Willow watched the dark haired potential slayer. It was easy to see from the expression on her face that she was having trouble understanding exactly what was going on. She was still having trouble understanding what was happening herself. It had all happened so fast. But there was something there that hadn't been before and it brought a big smile to her face. The type of smile she had really had for a long time.
"I-I brought you back to life?" It was just as she had thought. The woman sitting next to her just couldn't understand what she had done. Not that Willow was exactly sure. She knew that it had something to do with the magicks that Amy had used. It was like a side affect. And that side affect had lead her to seeing Tara. And that was wonderful.
She couldn't help but smile larger. She felt like laughing at the look on Kennedy's face. "I want to thank you. Again. I'm not sure if you'll ever realize what you did for me. I'm still not sure exactly how, but you let me see her again. It was amazing. And it helped me heal. Not completely, but it's started the process." And with the process started, I can soon fall for this woman. If she wants me to.
The frowning look, the red head could tell, was a look of confusion. She wasn't quite grasping what was going on. Soon, her face lit up with realization. "You saw Tara? But when, and how?" The surprise in her voice was funny. Oh so funny to the red head.
She found herself shrugging. She kept the smile so that she didn't start laughing. The look of confusion was so cute on the other woman's face. She kept her gaze steady on the other woman. What she saw was a pure soul. It was a skill that Tara had taught her. The fact the Kennedy was pure made her smile even brighter. "It could have been the magicks. It might have been because it was finally time. And it was definitely because I needed to hear what Tara had to say. I think that you are the reason she was able to come now. She knew I needed to know it was all right. And if I'm never able to see her again, I will have had one last sweet moment with her. I will always be grateful." She couldn't contain the little bit of laughter anymore. "I keep saying that, don't I?"
It appeared that Kennedy relaxed a little. Maybe she was finally getting it. Although it was still a little confusing for Willow. But the fact that she needed to move on was clear. "This magicks stuff is really pretty complicated. I can't believe that your soulmate would show up because another woman was trying to forge a relationship." Willow playfully raised her eyebrows. "Or more accurately, a little one on one action." The potential slayer had a beautiful laugh. And a beautiful smile.
The laugh made her laugh as well. "I think that Tara could sense something special about you. She said she really likes you and thinks you could be really good for me. All I know for now is I almost feel like I did before. Before all the pain. Before she was ripped out of my life." It dawned on her what Kennedy had just said. "You said that you know she's my soulmate." Willow couldn't hide her look of surprise.
All Kennedy did was shrug. "I didn't know it before I got you to go on that date. I mean, I asked around. All I got was that you were in a long term relationship and that she had died almost a year ago. I didn't know that it was that serious. If I had, I never would have pushed. Hell, I never should have pushed as it was. You had lost the woman you loved less than a year ago, and I come along, pushing you into something you weren't ready for. I'm such a jerk." There was a slight pause. She probably noticed that the smile on her face had faded some. "I'll understand if you don't even want to be friends with me. What kind of person does what I did to you and so soon after..."
Willow reached out and placed her hand on top of Kennedy's. The smile returned to the red head's face as a look of curiosity came on her face as she looked down at their hands. She wondered if it was because there was this renewed strength she felt. Something she hadn't felt since Tara had been shot. She had been feeling so weak. But this woman seemed to bring out those things that she had hidden so deep within herself.
"You didn't know." It was as if there was something forming in her heart for this woman at that very moment. It could be love. Or was it something else. No. It was definitely love. Just not strong yet. She still had so much to deal with before she could feel that love again. "And now that you do, what are we going to do about it?" It was as if she were flirting with the potential slayer. But she never did things like that.
Willow watched as the dark haired woman shrugged her shoulders, and put her other hand on Willow's. "I'm not sure. I think I need to back off a little. I think you need a little space. This is a lot to deal with. For both of us." Her eyes followed the others to the clock on the VCR. "It's getting really late. I know you're exhausted. We could try and get some sleep. The girls aren't going to be back until day after tomorrow. We could find someplace quiet and talk more. I'll sleep on the couch. You can have your room to yourself, for once."
"Is that what you really want?" She felt her cheeks blushing again. She was flirting with the other woman. And Kennedy was smiling at the words. These words she had never spoken to anyone before. What was she doing?
"If you're asking me if I want to kiss you, yeah." She felt the intensity of Kennedy's gaze in her eyes. "If you're asking me if I want to make love to you..." She noticed the woman speaking take a deep breath. "Definitely." There was that smile again. The smile that she had used the first time that she had hit on the red head. "But that's not gonna happen. Not tonight, maybe not for a while. I want it to be special. I want it to be when both of us wants and needs it. Not now. Not when we both still have so much to deal with." The dark haired woman leaned closer, the smell of her perfume making her heart do funny things. "I'll wait for you. Forever if I have to. You'll be worth the wait."
Again, Willow could feel her cheeks reddening. The potential slayer had done it again. She had said the right words. The ones that she had hoped she would say. She wanted her, but would wait until they were both ready.
"I want that. If you're willing to wait for me." To get her courage going, she swallowed hard. "As much as I want to move on with you, I don't think I'm quite ready. But someday. I hope you do wait. I don't want to lose you now that I've found you."
There was a huge smile on the other woman's face. "Well, we can sleep on it and talk more in the morning, if you want. Just know, I'm here for you. And I will wait forever, if that's what it takes."