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This is the prequel to My Immortal. This time it's a song from Linkin Park, Numb. Sorry if the stories run out of order, but they're really supposed to be just individual songfics. I hope you all like this one, especially those of you that asked for a prequel.
Gawd, I'm SO bored. I don't see the point of doing this. I don't see the point of his persistence. I mean, sheesh, I've rejected every one of these people that come to 'court' me like, every day! Godo needs to get it through his head. I HATE these men. All of them are just greedy bastards trying to get their hands on some royal money. Can't he see that??? Man, I need to have a talk with him. You'd think after Sephiroth died, with my help, he'll know that I'm able to take care of myself, and that he'll change and start changing Wutai for the better.
Wutai is still the same. Not controlled by Shinra anymore, of course. Everyone here is still a spineless... yeah. Including my dad. And he's the freakin' leader! I admit, I may not seem spineless, but I've certainly lost the honor of Wutai just like everyone else here. And I'm tired of it. Stealing to bring Wutai back to its glory... Wutai never stole for its former glory... it shouldn't have to now. And now I see this, it's a little late. Everyone believes Wutai's gone to the point of no return.
I want to change that. I want to change Wutai for the better, without having to steal. I want to slowly increase everyone's morale in this town. We need some, badly. But you know... Godo won't let me take over unless he dies or I start acting more like him. Psh, if I acted like him, Wutai'd be long dead. It doesn't matter anyway, even if I ACTED like I was going to be like him, it's still not good enough for him. It's sad to say, but I have no faith in that good for nothing father of mine. I feel like escaping so badly. It's too bad... my responsibility over Wutai... Argh.
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure, of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take, is another mistake to you
I think I've become more mature after the whole Sephiroth ordeal. Though I still act like a child in front of others in Wutai and Godo. I don't want to ruin my image, now would I? I can feel myself smirk. I'm watching Godo as he apologizes to another one of my 'courters' that I once again rejected, and pretty much scared the crap out of. Godo's becoming weaker than he already is. And not just by age. He's apologizing so much, when he really doesn't have to. He lets them court me, I turn them down, not him, me.
I guess Godo is a good leader, since he represents Wutai. It has weakened, and he weakened along with it. But he's not aware that he needs to lead it back to its glory! And maybe he is aware, but he's not doing anything about it other than trying to make me in control so that I can do it. It's not time for him to retire just yet, he should do something worthy of this town, and do something for it. Gawd, I wish my dad was still like his younger days. I know that as I stay here, I'm becoming weaker, somewhat. Sooner or later I'd have to agree to one of these courters. Whether it's my choice to agree or not, sooner or later, something's going to happen. I can't let it be like that. I can't become like Godo, succumbing due to these surroundings.
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.
I'm thinking too much. I think I'm gonna go clear my mind or something up at Da Chao. That place always helps me clear my mind. I'm done eavesdropping on Godo anyway. I make my way towards the exit, and Godo suddenly stops me. What could be possibly want with me now?
"Yuffie," he talked in a stern voice, "Don't go anywhere, I need to speak to you."
"Can it old man, I'm heading to the mountain, you can talk to me later," I don't want to talk to him. He's just going to lecture me.
"Don't give me that, Yuffie. Sit yourself down and listen. You're not going anywhere," He said to me again. Since when the hell did he have guts to talk to me like that?
"Fine, what is it?" I ask him in an annoyed tone, crossing my arms and sending him a glare.
"How many more men will you turn down?" His stern voice remained. I knew it was going to be something like this.
"As many as I want to," I replied a little snobbishly.
"I've given you too much freedom to do what you want," He sighed. I laugh loudly, unbelieving.
"You, gave me too much freedom!? How could you say that, whenever I go anywhere it's because I snuck out or because you don't even know I've gone out! All the time while I'm here all I do is answer to these damn courters, and I have too much freedom?" I asked him, still unbelieving.
"When will you learn the ways as a lady of Wutai? When will you even act like a citizen of Wutai? Why can't you just pick one and settle down and rule over Wutai so I can rest in peace??" He stressed out to me, just like every time. I can't hold myself back forever.
"Ugh, can you please stop thinking about yourself? You know, if I acted like a citizen of THIS Wutai, I'd be a spineless idiot. Mom was a great lady of Wutai, and she acted nothing like you guys!" Ouch, that hit a nerve. For both of us.
"You..." Godo was angry, I can tell. He was turning red. But I don't care right now, I've had enough of him.
"Me what? YOU can't stand the fact that I'm unwilling to accept how poor Wutai has become. YOU can't stand the fact that someone else is disappointed in you, that the whole town is disappointed in you, and that you're disappointed in yourself. Stop trying to push it on to me when you're nowhere near done with your time to serve as their leader! Instead of pushing me, push yourself to make something out of Wutai!! I'm sick of you wasting my time with these pointless courters!" I yelled at him. The maids have all stopped doing what they were doing and were looking at our family quarrel.
"You... you... GET OUT OF MY SIGHT! Go to your room, go do SOMETHING! Just get out of my sight!!" He screamed at me.
I shook my head, I knew he wouldn't be able to take it. I glanced at the maids, who quickly went back to their work, slightly murmuring, and then stalked out of the room to my own room.
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart, right in front of you
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I know I was harsh to him. Especially in his weakened state. But I can't take it anymore. I just didn't care how he felt, I had to say what I had to say. He needed to know, at some point, before he got too far... I'm tired of acting like I give a shit around him. I care about Wutai, but that's all. I want it and its people to prosper. I don't care if I'm the ruler or not. And I certainly don't need a husband to hope for Wutai.
But what can I do? I admit I can't do much as just a princess of Wutai. It would be nice to have a title of Lady of Wutai. Yet I need to approve of a husband before I can become one. Yet if I approve one of these courters, I'd become just like Godo. Leviathan... what can I do? ... Mom... what can I do...?
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I know that I can't promise I'll being glory back to Wutai. But at least I know I'll try, unlike Godo. I'm really disappointed to have him as my dad right now. He's probably disappointed in me as his daughter too. I guess that's why I'm in my room, thinking to myself like I do every time I somehow do something disappointing.
I wonder... are you doing the same thing I am now that I've said I was disappointed in him? Is he sitting in his room thinking to himself as well? Hehe... that doesn't sound like a Godo thing to do. Then again, I'm doing a 'not-so-Yuffie' thing right now too.
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
I'm fully aware of what's happening around me. Everyone here, including me, is slowly decaying from the inside. I'm tired of watching this go on, as a regular human being. I don't want to be a part of the Kisaragi family if this is what's happening. I really don't want to be a part of the Kisaragi bloodline, if all I'll do is be courted. Just like you, Godo. But I don't want to be like you... so... I'll be myself. I want to be a part of the Kisaragi family and bloodline if I'll be allowed to marry who I want, and if I can at least attempt to make Wutai prosper. If I can't, why bother? Why bother to even stay here? I feel my lips curving into a smirk. The old Yuffie Kisaragi is returning.
So... until I can. As Yuffie Kisaragi, I'll run away again. Until I can do what I need to do when I rule, because otherwise, none of this is worth it. I don't need to conserve myself anymore, and force myself to act like a future ruler, if it won't change a thing. I've had enough. I'm tired... and I've had enough. And I escaped into the night.
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
You'd think I'd be smart enough to pack enough food for the whole journey, but no, I only packed enough to make it to the next town. I had to steal my way to survive. Go figure, old habits die hard. Yeah, yeah, I forgot to take some gil from my dad along the way. Let's just say my spare change isn't enough. Here I am, on my way to Cloud and Tifa's house in Nibelheim. I wasn't even sure that they still live there. Now, you might wonder, why didn't I just ask them through the PHS? I'm Yuffie. I lost it a while ago. No surprise there, huh? I swear, if they're not in Nibelheim, I'm going to kill something.
Gawd, why in the world do these mountains have to be so cold!? Thank Leviathan, I've passed through the dangerous areas already, and without meeting any monsters either! Imagine that, I finally had a spark of luck! And there's Cloud and Tifa's house...
My face fell. And I read the note: Honeymoon at Costa Del Sol Villa, won't be back for a while! I kicked the wall of their house, and then held my foot in pain, muttering curses at the two who really didn't do a thing.
And so, I'm walking through the Nibel Mountains, AGAIN, this time, wondering how I'll make it to Costa Del Sol again. Then I stopped abruptly. Just great. A pack of wolves waiting for me, how many are there? 10, 12? Just dandy. I see their legs shuffle slightly and dig itself slightly deeper in the snow for more a more steady hold. I've seen that many times when I've observed Red, or Nanaki, in battle. They were getting ready to attack. I held my shuriken firmly and got ready. I made the first move, my shuriken flying through the air quickly, then flying back to me. Two wolves down. They're all closing in on me. I guess it's time for some close range battle with some dogs. I smirk to myself. I'm pretty sure Godo sure as hell never did this.
One by one, with a shuriken in hand, I slice at them, slash at them, block their claws, etc. I admit it's tiring, and that I'm starting to lose. These things just won't die. They keep getting back up, or were they just being replaced by more of their kind? I don't care, I can't see anymore. Everything's a blur, I just keep hacking away. Then I gasp as I notice a wolf behind me already raising its claw at me. That'll ruin me. Maybe I should've concentrated more on the battle instead of Godo. I close my eyes and waited for the blow.
Bang!
That didn't sound like a wolf... I open my eyes, and I've never felt so relieved in my life. The wolf was dead, sprawled out in front of me. My savior, the red-cloaked dark hero, stood a few feet away directly behind the dead wolf, with an unreadable expression on his face. The other wolves seemed to have stopped their assault and started backing away at the sight of him. The wolves don't matter anymore. Not anymore now that he's here.
"Vinnie!" And at that point, I felt all my stress and thoughts of Godo disappear. I ran at him and tackled him with a huge hug. And I was back to me, the great ninja, and materia thief, Yuffie Kisaragi.
I bet Godo never did something like this.
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be.
Hey there people! This is the prequel to My Immortal: A Vincent and Yuffie story. Sorry it's out of order, but I hadn't been planning to do a prequel, or a sequel, or anything, until someone had suggested it. I hope you enjoyed this prequel. And there's an epilogue of the sequel 'Bring Me to Life' in progress as you read this. And again, I'm working on it since someone requested it. I hope you all look forward to it!
