8: "Feel it holding you"
This chapter turned out rather well considering that I had slight writers block. I have so many different ideas for this story and am just trying to decide which directing to take it in. Laura made my life happy when she Imed me so thank you! Enjoy the chapter.
~ Xoxo Haley xoxo
Everyone entered the Cohen house exhausted from the trip.
They entered the living room to interrupt what seemed to be a heated conversation between Sandy and Kirsten. Sandy gave Ryan a glare before retreating from the room, leaving Kirsten mid-sentence on the couch.
"We'll just go. out. " Seth said as Marissa, Ryan, and Dylan hurriedly followed them out to the pool house.
Late that night Marissa sat up in bed in a cold sweat. She surveyed the room. How long had they been asleep? She figured they had all fallen asleep shortly after they went to the pool house.
The moonlight outside reflected off of the water. The palm trees gently blew in the breeze. In that moment Marissa felt as though she would never see another sight so beautiful as long as she lived.
She slowly slid herself out of Ryans arms, and tip-toed into the bathroom, careful not to wake anyone.
She leaned against the door, as her body weakly slid to the floor. Her hand went to her abdomen. There was a baby in there. Marissa found the whole thing hard to fathom. She felt it for the first time since she found out she was pregnant. She felt like she wanted it. She felt she had to protect it.
"Why do I do this?" Marissa whispered in the night. "All I do is take from people. I cannot make Ryan be responsible for this baby. He has so much going for him." She looked to the sky and pleads to nothing "God just please tell me I am doing the right thing."
She went and grabbed Ryan's trademark black jacket, threw a hoddie on over her pajamas, tossed some clothes into a bag and went over to the desk.
She grabbed a piece of paper and a pen, and wrote.
*~
Sunlight poured through the window.
Seth woke up and wiped the drool off of the side of his face. He rubbed his eyes as he made his way across the pool house to see Ryans bed empty.
Dylan came out of the bathroom.
"You're finally up Cohen." She said laughing
"Where is Ryan and Marissa?" Seth asked picking sleep out of his eyes
"I don't know. I woke up and neither of them were here. The most likely went inside to eat."
Right then Ryan came into the house, looking tired and distraught.
"What's going on man, were is Marissa?" Seth question worried by Ryan's appearance.
"I can't find her. I thought that she was inside with my mom but she hasn't seen her."
*~
Marissa stepped off of the bus in a land unknown. She dug her tennis shoes into the ground.
She had come up with a plan on the train. She could stay in a hotel for awhile and try to get a job, and eventually have enough money to get a small apartment for she and the baby. Then it seemed like something in her head clicked. She hardly had enough money to stay in a motel for a week. By that time she would not even have a paycheck yet.
The breeze blew coolly across her face. She hugged Ryan's jacket around herself tightly. She pulled the knit cap down further over her ears. She had never remembered it being so cold in October. Maybe because this was her first time on the streets.
She saw a diner across the street that looked mildly inviting. She was beginning to have cravings. She really wanted a blueberry muffin with honey on top, and a cup of hot chocolate. It wasn't until she drew closer to the diner that she saw the "Now Hiring", sign.
*~
"How long has she been gone?" She asked worried about her best friend
"I don't know. I think that she left sometime during the night." Ryan said "When I woke up she wasn't there."
Seth noticed something on Ryans desk.
"Ryan, look, it's a letter... from Marissa."
Ryan rushed over to Seth and unintentionally ripped the letter from his hands and tore it open.
*~
As soon as Marissa entered the diner she found the bathroom to clean up in.
She locked the door and took off her pajama pants, and threw on a pair of her jeans, and a red long sleeved shirt over her tank top, to make herself look mildly presentable.
Marissa realized that she had forgotten a tooth brush, so she just rinsed her mouth out a couple of times in hope that her breath didn't smell that bad.
She exited the bathroom and took a seat in a small back corner of the diner. The last thing that she wanted right now was to be noticed.
*~
Ryan read the letter slowly and carefully.
Ryan,
I don't really know what to say. I never intended on leaving, But the way
Mr.Cohen looked at you when we came it was hard to take. I know it was my fault.
You have so much going for you Ryan, who am I to mess it up? The baby is my
Responsibility, i have to do this on my own. I love you to death. If it were not for
you I would not be here today. ANd Ryan don't worry. I will get better. I am
better, I have to be. So now go on with your life and know I AM OKAY. If you look
for me I promise you will not find me. I know it may seem kind of unfair to do this
to you, but it is the only way. Tell Kirsten thank you for all of the help. It meant
a lot to me. You are really lucky to have a mother like her. She is your mother
now, and she loves you. I would not want to jeopardize that in any way. Tell Seth
and Dyl' I'm sorry. I love you very much Ryan. Never forget that.
Never Forget that. Goodbye
Love Always,
Marissa
10-13- 03
The letter was signed in blood. *~
"Hi, My name is Jay, can I get you something?" The middle-aged waiter asked Marissa
"Um, just a blueberry muffin and a cup of hot chocolate please." She said.
10 minutes later Jay brought her the food.
"Thank you." Marissa said politely
"So where you coming from?" Jay asked making friendly conversation
"Um, .Newport."
"Newport." He said surprised. He looked her up and down.
"What?" Marissa asked becoming somewhat self-conscious
"Nothing, it is just that you don't seem like the type. So are you just passing through?"
Marissa looked around. The town seemed nice enough.
"I don't really know." Marissa said a little sadly
Jay took this as an invitation to sit down.
"Are you alone?" He asked
Marissa nodded
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked
"Not really." She said stretching her arms in front of herself and leaning back.
"How old are you?" He continued to pry.
"Seventeen."
Jays dark brown eyes met Marissas hazels.
"Let me tell you. A young girl should not be alone around here."
"Where is here exactly?"
"Pylema." He said, Marissa had never heard of it. "So do you have a plan?"
"Not really."
"Look honey. I hate to see you out on the street. I have an apartment that I share with my friend Liam. If you can pay rent you can stay with us for awhile if you would like."
Marissa stopped and thought for a long while.
"I don't like taking handouts."
"It's not a hand out. Look kid, you really don't have any other choice it seems. We're hiring here, you should take a job also."
"Shouldn't I talk to the manager in order to do that?" Marissa asked tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear.
"You just did." Jay said winking at her. "Go to the back. There you will meet a girl named Jenny who will start training you."
"Now?" Marissa asked surprised
"Why not. You have somewhere else to be." He smiled at her. "Eat up, you look like you need it, and then you can go on back." He lightly tapped her on the head with the menu and then retreated from the table.
*~
"What did it say?" Dylan demanded
"She's gone."
Seth took the letter from Ryans hand.
"She said she is okay." Seth said trying to make him feel better
"Blood Seth! The letter is signed in BLOOD!"
You will get more soon if you ask real nice! LoL.
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This chapter turned out rather well considering that I had slight writers block. I have so many different ideas for this story and am just trying to decide which directing to take it in. Laura made my life happy when she Imed me so thank you! Enjoy the chapter.
~ Xoxo Haley xoxo
Everyone entered the Cohen house exhausted from the trip.
They entered the living room to interrupt what seemed to be a heated conversation between Sandy and Kirsten. Sandy gave Ryan a glare before retreating from the room, leaving Kirsten mid-sentence on the couch.
"We'll just go. out. " Seth said as Marissa, Ryan, and Dylan hurriedly followed them out to the pool house.
Late that night Marissa sat up in bed in a cold sweat. She surveyed the room. How long had they been asleep? She figured they had all fallen asleep shortly after they went to the pool house.
The moonlight outside reflected off of the water. The palm trees gently blew in the breeze. In that moment Marissa felt as though she would never see another sight so beautiful as long as she lived.
She slowly slid herself out of Ryans arms, and tip-toed into the bathroom, careful not to wake anyone.
She leaned against the door, as her body weakly slid to the floor. Her hand went to her abdomen. There was a baby in there. Marissa found the whole thing hard to fathom. She felt it for the first time since she found out she was pregnant. She felt like she wanted it. She felt she had to protect it.
"Why do I do this?" Marissa whispered in the night. "All I do is take from people. I cannot make Ryan be responsible for this baby. He has so much going for him." She looked to the sky and pleads to nothing "God just please tell me I am doing the right thing."
She went and grabbed Ryan's trademark black jacket, threw a hoddie on over her pajamas, tossed some clothes into a bag and went over to the desk.
She grabbed a piece of paper and a pen, and wrote.
*~
Sunlight poured through the window.
Seth woke up and wiped the drool off of the side of his face. He rubbed his eyes as he made his way across the pool house to see Ryans bed empty.
Dylan came out of the bathroom.
"You're finally up Cohen." She said laughing
"Where is Ryan and Marissa?" Seth asked picking sleep out of his eyes
"I don't know. I woke up and neither of them were here. The most likely went inside to eat."
Right then Ryan came into the house, looking tired and distraught.
"What's going on man, were is Marissa?" Seth question worried by Ryan's appearance.
"I can't find her. I thought that she was inside with my mom but she hasn't seen her."
*~
Marissa stepped off of the bus in a land unknown. She dug her tennis shoes into the ground.
She had come up with a plan on the train. She could stay in a hotel for awhile and try to get a job, and eventually have enough money to get a small apartment for she and the baby. Then it seemed like something in her head clicked. She hardly had enough money to stay in a motel for a week. By that time she would not even have a paycheck yet.
The breeze blew coolly across her face. She hugged Ryan's jacket around herself tightly. She pulled the knit cap down further over her ears. She had never remembered it being so cold in October. Maybe because this was her first time on the streets.
She saw a diner across the street that looked mildly inviting. She was beginning to have cravings. She really wanted a blueberry muffin with honey on top, and a cup of hot chocolate. It wasn't until she drew closer to the diner that she saw the "Now Hiring", sign.
*~
"How long has she been gone?" She asked worried about her best friend
"I don't know. I think that she left sometime during the night." Ryan said "When I woke up she wasn't there."
Seth noticed something on Ryans desk.
"Ryan, look, it's a letter... from Marissa."
Ryan rushed over to Seth and unintentionally ripped the letter from his hands and tore it open.
*~
As soon as Marissa entered the diner she found the bathroom to clean up in.
She locked the door and took off her pajama pants, and threw on a pair of her jeans, and a red long sleeved shirt over her tank top, to make herself look mildly presentable.
Marissa realized that she had forgotten a tooth brush, so she just rinsed her mouth out a couple of times in hope that her breath didn't smell that bad.
She exited the bathroom and took a seat in a small back corner of the diner. The last thing that she wanted right now was to be noticed.
*~
Ryan read the letter slowly and carefully.
Ryan,
I don't really know what to say. I never intended on leaving, But the way
Mr.Cohen looked at you when we came it was hard to take. I know it was my fault.
You have so much going for you Ryan, who am I to mess it up? The baby is my
Responsibility, i have to do this on my own. I love you to death. If it were not for
you I would not be here today. ANd Ryan don't worry. I will get better. I am
better, I have to be. So now go on with your life and know I AM OKAY. If you look
for me I promise you will not find me. I know it may seem kind of unfair to do this
to you, but it is the only way. Tell Kirsten thank you for all of the help. It meant
a lot to me. You are really lucky to have a mother like her. She is your mother
now, and she loves you. I would not want to jeopardize that in any way. Tell Seth
and Dyl' I'm sorry. I love you very much Ryan. Never forget that.
Never Forget that. Goodbye
Love Always,
Marissa
10-13- 03
The letter was signed in blood. *~
"Hi, My name is Jay, can I get you something?" The middle-aged waiter asked Marissa
"Um, just a blueberry muffin and a cup of hot chocolate please." She said.
10 minutes later Jay brought her the food.
"Thank you." Marissa said politely
"So where you coming from?" Jay asked making friendly conversation
"Um, .Newport."
"Newport." He said surprised. He looked her up and down.
"What?" Marissa asked becoming somewhat self-conscious
"Nothing, it is just that you don't seem like the type. So are you just passing through?"
Marissa looked around. The town seemed nice enough.
"I don't really know." Marissa said a little sadly
Jay took this as an invitation to sit down.
"Are you alone?" He asked
Marissa nodded
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked
"Not really." She said stretching her arms in front of herself and leaning back.
"How old are you?" He continued to pry.
"Seventeen."
Jays dark brown eyes met Marissas hazels.
"Let me tell you. A young girl should not be alone around here."
"Where is here exactly?"
"Pylema." He said, Marissa had never heard of it. "So do you have a plan?"
"Not really."
"Look honey. I hate to see you out on the street. I have an apartment that I share with my friend Liam. If you can pay rent you can stay with us for awhile if you would like."
Marissa stopped and thought for a long while.
"I don't like taking handouts."
"It's not a hand out. Look kid, you really don't have any other choice it seems. We're hiring here, you should take a job also."
"Shouldn't I talk to the manager in order to do that?" Marissa asked tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear.
"You just did." Jay said winking at her. "Go to the back. There you will meet a girl named Jenny who will start training you."
"Now?" Marissa asked surprised
"Why not. You have somewhere else to be." He smiled at her. "Eat up, you look like you need it, and then you can go on back." He lightly tapped her on the head with the menu and then retreated from the table.
*~
"What did it say?" Dylan demanded
"She's gone."
Seth took the letter from Ryans hand.
"She said she is okay." Seth said trying to make him feel better
"Blood Seth! The letter is signed in BLOOD!"
You will get more soon if you ask real nice! LoL.
0 ~
U
