I changed my story into two because it was getting quite long. The
continuation is called Hiding in a Lie....please look there for all future
updates!!!! And yes it is updated ;)
Chapter Twenty-One
Alex had gotten no sleep that night. The words 'I'm sorry' kept running through her head. What the hell was he sorry for? Sorry that he didn't love her? Sorry that she had fallen for him? Sorry that she wasn't good enough for him? Alex had no clue and she was beyond pissed.
Half the night she had spent crying to her pillow. The other half was spent packing her things and making arrangements to get back to the States. Luckily enough, there was an open seat on a muggle airline that would take her to Chicago with only one layover. Alex knew that she probably wasn't doing the right thing by running away. She should probably march right down to the dungeons and demand answers from him. But she couldn't do that. Alex had done the thing that she had been praying that she wouldn't do: make a fool out of herself.
So here she was, at sunrise, packing up the last of her belongings. Alex had thought that for a moment, he had actually cared about her. Now she knew that he only thought of her as a foolish little girl.
"Are you ready my dear?" Dumbledore asked standing in the doorway. Alex nodded and quickly did a spell that shrunk down her luggage so that she could just fit it in her pocket. Gathering up everything, she turned to the Headmaster.
"I want to thank you, for everything." she said softly.
"No reason to be sentimental, my dear. I am sure that we will be seeing each other again, someday." Dumbledore said smiling gently at her. He took her arm in his and led her from the room and out into the hallway. The rest of the staff was waiting at the front entrance, well almost the entire staff. There was one person who seemed to be missing, and Dumbledore didn't think that he was about to show up anytime soon. And a pity it was because he knew that Snape had stronger feelings for the girl, but who knows what goes on in that man's head.
"I really do hope so." Alex said and they walked silently through the deserted corridors. The students were still asleep. Alex was even surprised that the staff was up and was meeting to see her off. When they had reached the front door, Alex couldn't help but look around, hoping that Snape would be there. She had hoped that he would come and stop her from leaving but of course that didn't happen.
"I can't believe you're leaving!" Fiona cried rushing forward to hug Alex tightly.
"I know, but you can always come visit me in the States." Alex replied, trying to sound like her usually happy self.
"Maybe we will, over summer vacation." Remus said smiling gently. As Fiona let her go, she found herself face to face with Lia, who quickly pulled her aside out of the other's earshot.
"Now would you care to explain to me what the hell is going on?" she demanded. "Did you even tell him your feelings last night?"
"Yes, as a matter of fact, I did." Alex frowned, not up for the third degree from Lia.
"So... then why are you leaving? And why isn't he here?" she asked. Alex could fell the hurt building up again and she silently yelled at herself that this was not the time to cry.
"Well, I don't know. What do you get out of the phrase 'I'm sorry'?"
"What?" Lia asked slightly confused. She was sure that Snape loved the girl and she couldn't understand what had gone wrong. But then again, neither did Alex.
"That is what he said to me when I told him that I love him. And then he left me there, in the middle of the garden."
"Why of all the.... wait until I get my hands on him!" Lia yelled. The insensitive bastard! Of course he would screw up like this!
"Lia, it doesn't matter. I am going home and I will never see him again. And eventually, I will get over him." Alex sighed.
"Well you better write!" she replied drawing her friend into a hug. She knew that Alex was hurting more then she let show and she could help but feel sorry for her.
"Of course I will." Alex smiled.
"Alex, you better get going or you'll miss your flight." Remus spoke up. Alex nodded and drew her cloak tight around her since it was bitter cold outside. Waving goodbye, she set out across the school grounds to where the carriage was waiting to take her to Hogsmeade. From there, she would set out for muggle London.
The sun was rising and cast a warm light on the castle. As she turned around for one last look, she spotted a dark figure up in the tallest tower of the castle. It was also the nearest one to the dungeon entrance. Alex could feel her heart tighten in her chest but forced herself not to cry. She wouldn't allow him to have that kind of hold of her no longer. She was stronger then that.
Snape watched as Alex climbed into the carriage and quickly disappeared from sight. He knew that she saw him and he could not help but feel more loss in that moment, then he had ever felt growing up. If only things could have been different... but it wasn't possible. At least she was now safe. She would be able to get a nice teaching job somewhere, where she would be safe from the upcoming war.
"What the bloody hell do you think you're doing?" Lia cried out, appearing in he tower doorway. Snape sighed inwardly. He should have known that Lia would come and find him.
"Can I help you with something?" he replied, not taking his eyes away from where he had seen Alex.
"Yeah, you can explain to me why you are up here and not trying to stop her from leaving." She stated moving to stand next to him. It was freezing up in the tower and Lia idly wished that she had brought a heavier cloak with her.
"Stop her? Why would I stop her?" Snape question coldly.
"Hm... maybe because you love her? Wow. There's a thought. Stopping the woman you love from leaving before you make the biggest mistake of your life?!" she shot back, her voice heavy with sarcasm.
"Haven't you heard the rumors, Lia? I am incapable of love." Snape sneered, his hands clenched tightly into fists. He had, in fact, already made the biggest mistake of his life already. Joining side with Voldemort and now he was still paying for his transgressions.
"Oh shut your mouth! You and I both know that that's not true. If this is an attempt at being unselfish for once, you have definitely picked the wrong time to do it."
"You have no idea what you are talking about." He frowned.
"Actually I think I know more then you think I do. That necklace, for instance, you didn't tell Alex that the charm actually contains a very powerful protection charm. So why the unselfishness, Severus?" Lia asked rather arrogantly. Being married to Sirius was starting to rub off on her.
"This is not an act of unselfishness. In fact, it is the complete opposite. I am being selfish because I want to keep her safe and by pushing her away, I am. I refuse to let her get hurt because of me and I know that if she is back over in the States, Voldemort will not gain any knowledge of her. And I won't have to have any added guilt on my shoulders." Why was he confiding in her? He didn't know but it felt good to say everything he was holding in, out loud.
"Are you so thick that you don't think that Voldemort isn't going to invade the United States as well as England. Hell, I wouldn't be surprised if he already has followers over there now! Alex is a powerful witch and is going to catch attention whither she is there or here in England. Severus, you can't protect her." Lia argued. When he refused to respond, she continued on her tirade.
"You know what? I think that you are just scared. Scared of taking a bloody chance, for once. You have locked yourself up in those dungeons for far too long and when finally someone gets through to you, you go and bloody mess everything up!"
"You would do well to keep your mind on your own affairs, and bloody well stop sticking your nose in mine." Snape growled and then stormed from the tower back down to the dungeons, her words still ringing in his ears.
THE END! Or not...Read the sequal, Hiding in a Lie to see what happens next!!!
Chapter Twenty-One
Alex had gotten no sleep that night. The words 'I'm sorry' kept running through her head. What the hell was he sorry for? Sorry that he didn't love her? Sorry that she had fallen for him? Sorry that she wasn't good enough for him? Alex had no clue and she was beyond pissed.
Half the night she had spent crying to her pillow. The other half was spent packing her things and making arrangements to get back to the States. Luckily enough, there was an open seat on a muggle airline that would take her to Chicago with only one layover. Alex knew that she probably wasn't doing the right thing by running away. She should probably march right down to the dungeons and demand answers from him. But she couldn't do that. Alex had done the thing that she had been praying that she wouldn't do: make a fool out of herself.
So here she was, at sunrise, packing up the last of her belongings. Alex had thought that for a moment, he had actually cared about her. Now she knew that he only thought of her as a foolish little girl.
"Are you ready my dear?" Dumbledore asked standing in the doorway. Alex nodded and quickly did a spell that shrunk down her luggage so that she could just fit it in her pocket. Gathering up everything, she turned to the Headmaster.
"I want to thank you, for everything." she said softly.
"No reason to be sentimental, my dear. I am sure that we will be seeing each other again, someday." Dumbledore said smiling gently at her. He took her arm in his and led her from the room and out into the hallway. The rest of the staff was waiting at the front entrance, well almost the entire staff. There was one person who seemed to be missing, and Dumbledore didn't think that he was about to show up anytime soon. And a pity it was because he knew that Snape had stronger feelings for the girl, but who knows what goes on in that man's head.
"I really do hope so." Alex said and they walked silently through the deserted corridors. The students were still asleep. Alex was even surprised that the staff was up and was meeting to see her off. When they had reached the front door, Alex couldn't help but look around, hoping that Snape would be there. She had hoped that he would come and stop her from leaving but of course that didn't happen.
"I can't believe you're leaving!" Fiona cried rushing forward to hug Alex tightly.
"I know, but you can always come visit me in the States." Alex replied, trying to sound like her usually happy self.
"Maybe we will, over summer vacation." Remus said smiling gently. As Fiona let her go, she found herself face to face with Lia, who quickly pulled her aside out of the other's earshot.
"Now would you care to explain to me what the hell is going on?" she demanded. "Did you even tell him your feelings last night?"
"Yes, as a matter of fact, I did." Alex frowned, not up for the third degree from Lia.
"So... then why are you leaving? And why isn't he here?" she asked. Alex could fell the hurt building up again and she silently yelled at herself that this was not the time to cry.
"Well, I don't know. What do you get out of the phrase 'I'm sorry'?"
"What?" Lia asked slightly confused. She was sure that Snape loved the girl and she couldn't understand what had gone wrong. But then again, neither did Alex.
"That is what he said to me when I told him that I love him. And then he left me there, in the middle of the garden."
"Why of all the.... wait until I get my hands on him!" Lia yelled. The insensitive bastard! Of course he would screw up like this!
"Lia, it doesn't matter. I am going home and I will never see him again. And eventually, I will get over him." Alex sighed.
"Well you better write!" she replied drawing her friend into a hug. She knew that Alex was hurting more then she let show and she could help but feel sorry for her.
"Of course I will." Alex smiled.
"Alex, you better get going or you'll miss your flight." Remus spoke up. Alex nodded and drew her cloak tight around her since it was bitter cold outside. Waving goodbye, she set out across the school grounds to where the carriage was waiting to take her to Hogsmeade. From there, she would set out for muggle London.
The sun was rising and cast a warm light on the castle. As she turned around for one last look, she spotted a dark figure up in the tallest tower of the castle. It was also the nearest one to the dungeon entrance. Alex could feel her heart tighten in her chest but forced herself not to cry. She wouldn't allow him to have that kind of hold of her no longer. She was stronger then that.
Snape watched as Alex climbed into the carriage and quickly disappeared from sight. He knew that she saw him and he could not help but feel more loss in that moment, then he had ever felt growing up. If only things could have been different... but it wasn't possible. At least she was now safe. She would be able to get a nice teaching job somewhere, where she would be safe from the upcoming war.
"What the bloody hell do you think you're doing?" Lia cried out, appearing in he tower doorway. Snape sighed inwardly. He should have known that Lia would come and find him.
"Can I help you with something?" he replied, not taking his eyes away from where he had seen Alex.
"Yeah, you can explain to me why you are up here and not trying to stop her from leaving." She stated moving to stand next to him. It was freezing up in the tower and Lia idly wished that she had brought a heavier cloak with her.
"Stop her? Why would I stop her?" Snape question coldly.
"Hm... maybe because you love her? Wow. There's a thought. Stopping the woman you love from leaving before you make the biggest mistake of your life?!" she shot back, her voice heavy with sarcasm.
"Haven't you heard the rumors, Lia? I am incapable of love." Snape sneered, his hands clenched tightly into fists. He had, in fact, already made the biggest mistake of his life already. Joining side with Voldemort and now he was still paying for his transgressions.
"Oh shut your mouth! You and I both know that that's not true. If this is an attempt at being unselfish for once, you have definitely picked the wrong time to do it."
"You have no idea what you are talking about." He frowned.
"Actually I think I know more then you think I do. That necklace, for instance, you didn't tell Alex that the charm actually contains a very powerful protection charm. So why the unselfishness, Severus?" Lia asked rather arrogantly. Being married to Sirius was starting to rub off on her.
"This is not an act of unselfishness. In fact, it is the complete opposite. I am being selfish because I want to keep her safe and by pushing her away, I am. I refuse to let her get hurt because of me and I know that if she is back over in the States, Voldemort will not gain any knowledge of her. And I won't have to have any added guilt on my shoulders." Why was he confiding in her? He didn't know but it felt good to say everything he was holding in, out loud.
"Are you so thick that you don't think that Voldemort isn't going to invade the United States as well as England. Hell, I wouldn't be surprised if he already has followers over there now! Alex is a powerful witch and is going to catch attention whither she is there or here in England. Severus, you can't protect her." Lia argued. When he refused to respond, she continued on her tirade.
"You know what? I think that you are just scared. Scared of taking a bloody chance, for once. You have locked yourself up in those dungeons for far too long and when finally someone gets through to you, you go and bloody mess everything up!"
"You would do well to keep your mind on your own affairs, and bloody well stop sticking your nose in mine." Snape growled and then stormed from the tower back down to the dungeons, her words still ringing in his ears.
THE END! Or not...Read the sequal, Hiding in a Lie to see what happens next!!!
