Starting Over: Love never goes our way

By: Bree-2006

Chapter 10

Disclaimer: I don't own Sailormoon

AN: Wow, reviews, my inspiration! Thank you all so much for all the incouragement. And so here, just for you, I present Chapter ten revised and ready for you! Thank you all so much u rock!


Usagi stepped into a boutique called "Les feathera" looked around observing the atmosphere. She stared at the materials that they would most likely be using on her.

She then was grabbed by an unknown person.

"Oh my gosh! You're Serena! Oh my gosh!" The unknown woman screamed, shaking Usagi's hand violently.

"Um...yeah I'm Serena" Usagi replied scratching the back of her head absentmidedly. The woman squealed.

"I am your hugest, hugest fan, I just love you!" Usagi laughed.

"I'm so glad to hear I have a huge fan." she replied, putting on a smile.

"Well I've got to go get my hair done if you don't mind." Usagi stated trying to move around the girl. She stopped her in mid way and pushed her over into an unoccupied seat.

"Oh! Would you mind if I did your hair for you, free of charge…" she asked timidly, placing her hands together in a pleading stance

"Oh, and by the way my name is Yuna" Usagi grinned and made herself confortable in the chair.

"I would love that, but I must pay you, it just wouldn't feel right." Yuna laughed and nodded.

"Whatever you want." With a gentle smile she set to work on Usagi's hair.

Usagi sat still. She had never gotten her hair cut in her life. Maybe a few trims here and there, but this completely and utterly scared her out of her mind.

'Please don't cut my ear off!' she prayed silently. 'Oh my god what if they cut my hair uneven or just ruins it entirely?' She asked herself, taking a deep breath. She felt the tug of the brush and cringed slightly.

"There's one." Yuna counted. Usagi breathed a sigh of relief.

'That wasn't too bad.' Before Usagi knew it Yuna had finished, it had only taken forty five minutes, but to Usagi it seemed like hours.

Usagi had gotten her hair layered and colored, her hair was no longer long and golden, but a dark brown with red highlights. It was to her mid back and looked more exotic than Usagi was used to. It looked flawless with Usagi's milky skin and ocean blue eyes. If it was different to Usagi then she knew if she was to run into any of her old friends, there was no possible way to recognize her.

She happily paid the bill and signed an autograph for her stylist.

Usagi walked back to the home she shared with Yaten, Taiki, and Seiya. She sighed, why was she feeling weird every time Seiya walked by or accidentally bumped into her? She couldn't figure it out; everything she had first thought about Seiya had changed. She thought Seiya was a handsome, mysterious, yet a generous man, now she had a feeling that he wasn't being as wonderful as she had first thought he was.

The seven month pregnant beauty walked down the streets towards her home in California. So far no one had asked for an autograph or a picture which made Usagi realizes that the new look was really paying off.

She just hoped there was no news in Tokyo about the newest member of the lights. She would just die if they knew where she was, and that she was pregnant. Usagi held back the tears that had crawled into the creases in her cerulean eyes. "Them" The people back home that she had once called her best friends, now the only one she could depend on was herself, and Motoki.

Usagi had finally reached the front door to her home, when something had caught her wrist. She tried to squirm out of the person's strong grasp, but with no avail. Usagi gave up; she turned and found herself looking into familiar eyes.

"Usagi? I-is that you-you look so different" the man said "Seiya! You scared the crap out of me!" Usagi held her unbound hand up over her beating heart.

"I'm sorry." he said simply. Usagi tried pulling away, but he still had her by her wrist. "Seiya what are you doing? You-your hurting me!" she yelled still trying to pull away. Seiya smiled an evil smile causing Usagi to cringe. Usagi couldn't believe it, before she had anything else to say, Seiya had pinned her to the door his lips touching hers.

"No!" Usagi tried to scream. It came out barely auditable due to his lips still touching hers. Before Usagi could scream anymore the door burst open.

"What the hell!"

Usagi, who had been pinned to the wall, quickly pushed Seiya off of her. Her face was red with tears escaping her ocean blue eyes, and her eyes were puffy, her shirt was torn and she was holding it together with her hands.

Usagi Ran behind Taiki, Holding tightly to his shirt. Taiki, stood his ground.

"Taiki, why are you here?" Seiya asked slowly, and after a brief silence. Taiki didn't answer the question, he just stared at Seiya. Taiki was pissed. Seiya, feeling threatened, ran towards the door only to come face to face with Usagi's fist. Seiya screamed and covered his nose. Usagi had probably broken his nose.

"Don't show your face here again!" Taiki screamed as he tried to comfort a shaking Usagi. Seiya nodded as he held his nose, and in a matter of seconds he was out the door.

"Usagi? Are you alright?" Taiki asked. Usagi nodded still holding her shirt. Although Usagi told Taiki she was ok, he didn't believe her.

"Usagi, I know you're lying to me. Please tell me the truth, I'm your friend here, I won't hurt you." Taiki smiled down at her, hoping to get the truth out of her. Usagi looked at him, her new brown hair shining in the rooms light.

"Of course I'm not alright, why should I tell you anything? All my friends have ever done is hurt me, why should I trust you?" She nearly screamed to him.

"Because not everyone is like that." he told her "Not everyone is out to hurt you, and I know that deep inside...you know that's the honest truth."

Usagi sighed, he was right, her trust in people was disappearing and this scared
her.

"You're right, I'm just afraid of getting hurt." Usagi mumbled him, as she walked up the stairs to her room. She needed to change her shirt, after Seiya had nearly ripped it off of her.

After Usagi had walked up stairs, she changed her shirt and fell asleep on her bed. The nights events had brought up feelings that Usagi never wanted to remember again.

Usagi's Dream

Usagi ran down the Tokyo streets, her golden hair flying softly in the wind. She had once again gotten detention and was late for another sailor meeting.

"Usagi, where the hell have you been? You're thirty minutes late!" Raye screamed.

"How are we supposed to depend on you if you don't even show up to our meetings on time?" Usagi shook the sweat from her forehead.

"I'm sorry." She mumbled sheepishly.

"The hell you're sorry, if you were sorry you would have shown up on time." Mamoru had told her.

"Mamo-chan not you too" Usagi said

"Don't Mamo-chan me Usagi, Why can't you just grow up! Take some god damnresponsibility for a change" She gasped at his words. Him of all people.

"Don't you love me anymore Mamoru?"

"I'm not sure, maybe if you grow up I'll love you as much as you want me to."

Usagi was speechless, beyond speechless, she was dead inside, her own boyfriend had told her to grow up and her best friend had turned on her as well.

She didn't even want to live anymore, ran out as fast as she could, not even knowing where she was going.

Usagi jumped out of bed, in her little dream not far from her mind. She yawned and stretched. She didn't want to think about it.

It was now 7:00 in the morning and Usagi needed to get out, she didn't want to be alone with her thoughts, maybe a little clothes shopping would bring up her spirit.

Usagi made it down the stairs and was greeted by Taiki and Yaten. Yaten stared at her sadly, Apparently Taiki had told him about the incident.

Usagi walked up to the two of them and gave them both a reassuring hug. Smiling she told them that she needed to get out on her own for a little while. After telling her to call them from her cell if there was a problem, she left.

She walked out of the front door. Maybe it wasn't such a good idea to be out of the house alone, when you were just attacked by one of your supposed to be friends, being by yourself was always a bad idea..

Usagi sighed, why was she having such a problem with men? Sure she had grown more mature, not only in mind but body as well. Yet every man she met, or fell in love with, broke her heart. Yes, although she wasn't seeing Seiya in a romantic way, he had still broken her heart.

She began to believe she would never find a man that would love her for her. As Usagi walked down the streets of San Francisco, she replayed the past year in her head. Being impregnated by her suppose to be "True love"...Finding him in their apartment with her best friend, doing what Usagi thought her and Mamoru would do. Also running away for a better life, which hadn't gone according to planned. Usagi wondered why she had really ran away, why couldn't she have stayed and faced the man who had betrayed her. Now it was "men" that had betrayed her.

Usagi was taken out of her thoughts when an excruciating pain hit her stomach.

"No! This can't be happening…" a 7 month pregnant Usagi screamed. "It's not time yet! I'm only at 7 months!" screaming in pain she collapsed on the pavement. People began to
stare at her, wondering what they could do for the poor pregnant woman...but, for some reason, not one stopped. Usagi was alone.

"Help!" Usagi yelled, as she pulled out her cell phone. She began to dial the number of the house she had walked out of only moments ago.


"Yeah" the voice on the other side of the line asked. Usagi clung onto her purse.

"The baby, it's coming!" Yaten's eyes bulged as he called Taiki into the room.

"Usa...calm down."

"Yaten what's going on? Is Usagi ok?" Taiki said in the back ground. Yaten nodded to him and told Usagi

"Please get down to oaks street, Yaten it hurts!" Without another word the boys ran out of the house.

'We're on our way Usagi.'


Revised:

6-14-05