Man, talk about a long time ^^; sorry folks for the wait. I've been
completely slammed with school and everything. But now, I'm back, and
tagging along is chapter 12!
Chapter 12
It took her a while to finally get up the courage to get on the computer again. It brought back a lot of memories. It was exactly three months since her horrible encounter with what happened with her and Sesshomaru, and her thoughts still thrived within her.
She still felt all the pain, but she didn't let it faze her. She had matured to a great level, and had finally grasped the meaning of the phrase 'it is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all'. Although she didn't like the fact it was true, she had come to deal with it.
A thousand times she thought of all the possibilities of what could have happened if certain things had occurred. Like if her and Inuyasha never broke up, would she still be with him? Would she still be suffering form the inner pain from her love of Sesshomaru? These questions haunted her, and it killed her to know that the answers were just out of reach.
Kagome double clicked on the IM button in the bottom right corner of her computer screen. She signed on, and almost instantly she got an IM from a very familiar screen name.
Kagome's heart took a leap and a dive as Sesshomaru's screen name appeared, followed by a curt "hi".
Kagome typed back an equally brisk "hello", her heart pounding in her chest. What would she do? Better yet, what would she say?
The next line of conversation coming from him was "Kagome, I'm really sorry, can you ever forgive me?"
Kagome didn't know how to confront the question. She was overjoyed, yet terribly saddened. She wanted to so ever dearly forgive him, but could she? What if the same thing happened all over again? Her already fragile composure from the months ago would once again be shattered, leaving her with a once again brittle soul that she couldn't, wouldn't bare.
But what if he was telling the truth? What if he was sorry for all the pain he caused her?
The real question was, though, no matter how she looked at it, could she trust him?
Kagome typed back "I don't know if I can. Sesshomaru, you destroyed two very important things with us."
"I know, Kagome, and I've come to realize what a terrible mistake I made. Come over to my house, we have a lot to talk about."
"You know what happened last time I went to your house. I think I'd be safer behind the computer screen."
"That won't happen again if you don't want it to."
"I don't know. I don't know if I can trust you anymore. You broke my heart, Sesshomaru. You destroyed my trust in you. I don't know if I can."
"I know I damaged a lot of things, Kag, but trust me, I swear I will mend all of them. Even if it takes me forever."
Kagome was utterly confused. Here Sesshomaru was, pledging that he would try and mend all the things he so violently broken. And her heart was yelling out to trust him.
"Okay. When do you want me to come over?"
"How about now."
"Are your parents home?"
"Yes, Kagome, they are."
"Be there in twenty minutes."
Kagome signed off, and retreated to the confines of her small walk in closet to pick out her outfit.
~*~
Twenty minutes later, as she promised, she arrived in front of Sesshomaru's door. Scorching memories flooded her mind of the time she first came to this door, looking for the same person. She also remembered the pool incident. Thinking of it left quivers of pleasure course through her lower stomach.
Sesshomaru answered the door, his attire equally as flattering as hers. Kagome's heart lurched as she set her eyes upon him. He was everything she remembered, right down to the sensual look of his lips.
He moved out of the doorway, allowing her to enter his house. Some rearranging had been done, as far as the furniture went. The air smelled of crisp apple pie, Kagome's favorite. The curtains decorating the large, Victorian style windows draped over them, keeping the light from entering the room.
An uneasy feeling overwhelmed Kagome. Her breath quickened, and her palms began to profusely sweat. She was uncomfortable in the house; especially with the one guy she couldn't trust the most.
Sesshomaru picked up on the quickening rasps of Kagome's breath. Darkness suddenly overcame his heart, and the fear that she had gotten over him settled in. What if she had gotten over him? What would he do? He was standing here, fixing to poor his heart out to her, and yet, he hadn't taken into consideration the fact that she might have gotten over him. The thought ceased to haunt him, and he knew there was only one way to find out if his fear was true.
Questions raced through Kagome's mind. What if he just wanted her over to tell her that he no longer liked her? But that didn't make any sense, seeing as how if he did, he wouldn't have asked her over. And the way he sounded over IM. It sounded as though he was truly sorry for his actions. Kagome was confused. There wasn't a clearer way to say it.
Tension lingered in the air as Sesshomaru leaded Kagome to one of the plush sofas in the room. It was decorated with red leather, and matching pillows resided on either end of it. The leather was creased and worn, a sure sign of its old age.
Kagome sat down on it, soon followed by Sesshomaru. The tension increase dramatically, followed by an infinite silence.
The hush itched at the nerves in Sesshomaru's mind, and suddenly he burst out "Kagome, have you gotten over me?" His voice held a childish air, and Kagome couldn't help but reach out.
"No Sesshomaru. I don't think I could even if I tried. What about you? Have you gotten over me?"
Sesshomaru heaved a sigh of relief. His fear diminished into what it formerly was – nothing. "No, Kag dear, I haven't." He went to pull her into a gentle embrace, but was halted.
"Just because I haven't gotten over you, doesn't mean I'm ready to let you back into my life. You hurt me Sesshomaru. Now I want to know why." Authority rimmed her voice.
For the next few hours, Kagome and Sesshomaru sat in a heated discussion, talking about all that happened to cause the fall of their relationship.
"That bitch." Kagome mumbled, after she figured everything out. She never really liked Kikyo, and it just figured it was she behind the fall of her ever-wonderful relationship.
One thing was for sure. She still loved Sesshomaru, and he, her.
"Sesshomaru, now that we have this confusion taken care of, are we going back out?" Kagome asked the one daunting question left in her mind.
Sesshomaru's heart filled with happiness. "Of course, Kagome. We are."
~*~
A wonderful chapter, I know. Lol. Time to stop praising myself. Anyways, There's chapter 12. I think I'm gonna wrap the story somewhere around 15, I don't know yet. But, we'll just have to see how things fly.
Chapter 12
It took her a while to finally get up the courage to get on the computer again. It brought back a lot of memories. It was exactly three months since her horrible encounter with what happened with her and Sesshomaru, and her thoughts still thrived within her.
She still felt all the pain, but she didn't let it faze her. She had matured to a great level, and had finally grasped the meaning of the phrase 'it is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all'. Although she didn't like the fact it was true, she had come to deal with it.
A thousand times she thought of all the possibilities of what could have happened if certain things had occurred. Like if her and Inuyasha never broke up, would she still be with him? Would she still be suffering form the inner pain from her love of Sesshomaru? These questions haunted her, and it killed her to know that the answers were just out of reach.
Kagome double clicked on the IM button in the bottom right corner of her computer screen. She signed on, and almost instantly she got an IM from a very familiar screen name.
Kagome's heart took a leap and a dive as Sesshomaru's screen name appeared, followed by a curt "hi".
Kagome typed back an equally brisk "hello", her heart pounding in her chest. What would she do? Better yet, what would she say?
The next line of conversation coming from him was "Kagome, I'm really sorry, can you ever forgive me?"
Kagome didn't know how to confront the question. She was overjoyed, yet terribly saddened. She wanted to so ever dearly forgive him, but could she? What if the same thing happened all over again? Her already fragile composure from the months ago would once again be shattered, leaving her with a once again brittle soul that she couldn't, wouldn't bare.
But what if he was telling the truth? What if he was sorry for all the pain he caused her?
The real question was, though, no matter how she looked at it, could she trust him?
Kagome typed back "I don't know if I can. Sesshomaru, you destroyed two very important things with us."
"I know, Kagome, and I've come to realize what a terrible mistake I made. Come over to my house, we have a lot to talk about."
"You know what happened last time I went to your house. I think I'd be safer behind the computer screen."
"That won't happen again if you don't want it to."
"I don't know. I don't know if I can trust you anymore. You broke my heart, Sesshomaru. You destroyed my trust in you. I don't know if I can."
"I know I damaged a lot of things, Kag, but trust me, I swear I will mend all of them. Even if it takes me forever."
Kagome was utterly confused. Here Sesshomaru was, pledging that he would try and mend all the things he so violently broken. And her heart was yelling out to trust him.
"Okay. When do you want me to come over?"
"How about now."
"Are your parents home?"
"Yes, Kagome, they are."
"Be there in twenty minutes."
Kagome signed off, and retreated to the confines of her small walk in closet to pick out her outfit.
~*~
Twenty minutes later, as she promised, she arrived in front of Sesshomaru's door. Scorching memories flooded her mind of the time she first came to this door, looking for the same person. She also remembered the pool incident. Thinking of it left quivers of pleasure course through her lower stomach.
Sesshomaru answered the door, his attire equally as flattering as hers. Kagome's heart lurched as she set her eyes upon him. He was everything she remembered, right down to the sensual look of his lips.
He moved out of the doorway, allowing her to enter his house. Some rearranging had been done, as far as the furniture went. The air smelled of crisp apple pie, Kagome's favorite. The curtains decorating the large, Victorian style windows draped over them, keeping the light from entering the room.
An uneasy feeling overwhelmed Kagome. Her breath quickened, and her palms began to profusely sweat. She was uncomfortable in the house; especially with the one guy she couldn't trust the most.
Sesshomaru picked up on the quickening rasps of Kagome's breath. Darkness suddenly overcame his heart, and the fear that she had gotten over him settled in. What if she had gotten over him? What would he do? He was standing here, fixing to poor his heart out to her, and yet, he hadn't taken into consideration the fact that she might have gotten over him. The thought ceased to haunt him, and he knew there was only one way to find out if his fear was true.
Questions raced through Kagome's mind. What if he just wanted her over to tell her that he no longer liked her? But that didn't make any sense, seeing as how if he did, he wouldn't have asked her over. And the way he sounded over IM. It sounded as though he was truly sorry for his actions. Kagome was confused. There wasn't a clearer way to say it.
Tension lingered in the air as Sesshomaru leaded Kagome to one of the plush sofas in the room. It was decorated with red leather, and matching pillows resided on either end of it. The leather was creased and worn, a sure sign of its old age.
Kagome sat down on it, soon followed by Sesshomaru. The tension increase dramatically, followed by an infinite silence.
The hush itched at the nerves in Sesshomaru's mind, and suddenly he burst out "Kagome, have you gotten over me?" His voice held a childish air, and Kagome couldn't help but reach out.
"No Sesshomaru. I don't think I could even if I tried. What about you? Have you gotten over me?"
Sesshomaru heaved a sigh of relief. His fear diminished into what it formerly was – nothing. "No, Kag dear, I haven't." He went to pull her into a gentle embrace, but was halted.
"Just because I haven't gotten over you, doesn't mean I'm ready to let you back into my life. You hurt me Sesshomaru. Now I want to know why." Authority rimmed her voice.
For the next few hours, Kagome and Sesshomaru sat in a heated discussion, talking about all that happened to cause the fall of their relationship.
"That bitch." Kagome mumbled, after she figured everything out. She never really liked Kikyo, and it just figured it was she behind the fall of her ever-wonderful relationship.
One thing was for sure. She still loved Sesshomaru, and he, her.
"Sesshomaru, now that we have this confusion taken care of, are we going back out?" Kagome asked the one daunting question left in her mind.
Sesshomaru's heart filled with happiness. "Of course, Kagome. We are."
~*~
A wonderful chapter, I know. Lol. Time to stop praising myself. Anyways, There's chapter 12. I think I'm gonna wrap the story somewhere around 15, I don't know yet. But, we'll just have to see how things fly.