Aaaa I promised an update and I succeeded. I never got a reply so I will
restate what's in the Author's notes for Chapter 2. With the emails I
received I got one very special and sweet one from a 13 year old girl, that
made me cry. And I did reply but unfortunately computers and technology are
extremely gay and frustrating and my computer shut down and I don't know if
the reply went through. You should know if it's you because it was like 2
paragraphs long. I would really like to talk to you and I'll re answer what
ever u asked if u resend it or re email me.
Also I am still having trouble for the font turning out the way I want it to.If someone can help I appreciate it.
Also I know this is written as Third Person which means I should have feelings of all the characters in their... But obviously I can't.I can only write what I observe.
I always tell you what in the story is real and what is fiction and so far it has always been real. Part of this story I, or well Paige, left the room and I do not know EXACTLY what went on during that time frame. Jason and Beth gave me details, and part of that scene is fiction, but everything else is real
This story is still back in about the beginning of January. So I will try to catch it up slightly. As always the words mean a lot to me. Thank you so much. on with the story
Chapter 6
She examined herself in the mirror, finally being able to find clothes that fit. The sweat pants and volleyball shirt was more then enough to make her feel comfortable with her figure. The shirt still was slightly clinging to her belly, but at least she LOOKED like her normal self.
She watched in the mirror as Jason came up behind her and wrapped arms around her neck slightly. She basked in their reflection, what she had wanted for so long. Moment's like that, where she saw what she wanted, made her forget about the weird circumstances and the future. Sometimes that's what she needed, to forget everything. She craved normality, or at least to forget. And in that moment, she did forget, she was back to when they were normal teenagers "In love" dating over a year. One quick glance made her jump back to reality, quickly saddened at her own little world diminishing before her eyes.
Sighing, she didn't want him to know what she was going through, what she felt, the dreams she had at night. She couldn't tell him any of that. Things were to difficult now, to different.
"You ready for this?"
All Paige could mange was to shrug her shoulder as she bit the inside of her lip. A habit she had picked up when she was little.
"I don't gotta choice. Got to it sometime or another."
"You can always wait a little while longer."
"No." She shook her head softly, pulling out of the embrace and reaching for her brush, which was just an excuse to pull away.
"No I can't.. it's eaten' me alive ya know."
He just simply nodded his head and headed out of the room, giving her time alone.
~~
She tossed the cut tomatoes into the bowl of salad and placed it on the table, which Beth had made sure to set nicely. She continued to pace the kitchen, with each tick of the clock her hands shaking slightly more.
*A quarter to seven. They would be here in fifteen minutes, if not sooner, they are never late*
With that thought racing through her head the doorbell rang. With that the five people who were spread out through the kitchen shared glances. Neither of them wanting to answer the door. Luckily, they didn't have to as an eager Nicole, jumping and smiling at the thought of new people to play with her, ran from her room shouting "I GOT IT."
The little child had brought the slightest of smiles on all the "adults" faces. She stood next to the door, her ear pressed against it.
"Who's there?"
"The Matthews."
The small child held a confusing look on her face, as she glanced sideways at the ceiling. "I'm not supposed to open the door to strangers."
With that Jason swept her up with one quick motion, and placed his little sister on his shoulders. Swinging the door open, he put on a smile for the couple, as they politely did the same, and followed him into the kitchen. Nicole, smiling that she gets a piggy back ride.
Everyone exchanged glances as no one was quite sure what they were supposed to say. Beth quickly broke the silence, and the awkwardness everyone was feeling. "Um, I'm Elizabeth, Jason's mom. These are my parent's. Michael and Linda, and the one getting a piggy back ride is my daughter Nicole." Everyone exchanged their "nice to meet you's" and then it went back to the uncomfortable silence.
After a couple of minutes Beth took everyone into the living room, hoping for a small chance to escape the silence. Beth and Mr. and Mrs. Matthews engaged in a little bit of small talk. What they do for a living, the weather, a few recent events since the news was on the television, which has been turned down. The silence was unbearable for Paige anymore. Grabbing a large white envelope off the table with her lip quivering she handed to her mother. Standing up she quickly grabbed Nicole and headed down into the basement with her, the young one happy to finally have someone willing to play.
*A/N here is the story where part is fiction, only small amounts remember*
Mrs. Matthews ran her finger over the edge of the envelope, flipping it from side to side. Her eyes gazed at it, with the light she could make out the outline of the folded sheets of paper. Taking a deep breath she slowly began to rip the top of the envelope. The rest of the "family" sat patiently and watched as she did so, taking her time as the rip slowly spread across the top of the envelope. She pulled out, what had to be at least 3 sheets of paper folder together. The red ink seem to captivate everyone's attention. As slowly as she opened the envelope, she began to unfold the letter.
Once straightened she stared at it for minutes, before her eyes allowed her to read it. Clearing her throat she slowly read the words out loud, everyone's attention focusing on the letter.
* Mom and Dad
The fact that you're reading this means what I though was right. We either didn't get through the meal without yelling, or no one wanted to acknowledge the fact that what happened happened. I am sorry, I made a mistake. You don't seem to think me and Jason realize that. We realize we screwed up mom. The worse thing is seeing your face when I told you guys. I am aware you were drunk, but you were so. hurt and disappointed. I felt like I was the worse daughter at that moment.
I feel worse that no one believes we will pull through this. I know it's going to be hard on us and I already heard the stories. But no one thinks I can get through this. That Jason and me can get through this. That WE can get through this, as a family. I need everyone to believe in me. Have faith that I'm not going to be another statistic and my baby is going to grow up with love and opportunity surrounding them.
I need you by my side. I don't want you there to yell at me. And I don't need you there reminding me I screwed up, telling me what I'm doing wrong, or to criticize. And I don't need you there because I can't do it on my own. I need you there because I need you're my family. Without you guys, I am nothing. You need to be a part of this child's life. This isn't just a mistake, there is a child growing inside of me for a reason. God has a plan for me and my baby. You have to accept that I'm not you baby girl who grew up in pig tails and singing country music anymore. I am a grown woman. I know I am still a child and I have a lot to learn and that's why you can't shut me out.
You can't shut me out when I need you the most. You can't abandon me and leave me to fend for myself. Cause I will prevail and so will my child and then in years my child wont have a grandma to go to bake in the kitchen, or a grandfather to teach how to fish. They need a grandmother to make them grilled cheese when mom is at work, or a grandfather that reads stories about fairies and trolls to them. My child is going to need you and so am I.
Jason is a part of this family now and you must accept that. More then grandparents, this child will need a father and I am going to provide it with one and their isn't anything you can tell me to think otherwise. Beth, Nicole, Jason and everyone needs to be their with me as much as you and they have. You think you are the only ones affected by this and your not. I came up with a situation. We have a spare bedroom that I am going to transfer into my room because it's bigger. Jason can have clothes and everything he needs at the house and I have everything I need at his. We can go back and fourth. Live at two houses. The little girl or boy inside me needs to have both families with them constantly.
Please, I love you and I need you guys the most right now. I know I hurt you but please forgive me I'm still your daughter. I made a mistake. I am trying to get past that mistake and move on but I can't if my family is holding me back.
~~
I know I said I would catch it up in this chapter but decided to wait another one... next chapter should be Paige in school and living in both houses.. Sorry this update took so long took awhile to get over bronchitis. All better now. If you would like to know when I update the chapters feel free to email me saying so and I will start sending out emails letting know when an update goes up since I am always asked when I am online.
Also I am still having trouble for the font turning out the way I want it to.If someone can help I appreciate it.
Also I know this is written as Third Person which means I should have feelings of all the characters in their... But obviously I can't.I can only write what I observe.
I always tell you what in the story is real and what is fiction and so far it has always been real. Part of this story I, or well Paige, left the room and I do not know EXACTLY what went on during that time frame. Jason and Beth gave me details, and part of that scene is fiction, but everything else is real
This story is still back in about the beginning of January. So I will try to catch it up slightly. As always the words mean a lot to me. Thank you so much. on with the story
Chapter 6
She examined herself in the mirror, finally being able to find clothes that fit. The sweat pants and volleyball shirt was more then enough to make her feel comfortable with her figure. The shirt still was slightly clinging to her belly, but at least she LOOKED like her normal self.
She watched in the mirror as Jason came up behind her and wrapped arms around her neck slightly. She basked in their reflection, what she had wanted for so long. Moment's like that, where she saw what she wanted, made her forget about the weird circumstances and the future. Sometimes that's what she needed, to forget everything. She craved normality, or at least to forget. And in that moment, she did forget, she was back to when they were normal teenagers "In love" dating over a year. One quick glance made her jump back to reality, quickly saddened at her own little world diminishing before her eyes.
Sighing, she didn't want him to know what she was going through, what she felt, the dreams she had at night. She couldn't tell him any of that. Things were to difficult now, to different.
"You ready for this?"
All Paige could mange was to shrug her shoulder as she bit the inside of her lip. A habit she had picked up when she was little.
"I don't gotta choice. Got to it sometime or another."
"You can always wait a little while longer."
"No." She shook her head softly, pulling out of the embrace and reaching for her brush, which was just an excuse to pull away.
"No I can't.. it's eaten' me alive ya know."
He just simply nodded his head and headed out of the room, giving her time alone.
~~
She tossed the cut tomatoes into the bowl of salad and placed it on the table, which Beth had made sure to set nicely. She continued to pace the kitchen, with each tick of the clock her hands shaking slightly more.
*A quarter to seven. They would be here in fifteen minutes, if not sooner, they are never late*
With that thought racing through her head the doorbell rang. With that the five people who were spread out through the kitchen shared glances. Neither of them wanting to answer the door. Luckily, they didn't have to as an eager Nicole, jumping and smiling at the thought of new people to play with her, ran from her room shouting "I GOT IT."
The little child had brought the slightest of smiles on all the "adults" faces. She stood next to the door, her ear pressed against it.
"Who's there?"
"The Matthews."
The small child held a confusing look on her face, as she glanced sideways at the ceiling. "I'm not supposed to open the door to strangers."
With that Jason swept her up with one quick motion, and placed his little sister on his shoulders. Swinging the door open, he put on a smile for the couple, as they politely did the same, and followed him into the kitchen. Nicole, smiling that she gets a piggy back ride.
Everyone exchanged glances as no one was quite sure what they were supposed to say. Beth quickly broke the silence, and the awkwardness everyone was feeling. "Um, I'm Elizabeth, Jason's mom. These are my parent's. Michael and Linda, and the one getting a piggy back ride is my daughter Nicole." Everyone exchanged their "nice to meet you's" and then it went back to the uncomfortable silence.
After a couple of minutes Beth took everyone into the living room, hoping for a small chance to escape the silence. Beth and Mr. and Mrs. Matthews engaged in a little bit of small talk. What they do for a living, the weather, a few recent events since the news was on the television, which has been turned down. The silence was unbearable for Paige anymore. Grabbing a large white envelope off the table with her lip quivering she handed to her mother. Standing up she quickly grabbed Nicole and headed down into the basement with her, the young one happy to finally have someone willing to play.
*A/N here is the story where part is fiction, only small amounts remember*
Mrs. Matthews ran her finger over the edge of the envelope, flipping it from side to side. Her eyes gazed at it, with the light she could make out the outline of the folded sheets of paper. Taking a deep breath she slowly began to rip the top of the envelope. The rest of the "family" sat patiently and watched as she did so, taking her time as the rip slowly spread across the top of the envelope. She pulled out, what had to be at least 3 sheets of paper folder together. The red ink seem to captivate everyone's attention. As slowly as she opened the envelope, she began to unfold the letter.
Once straightened she stared at it for minutes, before her eyes allowed her to read it. Clearing her throat she slowly read the words out loud, everyone's attention focusing on the letter.
* Mom and Dad
The fact that you're reading this means what I though was right. We either didn't get through the meal without yelling, or no one wanted to acknowledge the fact that what happened happened. I am sorry, I made a mistake. You don't seem to think me and Jason realize that. We realize we screwed up mom. The worse thing is seeing your face when I told you guys. I am aware you were drunk, but you were so. hurt and disappointed. I felt like I was the worse daughter at that moment.
I feel worse that no one believes we will pull through this. I know it's going to be hard on us and I already heard the stories. But no one thinks I can get through this. That Jason and me can get through this. That WE can get through this, as a family. I need everyone to believe in me. Have faith that I'm not going to be another statistic and my baby is going to grow up with love and opportunity surrounding them.
I need you by my side. I don't want you there to yell at me. And I don't need you there reminding me I screwed up, telling me what I'm doing wrong, or to criticize. And I don't need you there because I can't do it on my own. I need you there because I need you're my family. Without you guys, I am nothing. You need to be a part of this child's life. This isn't just a mistake, there is a child growing inside of me for a reason. God has a plan for me and my baby. You have to accept that I'm not you baby girl who grew up in pig tails and singing country music anymore. I am a grown woman. I know I am still a child and I have a lot to learn and that's why you can't shut me out.
You can't shut me out when I need you the most. You can't abandon me and leave me to fend for myself. Cause I will prevail and so will my child and then in years my child wont have a grandma to go to bake in the kitchen, or a grandfather to teach how to fish. They need a grandmother to make them grilled cheese when mom is at work, or a grandfather that reads stories about fairies and trolls to them. My child is going to need you and so am I.
Jason is a part of this family now and you must accept that. More then grandparents, this child will need a father and I am going to provide it with one and their isn't anything you can tell me to think otherwise. Beth, Nicole, Jason and everyone needs to be their with me as much as you and they have. You think you are the only ones affected by this and your not. I came up with a situation. We have a spare bedroom that I am going to transfer into my room because it's bigger. Jason can have clothes and everything he needs at the house and I have everything I need at his. We can go back and fourth. Live at two houses. The little girl or boy inside me needs to have both families with them constantly.
Please, I love you and I need you guys the most right now. I know I hurt you but please forgive me I'm still your daughter. I made a mistake. I am trying to get past that mistake and move on but I can't if my family is holding me back.
~~
I know I said I would catch it up in this chapter but decided to wait another one... next chapter should be Paige in school and living in both houses.. Sorry this update took so long took awhile to get over bronchitis. All better now. If you would like to know when I update the chapters feel free to email me saying so and I will start sending out emails letting know when an update goes up since I am always asked when I am online.