Chapter Five: "It's just a promise on-one ever keeps"
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~ Haley
Ryan scooted to sit next to Marissa on the bed, who moved away at his closeness.
"Are you ready to talk to me?" Ryan asked trying to look her in her eye. Marissa didn't respond. "You know whatever you say will stay between you and me?" Ryan added, with that Marissa took a deep breath, she tried to speak but nothing came out. Not a tear fell from her eye, they had all been spent over the last couple weeks.
"I don't even know where to start." She said quietly eyes bolting back and forth as if they were a representation of all of her confusion.
"How about the eating?"
"That's always kind of been a given. All of the problems with food and me and all." She added, "I remember the first numbers that my mom taught me to count were calories. When I was in the third grade I started only eating the exact serving sizes. 55 Goldfish crackers, 86 Cheerios. But then it became a game to me. I would only eat half of the serving sizes. And then I would not eat at all. I mean, I got better with it all last year. But I don't know everything just like. I donno, fell apart again I guess." She said tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.
There was a silence.
"And you and your mother?" Ryan asked
"I was never good enough for her. She was really young when she had me and all. I don't know. We just never had that connection you know?" Marissa stopped and rubbed her eyes. "Well I guess you do know."
Marissa stopped and nervously played with her fingers. Ryan knew that she would only say something if she were asked to.
"What about Luke?"
Marissa sunk down into the bed and snuggled up in the covers. Ryan scooted a little closer, but this time Marissa did not move away.
"Can we not talk about Luke right now please?" Marissa said, pain and annoyance evident in her voice.
"I think we need to. Seth told me that he saw you and Luke in the showers today at school, and what was going on was not exactly. mutual."
Marissa didn't respond she just lay there.
"Marissa is what Seth told me true?"
Ryan could feel Marissa's body begin to shake next to him, as her body was over come by sobs. Right then he knew.
"Shh, baby it's going to be okay." He said pulling her into his lap. "Shh." He whispered into her ear. "It will all be okay. Luke will never get away with this."
Marissa backed up from Ryan with fascinating speed.
"You can NEVER tell anyone about this. This has to stay between you Seth and I."
"Marissa-"
"Honestly it would only make things worse Ryan. It's no big deal, he has done it before."
"What!" Ryan said almost hysterically. "How many times has he done this?"
"It doesn't matter." Marissa said moving against the headboard wiping fresh tears
"Yes Marissa it does, and you know it."
"I mean, . when we were going out. there were times," she took a deep breath, and then continued, "there were times that he wanted to, and I didn't. But that wasn't the same." She said suddenly focusing very hard on the hand nail hanging off of her pinky. "I mean we were going out., but now we're not. I guess he still thinks that I'm his.. He has done it twice since then.rap-" she sniffed, "He has raped me twice since then."
Ryan was taken aback. Twice? How could he have not known? Why didn't she come to him?
"When?"
".The time today. and once, . about a month ago, the night of Seths party, when I walked out on you." Marissa said her voice fading off. "Ironic isn't it?"
"Marissa you have to go to the hospital, you have to get a rape kit and-"
"Do you know who Luke is! Do you know who his father is! He would never get charged with anything. I let him do it to me when we were together and I did now!"
"You did not let him these two times! He took advantage of you!"
"Ryan, please. Just let it be."
"How do we know he won't do it again Marissa?"
"I think that he got all that he wanted." Marissa said her voice trailing off
"How."
"I know him. He's done with me. I saw him with Summer after school."
"I want to help you."
"Do you know how you can help me? Stay with me. Do not abandon me. Ryan right now you're the only person I trust, I mean besides Dylan, Seth and all but you know. Just be there."
". I'm going to take a walk." Ryan said leaving the pool house.
Ryan fiercely ran his fingers through his hair. Marissa had given him a lot to digest. Why was she protecting him? He raped her! Thoughts ran rapid through his mind. What was he going to do?
Ryan turned to see Marissa storm past her in the direction of the boardwalk, he didn't even bother to follow her. He didn't want to make the situation worse than it already was.
~ Marissa entered the Crab Shack to see Dylan there.
"Coop!" Dylan called out to her waving her over.
"Hey."
"Are you okay?" Dylan asked Marissa. "Seth told me what happened with your dad."
"So what's up with you and Seth anyway?" Marissa said trying to change the subject
"Oh no, you're not going to pull that. I asked you a question."
One thing that Marissa forgot about Dylan over the years was her tendency to be blunt. Dylan loved everyone, she honestly did, but she thought in most cases people benefit from the truth.
"I'm fine I guess." Marissa said simply. "So what are you doing over here?"
"I love crabs." Dylan said
"Well you sure have had your share of them." Marissa said, both of the girls laughing at her joke.
"Oh like you would know!" Dylan weakly defended herself "So what brings you here?" Dylan asked her, "Food joints are not exactly your scene."
"What's that supposed to mean."
"Um, you don't eat." Dylan said
"I don't know. I've been really hungry lately. I have no idea why."
Dylan looked eyes
"Have you been able to like keep stuff down?"
"Yeah. It won't come back up." Marissa said catching herself, "not like I've tried or anything." She added as Dylan rolled her eyes.
"Maybe you're pregnant." Dylan said laughing, "Whatever you say." Dylan finished just before the two girls placed their orders.
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Hey, nice new chapter. I assure you that it is worth the read. I REALLY want to know what you think of this chapter, b.c it sets the tone for the rest of the story. Read and review!
~ Haley
Ryan scooted to sit next to Marissa on the bed, who moved away at his closeness.
"Are you ready to talk to me?" Ryan asked trying to look her in her eye. Marissa didn't respond. "You know whatever you say will stay between you and me?" Ryan added, with that Marissa took a deep breath, she tried to speak but nothing came out. Not a tear fell from her eye, they had all been spent over the last couple weeks.
"I don't even know where to start." She said quietly eyes bolting back and forth as if they were a representation of all of her confusion.
"How about the eating?"
"That's always kind of been a given. All of the problems with food and me and all." She added, "I remember the first numbers that my mom taught me to count were calories. When I was in the third grade I started only eating the exact serving sizes. 55 Goldfish crackers, 86 Cheerios. But then it became a game to me. I would only eat half of the serving sizes. And then I would not eat at all. I mean, I got better with it all last year. But I don't know everything just like. I donno, fell apart again I guess." She said tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.
There was a silence.
"And you and your mother?" Ryan asked
"I was never good enough for her. She was really young when she had me and all. I don't know. We just never had that connection you know?" Marissa stopped and rubbed her eyes. "Well I guess you do know."
Marissa stopped and nervously played with her fingers. Ryan knew that she would only say something if she were asked to.
"What about Luke?"
Marissa sunk down into the bed and snuggled up in the covers. Ryan scooted a little closer, but this time Marissa did not move away.
"Can we not talk about Luke right now please?" Marissa said, pain and annoyance evident in her voice.
"I think we need to. Seth told me that he saw you and Luke in the showers today at school, and what was going on was not exactly. mutual."
Marissa didn't respond she just lay there.
"Marissa is what Seth told me true?"
Ryan could feel Marissa's body begin to shake next to him, as her body was over come by sobs. Right then he knew.
"Shh, baby it's going to be okay." He said pulling her into his lap. "Shh." He whispered into her ear. "It will all be okay. Luke will never get away with this."
Marissa backed up from Ryan with fascinating speed.
"You can NEVER tell anyone about this. This has to stay between you Seth and I."
"Marissa-"
"Honestly it would only make things worse Ryan. It's no big deal, he has done it before."
"What!" Ryan said almost hysterically. "How many times has he done this?"
"It doesn't matter." Marissa said moving against the headboard wiping fresh tears
"Yes Marissa it does, and you know it."
"I mean, . when we were going out. there were times," she took a deep breath, and then continued, "there were times that he wanted to, and I didn't. But that wasn't the same." She said suddenly focusing very hard on the hand nail hanging off of her pinky. "I mean we were going out., but now we're not. I guess he still thinks that I'm his.. He has done it twice since then.rap-" she sniffed, "He has raped me twice since then."
Ryan was taken aback. Twice? How could he have not known? Why didn't she come to him?
"When?"
".The time today. and once, . about a month ago, the night of Seths party, when I walked out on you." Marissa said her voice fading off. "Ironic isn't it?"
"Marissa you have to go to the hospital, you have to get a rape kit and-"
"Do you know who Luke is! Do you know who his father is! He would never get charged with anything. I let him do it to me when we were together and I did now!"
"You did not let him these two times! He took advantage of you!"
"Ryan, please. Just let it be."
"How do we know he won't do it again Marissa?"
"I think that he got all that he wanted." Marissa said her voice trailing off
"How."
"I know him. He's done with me. I saw him with Summer after school."
"I want to help you."
"Do you know how you can help me? Stay with me. Do not abandon me. Ryan right now you're the only person I trust, I mean besides Dylan, Seth and all but you know. Just be there."
". I'm going to take a walk." Ryan said leaving the pool house.
Ryan fiercely ran his fingers through his hair. Marissa had given him a lot to digest. Why was she protecting him? He raped her! Thoughts ran rapid through his mind. What was he going to do?
Ryan turned to see Marissa storm past her in the direction of the boardwalk, he didn't even bother to follow her. He didn't want to make the situation worse than it already was.
~ Marissa entered the Crab Shack to see Dylan there.
"Coop!" Dylan called out to her waving her over.
"Hey."
"Are you okay?" Dylan asked Marissa. "Seth told me what happened with your dad."
"So what's up with you and Seth anyway?" Marissa said trying to change the subject
"Oh no, you're not going to pull that. I asked you a question."
One thing that Marissa forgot about Dylan over the years was her tendency to be blunt. Dylan loved everyone, she honestly did, but she thought in most cases people benefit from the truth.
"I'm fine I guess." Marissa said simply. "So what are you doing over here?"
"I love crabs." Dylan said
"Well you sure have had your share of them." Marissa said, both of the girls laughing at her joke.
"Oh like you would know!" Dylan weakly defended herself "So what brings you here?" Dylan asked her, "Food joints are not exactly your scene."
"What's that supposed to mean."
"Um, you don't eat." Dylan said
"I don't know. I've been really hungry lately. I have no idea why."
Dylan looked eyes
"Have you been able to like keep stuff down?"
"Yeah. It won't come back up." Marissa said catching herself, "not like I've tried or anything." She added as Dylan rolled her eyes.
"Maybe you're pregnant." Dylan said laughing, "Whatever you say." Dylan finished just before the two girls placed their orders.
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