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Asuka was asleep on the car ride home, very similar to what had happen a few days ago. Misato said nothing, Shinji said nothing. The only sound heard was the rain falling and the windsheild wipes brushing them away. Shinji might not have looked it at the time, but he had a lot of things on his mind.
Why did I kiss her? Its not like she would actually want me. No, she only needed someone to comfort her. I'm surprised she didn't run and wash her mouth out again or hit me. Though she has changed considerably these past few days. I can't blame her though. A lot has happened to her. I've changed as well..... hopefully for the good. His mind soon wandered to the other pilot of the Evas Rei....no, not here. I will not cry here. I don't want Misato to worry about me. Tear were stinging in his eyes just thinking about the enigmatic albino. He looked over at the redhead on his shoulder sleeping. His tears faded and a smile crept across his face. She might not have, but I sure as hell enjoyed it.
As Shinji carried the sleeping beauty into her room, once again she was mumbling something in her sleep, and once again Shinji ignored it. He left her room only to see Misato retreat to her own room and close the door. He entered his own room and the second the door was shut the tears fell. He began to write his emotions, if only to get them off his mind. He remembered Misato telling him that writing always helped. So he began-
Tears. Tears are the manifestation on memories escaping the mind. Every tear is a bad memory, a version of what happened. Instead of leaving your mind when they escape through your eyes, they remind you of what happened, thus creating more tears, more bad memories. The loss of a loved one can be traumatic, devastating, depressing. All words to express the emotion felt when something happens when you don't want it to be that way. Yet another crack to my already broken heart. I fear I am hanging on a thread now. One more push, one more crack, and my heart will shatter and all that will be left is a black hole to absorb myself entirely. I cannot let that happen. I must find something, or someone who can heal my abused heart. But there will always be the scar......
(a/n this is a mix of a few poems I actually wrote mixed with some things I made up just now. That's right all ME!!!!!)
Shinji finished pouring his soul onto the paper and looked it over and realized how much of a relief it was to express that and how many stain marks there were from all the tears that had fallen on to the paper. He heard the phone ring and he ignored it. Then Misato rushed into his room screaming.
"SHE'S ALIVE!!!! SHINJI!!!! REI IS ALIVE!!!!!" Before Shinji could even think, he had run out the door with Misato to go see her in the hospital.
In the next room Asuka had heard what Misato had said and how fast Shinji had ran out the door to go see her. Why am I so jealous of her? He said she was like a sister to him. I wonder though..... what does Rei feel for Shinji? Asuka pondered now sitting up. On multiple occasions have I found wondergirl making a move on my Shinji!!! I said it again!!! MY Shinji! She froze and slowly collected her thought up to the part were she fell asleep in his arms. ok ok ok, I was crying, he comforted me, I yelled at him, he kissed me.......... he kissed me?!?!?!!? Asuka just now realizing what had transpired in the last few hours. GRRRR!!! I couldn't think strait!!! I should have done more.... The images of her dream flashed through her mind and she immediately blushed well maybe not THAT much more....
Shinji was exited beyond compare. He was almost certain she was gone, not he was angry at himself for giving up so easily. But I saw the blast.... how could she have survived? She must look horrible..... He sunk into a depressing at the though of everyone's favorite albino girl with extreme burns and other injuries. He shook his head to escape those depressing thoughts but they wouldn't leave.
They had just arrived at the hospital and Shinji quickly ran to the front desk asking for Rei Ayanami's room. He quickly shoved a NERV PERSONNEL card in her face and she said "room 313" He jetted through the hallways ran up the stairs since the elevator would take too long and saw her standing in the hallways with a eye patch and a few bandages. Before he could think his arms were wrapped around her. He was overjoyed to see her, but his heart sank into his chest when he heard.
"Who are you?" Shinji was at a loss for words. Amnesia? He thought to himself.
"Do you remember me? My name is Shinji Ikari."
Ikari?!?! Rei's mind raced. She recognized the name for some strange reason but couldn't remember exactly were. Images of Shinji flashed before her eyes. There first battle together, the incident at her apartment, the many angel attacks the time they spent together, and above all how he was nice to her, and asked nothing in return.
Rei was holding her head as if a massive headache had set in. The surge of emotions that she had not idea about, she started to remember, she became aware. Asuka, Touji, Kensuke, Hikari, Misato, Ritsuke, Maya, Aoba, Hyuga, Kozo, Gendo, "SHINJI!!!!!!" She screamed before passing out.
She fell into Shinjis arms as he quickly called for help for someone, anyone to help the unconscious girl. Doctors and a few nurses heard his screams and quickly took her into and emergency room. Now Shinji's mind was racing. A smile crept onto his confused face as he thought the words She remembered.......
Within minuets he was home. Shinji was not allowed to see her just yet but it seems she had fallen into a coma like state. Though he feared she might not wake up, he was on cloud 9 (or at least cloud 5 seeing as this was Shinji) He was so happy that not only was she alive, but she remembered him. He feared that he would have to go through the pain of see her right in front of him, but not being able to be like it was before, when he felt at peace.
Kaji told me there were 17 angels........one more. Come to think of it, I haven't seen Kaji in a while. Wonder how he is.... Sleep soon took over his mind as his eyelids closed and he embraced the trance state that is sleeping.
In the room down the hall and overly conserved Asuka was at work pondering to herself how she's gonna deal with Rei. Ok, i'm kinda happy that she's alive and all but what if she make a move on MY Shinji!??!?!? Being the way Shinji is, he might give in to her. That brush with death has made Shinji very happy to be with her. If that wonderslut takes advantage of my Shinjis kind heart than an angel couldn't protect her from me!!!!!! Now satisfied with the answer to her self asked question, she silently sneak out of room and stopped in front of the room that said 'Shinji's Lovely suit' But just in case I better remind him who he truly cares about, hehehehe She said with a sinister laugh in her inner monologue as she crept into his room and made herself comfortable next to a sleeping Shinji.
Asuka was asleep on the car ride home, very similar to what had happen a few days ago. Misato said nothing, Shinji said nothing. The only sound heard was the rain falling and the windsheild wipes brushing them away. Shinji might not have looked it at the time, but he had a lot of things on his mind.
Why did I kiss her? Its not like she would actually want me. No, she only needed someone to comfort her. I'm surprised she didn't run and wash her mouth out again or hit me. Though she has changed considerably these past few days. I can't blame her though. A lot has happened to her. I've changed as well..... hopefully for the good. His mind soon wandered to the other pilot of the Evas Rei....no, not here. I will not cry here. I don't want Misato to worry about me. Tear were stinging in his eyes just thinking about the enigmatic albino. He looked over at the redhead on his shoulder sleeping. His tears faded and a smile crept across his face. She might not have, but I sure as hell enjoyed it.
As Shinji carried the sleeping beauty into her room, once again she was mumbling something in her sleep, and once again Shinji ignored it. He left her room only to see Misato retreat to her own room and close the door. He entered his own room and the second the door was shut the tears fell. He began to write his emotions, if only to get them off his mind. He remembered Misato telling him that writing always helped. So he began-
Tears. Tears are the manifestation on memories escaping the mind. Every tear is a bad memory, a version of what happened. Instead of leaving your mind when they escape through your eyes, they remind you of what happened, thus creating more tears, more bad memories. The loss of a loved one can be traumatic, devastating, depressing. All words to express the emotion felt when something happens when you don't want it to be that way. Yet another crack to my already broken heart. I fear I am hanging on a thread now. One more push, one more crack, and my heart will shatter and all that will be left is a black hole to absorb myself entirely. I cannot let that happen. I must find something, or someone who can heal my abused heart. But there will always be the scar......
(a/n this is a mix of a few poems I actually wrote mixed with some things I made up just now. That's right all ME!!!!!)
Shinji finished pouring his soul onto the paper and looked it over and realized how much of a relief it was to express that and how many stain marks there were from all the tears that had fallen on to the paper. He heard the phone ring and he ignored it. Then Misato rushed into his room screaming.
"SHE'S ALIVE!!!! SHINJI!!!! REI IS ALIVE!!!!!" Before Shinji could even think, he had run out the door with Misato to go see her in the hospital.
In the next room Asuka had heard what Misato had said and how fast Shinji had ran out the door to go see her. Why am I so jealous of her? He said she was like a sister to him. I wonder though..... what does Rei feel for Shinji? Asuka pondered now sitting up. On multiple occasions have I found wondergirl making a move on my Shinji!!! I said it again!!! MY Shinji! She froze and slowly collected her thought up to the part were she fell asleep in his arms. ok ok ok, I was crying, he comforted me, I yelled at him, he kissed me.......... he kissed me?!?!?!!? Asuka just now realizing what had transpired in the last few hours. GRRRR!!! I couldn't think strait!!! I should have done more.... The images of her dream flashed through her mind and she immediately blushed well maybe not THAT much more....
Shinji was exited beyond compare. He was almost certain she was gone, not he was angry at himself for giving up so easily. But I saw the blast.... how could she have survived? She must look horrible..... He sunk into a depressing at the though of everyone's favorite albino girl with extreme burns and other injuries. He shook his head to escape those depressing thoughts but they wouldn't leave.
They had just arrived at the hospital and Shinji quickly ran to the front desk asking for Rei Ayanami's room. He quickly shoved a NERV PERSONNEL card in her face and she said "room 313" He jetted through the hallways ran up the stairs since the elevator would take too long and saw her standing in the hallways with a eye patch and a few bandages. Before he could think his arms were wrapped around her. He was overjoyed to see her, but his heart sank into his chest when he heard.
"Who are you?" Shinji was at a loss for words. Amnesia? He thought to himself.
"Do you remember me? My name is Shinji Ikari."
Ikari?!?! Rei's mind raced. She recognized the name for some strange reason but couldn't remember exactly were. Images of Shinji flashed before her eyes. There first battle together, the incident at her apartment, the many angel attacks the time they spent together, and above all how he was nice to her, and asked nothing in return.
Rei was holding her head as if a massive headache had set in. The surge of emotions that she had not idea about, she started to remember, she became aware. Asuka, Touji, Kensuke, Hikari, Misato, Ritsuke, Maya, Aoba, Hyuga, Kozo, Gendo, "SHINJI!!!!!!" She screamed before passing out.
She fell into Shinjis arms as he quickly called for help for someone, anyone to help the unconscious girl. Doctors and a few nurses heard his screams and quickly took her into and emergency room. Now Shinji's mind was racing. A smile crept onto his confused face as he thought the words She remembered.......
Within minuets he was home. Shinji was not allowed to see her just yet but it seems she had fallen into a coma like state. Though he feared she might not wake up, he was on cloud 9 (or at least cloud 5 seeing as this was Shinji) He was so happy that not only was she alive, but she remembered him. He feared that he would have to go through the pain of see her right in front of him, but not being able to be like it was before, when he felt at peace.
Kaji told me there were 17 angels........one more. Come to think of it, I haven't seen Kaji in a while. Wonder how he is.... Sleep soon took over his mind as his eyelids closed and he embraced the trance state that is sleeping.
In the room down the hall and overly conserved Asuka was at work pondering to herself how she's gonna deal with Rei. Ok, i'm kinda happy that she's alive and all but what if she make a move on MY Shinji!??!?!? Being the way Shinji is, he might give in to her. That brush with death has made Shinji very happy to be with her. If that wonderslut takes advantage of my Shinjis kind heart than an angel couldn't protect her from me!!!!!! Now satisfied with the answer to her self asked question, she silently sneak out of room and stopped in front of the room that said 'Shinji's Lovely suit' But just in case I better remind him who he truly cares about, hehehehe She said with a sinister laugh in her inner monologue as she crept into his room and made herself comfortable next to a sleeping Shinji.