A/N: This chapter will be done in Jamie's POV.

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They think I killed Landon, my sweet Landon. I had to watch him die...they think I enjoyed it! I can't even begin to describe the pain and hurt I feel. I mean I loved him, I really did. But now he's dead and I have to stay in this prison for the rest of my life.

He said nothing bad would happen to me, he said we'd get through it together...but we didn't I made it alive. At night I find myself thinking I would be better off dead, but no God spared me.

This prison is horrible! I mean I have two cellmates that I swear are plotting to kill me. I find myself waking up late in the night and they're just glaring at me, it gives me the creeps to tell you the truth.

I still remember the first day I arrived in the cell. "Who are you and what're ya in for?" the first girl known as Ivy asked me.

"I'm Jamie Sullivan and I'm in here for first degree murder." I replied softly.

"You think that scares us?" the second girl known as Blaze asked. They called her Blaze because her hair was a blazing red color.

"No, I never said it was supposed to scare you," I said turning away from them.

"Hey girl don't turn away from me!" Ivy shouted pulling me hard by my arm.

"Ouch you bitch stop that!" I snapped.

Blaze said something in return but I couldn't hear her over the slap she gave me. Of course I tried fighting back but it was a two on one fight, we fought for at least ten minutes before the guard came to break it up.

Everyday I find myself thinking about what could have happened, I guess you could say I play the 'what if' game. I think what if Landon and I had called the cops instead of taking it into our own hands.

I also think what if I had been shot instead of Landon, or what if he lived. And the one I find myself thinking most what if I had never met Landon. True I would have never loved but he would still be alive. Well that one and what if I didn't go to that conference were pondered most.

"Whatcha thinkin about?" Ivy said grinning evilly.

"None of your damn business." I replied, just like I did everyday.

This reply of course took us to our everyday two on one fight. "You girls need to stop this bullshit," the guard said, like she did everyday.

The number one thing I do during the day is think of my poor brother Jacob. I left him there all alone, I mean I'm the only one who really understands him. They tell me he's in a foster home and his parents are a really sweet couple.

His letters tell me different.

Like this last one I got read:

Jamie,

I don't know what to do anymore. My new 'family' is horrible. They took me out of my old school and put me in a private school where we have to wear uniforms! They also took basketball away from me...my passion, it was my way out, my way to become something better. My so-called mother says it rots the mind. I told her to go to hell and she slapped me. She fucking slapped me! I stormed out of the house but my 'sister' found me hours later. When I got home I was beaten and grounded. I sent in a complaint to the agency and thankfully I'm getting a new home next month. I wish you were still here to care for me Jamie, I know you didn't kill Landon. It was Hunter, you could have just told me...I could have at least tried to help you. I hope to see you sometime soon, or even later.

Jacob

I read the letter only once and broke down, which wasn't a smart thing to do. "Aw what's the matter Jamie Wamie?" Blaze asked wrapping an arm around my shoulder.

"Fuck you!" I shouted.

That little outburst caused me a punch in the face, and that punch caused a black eye.

I really hate it here, I wish god hadn't been so hard on me, I mean all my life all I ever did was try and live up to his expectations.

****Hey guys! That's it, there isn't anymore. For real, I'm finished, what did you guys think? I know this fic took a horrible twist but that's how I wanted it to go. I'm so happy that most of you stayed with me...and for those of you that didn't I really don't give a care. Anyhow now that this fic is done another one can appear and I promise one will...I'm working on it now it shall be called More to Life. Anyway keep your eyes open for it!