Authors note:: IM STUCK!! HELP!! Ack I hate writers block... When I first
started out with this fic I had the ending before I'd even written the
first line but for some reason I have lost track of the ending to this fic
and somehow branched out places I didn't mean to go... DAMNIT!!! And now im
well and truly stuck in a hole that I can't get out of!! Maybe I should
just pack it in... *sigh* Review and tell me what ya all think...
Here goes...
Chap 23
Cold lips touch mine fleetingly and I want to pass out. I want this moment to last forever, a continous moment of kissing this man.
His hand finds the small of my back and soothingly rubs my skin with his cool touch. Wow.
My arms are around his neck, my fingers buried in his bleached hair, feeling the softness of his curls. He breaks the kiss and I almost moan from the loss but when I open my eyes and find deep sky blue eyes staring back at me I can't help but smile in return.
He takes a deep un-needed breath. "Wow." He mutters and smiles, tightening his embrace.
"You could say that." I let out a slight giggle.
Crash.
Shit.
The front door flies open and Dawn comes tumbling in, instantly the contact is broken and I take two steps back from Spike, looking down at the floor before glaring at my sister.
"Hello!" She beams, throwing her jacket on the stairs and heading towards me.
"Hi." I smile fakely, wishing desperately that I had been born an only child.
"How's it going?" She smiles, none the wiser to the activities taking place just seconds ago.
"Fine." I turn to face Spike but find he's disappeared.
Damn you Dawn.
******
Bloody Bit.
Always has to interrupt a perfect moment!
I find myself in the basement turned training room, pacing the cracked concrete flooring. Was this a good idea? I mean getting involved with the slayer again especially now I'm a vampire again. What if I lose it? What if I accidentally -
No. That would never happen. I'd rather stake myself than let THAT happen.
She says she trust me, believes in me. But does she? Can she really trust a vampire like me?? I vicious blood sucker that wouldn't think twice about killing a young child?
What if she doesn't want me like that? What if she is out to use me again like last time? I know she doesn't remember what happened, but what if she's doing it without realising? Like Fate?
No.
There was more in those kisses than just passion. There was something more meaningful that I can't quite put my fang on.
There are footsteps on the stair and I look up to find Buffy staring back at me as she slowly descends the stair case.
"Buffy I –" Her gaze is so intense, I can't find the words to finish the sentence.
"I'm going out, do you need anything?" She's trying to read me, I can see her eyes flicking over mine.
"No, thanks." I turn my back and walk towards a bench set in the corner.
She approaches the bench so she is just inches away from me and I restrain every muscle in my body from reaching out and touching her.
"Well, I'll be going then."
"Yeah." I mutter back.
"So bye."
"Bye."
"Spike?"
"MM?"
She falls silent and I look up at her, her eyes still trained on me. It's no use, I can't hold back any longer.
I stand slowly, stepping forward so she is almost pressed against my chest.
"Bye Buffy." My head tilts down towards her and I feel her heart rate increase.
Her hands touch my cool chest and instant fire races through my skin so fast I gasp at the sensation. She seems hesitant but I feel her head come closer to mine and her lips meet my cheek, warm and tender. I move my head towards hers and our lips brush in a glancing kiss.
Fuck, she's beautiful.
"BUFFY!" An annoying yell comes from upstairs. Buffy pauses mid kiss.
"I think I should kill her right now." She whispers in my ear, her warm breath gliding across my skin.
"I'll give you a hand if you want?"
"Sounds good."
"Do you know what else sounds good?" I smile in response.
"What?"
"This..." I dip my head and trace her bottom lip with my tongue slowly, feeling her press closer to me for more contact.
"BUUUFFFYY!!" The shout comes again, and I feel her tense in my arms.
I break the contact and smile inwardly as she slowly opens her eyes, her lips swollen from out kisses.
She takes a few steps away from me and then she's gone, leaving only her smell to comfort me while daylight shines outside and I am confined to this stone prison.
******
"What took you so long?" My sister moans but I can't help but smile after the kiss I just received off Spike. I think I am going to explode.
"And why do you have an insane smile on your face? You got wind or something?" Dawn folds her arms across her chest and leans against the door frame.
"Shut up." I roll my eyes and walk outside into the beautiful sunshine.
"Spike should have come with us, it's a lovely day." She mutters beside me.
"Mm." I mumble, knowing perfectly well that Spike would not be able to step outside into the light any longer. Once again he is confined to the dark, no longer able to witness the beauty of light.
Some of us don't realise what we have. What luck we have to be able to just walk outside of our houses and be unharmed by the light that shines upon us.
None of us ever realise what we truly have until we have lost it. Why are the powers so harsh? To give him the opportunity to stand in this light, something that appeared to be a dream come true and then to take it away with such force, leaving him once again stranded in the dark.
I can't even bear to imagine what he is thinking right now.
*~* Please read and review!!!! *~*
Here goes...
Chap 23
Cold lips touch mine fleetingly and I want to pass out. I want this moment to last forever, a continous moment of kissing this man.
His hand finds the small of my back and soothingly rubs my skin with his cool touch. Wow.
My arms are around his neck, my fingers buried in his bleached hair, feeling the softness of his curls. He breaks the kiss and I almost moan from the loss but when I open my eyes and find deep sky blue eyes staring back at me I can't help but smile in return.
He takes a deep un-needed breath. "Wow." He mutters and smiles, tightening his embrace.
"You could say that." I let out a slight giggle.
Crash.
Shit.
The front door flies open and Dawn comes tumbling in, instantly the contact is broken and I take two steps back from Spike, looking down at the floor before glaring at my sister.
"Hello!" She beams, throwing her jacket on the stairs and heading towards me.
"Hi." I smile fakely, wishing desperately that I had been born an only child.
"How's it going?" She smiles, none the wiser to the activities taking place just seconds ago.
"Fine." I turn to face Spike but find he's disappeared.
Damn you Dawn.
******
Bloody Bit.
Always has to interrupt a perfect moment!
I find myself in the basement turned training room, pacing the cracked concrete flooring. Was this a good idea? I mean getting involved with the slayer again especially now I'm a vampire again. What if I lose it? What if I accidentally -
No. That would never happen. I'd rather stake myself than let THAT happen.
She says she trust me, believes in me. But does she? Can she really trust a vampire like me?? I vicious blood sucker that wouldn't think twice about killing a young child?
What if she doesn't want me like that? What if she is out to use me again like last time? I know she doesn't remember what happened, but what if she's doing it without realising? Like Fate?
No.
There was more in those kisses than just passion. There was something more meaningful that I can't quite put my fang on.
There are footsteps on the stair and I look up to find Buffy staring back at me as she slowly descends the stair case.
"Buffy I –" Her gaze is so intense, I can't find the words to finish the sentence.
"I'm going out, do you need anything?" She's trying to read me, I can see her eyes flicking over mine.
"No, thanks." I turn my back and walk towards a bench set in the corner.
She approaches the bench so she is just inches away from me and I restrain every muscle in my body from reaching out and touching her.
"Well, I'll be going then."
"Yeah." I mutter back.
"So bye."
"Bye."
"Spike?"
"MM?"
She falls silent and I look up at her, her eyes still trained on me. It's no use, I can't hold back any longer.
I stand slowly, stepping forward so she is almost pressed against my chest.
"Bye Buffy." My head tilts down towards her and I feel her heart rate increase.
Her hands touch my cool chest and instant fire races through my skin so fast I gasp at the sensation. She seems hesitant but I feel her head come closer to mine and her lips meet my cheek, warm and tender. I move my head towards hers and our lips brush in a glancing kiss.
Fuck, she's beautiful.
"BUFFY!" An annoying yell comes from upstairs. Buffy pauses mid kiss.
"I think I should kill her right now." She whispers in my ear, her warm breath gliding across my skin.
"I'll give you a hand if you want?"
"Sounds good."
"Do you know what else sounds good?" I smile in response.
"What?"
"This..." I dip my head and trace her bottom lip with my tongue slowly, feeling her press closer to me for more contact.
"BUUUFFFYY!!" The shout comes again, and I feel her tense in my arms.
I break the contact and smile inwardly as she slowly opens her eyes, her lips swollen from out kisses.
She takes a few steps away from me and then she's gone, leaving only her smell to comfort me while daylight shines outside and I am confined to this stone prison.
******
"What took you so long?" My sister moans but I can't help but smile after the kiss I just received off Spike. I think I am going to explode.
"And why do you have an insane smile on your face? You got wind or something?" Dawn folds her arms across her chest and leans against the door frame.
"Shut up." I roll my eyes and walk outside into the beautiful sunshine.
"Spike should have come with us, it's a lovely day." She mutters beside me.
"Mm." I mumble, knowing perfectly well that Spike would not be able to step outside into the light any longer. Once again he is confined to the dark, no longer able to witness the beauty of light.
Some of us don't realise what we have. What luck we have to be able to just walk outside of our houses and be unharmed by the light that shines upon us.
None of us ever realise what we truly have until we have lost it. Why are the powers so harsh? To give him the opportunity to stand in this light, something that appeared to be a dream come true and then to take it away with such force, leaving him once again stranded in the dark.
I can't even bear to imagine what he is thinking right now.
*~* Please read and review!!!! *~*
