about it today, something just told me to agree with him, that this is somethinh I should do."
"Yeah, it was the same with Tristan. Something just said, 'say yes'. So I did, but like you, I don't want to get hurt again. It took me awhile to get over his departure, even though I hid it well. I disguised it behind a crush on Jess."
"So you really didn't like Jess like that?" Kasey raised her eyebrows at her friend.
"No. I did like Jess, I really did. I may have even loved him, but I also channeled that hurt and want for Tristan into my crush, making it more powerful than it should have been. That's one of the main reasons I left Dean for Jess. It was easy for me because just had that same 'Bad Boy' exterior and that 'Rebel without a Cause' attitude. My crush on Jess shouldn't have escalated as far as it did, but because I saw some Tristan in him, it was easy to channel my want for Tristan with my want for Jess, making it ten times what I felt for Dean."
"Oh." Kasey nodded with understanding. "That's not that much different from what happened with me. Max had been shy and sweet when I met him. So when he hurt me like that, I found someone who was the exact oppostie of what he had been, unlike you who went for the same as Tristan. Kevin was the local 'Bad Boy'. I don't what drew me to him at first, amybe it was the smokey grey eyes, very unlike Max's green eyes, or maybe it was the sandy brown hair that fell a little longer than Max's. Anyway, it wasn;t the first time I saw him before, but after the hurt from Max, he seemed almost alluring. He wasn't shy and sweet, but rough and dangerous and that was what got to me in the end. I did love Kevin, I'm not sure I wanted to, but I did. Thinking back on it now, I wasn't sure if it was as strong as what I felt for Max, but it was strong enough at the time."
She looked up and noticed Rory listening with rapt attention. It was good to get this off her chest. "The break-up was brutal. I never let anyone know how much it hurt because Ashley had dumped Andy as well and he needed me. I spent most of my time consoling him, but at night, when I was alone, I let it take its toll on me. It was like Max all over again. I cried myself to sleep every night this summer." Kasey felt tears prick at her eyes, but she made no move to stop them. "Losing Kevin on top of losing Max was pretty heavy, I thought it would be the end of me. Trusting Max again isn't going to come easy, it'll be really hard to let him back in, especially when I've got these walls built up as defenses. I'm terified that he's going to break them down and I don't want him too. I don't want to go through that again." The tears were coming now, pouring like streams down her face.
"Oh Kasey." Rory put the ice creams aside and reached forward to hug her. Kasey didn't hesitate in returning the hug.
"I can't let him do it. I can't love someone again. I just can't." She shook her head and buried it into Rory's shoulder. "Because with Max it will be the end of me. If I open up to him again and he hurts me, I'm not going to get over it this time. I'm not going survive it."
"Yes, you will and you can open up again. You have to, otherwise you'll be this miserable, bitter old woman." Rory stroked her hair. "I know it's hard to believe, but there's this major chance that Max has changed and he's not this egotiscal, self-absorbed jerk."
Whoo, that wasn't really meant to be an angsty chapter, but it turned out that way. I kinda like it. It takes a look inside Kasey's past and her fears with what'll happen with Max now and I got to exploit Kevin a bit. I also got to give my take on Rory's relationship with Jess. Anyway, tell me what you think, so I can post the next chapter for you wonderful people.
Chapter 12: Insanity and a look into the past
"A date?" Kasey eyed her pacing roommate in amusement. "With the aforementioned Spawn of Satan?" She shoveled another bite of cookie dough fudge mint chip icecream in her mouth, trying not to laugh at Rory's behaviour.
"I've gone insane, haven't I?" Rory flung her hands up in the air. "You should lock me in the nuthouse and throw away the key because I just accepted a date with Tristan Dugrey."
Kasey chuckled and scootd over on the couch, as Rory plopped, rather ungracefully beside her. "I'd be a hypocrite if I did so." She handed Rory the ice cream and tucked her knees up to her chest.
"Why would you be a hypocrite?" Rory mumbled around a mouthful of ice cream, staring at her friend inquisitively.
"Because I'm starting a new friendship with Max. We're going to startover, as he says." Kasey shook her head. "So, I should be locked up right beside you."
"At least you didn't accept going on a date with him." Rory pointed out. "I did, so I'm more insane than you are."
"True, but I just as open to getting hurt again, like you are. Max and I never had a date, yet he was still able to hurt me like he did." Kasey sighed. "I really don't want to get hurt again, but when he talked to me about it today, something just told me to agree with him, that this is somethinh I should do."
"Yeah, it was the same with Tristan. Something just said, 'say yes'. So I did, but like you, I don't want to get hurt again. It took me awhile to get over his departure, even though I hid it well. I disguised it behind a crush on Jess."
"So you really didn't like Jess like that?" Kasey raised her eyebrows at her friend.
"No. I did like Jess, I really did. I may have even loved him, but I also channeled that hurt and want for Tristan into my crush, making it more powerful than it should have been. That's one of the main reasons I left Dean for Jess. It was easy for me because just had that same 'Bad Boy' exterior and that 'Rebel without a Cause' attitude. My crush on Jess shouldn't have escalated as far as it did, but because I saw some Tristan in him, it was easy to channel my want for Tristan with my want for Jess, making it ten times what I felt for Dean."
"Oh." Kasey nodded with understanding. "That's not that much different from what happened with me. Max had been shy and sweet when I met him. So when he hurt me like that, I found someone who was the exact oppostie of what he had been, unlike you who went for the same as Tristan. Kevin was the local 'Bad Boy'. I don't what drew me to him at first, amybe it was the smokey grey eyes, very unlike Max's green eyes, or maybe it was the sandy brown hair that fell a little longer than Max's. Anyway, it wasn;t the first time I saw him before, but after the hurt from Max, he seemed almost alluring. He wasn't shy and sweet, but rough and dangerous and that was what got to me in the end. I did love Kevin, I'm not sure I wanted to, but I did. Thinking back on it now, I wasn't sure if it was as strong as what I felt for Max, but it was strong enough at the time."
She looked up and noticed Rory listening with rapt attention. It was good to get this off her chest. "The break-up was brutal. I never let anyone know how much it hurt because Ashley had dumped Andy as well and he needed me. I spent most of my time consoling him, but at night, when I was alone, I let it take its toll on me. It was like Max all over again. I cried myself to sleep every night this summer." Kasey felt tears prick at her eyes, but she made no move to stop them. "Losing Kevin on top of losing Max was pretty heavy, I thought it would be the end of me. Trusting Max again isn't going to come easy, it'll be really hard to let him back in, especially when I've got these walls built up as defenses. I'm terified that he's going to break them down and I don't want him too. I don't want to go through that again." The tears were coming now, pouring like streams down her face.
"Oh Kasey." Rory put the ice creams aside and reached forward to hug her. Kasey didn't hesitate in returning the hug.
"I can't let him do it. I can't love someone again. I just can't." She shook her head and buried it into Rory's shoulder. "Because with Max it will be the end of me. If I open up to him again and he hurts me, I'm not going to get over it this time. I'm not going survive it."
"Yes, you will and you can open up again. You have to, otherwise you'll be this miserable, bitter old woman." Rory stroked her hair. "I know it's hard to believe, but there's this major chance that Max has changed and he's not this egotiscal, self-absorbed jerk."
Whoo, that wasn't really meant to be an angsty chapter, but it turned out that way. I kinda like it. It takes a look inside Kasey's past and her fears with what'll happen with Max now and I got to exploit Kevin a bit. I also got to give my take on Rory's relationship with Jess. Anyway, tell me what you think, so I can post the next chapter for you wonderful people.
