Noir
By spheeris1
Pairing: Utena/Anthy [others implied]
Warnings/notes: See 'Teaser' & 'Ichi'
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'Falling out, falling out
Have you ever wondered
If this was ever more than a crazy idea
Falling out, falling out
Have you ever wondered
What we could've been, if you'd only let me in…'
'I won't let you have her back.'
Akio smiled and came closer to his sister. He cupped her jaw delicately and she did not jerk it away. He watched her eyes, as he used to…years and years ago.
'What will you give me in return?' Akio questioned, letting his fingers slip down her neck.
'Myself.' Anthy replied. Akio chuckled.
'But every time you do this, it never turns out the way we want…does it? You give yourself over to me and I take you…I take them all back and leave her alone. And it never works.'
'This time it will.'
Akio narrowed his gaze and stepped back. He has such a hard time remembering his sister this way, with determination and willpower. Not a rose anymore…
'How?'
'The ring.'
'I have millions of rings, Anthy.'
'But not her ring, not the ring intended for her…not Dios's ring.'
Akio and Anthy stared at each other for some time.
He has to believe me…he has to take my offer…Anthy repeated over and over inside her mind. She had to finish this, once and for all.
Utena's ring. Dios's sword. And Anthy's body.
Revolution at last. No more illusionary worlds, no more children to corrupt…no more pain for those she loved…
'Will you be able to get it from her?' Akio asked finally. Anthy merely smiled.
'Consider it done.'
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You had a dream once.
Once upon a time…yea, just like that…
You had something perfect at your fingertips, within your tiny grasp…
A vision of someone, someone you were meant to meet and love.
And you needed them for they needed you. It chased your pain away, it opened your shut heart and gave you power.
But you were a child. And you created it into something false.
Something unreal.
Just like he said you would, just like he said…
That was so long ago, lives before this one…a time beyond time…
And now you are struggling to understand that receding image.
Now you are finally whole enough to reach out.
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Utena shot up out of bed, sweat dampening her t-shirt. Her eyes darted around nervously, looking for…looking for…
Her hands shook as she got up and crept to the bathroom, turning on the sink.
Cold water ran down her face.
Bloodshot eyes stared back from her reflection in the mirror.
'Please…release me…let me go…'
Utena never liked that song. But she was humming along with the tune lodged in her brain, the words tickling at the edges of her consciousness.
Six in the morning.
Coffee from a stained white mug.
And Utena ignored the feeling of being watched, picking up Shiori's card.
She dialed the number.
One ring…please release me…
Two ring…let me go…
'Hello Tenjou-san.' A cheery voice answered. Utena frowned.
'Caller id?'
'Something like that…have you called with your answer about my idea?'
'Sure, let's meet up and chat. I'll bring some friends of mine along, too.'
'By all means, Tenjou-san. I'll put all your doubts at ease.'
She could picture Shiori's smile, slow and devious. Utena smiled one of her own.
'Two hours. Eighty-third street corner, café on the right.'
'Sounds divine.' Shiori purred.
Click.
Utena called Juri. Utena called Miki.
She strapped her gun on, though a voice inside told her it was not necessary.
She turned the ring around on her finger, a little shot of pain stabbing her from where Anthy ripped it off.
'One day you will understand.' Anthy wrote.
But Utena knew that the only way she would ever understand a damn thing was to find Anthy again and ask the woman herself.
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'I want you
But I want you to understand
I miss you
I love you
Didn't want to leave you with the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you with my last confession of love
Wasn't trying to pull you in the wrong direction
All I wanna do is try and make a connection of love…'
'Wrong Impression' by Natalie Imbruglia
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TBC
