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Chapter 12: Breaking apart

Relena's POV

She had given up now. She had had her year of fun, and now it was time to go back to her old life. She hated it, but she put up a fake smile and did her work as best as she could. No one seemed to care that she didn't want to be there. No one seemed to notice that she was losing sleep and weight over all of this. And no one seemed to notice that she wasn't happy, that she was plastering fake smiles on her face, just for others benefit. She had even gone as far as to admit to herself, that she was depressed.

She went to work early, so that she wouldn't have to deal with people at home, and she'd lock herself in there until late at night. Then she'd leave and go for a walk and then she'd come home. All day she ate next to nothing. She never had an appetite anymore, her daily meal consisted of a sandwich and that was it. Even then she only ate it so that she'd have a little bit of energy in her to do work. She'd then go home to sleep and start the whole routine over again in the morning.

Heero and her relationship was also messed up. She had always wanted to be with him and she was happy to have him by her side all the time, but for some reason she couldn't enjoy him. Maybe it was because he was the one that brought her back to this hell hole, even though he meant well, or maybe it was because she wanted to be independent again, and she was salvaging things from her newer life, so she was trying to not depend on him at all, instead she was distancing herself.

At night she cried. She cried because she missed her freedom, that nothing worked out the way she planned and the way she had no control over her life anymore. At times she thought of killing herself, but she knew that she would hurt to many people, so she wiped the thought out of her head. She would openly accept death if it came knocking on her door, but she would not kill herself.

She had this odd feeling, that she wouldn't have to think of doing it herself, that someone would eventually end her life with a simple gesture, like pulling the trigger on a gun. But she wouldn't plead for her life, she would accept her fate, as she had all her life. She was miserable, and that was how it was meant to be.

It had now been a full month since she had returned home. She was currently sitting at her desk dealing with a boatload of paper work. She sighed heavily and unlocked a drawer in her desk and pulled out a mini photo album. She flipped through it, and saw pictures of her on her board holding awards, or her and Josh and Kayla, all together smiling. She began to cry and looked at the picture on her wall of her signing the peace treaty years ago. And her with all the preventors. She suddenly felt angry with the mere presence of those pictures, so she stomped over to the wall and plucked the picture frames off of it and threw them across the room, the glass shattering. She repeated the process with all the pictures of her horrid life, until they were all gone. Glass, wood and pieces of pictures (which she had taken to ripping apart) littered the floor.

She slumped to the floor of her office, and held onto her legs and rocked back and forth, her head buried in her knees, and she cried harder then she ever cried before.

Just then someone ran into the room.

Heero's POV

He had been walking by her office, on the way to HQ, but all of a sudden he heard something smashing, and then he heard ripping noises and lastly something thump to the floor. Relena's secretary was on her way to the office immediately, but stopped when Heero told her he would check on her.

He ran into the room, loading his gun, just in case the person who tried to kill her was back again for another attempt. But when he entered, there was no intruder. Instead he saw Relena crying on the floor like a lost child, and glass, pieces of pictures and wood everywhere. He recognised what was going on and he quickly went over to her and gently picked her up and placed her in his lap. He wrapped his arms around her and rocked gently back and forth.

She had finally snapped, she was tired and miserable, and he needed to get her away from all of this. So when he finally felt her stop crying, and she snuggled into him, he gently lifted her and took her out of her office. She had finally passed out.

The secretary began asking him questions, but he just told her to cancel all meetings for the next few days or so, and to take care of everything while Relena was gone.

He then took her out of the building and placed her in his car. Then he drove to his apartment. When he got there, he picked her up and carried her inside and to his cluttered apartment. He then walked into his bedroom and placed her in his bed covering her in blankets.

After that he set out to make her lunch (it was afternoon), since she wasn't eating anything lately, he needed to get her to eat again.

He brought in a plateful of food and set it on his bedside table. By then she was awake and looking confused and scared.

"Where am I!?" she panicked Heero sat on the end of her bed. "Relena your at my home. I'm getting you out of here, I won't let you kill yourself because some insanely stupid people are making you stay in office against your will." "But can't you see, even if I run away again, someone else will find me, and then they'll just drag me back here. My dream is a useless one that will never come true. It's like communism, the theory is awesome, but the actual way a country is run under it, is way off from the main idea." (A.N sorry guys, learning about communism, capitalism in social..couldn't help myself but throw one in ^^) "Ahhh but you have me, the master of disguise" said Heero confidently " I don't know about this.." "Don't worry we're leaving tomorrow morning on a permanent vacation, and no one will ever find us." "But where?" Relena asked curiously "We are going to the outskirts of England" "England? Why England?" "Because, it is a very well protected country, and you will be safe there."

Relena began to pout and look away "What now?" Heero asked "Why is everything about my safety?"

"Because, I am going to hunt down the people who tried to kill you while I leave you in England. I will only be gone about a week, I already have some leads, but you'll be safe there until I come back."

"Heero, my illness was probably due to some common food poisoning and that's all."

"No Relena, that was no food poisoning, that was something that was planned out to try and kill you. I will not just wait around until they show up and attempt to kill you again. Plus I have reason to believe, that the people whom killed your friends are the same organisation trying to kill you"

Relena just turned her back and began to pout again. As far as Heero knew, she had accepted the plan and would follow him to England, where she would be safe. Then he would fly back out to Hawaii, and hunt down Josh and Kayla.

"Now you are going to eat some food and get some meat on your bones, your too thin for your own good." "But I'm not hungry" "Relena, don't make me spoon feed you because I will." She kept her back to him and made no signs of moving "Fine you asked for it!"

Heero took a bowl of fruit off of the table. He pulled out a strawberry and shoved it into her mouth. She looked at him with defiant eyes and then began to chew.

"Good, now are you ready to eat on your own?" all she said was "Humph" and then grabbed the plate of food and slowly began to eat everything on the plate.

"Finally, we'll get you to eat normally again, and soon you'll be back to normal"

A.N Did you guys like it? Okay let's all go and review now! ^ ^