It began with a fortune cookie

Chapter 8: Emotional Struggles

The weekend ended VERY quickly making Angel groan as she tried to finish her homework in the library.

"I hate math, any form of math, any method of math, any mathematical formula and anything that has to do with the damn subject." Angel moaned while trying to finish her Algebra II homework.

"You shouldn't have been so ga ga with your cousins during the weekend and you would have been able to do you work." Hiei said while helping her.

"I've been trying to come up with a way of how you can get back to your world." Angel said bringing out a long roll of physic and mathematical formulas of possible dimension jumping.

"How can you do all of this?" Hiei asked.

"I had help." Angel said while writing down more formulas.

"What kind of help?" Hiei asked.

"Premonition, last week, 30 years into the future. The barrier of light is able to be penetrated and dimension leaping is possible for humans." Angel said while fixing her glasses back to the bridge of her nose.

"Hey nerd! When are you going to get an F?" A guy asked while grabbing her pencil and glasses.

"HEY!!! GIVE THOSE BACK YOU BAKAYARO!!" Angel yelled.

Hiei saw the guy take her pencil and glasses and started a chase. Angel ran out of the library after the guy. Hiei rolled the paper up and put her books in her bag to follow her. Angel chased after the guy until she found herself in the baseball field.

"A nerd like you needs a lesson." The guy said advancing towards her.

"Give me my glasses back you bastard!" Angel yelled punching the guy.

Hiei saw the guy trying to hit on her and felt his blood boil. Angel decked the guy again and was able to retrieve her glasses and pencil.

"A person's future depends on my research. So back off perv." Angel said while walking away.

"Hey Angel what's wrong? You look angry." Brett asked.

"It's nothing." Angel lied while walking away.

For the whole night after school ended Angel was at her computer desk calculating and coming up with a solution. Hiei came back into the room after swimming to see her there.

"Man there's one part missing. But what is it? I remember everything but . . . oh shit." Angel said before clutching her head.

"Angel what's wrong?" Hiei asked sensing her spirit power raising.

"Another premonition." Angel said while her elbows rested on her desk.

"Why is it that you're suddenly getting more of them?" Hiei asked.

"I don't know." She replied before taking her pencil back into her hands and writing down what the premonition was about.

"Mass murder of humans? You come up with very dreary ones." Hiei said.

"Well I have no choice over-" Angel was cut off as Sarah, Lyndsay, Jessie, Boo boo, Austin, and Nick came in.

"YU YU HAKUSHO IS ON!!! WATCH IT WITH US!!!" The 6 yelled.

"Alright I guess I can finish this after some anime." Angel said.

"Some?! Girl you've been working on your project for nearly 3 days in a row with no sleep now. You need some Jap anime treatment as well as some green tea. Wait a minute you drank it all. Well mom got you some more. I'll get you a mug you just sit here." Lyndsay said while running off to the kitchen.

"The life of an older sister. A blessing yet a curse." Angel said.

After Lyndsay came back on Yu Yu Hakusho came on and everyone was criticizing the show's editing.

"Hiei's so hot." Lyndsay said.

"Shorty." Sarah said.

"Damn it!!! This is the 7th episode where they have Hiei and Genkai in the tent. I wanna see the dragon of darkness attack again." Angel said waving her fist towards the TV.

"Shorty's stuck." Sarah said.

"Stop calling him short. I bet he could kick your rear end any day." Angel said.

"But still, he's short. Observe. In the manga it's says that he's this tall, while I'm this tall. See a difference?" Sarah asked.

"Height isn't a factor when it comes to a fighter's ability seesh. Many people mostly boys underestimate us females to be great fighters." Angel said in front of Sarah's face.

Hiei watched the two sisters argue about a fighter's ability.

"You're missing it!" Boo boo said.

"Missing what?" The two asked.

"The Leprechaun!" Nick, Jessie, Boo Boo, and Lyndsay said.

"Oy!" Angel said smacking her forehead.

"Where's me pot o' gold?" Sarah mimicked Jin's accent.

"Yeah! Where is it?" Angel said laughing.

Hiei chuckled at the 7-laughing humans in the room who were holding their sides. At least until Jin gave Yusuke a punch.

"Now that was a cheap shot!!! And totally edited!" Angel said.

"Yeah!! Where's the violence? Where's the butt kicking action? Where's the bloodspray? Where's the praying mantis?" Sarah asked.

"Praying mantis?" Hiei questioned.

"She's talking about Zorak, Ho-kun." Angel said with a smile.

"BRAK SHOW!!!" Sarah yelled.

When Yu Yu Hakusho ended Angel went straight to her computer desk and turned her computer on. Through she didn't have Internet she could still use her computer for research. Hiei heard clicking from behind him as he was doing his 'homework' and saw Angel there working on the roll of calculations as well as designing something.

"What are you doing?" He asked while resting a hand on her shoulder.

"Trying to design a hand-held dimension leap portal. I almost remember all the calculations from my premonition so you can soon be back where you were at the Dark Tournament." Angel said while rubbing her tired eyes.

"You shouldn't wear yourself out." He said.

"You want to get back home and I did say that I was going to help you so let me help you. If I was in your situation I'd want to be home too." Angel said while putting a cd into the CD-ROM and plugging in headphones.

Hiei watched as she started to type quickly on the keyboard. H watched as fast text zoomed past the screen. Hours passed and it was near midnight. She was still working on her research while nibbling on a piece of toasted bread. She was humming from her music as Hiei could hear the song through the headphones. Listening to Jennifer Lopez's 'Ain't It Funny' and feeling down as she typed more on the research Angel felt herself tearing. Grabbing a nearby tissue box she quickly wiped the tears and continued with her research. Changing the songs a few times she found one that seemed to suit her most in this unknown depressed state. It's a song by 'tAtU' called 'Show me love'

This was an accident
That the kind where sirens sound
Never even noticed
We're suddenly crumbling

Tell me how you've never felt
Delicate or innocent
Do you still have doubts that
Us having faith makes any sense

Tell me nothing really counts
Lashing out of breaking down
Still somebody loses cause
There's no way to turn around

Staring at your photograph
Everything now in the past
Never felt so lonely I
Wish that you could show me love

Show me love, show me love, show me love
Show me love me, show me love
'Till you open the door

Show me love, show me love, show me love
Show me love, show me love,
'Till I'm up off the floor

Show me love, show me love, show me love,
Show me love, show me love
'Till it's inside my pores

Show me love, show me love, show me love
Show me love, show me love
'Till I'm screaming for more

Random acts of mindlessness
Commonplace occurrences
Chances and surprises
Another state of consciousness

Tell me nothing ever counts
Lashing out or breaking down
Still somebody loses 'cause
There's no way to turn around

Tell me how you've never felt
Delicate or innocent
Do you still have doubts that
Us having faith makes any sense

You play game I play tricks Girls and boys (I edited it to fit Angel's unknown feelings), but you're
the one
Like a game of pickup sticks
Playing by f****** lunatics

Show love, show me love, show me love
Show me love, show me love
'Till you open the door

Show love, show me love, show me love
Show me love, show me love
'Till I'm up off the floor

Show love, show me love, show me love
Show me love, show me love
'Till it's inside my pores

Show love, show me love, show me love
Show me love, show me love
'Till I'm screaming for more

Angel looked away from the computer and saw that Hiei was looking at her as he rested on the air mattress with his arms under his head, which was propped up by a pillow. She turned and went back to her research as she listened to 'Boys II Men's 'I'll make love to you' and then stopped the song wondering why the hell she was so depressed. She hastily typed faster and faster as tears started to blur her vision. She took a drink of water as she took the tissue from earlier and wiped her tears away from her eyes. She was trying to figure out why she was crying at all. As she typed in two more formulas she solved the code. She smiled for a moment though as she remembered what she had to do with this broken code. Sure she broke the code but now she had to make the gadget and try to not scream in mental or emotional agony.

"You're finished?" Hiei asked seeing that her fingers stopped hitting the board hard.

"Yes, I'm finished for now." Angel said while closing her research folder and bringing up her story.

"What are you doing now?" Hiei asked.

"I'm going to work on my novel now." Angel said with a plastered smile.

Hiei could see past the obvious fake smile on her face. He stood up and removed her hands from the keyboard to feel them shaking from doing so much in 7 hours. It was now nearly 1 in the morning.

"You're tired. You need your rest for school. Now go lay down stupid human." He said harshly while removing her from the chair.

She didn't know that she'd have the machine not even half way done by the end of the school year.

"Fine I'll go to bed now. I just need to take something for my headache." Angel said moving from his arms and going out of the room.

Hiei saw the distraught look in the girl's eyes as she went out of the room. He looked at where she could sleep and wasn't at all affected that she would have to share the air mattress with him. Angel opened the cupboard doors and looked for a bottle of anti-depressants that were in there for a while that had never been touched. She took 1 out of the bottle and downed it quickly. She coughed from practically inhaling the water while swallowing the pill. She went to the bathroom and grabbed her clean pjs and changed before going back to her room. Seeing that sleeping next to him was unavoidable she stepped over the mattress to put her necklaces up. Hiei watched as she took her crucifix and silver necklace off. He noticed that she treated the silver necklace gingerly as she placed it on her dresser.

"Who gave you that silver necklace?" He couldn't help but ask.

"Rick gave it to me." Angel said, her eyes portraying sadness.

Hiei saw the sad pitiful look in her eyes as she stretched over him to turn the light off. He felt her lay down next to him.

"You cared for this 'Rick' a lot it seems." He said.

"I do. But the problem is . . . now all that happened. It seems like it was more like a brother/sister thing instead of a relationship between and guy and a girl. He's obviously forgotten about me." Angel said.

Hiei rested a hand onto her bare arm and saw something.

**What Hiei-kun saw**

He saw Angel with a guy that seemed to be from the same ethnic background picking her up and spinning her around in the air and making her laugh. They seemed so happy but something dark was lurking somewhere.

"I like you Rick. I like you alot." He saw Angel say to the guy.

That was it. She never saw him after that but only when he came by with the moving van to tell her goodbye. She hugged him tightly and told him to stay with her. But he pushed her back. He kissed her on the cheek and then went back into his parent's van and disappeared. Hiei saw Angel watch the van disappear and then saw her collapse to her knees and cry. More flashes of the better times of when they hung out came to light. Hiei saw how devastated she still was.

**Fin**

"I really did care for him. But he was too blind to see how I did care. People seem to flaw a lot when they're in love or if they are fond of someone to where they are only happy when they're around. When they leave that person never feels like they'll never be happy ever again." Angel said.

"Emotions are nothing but a bother." He said.

"Emotions . . . I hate them now. They can either turn a person bitter or turn them into a wailing willow from all the crying they do." Angel said before falling asleep.

**Written in the early dawn**

Why do I feel like I can relate with him? I don't know why I am getting so depressed. I don't know why I cry so hard when everyone, especially when he's not near. Am I breaking my silent vow? God help me.

**Fin de etapa**

. . . . .Poor girl is starting to fall in love. . . . .