Thank you for all the positive feedback. I never expected as much as I got,
and especially so soon. They literally made me cry. I blame the hormones ;)
um a lot of you imed me or emailed me and I actually found good friends,
and were able to ask questions and I told um about the father and what im
going through and everything and It means a lot to me. aaa more tears.. It
helps a lot, knowing people understand Mistakes happen. And if anyone is
reading this that is in my position I just hope they know they aren't the
only ones out there.With the emails I received I got one very special and
sweet one from a 13 year old girl, that made me cry. And I did reply but
unfortunately computers and technology are extremely gay and frustrating
and my computer shut down and I don't know if the reply went through. You
should know if it's you because it was like 2 paragraphs long. I would
really like to talk to you and I'll re answer what ever u asked if u resend
it or re email me
Also I have problems with having the font appear how I originally typed it.
If anyone has had this problem or knows how to fix it can they please email
me? Again my address Is crazylilchica06@msn.com or I have the one I'm
registered here with, alwaysnforeva@hotmail.com
Please Remember these are how the events actually took place. On to Chapter 2. 2 days after the hospital visit
Paige stared out the car window at the small white house. The garland and red and green lights from the Christmas tree was a beautiful scene through the large window. She could see the Christmas presents stacked under the tree, no doubt most all were for his little sister Nicole, and all the small knick-knacks of Santa Clause, Reindeer, or anything of the Christmas spirit his grandmother had placed randomly about the house.
Taking a deep breath, she did what she had done five times in the last twenty minutes, and reached for the handle and opened the door. She swung one of her legs over the side of the door to the outside, the cold winter air sending a chill over her leg, before pulling it back in and closing the door.
She just shot a quick glance at Kayla and she immediately placed her head in her lap. "Hun, let's go home you can try tomorrow."
"No, he needs to know. I am going to tell him." Taking another deep breath she opened the door and again swung her leg out. This time, to both of their surprise, she got out of the car and shut the door behind her. Kayla gave her a reassuring smile before she left in the car.
Paige stood on the sidewalk, still staring at the old white house she had been many times before when her and Jason were a couple. When his arms would find the perfect spot around her waist when the cold air would get to her. Or when his lap made the perfect pillow for watching late night movies. Or how his kisses would make her tears disappear along with whatever caused them.
She mentally slapped herself; she had finally gotten over Jason. They were friends, best friends, Brother and sister even. A little too much to drink and the heat of the moment will do that to you. She couldn't make up her mind, if she loved him again or was it hormones, or even without the hormones she couldn't decide. Shivering slightly she sighed, "Well getting frost bite ain't gonna help me figure it out any sooner." Blowing the piece of hair away from her eyes she slowly walked around to the backdoor softly knocking, knowing the doorbell might awaken Nicole.
She could feel her eyes beginning to water, as she quickly began to try to blink them back. She quickly put on a fake smile as she saw his mom approaching the door, and swallowed her sobs. "Hey Paige. long time sweetheart. It's freezing out there, I think Jason is downstairs."
Nodding softly, she turned and headed into the basement. She loved his mom, and would usually spend hours talking to her, but she figured she would be talking to her soon enough. Slowly unbuttoning her coat, she walked over to the couch; Jason sprawled across flipping through stations. Sitting on the small table next to it, she stared at him a few moments. Finally noticing she had been crying he shot off the television and sat up.
"Sis what's wrong." Sis, those words were just a painful reminder to her. She let out a soft laugh, looking into his blue eyes just made her smile. "Wait, now you're laughing. You know I hate these mood swings."
"Oh you have no idea" She mumbled, before sitting next to him on the couch. "Jason, remember about three weeks ago at Jessica's party?"
His expression changed quickly. He dropped his own head into his hands, shaking his head softly. "Look Paige, I'm really sorry about that I think it..."
Gently lifting his chin with her index finger, she let off a small smile. "It's not that. I haven't come to yell. I have come to talk." She paused and gently took her free hand and began playing with a strand of her brown hair.
He looked at her questionably, his eyes searching for answers in hers. She had never had trouble telling him anything before, if anything he had been the only one she didn't have trouble.
"Jason. I.um..we are." Her hand had instinctively gone to her stomach again without her noticing. Still with question filled eyes, Jason had glanced down in time to see her hand on her stomach. After a few seconds, he finally realized and gasped slightly.
"I thought you should know, Jason I'm keeping the child. With or without you. I wouldn't blame you if you don't want to be in its life. I mean it's a big responsibility, and I can handle it without you, well I mean without a guy, I just want you to be their...and."
She was beginning to ramble, her hands were shaking, and her heart was beating. She voice was shaky but she wasn't sure any other way to get what she needed to say out.
"Paige"
"And I know things are going to be different."
"Paige"
"But I am strong...I'll find a way..."
"PAIGE"
Finally taking a deep breath she looked upwards. Licking her bottom lip she closed her eyes and sucked in a deep breath, fully prepared for the worse. "Look at me"
Slowly she opened her eyes. "You are like a sister to me. Which means I love and care for you. Which means there is no way in hell your raising this child by yourself. WE are going to get through this. Together, you hear me?"
Crying once again, she nodded, a smile plastered on her face, the biggest one since she was worried she was pregnant. Leaning in she hugged him extremely tight and extremely close, grateful that at least, she wasn't in this alone. Embracing in the hug for a longer time, she continued to cry into his shoulder.
He finally pulled away from the embrace, Paige trying to wipe away her tears to no success. "Should we um.get married?"
Paige's eyes widened in shock. She hadn't even thought of that. She always wanted a family, to come home to a husband a child and feel loved. But not until after school, after her career, not now. Not her first year in high school, not at 15.
"Do you love me?" Her words shocked herself, let alone Jason.
"Yes I love you,.. Just not like you think." Seeing Paige's expression he quickly tried to take back his words. "I want to take responsibility Paige; I want to take care of you."
"You can do that, we don't need to force love. That's the last thing it needs." Placing her hand on her stomach she slowly began to rub it. Jason gently grabbed her hand and pulled away as he leaned in and kissed her stomach gently, whispering "I love you" to the unborn baby.
Please Remember these are how the events actually took place. On to Chapter 2. 2 days after the hospital visit
Paige stared out the car window at the small white house. The garland and red and green lights from the Christmas tree was a beautiful scene through the large window. She could see the Christmas presents stacked under the tree, no doubt most all were for his little sister Nicole, and all the small knick-knacks of Santa Clause, Reindeer, or anything of the Christmas spirit his grandmother had placed randomly about the house.
Taking a deep breath, she did what she had done five times in the last twenty minutes, and reached for the handle and opened the door. She swung one of her legs over the side of the door to the outside, the cold winter air sending a chill over her leg, before pulling it back in and closing the door.
She just shot a quick glance at Kayla and she immediately placed her head in her lap. "Hun, let's go home you can try tomorrow."
"No, he needs to know. I am going to tell him." Taking another deep breath she opened the door and again swung her leg out. This time, to both of their surprise, she got out of the car and shut the door behind her. Kayla gave her a reassuring smile before she left in the car.
Paige stood on the sidewalk, still staring at the old white house she had been many times before when her and Jason were a couple. When his arms would find the perfect spot around her waist when the cold air would get to her. Or when his lap made the perfect pillow for watching late night movies. Or how his kisses would make her tears disappear along with whatever caused them.
She mentally slapped herself; she had finally gotten over Jason. They were friends, best friends, Brother and sister even. A little too much to drink and the heat of the moment will do that to you. She couldn't make up her mind, if she loved him again or was it hormones, or even without the hormones she couldn't decide. Shivering slightly she sighed, "Well getting frost bite ain't gonna help me figure it out any sooner." Blowing the piece of hair away from her eyes she slowly walked around to the backdoor softly knocking, knowing the doorbell might awaken Nicole.
She could feel her eyes beginning to water, as she quickly began to try to blink them back. She quickly put on a fake smile as she saw his mom approaching the door, and swallowed her sobs. "Hey Paige. long time sweetheart. It's freezing out there, I think Jason is downstairs."
Nodding softly, she turned and headed into the basement. She loved his mom, and would usually spend hours talking to her, but she figured she would be talking to her soon enough. Slowly unbuttoning her coat, she walked over to the couch; Jason sprawled across flipping through stations. Sitting on the small table next to it, she stared at him a few moments. Finally noticing she had been crying he shot off the television and sat up.
"Sis what's wrong." Sis, those words were just a painful reminder to her. She let out a soft laugh, looking into his blue eyes just made her smile. "Wait, now you're laughing. You know I hate these mood swings."
"Oh you have no idea" She mumbled, before sitting next to him on the couch. "Jason, remember about three weeks ago at Jessica's party?"
His expression changed quickly. He dropped his own head into his hands, shaking his head softly. "Look Paige, I'm really sorry about that I think it..."
Gently lifting his chin with her index finger, she let off a small smile. "It's not that. I haven't come to yell. I have come to talk." She paused and gently took her free hand and began playing with a strand of her brown hair.
He looked at her questionably, his eyes searching for answers in hers. She had never had trouble telling him anything before, if anything he had been the only one she didn't have trouble.
"Jason. I.um..we are." Her hand had instinctively gone to her stomach again without her noticing. Still with question filled eyes, Jason had glanced down in time to see her hand on her stomach. After a few seconds, he finally realized and gasped slightly.
"I thought you should know, Jason I'm keeping the child. With or without you. I wouldn't blame you if you don't want to be in its life. I mean it's a big responsibility, and I can handle it without you, well I mean without a guy, I just want you to be their...and."
She was beginning to ramble, her hands were shaking, and her heart was beating. She voice was shaky but she wasn't sure any other way to get what she needed to say out.
"Paige"
"And I know things are going to be different."
"Paige"
"But I am strong...I'll find a way..."
"PAIGE"
Finally taking a deep breath she looked upwards. Licking her bottom lip she closed her eyes and sucked in a deep breath, fully prepared for the worse. "Look at me"
Slowly she opened her eyes. "You are like a sister to me. Which means I love and care for you. Which means there is no way in hell your raising this child by yourself. WE are going to get through this. Together, you hear me?"
Crying once again, she nodded, a smile plastered on her face, the biggest one since she was worried she was pregnant. Leaning in she hugged him extremely tight and extremely close, grateful that at least, she wasn't in this alone. Embracing in the hug for a longer time, she continued to cry into his shoulder.
He finally pulled away from the embrace, Paige trying to wipe away her tears to no success. "Should we um.get married?"
Paige's eyes widened in shock. She hadn't even thought of that. She always wanted a family, to come home to a husband a child and feel loved. But not until after school, after her career, not now. Not her first year in high school, not at 15.
"Do you love me?" Her words shocked herself, let alone Jason.
"Yes I love you,.. Just not like you think." Seeing Paige's expression he quickly tried to take back his words. "I want to take responsibility Paige; I want to take care of you."
"You can do that, we don't need to force love. That's the last thing it needs." Placing her hand on her stomach she slowly began to rub it. Jason gently grabbed her hand and pulled away as he leaned in and kissed her stomach gently, whispering "I love you" to the unborn baby.