May be continued at some point when I have time - please let me know if you'd be interested in reading any more of this pairing, or of my Gravitation fics. Not sure if this is going to get (m)any more reviews, so I'd like to thank my two lovely reviewers Burned Vamp and Silverone - you guys rock!
Canned Pop - 6 - No Added Sugar (well, maybe a little)
SPG VERSION 3
'Ehh, Fujisaki, you look awfully happy today.'
Suguru cursed silently. That wasn't the look he was going for.
'Really?' he said lightly 'I'm the same as ever, Shindou.'
'Oh, okay then. Well it's good to see you feeling better.'
He smiled. Shuichi and Yuki must have made up already. He wondered idly if they had been at the concert too.
'Hey, Fujisaki,' Hiroshi smiled, walking in.
Everyone seemed so happy today. Even K's deafening entrance didn't dampen his mood. Sakano was finding it all too good to be true, as he wept joyfully in the corner, praying for it to last.
Somehow, Suguru hadn't been able to ignore the lyrics of that song either. What they said about dreams and love and unreachable things... They were sad words, hopeless words. But that was not his situation. He was making his dream happen, and he was making what he could have, his. The thought of Tatsuha's lips on his was enough to keep his heart pounding, even where his music failed him and he would otherwise have nothing.
Suguru was happy, for now. The keys of the board beneath his fingers were cool and refreshed - untouched since his outburst only a few days ago. He was back on the road to his dream.
The key didn't seem half as heavy as it had done, as Tatsuha held it out.
'I can keep this, right?' he asked
'Of course...' Suguru said, looking away.
'You don't have to be embarrassed anymore,' the younger boy reminded him, messing up his hair as he did so.
'I'm not embarrassed,' he said defiantly, pushing the hand away.
Tatsuha grinned. 'I go back to Kyoto tomorrow.'
'To go to school, right?'
Tatsuha pulled a face 'You don't have to say it like that.'
Suguru smiled 'Aww, you don't have to pout.'
'I can pout if I want.'
The two boys sat together on the sofa of Suguru's apartment, as the last of the evening sun faded away.
'You know what?' the younger boy said, eyes catching in the sun poetically 'Even after all that's happened, it's been fun. Awkward, but fun.'
'Glad I could be of service,' Suguru said absently.
It's been an experience, at least...
'Fujisaki...' Tatsuha started, a strange confidence in his voice.
'Suguru,' he corrected.
'Suguru, I've decided something. I don't know if it was part of The Plan, and to be honest I don't care. I've never been good with all this emotional stuff, even when I had to console so many people who fell for my brother...but...in the end...I...'
Suguru could see the words forming, struggling to get out. He wasn't quite sure he was ready for this, for what he was expecting Tatsuha to say. He wasn't going to say that he...that he...
He can't want to tell me that he...
'What about Ryuichi?' he asked instead.
'Nothing. He's just an singer, an older guy who happened to make it into the limelight. He's just an idol, almost fictional...but...he stopped me from seeing so many other things...but through this whole mess, this whole ordeal, I think I finally realized my mistake.'
Despite how he willed himself calm, he could already feel the tears coming 'You don't have to say that...'
'I love you,' Tatsuha didn't care how brain meltingly stupid it sounded, because he knew it was true.
'I...' the other boy managed, before letting the tears claim him. How could he just say it like that...? It sounded so stupid, so cliché, it was too much, too quickly. How long had it been? Three days? Was this even possible? It didn't matter. There was his answer.
'Don't cry. I'm not so dense as to miss my own feelings, and yours,' he embraced the boy, sobbing into his chest. 'It's not that terrible, is it?' he smiled weakly.
'No...no it's not' Suguru managed between sobs 'but, I...I didn't...think that ...you ...could ...someone ...like me...'
He wanted to scream, wanted to demand how this had happened. What had he done? How could Tatsuha say he loved him? For one thing it seemed completely out of character, and to say it to him...to the whining little kid who couldn't bear to be a child, to be dependant on another...how could he feel that way?
'I'm sorry...' he said, taking a deep breath. Now he was crying, proving his immaturity. Adults didn't cry, did they?
'It's okay,' Tatsuha said, as gently as he could. He had a strange satisfaction a Suguru's response. That he could have such an effect on him, to make the older boy cry like this. To show his weakness. Tatsuha could see how much the boy needed this, needed to be held. He cursed himself for the tacky thought, but he really didn't want to let him go.
Suguru managed to calm himself sufficiently to speak
'Why?' he asked, simply.
'Who knows? But we're here now.'
Suguru blinked.
'I'm not as cruel as K thinks I am, but I don't need him to make this decision for me.'
'That's encouraging...'
Tatsuha wiped the remaining tears from Suguru's eyes. 'This is what you want, right?'
He didn't want to admit it.
'Mm...yes it is...'
'That's a relief,' he sighed, relieved, scooping the smaller boy into his arms.
'Eh?' Suguru squeaked
'Well we obviously can't stay here, can we?'
A panicked squeal escaped his lips.
'What? What do you mean?' he demanded.
'What do you think I mean?' Tatsuha grinned, pushing Suguru back onto the bed once more, kissing him forcefully.
'This isn't fair!' he coughed, fighting for air.
'Of course it's fair. You said it was what you wanted, right?'
'I didn't mean it like that!'
Tatsuha leant back down, smiling 'Don't worry. It'll be fine.'
'You say that... But...'
'I promise.'
Suguru swallowed nervously. He allowed himself several agonising seconds before nodding in consent.
'That's more like it.' Tatsuha said, kissing him again. The older boy looked completely confused by the whole practice, simply holding onto his friend...his lover, as he went about his work.
'Besides' he added, his lips soft on Suguru's ear 'I wouldn't want to do anything to hurt my cute little Suguru, would I?'
Suguru started to struggle at that, finally responding to Tatsuha's weight in unfamiliar places, with the sudden desperate urge to fight back.
'Damnit! I'm not little!'
fin-
Misato CS