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[thoughts of rusty-james after seeing steve, directed to steve
these are thoughts and kind of start a story, i'm not sure where i'm going with this. praise or flames accepted. also, ideas on editing this and/or continuing it are much appreciated.]
i never wanna see you again
i know it's not a part of your plan
but i got a life
and it's all about forgetting yours
so don't
don't try
because i
i'm sick of remembering
i'm sick of the
dreams
nightmares
i'm sick of you
i've been sick of you
didn't you think there was a reason
why i didn't talk to you
never called
in five years?
so go
and be happy
smile and forget me
cause i'm gonna forget you
i'm trying to
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i hate my face
----------------
the house
used to be a half-way house
now they changed it
now i have to pay
the bathroom is still spray-painted
with words that used to make you cringe
you probably live in some fancy dorm
don't you?
i always knew you'd grow up
and be a pansy
---------------
this face of mine
it's too hard to get rid of
everyday i see him
i broke my mirror
but i could still see him in the shards
---------------
is she beautiful?
your girlfriend?
i don't see why you want to remember
those things
like your first kiss
would you care if your girlfriend knew
who your first kiss was
well, you don't even know who that girl was
but
you act like you're so much better now
believe me, it never goes away
you're still that stupid kid
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i had one picture of him
my dad sent it to me
the last time i talked to my dad
four years ago
i decided to talk to him
decided i might as well
but then he had to give me that picture
damn dad
i threw it away
and then i picked it up out of the trash
and threw it away again
and again
it's got a spot on it now
and a piece of tape down the middle
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i found you
where you live
you do live in a stupid dorm
it's white with red on the edges
i walked over there at
three in the morning
there were bright lights
everywhere
it was like a city
and you're number twenty-three, twenty-five
stupid dorm
stupid lock
oh well
you probably don't want to see me anyways
you were just being nice
huh?
so nice
cause you think you're better than me
you think you're smarter than me
brother, this college don't make you smart
living makes you smart
and man, i've lived
i have a life
....had a life
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oh c'mon
like you've never been woken up in four in the morning
say, how long has it been since you've been there
since you've walked those streets
those streets that my brother died in
got shot down by a dirty cop
go back to sleep, steve
i gotta go
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he fucking got shot down
and for a second i couldn't see the blood
well i couldn't tell it was blood
i hadn't been used to seeing black blood
but then it was red
like the tails on those fish
he died for those fish
damn fish
then they died, too
and damn, they deserved it
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do you got any food, steve?
i've been half-starved my whole life
and since you're so fancy now
i figure you can spare a sandwich
what do you think?
no i haven't gone to sleep yet, it's only five o'clock
you pansy
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[thoughts of rusty-james after seeing steve, directed to steve
these are thoughts and kind of start a story, i'm not sure where i'm going with this. praise or flames accepted. also, ideas on editing this and/or continuing it are much appreciated.]
i never wanna see you again
i know it's not a part of your plan
but i got a life
and it's all about forgetting yours
so don't
don't try
because i
i'm sick of remembering
i'm sick of the
dreams
nightmares
i'm sick of you
i've been sick of you
didn't you think there was a reason
why i didn't talk to you
never called
in five years?
so go
and be happy
smile and forget me
cause i'm gonna forget you
i'm trying to
-----------------
i hate my face
----------------
the house
used to be a half-way house
now they changed it
now i have to pay
the bathroom is still spray-painted
with words that used to make you cringe
you probably live in some fancy dorm
don't you?
i always knew you'd grow up
and be a pansy
---------------
this face of mine
it's too hard to get rid of
everyday i see him
i broke my mirror
but i could still see him in the shards
---------------
is she beautiful?
your girlfriend?
i don't see why you want to remember
those things
like your first kiss
would you care if your girlfriend knew
who your first kiss was
well, you don't even know who that girl was
but
you act like you're so much better now
believe me, it never goes away
you're still that stupid kid
-----------------
i had one picture of him
my dad sent it to me
the last time i talked to my dad
four years ago
i decided to talk to him
decided i might as well
but then he had to give me that picture
damn dad
i threw it away
and then i picked it up out of the trash
and threw it away again
and again
it's got a spot on it now
and a piece of tape down the middle
------
i found you
where you live
you do live in a stupid dorm
it's white with red on the edges
i walked over there at
three in the morning
there were bright lights
everywhere
it was like a city
and you're number twenty-three, twenty-five
stupid dorm
stupid lock
oh well
you probably don't want to see me anyways
you were just being nice
huh?
so nice
cause you think you're better than me
you think you're smarter than me
brother, this college don't make you smart
living makes you smart
and man, i've lived
i have a life
....had a life
-------
oh c'mon
like you've never been woken up in four in the morning
say, how long has it been since you've been there
since you've walked those streets
those streets that my brother died in
got shot down by a dirty cop
go back to sleep, steve
i gotta go
-----
he fucking got shot down
and for a second i couldn't see the blood
well i couldn't tell it was blood
i hadn't been used to seeing black blood
but then it was red
like the tails on those fish
he died for those fish
damn fish
then they died, too
and damn, they deserved it
-------
do you got any food, steve?
i've been half-starved my whole life
and since you're so fancy now
i figure you can spare a sandwich
what do you think?
no i haven't gone to sleep yet, it's only five o'clock
you pansy
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