Chapter 9: "You know all I am" 2
Hey guys! New chapter. The mood here switches around a lot and you really get to see where each character is in their lives which I think is pretty cool. Read, Review, and Enjoy! FYI: I had to add in a bit with Julie Cooper for the sake of speculation on Jays part.
~ Haley xoxo
It had been a week since Marissa left and Dylan and Seth knew that Ryan was never going to be the same. All that he ever did was mope around. He worked at the Crab Shack, but other than that and school did not leave the pool house, besides the occasional video game with Seth.
Nobody talked about Marissa much around him. He was still convinced that she was coming back. Kirsten helped him open a bank account where he was putting away some money so they could get a place when they graduated.
As far as Ryan was concerned Marissa was coming back and nobody was to tell him otherwise.
Dylan and Seth walked along the boardwalk. The two had become closer since the demise of their two best friends.
"Do you think she is going to come back?" Seth asked
"I hope for Ryan, she and the baby's sake that she does. It's just not the same here without her."
"Yeah but do you think that she will come back?"
Dylan and Seth stopped and sat on the beach.
"When Marissa and I were eleven we always used to steal my dads cigarettes." Dylan said with a reminiscent smile. "This one time she had broken her leg, but she was still determined to get them, and get away from my dad in time so he wouldn't notice. She sunk into his office and got them out of the door. She grabbed three, for me, her, and Summer. She heard my dad coming. She had time to put them back and run. But that wasn't the type of person Marissa is,-"
"What type?" Seth cut in
"The type to give up. So Marissa high tailed it out of there on her crutches. She got out of the house. We were all running and ended up tripping over each other." Dylan grinned "We fell down a hill into a ditch. Marissa sprained her wrist, which was the perfect compliment for her already broken leg. Summer broke her arm, me, I cracked a rib cage, and got a bloody nose."
Seth laughed.
"Nice going."
"Oh yeah. So we were all there, eleven years old, in a ditch broken bones and all. Summer and I were absolutely hysterical. But not Marissa. She looked at us and I will always remember her words. ' Look guys. We went through all of that trouble, but hey, we got what we wanted, so stop ruining the fucking moment and give me a light. If we're going to get busted we might as well make the punishment fit the crime.' I remember that cigarette being the best one I ever tasted... even though I had some trouble inhaling with a broken rib."
"Um, great story and all but what does it have to do with Marissa coming back?"
"Don't you see. She is stubborn. She would not go down without a fight then and she will not now. She wanted to leave Seth. She is not changing her mind." Dylan said taking out a cigarette and a lighter
"Point taken. Although that story really didn't prove what you said." Seth said laughing
"You know what Cohen?" Dylan said "You can take it and shove it up your ass." She said laughing as Seth grabbed the cigarette from her. "Hey, what was that for?"
"It's not good for you." Seth said pointedly putting it out
"What's it to you?" Dylan said playfully shoving Seth in the sand.
Ryan watched from as distance as the two wrestled.
"They like each other. It is so obvious. Why don't they just get together while they still have each other." Ryan said to himself, sticking his hands into the deepest part of his pockets, as he left the boardwalk to go back to his house and dream of the life he and Marissa could have had.
*~
Marissa shot up in bed at Jay's house in a cold sweat, which had now become habit for her.
Jay ran into the room.
"Are you okay?" He asked
"Yeah, I am fine." Marissa said holding herself still a bit shaken up
"I hear you crying out in your sleep every night. I know that you are not okay."
"No really, I am fine. I just have nightmares."
"What about?"
Marissa was not about to tell him about Luke, or her mother and father.
"I don't really remember." She lied
"You were calling out Ryan. Who is Ryan?"
Marissa felt all of the blood rush from her face. Ryan, why had she called out to Ryan?
"I don't know any Ryan." Marissa said
"That is weird." Jay said to tired to realize the lie "I think that we should talk tomorrow honey."
"Alright." Marissa said.
He patted her on the head, which was now normal, as he left the room.
"I have to pull myself together." Marissa said falling into a restless sleep.
*~
"Ryan, Ryan, wake up!" Kirsten whispered in his ear.
"Huh?" He said sitting up "What's going on?"
"We're going on a hike."
"A what?"
"A hike, come on and get dressed. We have a pair of hiking boots for you in the house."
"You guys can just go on. I kind of felt like sticking around here."
"Come on Ryan you have no choice. We're leaving in an hour." She said ripping the sheets off of him, rolling Ryan to the floor.
"Ugh." He said as his body hit the floor with a thump.
*~ Marissa went about her morning routine at the diner. She made coffee, ordered some cooks around. But there was something different on this day.
As Marissa walked into the kitchen she saw someone. Well the back of their head, but it was still someone. Something about the way the hair was teased was quite familiar.
"Oh my god-" Marissa said rushing to the back room only to hear her name called.
"MARISSA!" Her mother followed her into the back room.
"Mom what are you doing here?"
"I could ask you the same question! Why aren't you back in Newport with your father."
"God are you brain dead! Dad has been in jail for the past 6 months mom!" Marissa yells becoming furious.
"There is no need to talk like that, I am still your mother."
"My mother? You were never my mother, and you know it! The only reason that you ever loved me was because if you hadn't gotten pregnant with me Daddy would have never married you!"
Marissa was met with a sharp slap on the cheek as Jay walked in. He pulled Marissas momo off of her.
"WHAT'S GOING ON HERE!" Jay demanded
Neither of them said anything. Julie flew from the room.
"Marissa honey are you alright?" Jay asked her
"Yeah, just a little shaken up." Marissa confessed
"Who was that woman?"
"A bitch of my past."
"AKA?" Jay questioned
"AKA: My mom." Marissa said picking up a tray. "These people should have had their order 15 minutes ago." Marissa said flatly as she left the kitchen, leaving Jay standing dumb founded.
Later that night at the apartment, Jay sat with Marissa while she was drinking a hot cup of tea.
"I think it is time for you to tell me the truth." Jay said to Marissa
"About what?"
"You tell me."
"There is nothing to say Jay."
"I saw your wrists Marissa. You have fresh cuts there."
"Yeah, . well." Was all that she said.
"What is going on Marissa?"
"You ever feel like you're drowning Jay? And you are in a big, big ocean, and there in nothing to hold onto. There is nothing but water. Nothing but your fears. That is what I feel like all of the time."
"Why did you leave Newport?"
"I didn't like feeling like people had to be responsible for me all of the time. I hate being a burden."
"I bet your family missed you."
"I don't have one. I never have. My dad is in jail and my mom is off somewhere being a gold digger."
"I'm sorry to hear that but Marissa you need help."
"You know what I need? Some shut eye." She got off of the couch and went to her room. "Night Jay."
"Night Marissa." She went to her room. "May god help you." He added when she was out of sight.
More soon more soon!
Hey guys! New chapter. The mood here switches around a lot and you really get to see where each character is in their lives which I think is pretty cool. Read, Review, and Enjoy! FYI: I had to add in a bit with Julie Cooper for the sake of speculation on Jays part.
~ Haley xoxo
It had been a week since Marissa left and Dylan and Seth knew that Ryan was never going to be the same. All that he ever did was mope around. He worked at the Crab Shack, but other than that and school did not leave the pool house, besides the occasional video game with Seth.
Nobody talked about Marissa much around him. He was still convinced that she was coming back. Kirsten helped him open a bank account where he was putting away some money so they could get a place when they graduated.
As far as Ryan was concerned Marissa was coming back and nobody was to tell him otherwise.
Dylan and Seth walked along the boardwalk. The two had become closer since the demise of their two best friends.
"Do you think she is going to come back?" Seth asked
"I hope for Ryan, she and the baby's sake that she does. It's just not the same here without her."
"Yeah but do you think that she will come back?"
Dylan and Seth stopped and sat on the beach.
"When Marissa and I were eleven we always used to steal my dads cigarettes." Dylan said with a reminiscent smile. "This one time she had broken her leg, but she was still determined to get them, and get away from my dad in time so he wouldn't notice. She sunk into his office and got them out of the door. She grabbed three, for me, her, and Summer. She heard my dad coming. She had time to put them back and run. But that wasn't the type of person Marissa is,-"
"What type?" Seth cut in
"The type to give up. So Marissa high tailed it out of there on her crutches. She got out of the house. We were all running and ended up tripping over each other." Dylan grinned "We fell down a hill into a ditch. Marissa sprained her wrist, which was the perfect compliment for her already broken leg. Summer broke her arm, me, I cracked a rib cage, and got a bloody nose."
Seth laughed.
"Nice going."
"Oh yeah. So we were all there, eleven years old, in a ditch broken bones and all. Summer and I were absolutely hysterical. But not Marissa. She looked at us and I will always remember her words. ' Look guys. We went through all of that trouble, but hey, we got what we wanted, so stop ruining the fucking moment and give me a light. If we're going to get busted we might as well make the punishment fit the crime.' I remember that cigarette being the best one I ever tasted... even though I had some trouble inhaling with a broken rib."
"Um, great story and all but what does it have to do with Marissa coming back?"
"Don't you see. She is stubborn. She would not go down without a fight then and she will not now. She wanted to leave Seth. She is not changing her mind." Dylan said taking out a cigarette and a lighter
"Point taken. Although that story really didn't prove what you said." Seth said laughing
"You know what Cohen?" Dylan said "You can take it and shove it up your ass." She said laughing as Seth grabbed the cigarette from her. "Hey, what was that for?"
"It's not good for you." Seth said pointedly putting it out
"What's it to you?" Dylan said playfully shoving Seth in the sand.
Ryan watched from as distance as the two wrestled.
"They like each other. It is so obvious. Why don't they just get together while they still have each other." Ryan said to himself, sticking his hands into the deepest part of his pockets, as he left the boardwalk to go back to his house and dream of the life he and Marissa could have had.
*~
Marissa shot up in bed at Jay's house in a cold sweat, which had now become habit for her.
Jay ran into the room.
"Are you okay?" He asked
"Yeah, I am fine." Marissa said holding herself still a bit shaken up
"I hear you crying out in your sleep every night. I know that you are not okay."
"No really, I am fine. I just have nightmares."
"What about?"
Marissa was not about to tell him about Luke, or her mother and father.
"I don't really remember." She lied
"You were calling out Ryan. Who is Ryan?"
Marissa felt all of the blood rush from her face. Ryan, why had she called out to Ryan?
"I don't know any Ryan." Marissa said
"That is weird." Jay said to tired to realize the lie "I think that we should talk tomorrow honey."
"Alright." Marissa said.
He patted her on the head, which was now normal, as he left the room.
"I have to pull myself together." Marissa said falling into a restless sleep.
*~
"Ryan, Ryan, wake up!" Kirsten whispered in his ear.
"Huh?" He said sitting up "What's going on?"
"We're going on a hike."
"A what?"
"A hike, come on and get dressed. We have a pair of hiking boots for you in the house."
"You guys can just go on. I kind of felt like sticking around here."
"Come on Ryan you have no choice. We're leaving in an hour." She said ripping the sheets off of him, rolling Ryan to the floor.
"Ugh." He said as his body hit the floor with a thump.
*~ Marissa went about her morning routine at the diner. She made coffee, ordered some cooks around. But there was something different on this day.
As Marissa walked into the kitchen she saw someone. Well the back of their head, but it was still someone. Something about the way the hair was teased was quite familiar.
"Oh my god-" Marissa said rushing to the back room only to hear her name called.
"MARISSA!" Her mother followed her into the back room.
"Mom what are you doing here?"
"I could ask you the same question! Why aren't you back in Newport with your father."
"God are you brain dead! Dad has been in jail for the past 6 months mom!" Marissa yells becoming furious.
"There is no need to talk like that, I am still your mother."
"My mother? You were never my mother, and you know it! The only reason that you ever loved me was because if you hadn't gotten pregnant with me Daddy would have never married you!"
Marissa was met with a sharp slap on the cheek as Jay walked in. He pulled Marissas momo off of her.
"WHAT'S GOING ON HERE!" Jay demanded
Neither of them said anything. Julie flew from the room.
"Marissa honey are you alright?" Jay asked her
"Yeah, just a little shaken up." Marissa confessed
"Who was that woman?"
"A bitch of my past."
"AKA?" Jay questioned
"AKA: My mom." Marissa said picking up a tray. "These people should have had their order 15 minutes ago." Marissa said flatly as she left the kitchen, leaving Jay standing dumb founded.
Later that night at the apartment, Jay sat with Marissa while she was drinking a hot cup of tea.
"I think it is time for you to tell me the truth." Jay said to Marissa
"About what?"
"You tell me."
"There is nothing to say Jay."
"I saw your wrists Marissa. You have fresh cuts there."
"Yeah, . well." Was all that she said.
"What is going on Marissa?"
"You ever feel like you're drowning Jay? And you are in a big, big ocean, and there in nothing to hold onto. There is nothing but water. Nothing but your fears. That is what I feel like all of the time."
"Why did you leave Newport?"
"I didn't like feeling like people had to be responsible for me all of the time. I hate being a burden."
"I bet your family missed you."
"I don't have one. I never have. My dad is in jail and my mom is off somewhere being a gold digger."
"I'm sorry to hear that but Marissa you need help."
"You know what I need? Some shut eye." She got off of the couch and went to her room. "Night Jay."
"Night Marissa." She went to her room. "May god help you." He added when she was out of sight.
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