Quick Summary of Previous Chapter: Jim goes to a bar with Gene.. They drink, they talk, they joke, they fight.. and they wash dishes... Jim goes back to Gene's place... And realizes... That he really likes Gene.. But he doesn't know why! The guy is a pig-headed jerk! ..And he likes women.. A lot... But even so... Jim can't seem to stop himself from liking the guy. So he leaves....Poor Jim. :(
*EXPECT CHANGE OF STORY NAME NEXT CHAPTER TO 'BRAND NEW'*
Metamorphosis: Part 3 [PG-13]
"Too good to sleep with me, huh?" Fred asks 'playfully'.
I thought he was asleep .... But even beside that fact I didn't want to wake him up... I didn't feel like sleeping with him either.
I look over my shoulder at him, while still laying a pillow on a chair that I planned to sleep on.. And still did as I turned my head back.
I was already feeling bad as everything was.... But what Fred said made me feel even worse... And I can just feel the tears coming back again..
"Jim..." Fred says quietly, standing behind me now. "What's wrong?" He asks, putting his hands on my shoulders- where he begins to massage...
But it only makes me more tense.
"I just want to go to sleep." I snap at him.. crushing my eyes to close- hoping to keep the tears back... and pulling my shoulders from his hands- hoping to drive Fred away.
"Oh Jim... You're such a drama queen." Fred yawns. "Come on... Go sleep on the bed. -I'll sleep on the chair if you really want me to."
I take deep breaths before I open my eyes.... And ignore Fred all the while as I go to sit on the chair... Stubbornly covering myself with a bedsheet.
"I am not a drama queen..." I pout... closing my eyes again as I pull the sheets closer to my body.
"Sure you aren't, hun." ..I can just hear Fred's smile.. as well as I feel him kneeling in front of me. "Goodnight, Jim" He whispers, and kisses my forehead.
"Mmmhm..." I 'respond', and feel my limbs begin to relax as I hear him start to hum.. and gently rub the outside of my thighs.... And after a couple of minutes his 'hummings' start to form into words..
"Love.." he sings quietly, and I feel one hand on the side of my head... "I hope we grow old..." His fingers slide through my hair smoothly, and I find myself quite enjoying his touch.. "I hope we can find a way.. to see it all, together.." And along with his touch... I enjoy his sweet voice... "Love, I hope we can be..." His hand is now on my cheek, and I'm tempted to open my eyes... But I'm so sleepy... "I hope I can find a way of letting you see.... That you're everything to me.. to me..." And those are the last faint words I hear before falling into a deep sleep...
*
I open my eyes... And find myself lying on the bed..... Fred must have put me here once I fell asleep....
So I sit up, to look for Fred.... But I don't find him sleeping on either side of me... But instead... On the chair where I had been.
Fred can be really sweet sometimes... I love.. and hate that about him.
I get up from the bed and almost wish I was strong enough to lift Fred and put him on the bed without killing either one of us... But I know I'm really weak, so I just kneel in front of him.. Like I imagine he did the night before.. And admire him.
Fred is a very good-looking guy. And he looks just as sweet as he really is sleeping there...
I think about the song Fred sang to me last night...
/' "I hope I can find a way of letting you see.... That you're everything to me...... to me..." '/
Was it just a song ...Just to help me sleep, right?
I stare at Fred.. And wonder...
Maybe Fred and I could be together?....Maybe we could be ..together.
But then my mind suddenly turns to something else... Or well.. Someone.
Gene....
And how I can't stop thinking about him... No matter how much I don't want to.
So I get up some.. And kiss Fred gently on the forehead before I stand up all the way...
Fred stirs some, to my dismay- and I start faster now, towards the door...
"Jim?" He asks sleepily... I'm too slow... "Where are you going?"
"Just out for a walk..." I look back at him and fake a smile.
Fred looks worried some.. Andhe starts to get up... I want to leave so badly... But I find my feet glued to the floor as he approaches me.
"Do you want me to come with you?" He asks...
"No, I'm fine..." I say... managing to keep my 'facade of happiness' up... although it seems clear that it's not fooling him.
"You're sure?" He looks at me, his eyes wanting me to stay...
But I look away.
"Yeah." I say almost escaping him..
But he pulls me to him.
"Jim.." He seems to plead. "I wish you would tell me what's wrong.."
My smile is fading as I look into his eyes.
"There's nothing wrong!" I yell, trying to get away from him forcefully now... But he keeps hold of me. "Let go!" I finally shout... But he won't.
Instead... He kisses me.
And I freeze... Closing my eyes as he kisses me so strongly...
Why couldn't he have yelled at me? ...Hit me?
..Anything but kiss me...
And I feel a tear fall down my cheek... Because it feels so good. And I have to pull away from it.
Fred looks at me, searching my face for the matter...
But all I can manage is a frown.
"I'm sorry, Fred... I .. I.."
I can't finish...
I can't stay..
I can't look at you...
I can't love you...
Because.. I can't stop...
Thinking about.. him.
He sees the loss in my eyes.. and I feel his grip from me loosen...
And then he smiles.
"I understand, Jim... I'm sorry, too." He says casually, as if it didn't matter to him anymore.
He then turns around and I leave before I can even give him the chance I know he would never take to chase after me.
To Be Continued.
I hope you all enjoyed that! Jim is a drama queen, eh? But ehm...Just to let you know.. The song Fred sings to Jim is a Coldplay song I changed some to make it seem 'nicer', me thinks. The song is originally called "Easy To Please".. in case you're wondering.
****And speaking of songs! ..I'm going to be changing the title to this story for the next chapter to "Brand New" ...Because I have been, and I believe am going to be using the band, Brand New's lyrics to name all the chapters... :) They're a good band... So is Coldplay.. :) And plus Metamorphosis... Brand New... Pretty close eh?
If you guys see any mistakes.. have any questions.. I'll make sure to fix them/ and or answer them! -And please make sure to review! It makes me happy!
And thanks to those who have reviewed, of course! Hope you'll review again! :)
Molly-chan the Anime/game fan: Hmm.. You're very strange. But that's fine. :) What kind of fics does Suzuka like, may I ask.. if that is... there are any? But anyway.. I'm glad you still like it. I don't think it got better for Jim though... :(
Jess: Suprising, eh? :) I hope you weren't expecting it to be bad. hehe. I hope you continue to read! ;)
OneWish: Oh, thank you so much! I very much like when people try to predict where the story will go, though... Because ... whereas- I do have most of this story written down... When I type it onto the computer... Sometimes it change it a whole lot! So.. Sometimes I don't even know where the story may go!
falsechaos: Yay! Thanks.. I try! Can't wait to see what you think! ;)
*EXPECT CHANGE OF STORY NAME NEXT CHAPTER TO 'BRAND NEW'*
Metamorphosis: Part 3 [PG-13]
"Too good to sleep with me, huh?" Fred asks 'playfully'.
I thought he was asleep .... But even beside that fact I didn't want to wake him up... I didn't feel like sleeping with him either.
I look over my shoulder at him, while still laying a pillow on a chair that I planned to sleep on.. And still did as I turned my head back.
I was already feeling bad as everything was.... But what Fred said made me feel even worse... And I can just feel the tears coming back again..
"Jim..." Fred says quietly, standing behind me now. "What's wrong?" He asks, putting his hands on my shoulders- where he begins to massage...
But it only makes me more tense.
"I just want to go to sleep." I snap at him.. crushing my eyes to close- hoping to keep the tears back... and pulling my shoulders from his hands- hoping to drive Fred away.
"Oh Jim... You're such a drama queen." Fred yawns. "Come on... Go sleep on the bed. -I'll sleep on the chair if you really want me to."
I take deep breaths before I open my eyes.... And ignore Fred all the while as I go to sit on the chair... Stubbornly covering myself with a bedsheet.
"I am not a drama queen..." I pout... closing my eyes again as I pull the sheets closer to my body.
"Sure you aren't, hun." ..I can just hear Fred's smile.. as well as I feel him kneeling in front of me. "Goodnight, Jim" He whispers, and kisses my forehead.
"Mmmhm..." I 'respond', and feel my limbs begin to relax as I hear him start to hum.. and gently rub the outside of my thighs.... And after a couple of minutes his 'hummings' start to form into words..
"Love.." he sings quietly, and I feel one hand on the side of my head... "I hope we grow old..." His fingers slide through my hair smoothly, and I find myself quite enjoying his touch.. "I hope we can find a way.. to see it all, together.." And along with his touch... I enjoy his sweet voice... "Love, I hope we can be..." His hand is now on my cheek, and I'm tempted to open my eyes... But I'm so sleepy... "I hope I can find a way of letting you see.... That you're everything to me.. to me..." And those are the last faint words I hear before falling into a deep sleep...
*
I open my eyes... And find myself lying on the bed..... Fred must have put me here once I fell asleep....
So I sit up, to look for Fred.... But I don't find him sleeping on either side of me... But instead... On the chair where I had been.
Fred can be really sweet sometimes... I love.. and hate that about him.
I get up from the bed and almost wish I was strong enough to lift Fred and put him on the bed without killing either one of us... But I know I'm really weak, so I just kneel in front of him.. Like I imagine he did the night before.. And admire him.
Fred is a very good-looking guy. And he looks just as sweet as he really is sleeping there...
I think about the song Fred sang to me last night...
/' "I hope I can find a way of letting you see.... That you're everything to me...... to me..." '/
Was it just a song ...Just to help me sleep, right?
I stare at Fred.. And wonder...
Maybe Fred and I could be together?....Maybe we could be ..together.
But then my mind suddenly turns to something else... Or well.. Someone.
Gene....
And how I can't stop thinking about him... No matter how much I don't want to.
So I get up some.. And kiss Fred gently on the forehead before I stand up all the way...
Fred stirs some, to my dismay- and I start faster now, towards the door...
"Jim?" He asks sleepily... I'm too slow... "Where are you going?"
"Just out for a walk..." I look back at him and fake a smile.
Fred looks worried some.. Andhe starts to get up... I want to leave so badly... But I find my feet glued to the floor as he approaches me.
"Do you want me to come with you?" He asks...
"No, I'm fine..." I say... managing to keep my 'facade of happiness' up... although it seems clear that it's not fooling him.
"You're sure?" He looks at me, his eyes wanting me to stay...
But I look away.
"Yeah." I say almost escaping him..
But he pulls me to him.
"Jim.." He seems to plead. "I wish you would tell me what's wrong.."
My smile is fading as I look into his eyes.
"There's nothing wrong!" I yell, trying to get away from him forcefully now... But he keeps hold of me. "Let go!" I finally shout... But he won't.
Instead... He kisses me.
And I freeze... Closing my eyes as he kisses me so strongly...
Why couldn't he have yelled at me? ...Hit me?
..Anything but kiss me...
And I feel a tear fall down my cheek... Because it feels so good. And I have to pull away from it.
Fred looks at me, searching my face for the matter...
But all I can manage is a frown.
"I'm sorry, Fred... I .. I.."
I can't finish...
I can't stay..
I can't look at you...
I can't love you...
Because.. I can't stop...
Thinking about.. him.
He sees the loss in my eyes.. and I feel his grip from me loosen...
And then he smiles.
"I understand, Jim... I'm sorry, too." He says casually, as if it didn't matter to him anymore.
He then turns around and I leave before I can even give him the chance I know he would never take to chase after me.
To Be Continued.
I hope you all enjoyed that! Jim is a drama queen, eh? But ehm...Just to let you know.. The song Fred sings to Jim is a Coldplay song I changed some to make it seem 'nicer', me thinks. The song is originally called "Easy To Please".. in case you're wondering.
****And speaking of songs! ..I'm going to be changing the title to this story for the next chapter to "Brand New" ...Because I have been, and I believe am going to be using the band, Brand New's lyrics to name all the chapters... :) They're a good band... So is Coldplay.. :) And plus Metamorphosis... Brand New... Pretty close eh?
If you guys see any mistakes.. have any questions.. I'll make sure to fix them/ and or answer them! -And please make sure to review! It makes me happy!
And thanks to those who have reviewed, of course! Hope you'll review again! :)
Molly-chan the Anime/game fan: Hmm.. You're very strange. But that's fine. :) What kind of fics does Suzuka like, may I ask.. if that is... there are any? But anyway.. I'm glad you still like it. I don't think it got better for Jim though... :(
Jess: Suprising, eh? :) I hope you weren't expecting it to be bad. hehe. I hope you continue to read! ;)
OneWish: Oh, thank you so much! I very much like when people try to predict where the story will go, though... Because ... whereas- I do have most of this story written down... When I type it onto the computer... Sometimes it change it a whole lot! So.. Sometimes I don't even know where the story may go!
falsechaos: Yay! Thanks.. I try! Can't wait to see what you think! ;)