A/N: Thanks to all the lovely reviewers: Megamie (So many questions! Actually I don't know. I'm going to let Yuki decide. He's the professional here. ^_^), demon-chan (Is there actually something like specific amnesia? I don't really know. @.@), Mag Magenta (Yeah Shu, how could you just forget about Yuki??? Unbelievable!), AISH a.k.a. Kitty in the Box (Yup, you sum it up. I did also feel that something was missing. This chapter was much easier for me. I'll try to do something about the other one. Can't say I'm really happy with it. Thanks for your comment !!!!), Nyoko (I do have some ideas. Let's say I'm going to let Yuki make some effort in this relationship for once. I mean he does want to keep Shu, or not?), panatlantic (Hey, glad you like it.), Kaorou (Thanks for your concern. «My» kids are well again though my little one is a walking disaster. Very good inspiration though!!!), Reika (Yup, I'll do. Try to update each Friday from now on.)
Chapter 5: The stages of becoming a relaxed person« Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. »
Yuki was back to pacing holes into his non-existing carpet. It had taken him about 10 minutes to race back home, find a cigarette and now he was in the progress of relaxing step by step. That was a therapy idea of one of his many shrinks he had to visit during his screwed up teenager years. He hadn't come very far though today he was still in stage one which involved many swear words, a lot of pacing and even more cigarettes.
The last one was probably the cause why his family doc got this shrink eventually fired. Yuki was agreeing on one point with the shrink though.
Cigarettes were essential for him.
Right now though they weren't helping much. His mind was in the progress of collapsing. And he wasn't able to follow a single thought. It was just a total mess in his head. Well, okay this was nothing new. But this was a secret between him and his appartment walls. Thankfully he didn't need to worry that anyone might listen in.
The walls in this complex were soundproof otherwise he'd been bombarded by now with complaints by annoyed neighbours. He didn't understand it though. Though Shu always was the cause of all the havoc and noise they were always mad at him. Shu was always fussed over and patted on the head. See were that had gotten him.
Now he was patted once to hard over the head and all the small screws in his brain were coming loose.
Forgotten about him. HIM. How ridiculous.
Why did it have to be him? And anyway who said it was ONLY him ? There has to be a mistake somewhere. Everything was just not fair.
Maybe he shouldn't have stormed out like that. Maybe there was an explanation for everything.
That doc sure wasn't right in his mind either. He probably made a mistake and it was just the drugs which confused Shu's brain. Yes, yes that had to be it.
Yuki stopped and deeply inhaled the smoke. Then he turned, grabbed his jacket, car keys, ripped the door open and almost scared Tohma Seguchi to death. Once more.
« You. YOU. »
Tohma who still had his hand in mid air just being in the progress of knocking on the door well now rather on Yuki's chest had enough wits to back up. He could almost see how a plan was forming in the taller blondes brain. The NG president raised his hands slowly backing up pleading silently to whoever cared to listen to his unanswered pleads in the first way.
But nope of course it was senseless to hope to be able to get off that easily.
« You are exactly who I need right now. We need to go back to the hospital. »
With that Yuki Eiri stormed past a confused Tohma expecting him to follow. A second later the smaller blonde snapped out of his stupor and caught up with Yuki.
« Back ? Back to the hospital ? »
Yuki cast an irritated glance at the NG president not bothering with an answer since Tohma sure must have understand it. Tohma though couldn't quite follow Yuki's line of thought.
Why would he want to go back there now ? Not that he was complaining. But he had expected well well not that at least.
« And what are you going to do ? »
Yuki stopped so abruptly that Tohma almost crashed into the Armani clad back of the novellist. He turned and looked for the moment dead serious.
« I refuse to accept this. I refuse to accept this nonsense about Shuichi forgetting about me. I mean hell how ridiciulous is that ? Stuff like that only happens in novels. » 'Heck, that might be the idea for my new novel.' « This is real life. This doctor can show his diagnosis up his scrawny ass I'm going to talk to the baka and make sure to fix the loose ends in his head. »
With that he turned and stalked towards the elevator.
Phase two sucessfully completed.
If Tohma had thought it couldn't get any worse when he had left the hospital with a dreadful feeling but with a even more dreadful wife in his back it had just gotten worse.
In the meanwhile Yuki tried more or less successfully evading over-curiously people who surely had a death wish even trying to talk to him with that scowl on his face.
But let's face it. Thanks god there are some people who just don't get his message otherwise he'd never gotten Shuichi.
In the end Yuki got once more into his sports car and drove off to the hospital totally forgetting about his poor brother-in-law. He arrived there in record time.
Well, what did you expect ? He was in a hurry here. The blonde almost laughed at the expression of his sister who certainly didn't expect him to show up again after only 45 minutes.
« What are YOU doing here again ? And were for heavens sake is my husband ? »
She looked slightly annoyed but Yuki ignored her and once again stormed down the annoyingly white corridor.
Freaking hospitals.
He didn't bother stopping at the door in case his courage left him and walked instead right in.
This time Shuichi wasn't sleeping just smiling curiously at him.
'Hell, he doesn't even look surprised. As if had been expecting me. Damn self assured baka !'
Yuki walked over to the bed and let himself fall once again onto the chair. For a few minutes they just studied each other until of course what did you thought the baka opened his mouth.
« You're back. »
'How intelligent. Maybe that 'bumb' did more damage than he had thought.'
Shuichi shifted nervously in his bed. Yuki realized the little baka was still waiting for an answer so he gave him a curt nod. Fuck, what should he tell him now ?
Now suddenly his plan wasn't that easy anymore. How did you test out memory loss anyway ? Before he could figure out an appropriate tactic though Shuichi decided to take things in his own hands and cut through his last straw of hope with a single sentence.
« Hey, you're the guy I forgot about. »
Yuki looked like someone had punched him.
« Only you. »
Okay, make that a knock-out. »
Shuichi had the grace to look at least slightly guilty. Still Yuki was devasted. Maybe he didn't believe all those white clad idiots but hey his lover had just twice refused to recognize him in less than an hour. That was kinda hard to deny.
Yuki sighed. So what, this just hadn't simply been his day. It can only get better. It's not like he'd given up already. The blonde made himself more comfortable getting ready for an intense chat with his lover. So you could say stage three was finally more or less accomplished. Sure you can't really say that he was relaxed but saying he looked like a deflated ballon who was back on earth hit it pretty close.
Yuki was at a loss though. He really had hoped that Shu's first reaction had only been under the haze of drugs but now what to do?
He only knew one thing.
Nobody forgets Yuki Eiri - especially not Shindou Shuichi. There had to be a way to make Shuichi remember him.
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Okay, this went much better. Ah yeah, do tell me how you liked this chappie. Personally I liked it much better than the previous one. I love writing from Yuki's POV even if it's not in first person. P.S. Any ideas what Yuki should do to make Shu remember him? Btw what would YOU do in such a situation… ???
