Author's Note: Chapter 2 is ready for you to read! This was fun to write,
and it went quite fast. Moreover, I get the feeling I don't like Coral very
much. A few days ago, I went to the supermarket, and I found myself calling
a box of detergent which has the name 'Coral' on it an 'Idiot'. Kinda
silly, I know, but somehow it was fun. ^^
The song I added at the end of the story is "In the light" by DC Talk (or
Capewalk, I prefer Capewalk). It is a song I learned at church, not a
lovesong or something like that at all. But I think the two verses describe
Marlins situation quite well. If you want the MP3 file of it, please send
me a mail with the subject "Capewalk".
Chapter 2: A serious talk
Damn it! Why did I have to say a stupid thing like that? Yes, it was true that I was very careful about personal relationships since Corals death, but why? Was it only because I still hadn't been able to overcome what happened years ago? Or was it the fear of loosing a loved person again? I didn't know. But what I knew for sure was that I had been swimming around for hours and that it was time to go home.
When I arrived, Nemo and Dory were waiting in front of the anemone. Immediately, Nemo swam up to me and gave me a hug.
"Hi Dad! We've been waiting for you!"
"I'm sorry." I looked over to the blue tang swimming slowly behind him. "So Dory brought you home.?"
Dory nodded. "Yeah. I somehow had a strange feeling about letting him go alone." She smiled slightly.
"Thanks, Dory." I smiled back, trying to keep my expression fixed on neutral.
"Well, I think it's time for me to go", she said, then added: "Bye, you two."
"Bye, Dory!" Nemo called, then swam inside the anemone while I just stood there, not knowing what to say, watching her go.
Instinctively, without knowing I would do this, I suddenly heard myself calling: "Dory, wait!" I swam up to her. She looked at me, obviously being confused. "Will I see you tomorrow?"
"Yes, of course", she replied, nodding. "As every day while Nemo's at school."
"Oh, yes, right. I. I guess I just wanted to be sure. Bye."
"Bye." With this, she swam off and I returned to the anemone. Deep inside I felt strange, as if a thousand butterflies were fluttering through my stomach. Just like on the day I had asked Coral to go on a first date with me. But this was quite different, I wasn't going to go on a date with Dory. Or was I.?
Later, when it was time for Nemo to go to bed, he asked me: "Why is it that you don't like Dory?"
I looked at him questioningly, feeling confused. "Who says that?" I asked back.
"My friend Tad", he told me, obviously not knowing what was wrong. "He heard you and Dory talking."
"Oh my." I sighed, thinking about what I should tell him. "Listen. It's not that I don't like her, but our relationship is. Well. Kinda complicated."
"Dad?" Nemo suddenly said.
"Yes?"
"Will Dory be my new Mom?"
"What?" I looked at him, shocked by the directness of his question.
"Will Dory be my new Mom?" he repeated.
I sighed. "Well, I don't think so."
"But she's your girlfriend?"
"No. Did you think so?"
He nodded. "Everyone says she is. Because you spend so much time with her."
I desperately tried to find the right words. "Dory is a good friend." I finally managed to say.
He seemed to be confused. "So Dory is a girl and she's your friend, but she's not your girlfriend?"
I nodded. "You got it."
"But I don't understand it."
"You don't?"
"No. I just summarized what you said, but I don't understand it."
I smiled at him. "You will, when you're a little bit older. Good night."
"Good night, Dad."
In the light
I keep trying to find a life
On my own, apart from You
I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I do
What's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior
(chorus)
I wanna be in the Light
As You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, Lord be my Light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the Light
The disease of self runs through my blood
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under control
Tell me, what's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior
(repeat chorus)
To be continued.
Chapter 2: A serious talk
Damn it! Why did I have to say a stupid thing like that? Yes, it was true that I was very careful about personal relationships since Corals death, but why? Was it only because I still hadn't been able to overcome what happened years ago? Or was it the fear of loosing a loved person again? I didn't know. But what I knew for sure was that I had been swimming around for hours and that it was time to go home.
When I arrived, Nemo and Dory were waiting in front of the anemone. Immediately, Nemo swam up to me and gave me a hug.
"Hi Dad! We've been waiting for you!"
"I'm sorry." I looked over to the blue tang swimming slowly behind him. "So Dory brought you home.?"
Dory nodded. "Yeah. I somehow had a strange feeling about letting him go alone." She smiled slightly.
"Thanks, Dory." I smiled back, trying to keep my expression fixed on neutral.
"Well, I think it's time for me to go", she said, then added: "Bye, you two."
"Bye, Dory!" Nemo called, then swam inside the anemone while I just stood there, not knowing what to say, watching her go.
Instinctively, without knowing I would do this, I suddenly heard myself calling: "Dory, wait!" I swam up to her. She looked at me, obviously being confused. "Will I see you tomorrow?"
"Yes, of course", she replied, nodding. "As every day while Nemo's at school."
"Oh, yes, right. I. I guess I just wanted to be sure. Bye."
"Bye." With this, she swam off and I returned to the anemone. Deep inside I felt strange, as if a thousand butterflies were fluttering through my stomach. Just like on the day I had asked Coral to go on a first date with me. But this was quite different, I wasn't going to go on a date with Dory. Or was I.?
Later, when it was time for Nemo to go to bed, he asked me: "Why is it that you don't like Dory?"
I looked at him questioningly, feeling confused. "Who says that?" I asked back.
"My friend Tad", he told me, obviously not knowing what was wrong. "He heard you and Dory talking."
"Oh my." I sighed, thinking about what I should tell him. "Listen. It's not that I don't like her, but our relationship is. Well. Kinda complicated."
"Dad?" Nemo suddenly said.
"Yes?"
"Will Dory be my new Mom?"
"What?" I looked at him, shocked by the directness of his question.
"Will Dory be my new Mom?" he repeated.
I sighed. "Well, I don't think so."
"But she's your girlfriend?"
"No. Did you think so?"
He nodded. "Everyone says she is. Because you spend so much time with her."
I desperately tried to find the right words. "Dory is a good friend." I finally managed to say.
He seemed to be confused. "So Dory is a girl and she's your friend, but she's not your girlfriend?"
I nodded. "You got it."
"But I don't understand it."
"You don't?"
"No. I just summarized what you said, but I don't understand it."
I smiled at him. "You will, when you're a little bit older. Good night."
"Good night, Dad."
In the light
I keep trying to find a life
On my own, apart from You
I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I do
What's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior
(chorus)
I wanna be in the Light
As You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, Lord be my Light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the Light
The disease of self runs through my blood
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under control
Tell me, what's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior
(repeat chorus)
To be continued.