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FINDING OUT
"Did Sirius ever get the chance to get him back?"
"Not for that, no. I stopped him from doing it."
"Why?"
"Because I didn't want him to get into any trouble. I'm pretty sure that if he had done something else wrong that year that he would have gotten expelled and I didn't want that to happen." Harry's brain was still racked with question and he wouldn't leave until he got them all answered.
"So, you started dating Sirius in school… were you still together after?" Her face fell slightly. She hadn't expected that question.
"Yes. Actually, we were to be married."
"Married?" Harry was surprised at this. "What happened?"
"Voldemort." She said, plainly. This surprised Harry even more when he heard her say the Dark Lord's name. He'd never heard anyone say it as if they didn't care about it. He let her continue, though. "Sirius knew that Lily and James were in trouble and he needed to help… I begged him not to go; I suppose I was just being selfish. He told me that he had to help them and that I should stay put; he was just trying to protect me. I reluctantly agreed and gave him the engagement ring he had given me for luck… some luck it was… Your parents were dead and Sirius was going to Azkaban, because he was being blamed for it."
"Did you believe that he did it?"
"Not for a moment. I know that he would play cruel jokes on people, but that's all that they were: jokes. He could never kill anyone… I tried to tell the Ministry of Magic, but they wouldn't listen to me."
"Did you have proof that he didn't do it?" She shook her head.
"No. But, even if I did, they still wouldn't have listened to me because of what I am. Even if I am half-witch, they could only see that I was part-vampire and they didn't care about what I had to say." Harry noticed that she was almost on the verge of tears; it would be the first time that he had ever seen one of his teachers cry. But, she pushed the tears back so she could continue.
"What did you do after Sirius was taken away?"
"I… I defended him from a far. I left England and went to live with my father for a while. I hadn't realized how long I'd been there until I got the owl from Dumbledore, asking me whether I would come to teach or not."
"What made you decide to come?"
"I suppose I needed to get out of the rut I was in. When I heard that Sirius was dead, I didn't know what to do."
"You really loved him, didn't you?" She nodded.
"I did. He was one of the first people I met who didn't judge me for what I was and I loved him for that; I still do. I just wish I knew what had happened at the Ministry the day that he died." Harry looked bewildered.
"You mean, you don't know?" She shook her head.
"No. Since my father is a vampire, he didn't have too much of a connection with the Ministry of Magic."
"And Dumbledore never told you?"
"No." She said, quietly. He stared at her in amazement. Of all the people not to know what happened to Sirius, Harry at least expected her to know. Of course, he wasn't totally positive that she was telling the truth, but it seemed true for the moment.
As he told her the story, her eyes got wider with every word. "He was very brave." He said, finishing the story.
"I'll bet he was. He always had so much courage." Harry began to feel as though it was his doing that was making her so sad and he began to apologize.
"It's all my fault that he went to the Ministry that day. You have no one to blame but me!" Her eyes went wide in shock.
"Harry, it's not your fault! He went to protect you. Sirius loved you from the day you were born. He would always say that he would teach you all he knew about being a prankster. Of course, Lily wasn't too pleased about that… I don't know what makes you think this is your fault, but I ask you that you don't."
"But, I was in trouble and he came to rescue me."
"That's because you are the only one who could save the wizarding world from Voldemort's wrath. He didn't want you to get killed, because if that happened, no one would be safe."
"I just wish I knew how I was supposed to defeat Voldemort. I'm just a kid and he's a fully grown wizard… I'm done for."
"Don't say those kinds of things. If you believe that, then it will most certainly happen. I want you to remember Harry that you are only as small as you feel."
