*note* Aki's shout of 'boogersnots' is supposed to be similar to 'shotgun'. It was originally 'fox', but Sean came up with a better suggestion. ^^; This chapter was the main reason for the rating change. Anywho, I'll shut up now, since this is not what you're here for
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That warmth...so soothing and comforting. It pricked at the softness of her stomach, sending a wave of euphoria down her spine. I want to stay like this forever was the mantra of her mind. Her mind began to congeal, the darkness melting away from her eyes. Two orbs of turquoise were fixated on her, like two tiny moons that glowed for her alone. The rest of his kind face faded away from the shadows, an innocent smile upon his lips. Stay here with me she voiced mentally, and he responded in kind.
"I will..." he uttered gently, drawing nearer to her. He peppered her collar bone with gentle, warm kisses, travelling with his lips over her shoulder.
Is this what I've been hiding from? What I've been keeping from myself? I never thought this could be so sweet...so comforting...so...so everything I hoped it would be. Why did I wait so long? I don't ever want this to end... Meryl felt a flush rushing to her cheeks as she stretched in the comfort of the moment, enjoying his warmth on her. She must have been wearing clothes, because she felt him fumbling around with something, possibly that oversized white shirt she always slept in. It slipped away from her form into nothingness, as if some invisible void had sucked it up for a midnight snack. She could feel his hair tickling her neck as his lips travelled south...no. This wasn't right. It was too soon. She never wanted to go this far during their first night together. This was not how she imagined it. She nudged him towards her with her knees, but he avoided the obstacle easily by pinning her legs on their sides, placing her in a seemingly comprimising and vulnerable position.
" Vash, stop..." she whispered, hiding the slight fear and disapproval in her voice. Yet, she hoped at the same time that he wouldn't take her plea as rejection. He continued, however, her shudders of delight transforming into trembles of fear. She gave her request a more forceful tone, but he was stubborn to comply. How she could fight off a man that was almost twice her size? He kept her legs apart with his own weight, returning to meet her face-to-face, to her horror. The sweet untainted smile he once had was now gone, and it had been exchanged for a grimace of mixed emotion. Was it anger? Or disappointment maybe? Resentment? Apologetic? She winced slightly at the tingling of his hot breath on her ear, her lobe now caught gently between his teeth. A shot of pain filled her mind as his teeth clenched together, causing her to release a small scream of pain.
Not like this...
"That hurts!" She didn't know why she thought that would stop his torture, but it was merely instinct. She found it hard to swallow, knowing that the tears were begging to be released. But she wasn't going to give in just like that. She had to be stronger. She would not give in to the tears so easily. That was difficult to do, however, when fingernails were digging themselves into her delicate skin, the warmth of crimson seeping through the puncture wounds. Her mind was swamped with pain, bewilderment, gloom...and anger at herself. She deserved this punishment...for holding in so long. For not confessing. For not being there for him when he needed someone. For not giving him a shoulder to cry on. But now she had missed the opportunity and it wasn't coming back. If only he had let Legato kill her. It would have prevented her from being burdened with all this emotional baggage. Save her from the guilt that had settled into her heart.
"Does this hurt? Does this make you want to escape into a world that only your mind could provide? Do you want to deny any of this is happening, dear Meryl? Do you want to run into the arms you think can save you from all of this? DO YOU?!" He was now positioned over her, a sneer stretched across his lips. His eyes were fierce, a deep icy blue fire burning within them.
Yes. She did. And now she came to the full realization of why Vash the Stampede acted the way he did. She wanted to escape the sinister laugh that filled her ears. She wanted to be out of his grasp; the feeling of his skin made her cringe. His laughter...the pain...they grew more intense until...
Meryl lunged forward from her bed, covered in a chilled sweat, her head pounding. Her eyes darted around the room, as if expecting her attacker to still be there. Seeing the room bare, cast with a melancholy blue, she wasn't sure whether to be relieved or upset. One part of her wished she could tell him everything while she held him in her arms. The other part...the very thought of him made her skin crawl. No. I don't want to think about this anymore. She pulled her hair into a messy ponytail and headed to the bathroom. She tossed handfuls of icy water onto her face, hoping the chill would take her mind off things. Catching her reflection in the mirror, her hand stopped a few inches over the hand towel. So this is the face that causes him pain.
CRACK!
Her face splintered in the tiny cracks of the glass, a deep red stream flowing from her knuckles. She welcomed the pain.
-Elsewhere-
Can't admit I'm right, can you?
......
She has neglected you and moved on. She never did care-
Shut up.
Because I'm telling you the truth?
I said shut up.
There was only a sinister chuckle in return.
...what's so funny?
You are, dear brother. You are the epitomy of naivety.
Yeah? Well, I'll prove you wrong, like I always do.
Hmm...I'd bet on that.
You'll see....you'll see that you'll always be wrong...
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o_O Will the angst ever end?! _ Sorry for this short chapter, but I felt it set up some things for future chapters, so maybe it's not all that bad. ^^; Sorry for the slight porn-ish hints, but I tried to make it as light as possible. I probably won't update for a while, since I'm really unsure of the next chapter. But thanks for reading and come back for more. ^_^x
After he told you good-bye
You can't look back any more
Clinging to your break-ups
You can't become a woman
Even in your dreams you dream that
you'll be rejected
Unconsciously it makes you shudder
But somehow you gotta let all those go
And make this rose bloom tomorrow
-B'z: Easy Come, Easy Go
