Chapter 3 Fast Choices

Too fast. Too soon. It had all been thrown at him with out warning. He had decided to quickly with no thought. Okay, maybe a little. But, they had all been maybes that were no use to him now. It was two in the morning and it wasn't the baby that was keeping him up. It was the thoughts. But, just as he was about to go to sleep the baby woke up. She didn't do it as often as the first week but still he needed to get up. When he got to her crib he picked her up. She was heavy now. The last time he had taken her down to the medical wing had been in the afternoon the previous day and she had 2 years old then. Yet, she still woke up. He had to pick her up before she woke the other people sleeping on base that night. They had to stay on base so no one saw her grow.

As he held her she went back to sleep into her careless dreams and fantasies. He now wondered how it was like for her growing up so fast, mind changing so quickly. She would sometimes sit in a corner and talk small bits of English and what he could swear was French under her breath.

But, out of all the things he knew little about only one thing was for sure. He had never felt this way about a girl before. Even if he had known her for only barely two weeks he felt happy to have her. He loved her and cared for her. He was worried. So, this is what being a parent is about worrying every second you aren't with your child. If he was this jumpy now he wondered what would happen when he went on a mission. He couldn't begin her with him. It was one dangerous and two she was too young to go through the Stargate. But, she had already gone through. She had and landed in her destination in one piece.

He never thought he would have to think this way. Think about another person, another life. Take into consecration her well-being and think about his own so he wouldn't leave her alone. Before, he had no one to think about this about. But, he sort of like this. Having someone else with him and not feeling so alone. Of course, he always had SG-1 but now he had someone who would have to answer to him and listen to his words. Someone to love him for more than just a good friend or co-worker but as a father and mentor. Maybe these fast choices weren't bad just fast.