Kennedy shook her head. She couldn't possibly be hearing right. She was the reason that this oh so wonderful woman was smiling again? She couldn't be. It was her fault that she had turned into Warren. It was her fault that the pain had been there in a new way. It was because she had pushed so hard and only taken into account what she had wanted. Want, need, lust, sex, anything that she wanted, she went out and got. That was her way. It always had been. But it wouldn't be anymore. The woman sitting next to her was worth more. She was worth waiting for.
"I-I brought you back to life?" She had to question the red head. It couldn't possible be her. No. It had to have been something else. It had to be someone else. There was no way that she could be the one responsible for the new twinkle in the witch's eyes. A twinkle that hadn't been there before. It was as if a spark had been placed in there. But how had that happened? It surely couldn't be because of the selfish acts of her.
That radian smile continued to shine brighter than ever. "I want to thank you. Again. I'm not sure if you'll ever realize what you did for me. I'm still not sure exactly how, but you let me see her again. It was amazing. And it helped me heal. Not completely, but it's started the process."
A furrow came across the potential slayer's brow. Than her face turned to surprise as she realized what Willow had just said. She had helped her see her again. Tara. But how? And when? "You saw Tara? But when, and how?"
Willow shrugged. Her smile never left her face. She continued to stare into the dark haired woman's eyes. Those green eyes that seemed to look, not only into her mind, but also her very soul. "It could have been the magicks. It might have been because it was time. And it was definitely because I needed to hear what Tara had to say. I think that you are the reason she was able to come now. She knew I needed to know it was all right. And if I'm never able to see her again, I will have had one last sweet moment with her. I will always be grateful." Willow laughed a little. "I keep saying that, don't I?"
Kennedy felt a little of the tension drain from her. She was the reason that the woman that she was in love with was able to live again. It was mind blowing. "This magicks stuff is really pretty complicated. I can't believe that your soulmate would show up because another woman was trying to forge a relationship." Willow raised her eyebrows. "Or more accurately, a little one on one action." Kennedy had to laugh at the little admission.
Willow laughed in response. "I think that Tara could sense something special about you. She said she really likes you and thinks you could be really good for me. All I know for now is I almost feel like I did before. Before all the pain. Before she was ripped out of my life." Willow looked up suddenly. "You said that you know she's my soulmate?" There was a huge look of surprise on her face.
Kennedy shrugged. "I didn't know it before I got you to go on that date. I mean, I asked around. All I got was that you were in a long term relationship and that she had died almost a year ago. I didn't know that it was that serious. If I had, I never would have pushed. Hell, I never should have pushed as it was. You had lost the woman you loved less than a year ago, and I come along, pushing you into something you weren't ready for. I'm such a jerk." She paused, taking in the woman's face. The smile had faded some, but was still there. "I'll understand if you don't even want to be friends with me. What kind of person does what I did to you and so soon after..."
She stopped as soon as she felt the hand on hers. She looked down at their joined hands. There was such a strength in the other's touch. It was something she never would have suspected, especially after the talk they had at The Bronze. Willow was so unsure of herself, especially in matters of love. At least, that had been the impression she had gotten. And the fact that she was still afraid of the magicks. But that was because of how powerful she really was. The witch didn't want to hurt anyone ever again.
"You didn't know." Kennedy took in the look. If she were reading the woman right, there was something there. Maybe not love, at least not the love that she felt for her, but there was something there. "And now that you do, what are we going to do about it?" There was a little twinkling in her eyes again.
Shrugging her shoulders, she put her other hand on Willow's. "I'm not sure. I think I need to back off a little. I think you need a little space. This is a lot to deal with. For both of us." She looked at the clock on the VCR. "It's getting really late. I know you're exhausted. We could try and get some sleep. The girls aren't going to be back until day after tomorrow. We could find someplace quiet and talk more. I'll sleep on the couch. You can have your room to yourself, for once."
"Is that what you really want?" There was a blushing to the witch's cheeks. Kennedy thought she was the most beautiful woman she had ever seen. She was just so shy and quiet. Words like these were more brave than she had ever expected to ever hear.
"If you're asking me if I want to kiss you, yeah." Kennedy looked up into her eyes again. "If you're asking me if I want to make love to you..." She took a deep breath. "Definitely." She smiled. It was her brash smile that she used so often. "But that's not gonna happen. Not tonight, maybe not for a while. I want it to be special. I want it to be when both of us wants and needs it. Not now. Not when we both still have so much to deal with." She leaned in closer. "I'll wait for you. Forever if I have to. You'll be worth the wait."
She watched as the red head's cheeks began matching the color of her hair. She really was so cute. There was no arguing with that fact. She was the one for her. If only there was a little chance that someday that might happen. But she was not going to push her. Not again. Only when they were both ready.
"I want that. If you're willing to wait for me." She watched as the red head swallowed hard. "As much as I want to move on with you, I don't think I'm quite ready. But someday. I hope you do wait. I don't want to lose you now that I've found you."
Kennedy smiled her largest smile. "Well, we can sleep on it and talk more in the morning, if you want. Just know, I'm here for you. And I will wait forever, if that's what it takes."