Hanging by a Moment: Chapter 3
The closed curtains
"Now the story's
played out like this,
Just like a paperback novel,
Let's rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a Hollywood horror"
*
The silence that filled the air was thick and swirling, like smoke it filled his lungs sucking out all air, choking him, strangling him. His world was broken beyond repairing, dreams were different from reality, as he realized now.
"You have…a fiancé?" he said in hollow voice.
"I'm sorry Dee."
He sunk onto the bed avoiding eye contact; he didn't know how he would react if they looked at each other right now.
"But…why?" he asked.
"I fell in love with her, is that enough for an excuse?"
"Her…?" Dee's voice was hardly above a whisper, but he could still hear that it was full of confusion. Ryo glanced quickly at his former partner, as if trying to get some kind of answer out of his silence.
"You can't do this…" he mumbled after a while
"And why not?" Ryo's voice was harder this time, more guarded.
"Because you moron, you're homosexual!" Dee snapped.
"That's hardly an argument" Ryo replied coldly.
"Ryo, you can't go through with this. In the end you'll just end up getting hurt."
He turned away.
"I…it's just the way it is, Dee. Accept it."
"Accept it?" Dee repeated, suddenly furious. "Accept it? Have any idea how many days, how many hours, I've waited to I'll see you again? Have you any idea how many times I've prayed to the gods or demons, or whatever that's up there, that you'll come back? You're engaged, and you're telling me to accept it?"
"I'm sorry," Ryo repeated.
A pair of hands suddenly grabbed his shirt flinging him down on the bed on his back. Their bodies were pressed tightly together, Dee hands were pushed down on his shoulders, green eyes boring heavily into black ones. They were full of anger, a wild storm growing out at sea.
"I don't plan on sharing you with anyone, Ryo" he whispered. "It's either all of you or none of you, d'you hear? I'm not a sharing type of person."
He bent lower, claiming the other man's lips with his. The world seemed to have stopped turning, reality was on standstill. Ryo closed his eyes and they weren't in the hotel room anymore, but together in their own world, another world, where there is nothing, no-one to stop them. Everything seemed to be like before, as if someone has sent them back in time.
This is wasn't what he had wished for, the sweet taste of cigarettes and peppermint, the cheap scent of lust and yearning, a shortcut to run away from the present. It wasn't fate, just reality playing a cruel joke on them.
Finally after several minutes of silence he finally broke the kiss. He looked away, feeling suddenly guilty. There was something in those green eyes that was eating him alive.
"Look Dee," he paused, uncertain of where to start. "We can't go back to where we were, I have a new life now." He swallowed the lump in his throat and continued. "Just forget everything that ever happened."
"Like hell that'll ever happen"
Another silence filled the room.
"When are you going back?" Ryo asked after a while.
"Plane goes in forty minutes."
"I see."
They walked to the train station in silence. Neither had anything to say anymore, they were just spending the last precious few minutes together. Everything was clear now, no more secrets, no more lies, all that needed to be said had already been spoken. Their last dance had ended.
"I guess this is goodbye then," Dee said at the platform.
Ryo smiled, pulling him into a hug.
"Goodbye, Dee"
He breathed his scent one last time, before letting go. He turned, feeling Ryo's dark eyes boring a hole into the back of his neck. Ignoring the ache in his heart he stepped into the train.
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End chapter 3
A/N: I'm sorry for the late update everyone. My internet was dead so I couldn't upload. I didn't bother replying to the reviewers either, but I will in the next chappie. It's almost finished now, so watch out for the final part coming sometime this week. The raising will be raised from PG to PG-13 or even R due to lime (smile minna!).
