Chapter 7 Alone
Disclaimer: Come on, now. If Inuyasha were mine, would you see a disclaimer here? Didn't think so. Author's note: Thanks again to all my lovely reviewers. You all would have had chapter 6 last Friday, but some idiot forced me into a drawing contest against my will. The only reason he won is because he finished first, but I won't get into that. We all know real art takes time. Anyway, I put a song in this chapter, so if it looks as though I stuck a random phrase somewhere, it's probably the song. Enjoy!
Inuyasha was sitting in the goshinboku of the feudal era, trying to forget everything that happened, but snatches of his argument with Kagome kept replaying themselves in his head.
"Bitch!" he'd said. He stomped back up the stairs to the landing where Kagome sat, sobbing on the floor. He glared down at her.
'It's hard to explain,
Inherently it's just always been strange...'
"Moody wench!" he'd yelled. "What the fuck is wrong with you?" Kagome had risen at this comment.
'Neither here, nor there,
Always somewhat out of place everywhere...'
"Get out!" she'd bellowed. "Get the hell away from me! I don't want to see you anymore!" Did she really mean that? Inuyasha wondered. Does she really never want to see me again?
'Ambiguous,
Without a sense of belonging to touch...'
"Baka!" she'd screamed, and she slapped him hard across the face. He was taken aback, but nevertheless stood there, unmoving. When she raised her hand to slap him again, he grabbed her wrist, and that's when he saw it: fear. The same look of terror that so many had given him because of what he was. He stood there, studying her eyes with a look of fury etched upon his face, then dropped her hand, and walked away.
'Somewhere, halfway,
Feeling there's no one completely the same...'
He sighed. He'd never felt more alone. He'd grown used to people being afraid of him, of course, but if Kagome feared him, all hope was lost. He was alone, but not like when Kikyo shot him, for he'd had Kagome to heal the heart that Kikyo had broken in more ways than one. Or so he'd thought. He was alone now, for real.
'Standing alone, Eager to just Believe it's good enough To be what You really are, but in your heart, Uncertainty forever lies, And you'll always be Somewhere on the
Outside'
"Kuso," he whispered shakily.
~*~
Kagome had cried herself to sleep that night, with Shippo in her arms, telling her not to cry, asking her not to cry, begging her not to cry, until all he could do was pat her arms and assure her that everything was alright.
But everything wasn't. When she woke in the morning, she still felt the pain of Inuyasha's words.
"No! Don't tell me!" he'd yelled. How could he say that? Did he really like Kikyo more than he liked her? A knock on the door ripped Kagome from her thoughts. She was slightly annoyed, but she shook it off. It was probably better for her not to think about him, anyway.
"Come in," she said. The door opened, and Sango and Miroku walked in.
"Kagome-sama," said Miroku, "Why don't you stay home today? I don't think you're well enough for school today." Kagome shook her head.
"No, I'm fine," she said. "Really." Sango looked at her and shook her head.
"That's what you told us yesterday, Kagome-chan," she said. "Please just stay here." Sango gave her a pleading look, and finally, Kagome gave in.
"Okay," she said. Sango walked over and hugged her.
"I'm sorry, Kagome-chan," she whispered, and she took the sleeping kit from the bed. She and Miroku left. Kagome sighed, and was immersed in her thoughts of the previous night once more.
Why did he come back upstairs? She thought. What was he going to say? It's my fault he got mad; I should have heard him out. She sighed. Great. Now I'm gonna feel guilty all day. She got an idea. Maybe I don't have to. She shut her bedroom door and searched her closet for something decent to wear. She quickly dressed and started to pack her yellow backpack when her mom came in.
"Kagome," she said. "Your friends just left." She noticed Kagome was packing. "Are you going back down the well? I thought you had finished your mission."
"I did, but I have something I need to do," replied the girl. Mrs. Higurashi smiled.
"Alright, Kagome, but you are under no circumstances permitted to leave this house without eating something, first." Kagome smiled and hugged her mother.
"Arigato," she said.
"Outside" by Mariah Carey
Disclaimer: Come on, now. If Inuyasha were mine, would you see a disclaimer here? Didn't think so. Author's note: Thanks again to all my lovely reviewers. You all would have had chapter 6 last Friday, but some idiot forced me into a drawing contest against my will. The only reason he won is because he finished first, but I won't get into that. We all know real art takes time. Anyway, I put a song in this chapter, so if it looks as though I stuck a random phrase somewhere, it's probably the song. Enjoy!
Inuyasha was sitting in the goshinboku of the feudal era, trying to forget everything that happened, but snatches of his argument with Kagome kept replaying themselves in his head.
"Bitch!" he'd said. He stomped back up the stairs to the landing where Kagome sat, sobbing on the floor. He glared down at her.
'It's hard to explain,
Inherently it's just always been strange...'
"Moody wench!" he'd yelled. "What the fuck is wrong with you?" Kagome had risen at this comment.
'Neither here, nor there,
Always somewhat out of place everywhere...'
"Get out!" she'd bellowed. "Get the hell away from me! I don't want to see you anymore!" Did she really mean that? Inuyasha wondered. Does she really never want to see me again?
'Ambiguous,
Without a sense of belonging to touch...'
"Baka!" she'd screamed, and she slapped him hard across the face. He was taken aback, but nevertheless stood there, unmoving. When she raised her hand to slap him again, he grabbed her wrist, and that's when he saw it: fear. The same look of terror that so many had given him because of what he was. He stood there, studying her eyes with a look of fury etched upon his face, then dropped her hand, and walked away.
'Somewhere, halfway,
Feeling there's no one completely the same...'
He sighed. He'd never felt more alone. He'd grown used to people being afraid of him, of course, but if Kagome feared him, all hope was lost. He was alone, but not like when Kikyo shot him, for he'd had Kagome to heal the heart that Kikyo had broken in more ways than one. Or so he'd thought. He was alone now, for real.
'Standing alone, Eager to just Believe it's good enough To be what You really are, but in your heart, Uncertainty forever lies, And you'll always be Somewhere on the
Outside'
"Kuso," he whispered shakily.
~*~
Kagome had cried herself to sleep that night, with Shippo in her arms, telling her not to cry, asking her not to cry, begging her not to cry, until all he could do was pat her arms and assure her that everything was alright.
But everything wasn't. When she woke in the morning, she still felt the pain of Inuyasha's words.
"No! Don't tell me!" he'd yelled. How could he say that? Did he really like Kikyo more than he liked her? A knock on the door ripped Kagome from her thoughts. She was slightly annoyed, but she shook it off. It was probably better for her not to think about him, anyway.
"Come in," she said. The door opened, and Sango and Miroku walked in.
"Kagome-sama," said Miroku, "Why don't you stay home today? I don't think you're well enough for school today." Kagome shook her head.
"No, I'm fine," she said. "Really." Sango looked at her and shook her head.
"That's what you told us yesterday, Kagome-chan," she said. "Please just stay here." Sango gave her a pleading look, and finally, Kagome gave in.
"Okay," she said. Sango walked over and hugged her.
"I'm sorry, Kagome-chan," she whispered, and she took the sleeping kit from the bed. She and Miroku left. Kagome sighed, and was immersed in her thoughts of the previous night once more.
Why did he come back upstairs? She thought. What was he going to say? It's my fault he got mad; I should have heard him out. She sighed. Great. Now I'm gonna feel guilty all day. She got an idea. Maybe I don't have to. She shut her bedroom door and searched her closet for something decent to wear. She quickly dressed and started to pack her yellow backpack when her mom came in.
"Kagome," she said. "Your friends just left." She noticed Kagome was packing. "Are you going back down the well? I thought you had finished your mission."
"I did, but I have something I need to do," replied the girl. Mrs. Higurashi smiled.
"Alright, Kagome, but you are under no circumstances permitted to leave this house without eating something, first." Kagome smiled and hugged her mother.
"Arigato," she said.
"Outside" by Mariah Carey
