Dilemma
Chapter Three – Unveil
Decisions have ever been a trouble in Inuyasha's life. Since he was a child, his mom protected him from everyone, as he was oppressed because his half-youkai condition. Humans hated and feared him and youkais undervalued that little child that was overprotected by his tender mother.
Inuyasha's first decision only occurred when his mother died, and he was 17 then. He'd been expelled from the village he lived with his mother and was obligated to find out a way to survive. He dreaded even think what evil youkais would do with him; he had no one to protect him anymore. So, he made his choice finding a hidden cavern to call it home and for 4 long years nobody heard Inuyasha's name.
He avoided as much as he could to go out of his secrete place and everyday an insecure Inuyasha thought if he was doing the right thing. Nevertheless, he wasn't going to do anything if his cave wasn't found out by a dangerous youkai. An unique dangerous youkai.
That was the first time Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru met. Inuyasha's mother had told her son about his half-brother and he envied Sesshoumaru power, but hoped they would never be face to face. When that fatidic encounter happened, Inuyasha felt he was going to die, and Sesshoumaru felt he was going to kill that bastard. However, the older son was looking for his father's treasure and knew he had to discover if Inuyasha held any information about that before he could murder that dishonor for his family.
They didn't have much talk then, and soon Sesshoumaru attacked Inuyasha, who dodged as much as he could, but Sesshoumaru was much stronger than his brother and the perspective of dying there made Inuyasha face his second decision. When he started his counter attack against Sesshoumaru, Inuyasha realized he was an innate fighter and even Sesshoumaru being stronger and an extraordinary warrior, Inuyasha was able to evade alive.
The decision of fighting with his older brother obviously had consequences, because Inuyasha just couldn't run away like a frightened poodle. As he knew he couldn't beat Sesshoumaru yet, he decided to train hard until he was able to find his damned brother and kill him with his own hands. For his plans succeed, Inuyasha hid his insecurity behind a veil of arrogance and prepotency, and found a far-away place next a village where he could train without been bothered by mightier youkais.
There, at that small village, he found Kikyou.
And there, at that huge tree he was staring at, 50 years later of the second decision of his life, he found Kagome.
Now, the two women he loved most in his life urged for his third decision and there was no veil to hide Inuyasha's insecurity.
"Tell her, Inuyasha" repeated Kikyou with steady eyes and a tiny confident smile.
He blinked, holding his breath. Kagome tried to seem secure of Inuyasha's decision, she didn't want to show her anxiety in front of Kikyou, but Inuyasha knew she was pretending. He knew her even more he knew himself.
"I'm sorry," he said, and Kikyou stared at him with surprise and a little bit of fear, "It's not to you, Kikyou, or to you, Kagome. My excuses are for both of you, because if today I'll broken a heart, it's all my fault; I played with you and I gave hope for you, just to avoid my own insecurity. I was afraid to face my feelings, because I knew if I did that, I would have to tell you and I would have to choose. I'm a coward,"
Kagome and Kikyou were touched by Inuyasha's words, and they were from a sincere Inuyasha, someone who had always been in the shadows. He was doing his best for them.
"I couldn't decide anything until now because I didn't know what was love. After all, it's part of a promise that I made about 50 years ago, a promise to defeat Sesshoumaru. As you know, I did this some weeks ago, and as you know I didn't kill him as I planned. What you don't know it's why I forgave him,"
They listened to him with huge attention, trying to figure out which would be Inuyasha's chosen one.
"I let him go because I noticed he was different," he continued, "I didn't understand that difference until few minutes ago, but now I know why I didn't kill him. He was different because Sesshoumaru was in love. I don't know who's the woman that grabbed his heart, but I felt he wasn't risking everything in that fight. He wasn't risking his life because he knew someone would be heartbroken with his death and thinking about it know makes me understand what I feel. If it was a shame running away from Sesshoumaru, it's also a shame running away from love,"
No one breathed, no heart beat, no eye blinked. It was time.
"I love you, Kikyou," Inuyasha said, and a tear poured from Kagome's left eye as Kikyou smiled with joy.
"And I'll always love you," he added, "But there's no future for us,"
Kikyou was heading to Inuyasha and suddenly stopped. She couldn't believe what was happening.
"Our romance in the past will be forever in my heart and our memories will heat my soul till the day I die. I love you as I love everything good that helped me to be as I am today, but my present and my future belong to Kagome since we met in this tree. I tried to lie, to pretend our love wasn't locked in the past, but it was. Anyone can ignore the flow of time.
"No!!!!!!!!!!" screamed Kikyou, and grabbed Inuyasha's arms, shaking him desperately, "You're lying! You love me! I know you don't want to hurt her, but you have to tell her the truth! You love me, Inuyasha!"
Kagome went to them, and separated Kikyou and Inuyasha, trying to refrain Kikyou's hysteria.
"Take your hands out of me!" Kikyou shouted, "I hate you, bitch! He's mine! I'll haunt you forever, I'll curse your love!"
Kagome looked to her with kind, almost pitiful eyes, and that made Kikyou even more furious.
"Kikyou, I don't hate you," Kagome started, "I've never hated you. I envied you, but I've never hated you, believe me."
"I don't care about what you feel!" Kikyou snarled, "You stole my only love!"
Kagome stepped towards her, ignoring her fury.
"I know why you're suffering, because it's my mission here," she said, "I'm a priestess, and a priestess must understand what the others are feeling, a priestess must give peace to everyone,"
"If you step closer, I'll kill you," warned Kikyou and Kagome simply continued to walk.
"You can't be happy here, and it's not our fault or your fault. You'll never be in peace here, Kikyou, and as a priestess you can understand me,"
Kikyou mumbled some awful and inaudible words. Kagome stopped close to her and opened her arms as her body started to glow a magnificent light.
"What the hell are you doing?!" cried Kikyou.
"I'll give you peace, I'll lead you to where you're meant to be, I'll help you," Kagome told her, "You don't have a real body, and you barely don't have a soul, Kikyou. Unconsciously, I make a big mistake when I let you stay with some of my soul, and now I'll fix it,"
Kikyou screamed in pain when the remains of Kagome's soul that were in her body started to leave and return to its rightful owner, Kagome. Inuyasha saw that scene with mercy eyes; he knew it had to be done. As the last amount of Kagome's soul came back to her body, Kikyou fell to the ground, still alive because of the other souls her youkais had brought for her last night. However, they wouldn't last long.
"Kikyou, now you'll find peace," Kagome said, holding Kikyou's body in her arms, "Remember, Kikyou, you've been a great priestess and spread benevolence around the world. You helped good people to achieve peace and know it's your time to get your reward. You don't deserve suffering anymore, eternity is waiting for you,"
"Kagome," mumbled Kikyou, agonizing, "maybe... I'm saying just maybe... may... be... you're... right..."
As Kikyou died (again ^^), her fake body break up in millions granules of earth and Kagome felt relieved because Kikyou would find peace now. She turned to Inuyasha and their eyes met for the first time since he said he truly loved her. They embraced and kissed with passion, sealing the beginning of a new life.
A week after Inuyasha assumed his love for Kagome, he used the Shikon no Tama to become human. Kagome knew after the disappearance of the jewel, the gate between the two worlds would be forever closed, but she preferred to avoid a sad farewell and just left a letter to her mom explaining how she was feeling and why she was doing that. Kagome's relatives were very depressed and melancholic for some time, but they understood that wherever Kagome was, she was happy.
Kagome and Sango got married in the same day and their marriages were full of love. Crisis happened, of course, but they always had more than love, they had friendship. They went through pain and sorrow together and it grew their ties stronger. Kagome missed her family very much, but Inuyasha, Sango and Miroku always helped her to overcome that; after all, they had lost their families too.
Years and years had passed by and one night Kagome and Inuyasha, about their mid-ages, were wandering together and enjoying the bright moonlight.
"Inuyasha," started Kagome, "Nowadays would you choose me again?"
"Of course, Kagome," he answered with a smile.
"And how do you think Kikyou is now?" she asked, "Do you think she really found peace?"
"Don't worry, Kagome," Inuyasha said, looking to the sky, "Nothing simply disappears. I bet Kikyou is with the Shikon no Tama now, purifying it daily and maintaining our world always beautiful and serene. What do you think?"
"Yeah, it's a gooooood guess..."
As they kissed, the wind scattered the golden autumn leaves.
Chapter Three – Unveil
Decisions have ever been a trouble in Inuyasha's life. Since he was a child, his mom protected him from everyone, as he was oppressed because his half-youkai condition. Humans hated and feared him and youkais undervalued that little child that was overprotected by his tender mother.
Inuyasha's first decision only occurred when his mother died, and he was 17 then. He'd been expelled from the village he lived with his mother and was obligated to find out a way to survive. He dreaded even think what evil youkais would do with him; he had no one to protect him anymore. So, he made his choice finding a hidden cavern to call it home and for 4 long years nobody heard Inuyasha's name.
He avoided as much as he could to go out of his secrete place and everyday an insecure Inuyasha thought if he was doing the right thing. Nevertheless, he wasn't going to do anything if his cave wasn't found out by a dangerous youkai. An unique dangerous youkai.
That was the first time Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru met. Inuyasha's mother had told her son about his half-brother and he envied Sesshoumaru power, but hoped they would never be face to face. When that fatidic encounter happened, Inuyasha felt he was going to die, and Sesshoumaru felt he was going to kill that bastard. However, the older son was looking for his father's treasure and knew he had to discover if Inuyasha held any information about that before he could murder that dishonor for his family.
They didn't have much talk then, and soon Sesshoumaru attacked Inuyasha, who dodged as much as he could, but Sesshoumaru was much stronger than his brother and the perspective of dying there made Inuyasha face his second decision. When he started his counter attack against Sesshoumaru, Inuyasha realized he was an innate fighter and even Sesshoumaru being stronger and an extraordinary warrior, Inuyasha was able to evade alive.
The decision of fighting with his older brother obviously had consequences, because Inuyasha just couldn't run away like a frightened poodle. As he knew he couldn't beat Sesshoumaru yet, he decided to train hard until he was able to find his damned brother and kill him with his own hands. For his plans succeed, Inuyasha hid his insecurity behind a veil of arrogance and prepotency, and found a far-away place next a village where he could train without been bothered by mightier youkais.
There, at that small village, he found Kikyou.
And there, at that huge tree he was staring at, 50 years later of the second decision of his life, he found Kagome.
Now, the two women he loved most in his life urged for his third decision and there was no veil to hide Inuyasha's insecurity.
"Tell her, Inuyasha" repeated Kikyou with steady eyes and a tiny confident smile.
He blinked, holding his breath. Kagome tried to seem secure of Inuyasha's decision, she didn't want to show her anxiety in front of Kikyou, but Inuyasha knew she was pretending. He knew her even more he knew himself.
"I'm sorry," he said, and Kikyou stared at him with surprise and a little bit of fear, "It's not to you, Kikyou, or to you, Kagome. My excuses are for both of you, because if today I'll broken a heart, it's all my fault; I played with you and I gave hope for you, just to avoid my own insecurity. I was afraid to face my feelings, because I knew if I did that, I would have to tell you and I would have to choose. I'm a coward,"
Kagome and Kikyou were touched by Inuyasha's words, and they were from a sincere Inuyasha, someone who had always been in the shadows. He was doing his best for them.
"I couldn't decide anything until now because I didn't know what was love. After all, it's part of a promise that I made about 50 years ago, a promise to defeat Sesshoumaru. As you know, I did this some weeks ago, and as you know I didn't kill him as I planned. What you don't know it's why I forgave him,"
They listened to him with huge attention, trying to figure out which would be Inuyasha's chosen one.
"I let him go because I noticed he was different," he continued, "I didn't understand that difference until few minutes ago, but now I know why I didn't kill him. He was different because Sesshoumaru was in love. I don't know who's the woman that grabbed his heart, but I felt he wasn't risking everything in that fight. He wasn't risking his life because he knew someone would be heartbroken with his death and thinking about it know makes me understand what I feel. If it was a shame running away from Sesshoumaru, it's also a shame running away from love,"
No one breathed, no heart beat, no eye blinked. It was time.
"I love you, Kikyou," Inuyasha said, and a tear poured from Kagome's left eye as Kikyou smiled with joy.
"And I'll always love you," he added, "But there's no future for us,"
Kikyou was heading to Inuyasha and suddenly stopped. She couldn't believe what was happening.
"Our romance in the past will be forever in my heart and our memories will heat my soul till the day I die. I love you as I love everything good that helped me to be as I am today, but my present and my future belong to Kagome since we met in this tree. I tried to lie, to pretend our love wasn't locked in the past, but it was. Anyone can ignore the flow of time.
"No!!!!!!!!!!" screamed Kikyou, and grabbed Inuyasha's arms, shaking him desperately, "You're lying! You love me! I know you don't want to hurt her, but you have to tell her the truth! You love me, Inuyasha!"
Kagome went to them, and separated Kikyou and Inuyasha, trying to refrain Kikyou's hysteria.
"Take your hands out of me!" Kikyou shouted, "I hate you, bitch! He's mine! I'll haunt you forever, I'll curse your love!"
Kagome looked to her with kind, almost pitiful eyes, and that made Kikyou even more furious.
"Kikyou, I don't hate you," Kagome started, "I've never hated you. I envied you, but I've never hated you, believe me."
"I don't care about what you feel!" Kikyou snarled, "You stole my only love!"
Kagome stepped towards her, ignoring her fury.
"I know why you're suffering, because it's my mission here," she said, "I'm a priestess, and a priestess must understand what the others are feeling, a priestess must give peace to everyone,"
"If you step closer, I'll kill you," warned Kikyou and Kagome simply continued to walk.
"You can't be happy here, and it's not our fault or your fault. You'll never be in peace here, Kikyou, and as a priestess you can understand me,"
Kikyou mumbled some awful and inaudible words. Kagome stopped close to her and opened her arms as her body started to glow a magnificent light.
"What the hell are you doing?!" cried Kikyou.
"I'll give you peace, I'll lead you to where you're meant to be, I'll help you," Kagome told her, "You don't have a real body, and you barely don't have a soul, Kikyou. Unconsciously, I make a big mistake when I let you stay with some of my soul, and now I'll fix it,"
Kikyou screamed in pain when the remains of Kagome's soul that were in her body started to leave and return to its rightful owner, Kagome. Inuyasha saw that scene with mercy eyes; he knew it had to be done. As the last amount of Kagome's soul came back to her body, Kikyou fell to the ground, still alive because of the other souls her youkais had brought for her last night. However, they wouldn't last long.
"Kikyou, now you'll find peace," Kagome said, holding Kikyou's body in her arms, "Remember, Kikyou, you've been a great priestess and spread benevolence around the world. You helped good people to achieve peace and know it's your time to get your reward. You don't deserve suffering anymore, eternity is waiting for you,"
"Kagome," mumbled Kikyou, agonizing, "maybe... I'm saying just maybe... may... be... you're... right..."
As Kikyou died (again ^^), her fake body break up in millions granules of earth and Kagome felt relieved because Kikyou would find peace now. She turned to Inuyasha and their eyes met for the first time since he said he truly loved her. They embraced and kissed with passion, sealing the beginning of a new life.
A week after Inuyasha assumed his love for Kagome, he used the Shikon no Tama to become human. Kagome knew after the disappearance of the jewel, the gate between the two worlds would be forever closed, but she preferred to avoid a sad farewell and just left a letter to her mom explaining how she was feeling and why she was doing that. Kagome's relatives were very depressed and melancholic for some time, but they understood that wherever Kagome was, she was happy.
Kagome and Sango got married in the same day and their marriages were full of love. Crisis happened, of course, but they always had more than love, they had friendship. They went through pain and sorrow together and it grew their ties stronger. Kagome missed her family very much, but Inuyasha, Sango and Miroku always helped her to overcome that; after all, they had lost their families too.
Years and years had passed by and one night Kagome and Inuyasha, about their mid-ages, were wandering together and enjoying the bright moonlight.
"Inuyasha," started Kagome, "Nowadays would you choose me again?"
"Of course, Kagome," he answered with a smile.
"And how do you think Kikyou is now?" she asked, "Do you think she really found peace?"
"Don't worry, Kagome," Inuyasha said, looking to the sky, "Nothing simply disappears. I bet Kikyou is with the Shikon no Tama now, purifying it daily and maintaining our world always beautiful and serene. What do you think?"
"Yeah, it's a gooooood guess..."
As they kissed, the wind scattered the golden autumn leaves.