An: This was actually a dream I had about a month ago and I wrote it down
because I was bored.
Summary: I'm not sure where this is going I just dreamt of it (
Pairings: Not telling yet.
Some info: In this story takes place about a year and a half after Apocalypse and Remy had joined the team. Every still looks the same and Rogue isn't able to touch still.
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"I said I was sorry Rogue," Scott said.
I didn't want to speak to him here so I stormed up to my room away from the rest of the team and waited for Scott. I waited for him and when he came like I knew he would I didn't let him speak.
"This is the fourth time you forget about us. I don't care if you forgot about me it's natural you would be Jamie and Rahne don't even feel like apart of the team. God you didn't forget Remy and you can't stand him. It makes me wonder where I'm at on the friendship scale."
"We are sorry," he said.
"It's not just you either you may be leader but sometimes we have to disobey you to make things right. No one but Remy remembered us, you would have came all the way here and never noticed we were gone. You would have left us with those mutant haters and -"
"Rogue-"
"I ain't done Scott. I love you guys like a family since I don't really have one. I remember everybody Jamie remembers everybody and even Rahne who none of you on the original team but me have even tried to get to know. Are you and Jean blinded by your hormones and Kurt and Kitty feeling so awkward around each other that only Remy and Piotr are okay enough to care." I was angry but I wasn't screaming and for once that was the scariest thing, I could tell by the look in his eyes.
"What?!" he was offended.
"You heard me you and Jean are so innocent when you think naughty thoughts nothing else matters but how embarrassed you feel. Kurt likes Wanda and kitty is jealous and Kitty wants Piotr and Kurt's jealous. Remy may be a once enemy as well as Piotr but they have proven to be better friends then you and the rest of the team." I felt myself losing control.
"Rogue we care for you but you should be able to take care of yourself, your smart and Jamie and Rahne shouldn't have tried to help you themselves," he said not meaning a word, I knew because right now he seemed to be the loudest in my head.
"F-first you leave Jamie and I in the jet when Kitty accidentally phased through it and made it go haywire and it flipped. Rahne got us out. Then when I covered you in battle and then fight like I should, you don't tell me to move when a giant electrical net is thrown on me. I was in the med for a week. You leave Jamie with Mystique and you didn't hesitate to give Rahne to Magneto when the choice was her or Jean. Wow when I have friends like you who needs enemies," I spat out more bitterly then intended.
"Fine Rogue we have been bad people lately and we are sorry. Name it anything to make it up to you," he said.
I felt a tingling behind my eyes and I felt my head go hot. "It's okay just go I'm not all that mad just tired," I lied and looked away.
He turned to leave and when he left I could finally fall to my knees and cover my eyes with my hands. I made a noised in my throat refusing to scream aloud because then I'd have a lot of explaining to do.
"Rogue?" it was Jamie.
"Jamie it's happening again this time it's Scott's," I said.
"Rahne get Scott's extra pair of glasses," Jamie ordered.
I could hear her running about. Jamie came to my side and rocked me. I felt like bleach was thrown in her eyes or something. I wanted to cry but I didn't want anybody to come.
~*~*~*~ Rahne's POV~*~*~*~*~
"Oomph," I was almost there.
"Watch- hey what are you doing with one-eyes shades?" damn it, it was Mr. Logan.
I looked at him and realized I needed to hurry I could smell Rogue's panic and fear. I knew he smelled it to. He looked at me. "Um.err.later," I spoke but I had no idea what to say.
I put the glasses in my mouth and changed onto my wolf form, he could smell my worry and fear as well. Hell I could smell my own worry and fear. I ran to her room knowing he was following behind.
"Hear ye go," I said once I entered the room and turned into human form so that I would be of more help.
~*~*~*~ Back to normal POV ~*~*~*~*~
"Hear ye go," I heard Rahne say.
I couldn't see still but the pain I could bare more. I could hear noises like things moving around but the noise was familiar. It was one of them dragging themselves across the floor. I don't know how long I can keep my eyes closed my body's just itching to be able to see again.
"Hold still," Jamie said.
I did not wanting him to poke my eyelid or something like that. I felt the glasses go on and I opened my eyes. I saw everything in red. I looked at the floor and noticed my hands, there seemed to be something moving inside my hands. At first I thought it was an itch but then I saw something poking at the inside of my skin between each knuckle. The itching feeling turned into pain and my head felt ready to explode. I felt myself fall to the floor and I saw my door open slightly.
"What's goin' on?" fuck it was Logan.
I feel embarrassed because I know that even though I am in pain they are probably looking at me like I' crazy. I put my hands behind my back and I roll on my back. Rahne was saying something to him but I couldn't hear. I hear a few Jamie's as well and I felt one right next to me. It's getting hard not to make noises and I bite my lower lip.
"Let me know right now or I'll get chuck," I heard Logan warn.
I opened my eyes not even knowing I closed then and I felt a river of tears come flowing out. I nod when Rahne looked at me silently asking permission to tell. Something else is happening my skin breaks and I feel my shirt getting wet. I know it's blood and I know Rahne and Logan can smell it. I now realized whose power is surfacing. Logan. I feel the claws poking at my back and without warning they short out all the way into my back. I had to bite down harder and I sound like I'm trying to yell with my mouth full because I refuse to open my mouth. I taste my own blood and feel it falling down my face mixing with the tears falling on the floor and in my own hair. For a brief moment I can smell things I've never smelt and I know what each smell is. I hear things I have never heard so clearly before.
"Rogue!" Jamie said trying to comfort me.
He's shaking me and I move my hands from under me and I fell the blood stop flowing as they heal themselves. The claws go in and the pain and screaming stops. I am afraid to relax because it may happen again. I roll over again and pick myself up they are staring at me, well Logan anyway. Jamie multiplies himself again and sends his clones to each grab something different to clean the mess. "Stripes?" Logan says in a warning voice.
"Y-yeah?" it's a dumb question because I know what he wants I just don't know how to start or where to start talking.
"That's all you can say is YEAH? Wh-what was all that and you.well you were have obviously been through this before," he doesn't really know what to say.
Either that or he has too much to say. "Uh huh," is all I can say.
"Well?" his eyes are wide and I can see the veins on his body more now and he's red and spitting everywhere when he talks.
"She doesn't want anybody to know," Jamie said after having enough of the awkwardness.
"I happens randomly and with random memories and powers. She's getting to be able to tell when it's going to happen though," Rahne said in a careless tone trying to make things seem better than they are.
"Why don't -" I already knew what he was about to ask so I cut him off.
"I don't want anybody to know because it's none of their business really." I really didn't know why I didn't want to tell anybody but I have told myself this so many times I think I'm actually starting to believe it.
"You don't really believe that," his voice is gentler, he sees right through me sometimes.
"I-I just don't want anybody to be more scared of me than they already are," it's weird it's the first time I came up with an answer without thinking about it, I know its true.
"They ain't-," he so damn predictable so I interrupt again.
"YES.they are. I should know when I sit down beside them they flinch slightly and sometimes they actually check to see that I'm covered up before any type of events like school and just a walk. They aren't doing it on purpose so I don't get mad." I feel tears starting to form.
"This is a big-" I think I'll just not pause from now on.
"Deal? I thought it was a big deal when my powers denied me touch. Everything with me is such a big deal. Oh she can't touch, her powers are too much for her, she absorbed somebody again, that's all I ever really hear anymore. That and I'm sorry for forgetting you again, things happen, please forgive me. It's a lot safer now actually." I say.
"What?" he's confused I wonder why.
"Huh?" Jamie says.
"Who says they sorry for forgetting you?" he asked.
All our mouths drop open. He doesn't know, how could he not don't they hear it from- I get it now. "Scott?" I say.
"What?" Rahne asked.
"Scott reports to the professor after every mission he tell him we did good which is true most of the time he doesn't lie so Logan naturally couldn't sense it. He hasn't mentioned a thing about almost killing us a few times because he forgot us. JERK!"
"What!" Logan says in disbelief.
"He left Jamie and I in the jet when Kitty accidentally phased through it and Rahne had to get us out." I say.
Logan tries to hold off his anger. At least that what it looks like on his face since his eyes are narrowed and he's growling. "He forgot about ya?"
"It's because of Jean. They think nasty things about each other during missions and they both forget about us," Jamie said.
"Yeah an' Kurt and Kitty are too confused about love an' they forget. But it's weird. They `member everybody else cept us," Rahne says.
"Well.uh.we'll talk to him.uh them and I'll see if I can get a different pair," he pointed to the glasses.
"Okay," Jamie said as I just now noticed that his clones had already cleaned the floor.
He walks to the door then stops and it seems he is about to turn around but he doesn't and when he opens the door he looks back and opens his mouth to say something but he stops and is gone. Rahne hugs me and smiles then leaves and Jamie repeats what she did.
I sigh loudly and head to my shower. Everyone else had to wait in line but ever since a few break downs after Apocalypse I got my own. I look at myself in the mirror and I see just how messed up I really am. I have bags and my face is oily and my hair is in serious need of help. My gloves are messed up and the back of my uniform is messed up to. I undress and search myself for any marks to indicate anything and I find none. I turn on the hot water all the way and a little bit of cold. I have a habit of using to much hot water but it feels good. I close the bathroom door, I hate getting out the shower and it's cold. I step in the shower and I'm in heaven. It feels so good having hot water stinging my back as it hits me. I wash my hair taking extra long and I shave and wash myself to. I am done but I stand there till the water starts to get cold. I shut the water off and grab my towel.
"Feels nice again," I say aloud feeling my hair.
I dry myself off and put on lotion and deodorant. I brush my teeth and my hair and I take my towel off and wrap it over my head since my hair I still a bit wet. I know I should use another towel o cover myself but it's my room people should knock first and if Kurt teleports in.well it'll be a lesson. If Kitty phases in.well she's a girl and we did share a room for a while. I open to door to my room and I feel cold air enter.
" I don't remember opening my window," I really don't I close it. I hate the fact that my bed is always in the light of the moon. I go in my closet and get out a black sheet. I grab some tacks and put the sheet completely over the window blocking all light. I have a little light from the bathroom and it's enough.
"Cold," I realize I'm sort of talking to myself but it's to quiet.
I press the play button on my CD player and the CD Arcade got me played. It was a present from him because I saved his calculator or something like that. It's the queen of the damned sound track; actually it's pretty good. I open my drawer and put on a pair of underwear and socks. I can't wear my normal pj's (pajamas) their muddy from when I felt John's power surface and I had tried to burn the trees near here but it was raining. I'm actually surprised only Rahne heard me laughing the way I did. I swear I'd be able to wake the dead with a laugh like that. I look around and I see a box, I've had it for a long time but I never opened it and I don't know what's inside. I open it and I see a dark blue silk nightgown. It was the type of thing I'd see in a Victoria secret catalog. I set it on my bed and went to the bathroom. I put on my make up, even though I'm by myself it feels weird with out it. It's only eyeliner and it's waterproof and it doesn't smear. I look at the lipstick wondering if I should put some on. I decide to. It was a new kind but the same color and when I put it on it tasted like blueberries. I look at the gown and I walk to it.
"I can't wear this it's too.pretty," I say. I look through my clean stuff. "No that's for working out, I'd never sleep in this, damn it why do my sweats have to me dirty." I say.
I look at the gown and growl in frustration and I pull it over my head. It slides on making me shiver slightly and I look in the mirror. "If I was caught wearing this I'd never hear the end of it," I take it off not wanting my powers to act up and make me ruin it. I look at the stuff under where the dress was and find a dark gray T-shirt. I smile and put it on and it put the box back under the bed. I turn off the bathroom light and close the door and I pressed the next button on the CD player and I heard a slow jams mix CD I found in Evans room while we were cleaning it. I kept it and it had Michael Jackson and Jagged edge and Boys II men on it and even some Aaliyah. I never listened to them before but always when I sleep now. I kept it low and layback in bed. I tossed and turned for about five minutes it being to hot. I kicked the blankets off. I heard a creak in my room but I ignored it. I turned and faced where my window was at and sighed. Suddenly a hand covered my mouth.
"Shhh chere it's just Remy," I calmed down till he moved his hand.
"WHAT DO YOU THINK-" his hand went right back over my mouth.
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Summary: I'm not sure where this is going I just dreamt of it (
Pairings: Not telling yet.
Some info: In this story takes place about a year and a half after Apocalypse and Remy had joined the team. Every still looks the same and Rogue isn't able to touch still.
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"I said I was sorry Rogue," Scott said.
I didn't want to speak to him here so I stormed up to my room away from the rest of the team and waited for Scott. I waited for him and when he came like I knew he would I didn't let him speak.
"This is the fourth time you forget about us. I don't care if you forgot about me it's natural you would be Jamie and Rahne don't even feel like apart of the team. God you didn't forget Remy and you can't stand him. It makes me wonder where I'm at on the friendship scale."
"We are sorry," he said.
"It's not just you either you may be leader but sometimes we have to disobey you to make things right. No one but Remy remembered us, you would have came all the way here and never noticed we were gone. You would have left us with those mutant haters and -"
"Rogue-"
"I ain't done Scott. I love you guys like a family since I don't really have one. I remember everybody Jamie remembers everybody and even Rahne who none of you on the original team but me have even tried to get to know. Are you and Jean blinded by your hormones and Kurt and Kitty feeling so awkward around each other that only Remy and Piotr are okay enough to care." I was angry but I wasn't screaming and for once that was the scariest thing, I could tell by the look in his eyes.
"What?!" he was offended.
"You heard me you and Jean are so innocent when you think naughty thoughts nothing else matters but how embarrassed you feel. Kurt likes Wanda and kitty is jealous and Kitty wants Piotr and Kurt's jealous. Remy may be a once enemy as well as Piotr but they have proven to be better friends then you and the rest of the team." I felt myself losing control.
"Rogue we care for you but you should be able to take care of yourself, your smart and Jamie and Rahne shouldn't have tried to help you themselves," he said not meaning a word, I knew because right now he seemed to be the loudest in my head.
"F-first you leave Jamie and I in the jet when Kitty accidentally phased through it and made it go haywire and it flipped. Rahne got us out. Then when I covered you in battle and then fight like I should, you don't tell me to move when a giant electrical net is thrown on me. I was in the med for a week. You leave Jamie with Mystique and you didn't hesitate to give Rahne to Magneto when the choice was her or Jean. Wow when I have friends like you who needs enemies," I spat out more bitterly then intended.
"Fine Rogue we have been bad people lately and we are sorry. Name it anything to make it up to you," he said.
I felt a tingling behind my eyes and I felt my head go hot. "It's okay just go I'm not all that mad just tired," I lied and looked away.
He turned to leave and when he left I could finally fall to my knees and cover my eyes with my hands. I made a noised in my throat refusing to scream aloud because then I'd have a lot of explaining to do.
"Rogue?" it was Jamie.
"Jamie it's happening again this time it's Scott's," I said.
"Rahne get Scott's extra pair of glasses," Jamie ordered.
I could hear her running about. Jamie came to my side and rocked me. I felt like bleach was thrown in her eyes or something. I wanted to cry but I didn't want anybody to come.
~*~*~*~ Rahne's POV~*~*~*~*~
"Oomph," I was almost there.
"Watch- hey what are you doing with one-eyes shades?" damn it, it was Mr. Logan.
I looked at him and realized I needed to hurry I could smell Rogue's panic and fear. I knew he smelled it to. He looked at me. "Um.err.later," I spoke but I had no idea what to say.
I put the glasses in my mouth and changed onto my wolf form, he could smell my worry and fear as well. Hell I could smell my own worry and fear. I ran to her room knowing he was following behind.
"Hear ye go," I said once I entered the room and turned into human form so that I would be of more help.
~*~*~*~ Back to normal POV ~*~*~*~*~
"Hear ye go," I heard Rahne say.
I couldn't see still but the pain I could bare more. I could hear noises like things moving around but the noise was familiar. It was one of them dragging themselves across the floor. I don't know how long I can keep my eyes closed my body's just itching to be able to see again.
"Hold still," Jamie said.
I did not wanting him to poke my eyelid or something like that. I felt the glasses go on and I opened my eyes. I saw everything in red. I looked at the floor and noticed my hands, there seemed to be something moving inside my hands. At first I thought it was an itch but then I saw something poking at the inside of my skin between each knuckle. The itching feeling turned into pain and my head felt ready to explode. I felt myself fall to the floor and I saw my door open slightly.
"What's goin' on?" fuck it was Logan.
I feel embarrassed because I know that even though I am in pain they are probably looking at me like I' crazy. I put my hands behind my back and I roll on my back. Rahne was saying something to him but I couldn't hear. I hear a few Jamie's as well and I felt one right next to me. It's getting hard not to make noises and I bite my lower lip.
"Let me know right now or I'll get chuck," I heard Logan warn.
I opened my eyes not even knowing I closed then and I felt a river of tears come flowing out. I nod when Rahne looked at me silently asking permission to tell. Something else is happening my skin breaks and I feel my shirt getting wet. I know it's blood and I know Rahne and Logan can smell it. I now realized whose power is surfacing. Logan. I feel the claws poking at my back and without warning they short out all the way into my back. I had to bite down harder and I sound like I'm trying to yell with my mouth full because I refuse to open my mouth. I taste my own blood and feel it falling down my face mixing with the tears falling on the floor and in my own hair. For a brief moment I can smell things I've never smelt and I know what each smell is. I hear things I have never heard so clearly before.
"Rogue!" Jamie said trying to comfort me.
He's shaking me and I move my hands from under me and I fell the blood stop flowing as they heal themselves. The claws go in and the pain and screaming stops. I am afraid to relax because it may happen again. I roll over again and pick myself up they are staring at me, well Logan anyway. Jamie multiplies himself again and sends his clones to each grab something different to clean the mess. "Stripes?" Logan says in a warning voice.
"Y-yeah?" it's a dumb question because I know what he wants I just don't know how to start or where to start talking.
"That's all you can say is YEAH? Wh-what was all that and you.well you were have obviously been through this before," he doesn't really know what to say.
Either that or he has too much to say. "Uh huh," is all I can say.
"Well?" his eyes are wide and I can see the veins on his body more now and he's red and spitting everywhere when he talks.
"She doesn't want anybody to know," Jamie said after having enough of the awkwardness.
"I happens randomly and with random memories and powers. She's getting to be able to tell when it's going to happen though," Rahne said in a careless tone trying to make things seem better than they are.
"Why don't -" I already knew what he was about to ask so I cut him off.
"I don't want anybody to know because it's none of their business really." I really didn't know why I didn't want to tell anybody but I have told myself this so many times I think I'm actually starting to believe it.
"You don't really believe that," his voice is gentler, he sees right through me sometimes.
"I-I just don't want anybody to be more scared of me than they already are," it's weird it's the first time I came up with an answer without thinking about it, I know its true.
"They ain't-," he so damn predictable so I interrupt again.
"YES.they are. I should know when I sit down beside them they flinch slightly and sometimes they actually check to see that I'm covered up before any type of events like school and just a walk. They aren't doing it on purpose so I don't get mad." I feel tears starting to form.
"This is a big-" I think I'll just not pause from now on.
"Deal? I thought it was a big deal when my powers denied me touch. Everything with me is such a big deal. Oh she can't touch, her powers are too much for her, she absorbed somebody again, that's all I ever really hear anymore. That and I'm sorry for forgetting you again, things happen, please forgive me. It's a lot safer now actually." I say.
"What?" he's confused I wonder why.
"Huh?" Jamie says.
"Who says they sorry for forgetting you?" he asked.
All our mouths drop open. He doesn't know, how could he not don't they hear it from- I get it now. "Scott?" I say.
"What?" Rahne asked.
"Scott reports to the professor after every mission he tell him we did good which is true most of the time he doesn't lie so Logan naturally couldn't sense it. He hasn't mentioned a thing about almost killing us a few times because he forgot us. JERK!"
"What!" Logan says in disbelief.
"He left Jamie and I in the jet when Kitty accidentally phased through it and Rahne had to get us out." I say.
Logan tries to hold off his anger. At least that what it looks like on his face since his eyes are narrowed and he's growling. "He forgot about ya?"
"It's because of Jean. They think nasty things about each other during missions and they both forget about us," Jamie said.
"Yeah an' Kurt and Kitty are too confused about love an' they forget. But it's weird. They `member everybody else cept us," Rahne says.
"Well.uh.we'll talk to him.uh them and I'll see if I can get a different pair," he pointed to the glasses.
"Okay," Jamie said as I just now noticed that his clones had already cleaned the floor.
He walks to the door then stops and it seems he is about to turn around but he doesn't and when he opens the door he looks back and opens his mouth to say something but he stops and is gone. Rahne hugs me and smiles then leaves and Jamie repeats what she did.
I sigh loudly and head to my shower. Everyone else had to wait in line but ever since a few break downs after Apocalypse I got my own. I look at myself in the mirror and I see just how messed up I really am. I have bags and my face is oily and my hair is in serious need of help. My gloves are messed up and the back of my uniform is messed up to. I undress and search myself for any marks to indicate anything and I find none. I turn on the hot water all the way and a little bit of cold. I have a habit of using to much hot water but it feels good. I close the bathroom door, I hate getting out the shower and it's cold. I step in the shower and I'm in heaven. It feels so good having hot water stinging my back as it hits me. I wash my hair taking extra long and I shave and wash myself to. I am done but I stand there till the water starts to get cold. I shut the water off and grab my towel.
"Feels nice again," I say aloud feeling my hair.
I dry myself off and put on lotion and deodorant. I brush my teeth and my hair and I take my towel off and wrap it over my head since my hair I still a bit wet. I know I should use another towel o cover myself but it's my room people should knock first and if Kurt teleports in.well it'll be a lesson. If Kitty phases in.well she's a girl and we did share a room for a while. I open to door to my room and I feel cold air enter.
" I don't remember opening my window," I really don't I close it. I hate the fact that my bed is always in the light of the moon. I go in my closet and get out a black sheet. I grab some tacks and put the sheet completely over the window blocking all light. I have a little light from the bathroom and it's enough.
"Cold," I realize I'm sort of talking to myself but it's to quiet.
I press the play button on my CD player and the CD Arcade got me played. It was a present from him because I saved his calculator or something like that. It's the queen of the damned sound track; actually it's pretty good. I open my drawer and put on a pair of underwear and socks. I can't wear my normal pj's (pajamas) their muddy from when I felt John's power surface and I had tried to burn the trees near here but it was raining. I'm actually surprised only Rahne heard me laughing the way I did. I swear I'd be able to wake the dead with a laugh like that. I look around and I see a box, I've had it for a long time but I never opened it and I don't know what's inside. I open it and I see a dark blue silk nightgown. It was the type of thing I'd see in a Victoria secret catalog. I set it on my bed and went to the bathroom. I put on my make up, even though I'm by myself it feels weird with out it. It's only eyeliner and it's waterproof and it doesn't smear. I look at the lipstick wondering if I should put some on. I decide to. It was a new kind but the same color and when I put it on it tasted like blueberries. I look at the gown and I walk to it.
"I can't wear this it's too.pretty," I say. I look through my clean stuff. "No that's for working out, I'd never sleep in this, damn it why do my sweats have to me dirty." I say.
I look at the gown and growl in frustration and I pull it over my head. It slides on making me shiver slightly and I look in the mirror. "If I was caught wearing this I'd never hear the end of it," I take it off not wanting my powers to act up and make me ruin it. I look at the stuff under where the dress was and find a dark gray T-shirt. I smile and put it on and it put the box back under the bed. I turn off the bathroom light and close the door and I pressed the next button on the CD player and I heard a slow jams mix CD I found in Evans room while we were cleaning it. I kept it and it had Michael Jackson and Jagged edge and Boys II men on it and even some Aaliyah. I never listened to them before but always when I sleep now. I kept it low and layback in bed. I tossed and turned for about five minutes it being to hot. I kicked the blankets off. I heard a creak in my room but I ignored it. I turned and faced where my window was at and sighed. Suddenly a hand covered my mouth.
"Shhh chere it's just Remy," I calmed down till he moved his hand.
"WHAT DO YOU THINK-" his hand went right back over my mouth.
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