Previous chapter: Jim runs from Fred, even after Fred 'admits' his feelings
to him! But Jim knows he can't return Fred's feelings, because he can't
keep his mind off Gene. So Jim goes leaves... To the 'bleaker' parts of
town. He finds a prostitute, and, to prove to himself that he can 'prefer
women as much as the next guy'. 'Has' the girl. But upon doing so.. He
figures out the 'girl' is not a girl at all! But a man. Jim gets an idea!
...Three months later, Jim comes back to Fred. As a 'woman'.
[PG-13]
Brand New: Part 5
I let myself fall to my bed.
My bed. My own bed. My own room. No longer sharing one with Fred....
I bury my face in my own arms, and close my eyes.
My eyes. Now out of my 'woman' clothes... Instead of makeup, I wear spots of oil on my face. And no perfume. Just the smell of a long day's work.
But I actually prefer it, over my... costume.
"Jim?" I hear a voice, accompanied with a knock at my door.
I sit up from my lying position, and wipe off my face some.
"The door is unlocked." I say, letting my now long hair fall into my eyes.
And I hear the door open, and know Fred is there.
"Hey, Jim." He says lightly, but I just stay on the bed. "Why aren't any lights on?" He laughs some, and waits for the room to brighten. ..I'm glad my hair is over my eyes to soften the blow.
There's a period of silence. I can almost hear Fred just standing there, looking at me.
"How was it. working again, I mean?" He asks.
"It was fine." I say, and it was. I actually missed it.... Especially over what I had been doing. Just the thought of that made me slouch even more.
I then feel myself tilt to the right some as Fred sits next to me. I find myself leaning right on him, and I feel a sense of familiarity, and soon enough, I'm looking up at him. He gives me that kind smile I can faintly remember... And as he puts his hand to my face, to pull back my hair, I can almost taste his smile.
"It's good to see you as yourself, Jim..." He says, still pushing my hair back, even though it's already out of my face.
".... I..." I then scoot over, so I'm not leaning on him. Not feeling like myself at all.
I don't want to look at him; even just hearing him sigh is enough.
".... Can you tell me why you did it?" He finally asks.
I close my eyes, knowing the question was going to come eventually, but not being ready for it.
"...........................No." I answer, turning myself even more from him.
And I feel his hands on my shoulder, before he turns me to look at him, but I still find my eyes turning to the floor.
"Jim! Please, tell me." He pleads.
"I can't..." I say, but he doesn't give up.
"Why not, Jim? I only want to help." I feel his hands stroking my arms.
"You'll only hate me even more than you already do." I finally say, as I pull away from his hands.
"Jim! Don't you dare even start with me." He then pulls me back to him. "You know I don't hate you, Jim. How can you ever think that?" His, hands are gripping me, but it's his eyes that keep me still.
You'll hate me sooner or later, Fred. I guess I'll make it now.
"I did it for Gene" I say, having to turn my eyes away from his own before I say this. "Because I want to be with him.."
Fred does not respond at first, but when I look back toward him, I see him smiling.
"So you still have a crush on him, huh?" I look at Fred, not believing his 'cheerfulness' in the situation. But maybe I'm just giving myself way too much credit.
".St.Still?" I ask, confused.. I had never told Fred about Gene, I'm sure of it.
Fred laughs some, making me feel even more uncomfortable.
"You really don't remember?" .I shake my head at his question.
"Remember what?"
Fred is still smiling as he explains.
"When you were just a little kid. about this tall." He shows with his hand, my height. "I use to tease you about having a crush on Gene." I watch him as he speaks, leaving somewhat of a pause between sentences. And I begin to remember some.. "You would deny it, of course."
/ "Jim, you're boyfriend is here." Fred called me from outside my room. .Which, come to think of it, is the room we are in now.
"Rrrrrrr." I growled once I sat up from my bed and looked to Fred standing right in my doorway, "He is not my boyfriend! You're the one who likes him! And I thought I told you to knock if you wanted to come in my room."
"Oh! But I didn't want to come in!" Fred said as he exaggerated the fact he was not really inside my room, just standing outside of it.
"Don't be cute." I rolled my eyes as I approached Fred's smiling self.
"I can't help it." He joked, and I sulked at the corniness and gave him a shake of the head as I passed him.
He grabbed my shaking head, and gave me a noggie.
"Argh! Letgoame!" I can't help but laugh some as he starts to tickle me.
"Ahem." we both heard that cough, and looked up.
I was the only one to blush, though. Embarrassed as to what Gene would think. Making me quickly squirm out of Fred's hold.
"Hey Fred. Heya squirt." He smiled, while ruffling my hair. I push his hand away, and smile back.
"You're late!" I exclaimed, while keeping hold of his hand and looking up to him.
His smile faded some and he kneeled down to me, looking me straight in the eyes "I know, but I have a very good explanation."
"Oh yeah?" I looked at him, not believing for a second it would be an honest one. "What is it this time?"
"Well," he started, with that smug smile of his on his face "I actually made a list of excuses. So.. You can pick whichever one you like the best, and that'll be it!"
"You're too good to him, Gene" Fred chirped in, and Gene's smile widened even more.
"So where are we going today?" I asked, trying to block Fred out of Gene and my conversation.
"Well come on, we'll go for a walk, and see what happens." Gene begins to stand up, and I remember watching him stand so tall as he did. "We'll see you later, Fred."
"All right, Gene." Fred got up from leaning on the wall, and went to put his hand on my head, which I quickly dodged from.
"Come on, Gene! Let's go!" I said, grabbing Gene's arm.
I remember now, seeing Fred's disappointed face, instead of only Gene's smile.
"Bye Jim, be good." Fred called after, but I tried my best not to hear it. /
"You had daggers for me then, Jim." Fred smiles still as he remembers as well.
..I remember I use to hate Fred. I would even call him a faggot sometimes. I was a real pain. .But.. I didn't hate him just because he was gay. There was also something else. I know there was.
"Yeah.I forgot all about then. It's been.. such a long time." I say quietly, knowing it wasn't long enough to have forgotten, but maybe just some things that wanted to be so.
Why did Gene take me out? .It apparently hadn't been the first time.
"Gene. Isn't my dad. Is he?" I ask Fred.
Fred looks surprised at the question.
"No." He says, and begins to rub my back. "Gene found you, Jim.."
"Found me?" I ask, not really acknowledging his hand on my back, so I let it stay. "I thought you did."
"No. Gene left you with me, because he couldn't take care of you financially." Fred explains. "I think that's one of the reasons you hated me so much. Cause you wanted to be with Gene." As Fred mentions that, I know that it's true.
Another reason I use to hate Fred is because he wasn't Gene. Gene, who took me out of the streets... Why was I on the streets? ..Running from my family. Yeah. My father. I remember now. The beatings. I remember Gene, too. Who saved me. Who I looked up to. Who I loved. And I think. I still do.
To Be Continued.
Sorry for the weird stop, but I really wanted to get something down, to assure you that I am still working on this story! ..And, speaking of which, I apologize for the unpromptness... I have a list of excuses, and you can pick out the excuse you like best and use that one!
Hurricane Isabel took my power out for a whole month Driving School takes up 8 hours of my day My dog ate it I was at the bank I was out at the store I had bad guacamole and couldn't stop shitting School Alien spaceships
Har har har. Sorry, I'll stop being dumb. Or try to anyway.
Molly-chan the Anime/Game fan: Hey, thanks for the reminder in the mail. I'm almost positive that was you! ..Once I got it, I figured it wouldn't hurt to start typing up some of the next chapter.. And once I did start, I just didn't stop! (
Anime Lass: I hope that it's not so much that you won't read my story anymore. Yes, Jim is pretending to be a girl. But let's all pretend he can pass off like a pretty one. Heh heh heh.. ;)
leelee3: I'm starting to see what these ellipses are. But I think it's become a habit! I'll try my best, to remember this. :s sorry. Hope you're still enjoying.
In fact, I hope you're all still enjoying! And that some more readers are, and so on, and so forth! Thanks for the name confirmation, too.
Please review, they're so very much appreciated!
[PG-13]
Brand New: Part 5
I let myself fall to my bed.
My bed. My own bed. My own room. No longer sharing one with Fred....
I bury my face in my own arms, and close my eyes.
My eyes. Now out of my 'woman' clothes... Instead of makeup, I wear spots of oil on my face. And no perfume. Just the smell of a long day's work.
But I actually prefer it, over my... costume.
"Jim?" I hear a voice, accompanied with a knock at my door.
I sit up from my lying position, and wipe off my face some.
"The door is unlocked." I say, letting my now long hair fall into my eyes.
And I hear the door open, and know Fred is there.
"Hey, Jim." He says lightly, but I just stay on the bed. "Why aren't any lights on?" He laughs some, and waits for the room to brighten. ..I'm glad my hair is over my eyes to soften the blow.
There's a period of silence. I can almost hear Fred just standing there, looking at me.
"How was it. working again, I mean?" He asks.
"It was fine." I say, and it was. I actually missed it.... Especially over what I had been doing. Just the thought of that made me slouch even more.
I then feel myself tilt to the right some as Fred sits next to me. I find myself leaning right on him, and I feel a sense of familiarity, and soon enough, I'm looking up at him. He gives me that kind smile I can faintly remember... And as he puts his hand to my face, to pull back my hair, I can almost taste his smile.
"It's good to see you as yourself, Jim..." He says, still pushing my hair back, even though it's already out of my face.
".... I..." I then scoot over, so I'm not leaning on him. Not feeling like myself at all.
I don't want to look at him; even just hearing him sigh is enough.
".... Can you tell me why you did it?" He finally asks.
I close my eyes, knowing the question was going to come eventually, but not being ready for it.
"...........................No." I answer, turning myself even more from him.
And I feel his hands on my shoulder, before he turns me to look at him, but I still find my eyes turning to the floor.
"Jim! Please, tell me." He pleads.
"I can't..." I say, but he doesn't give up.
"Why not, Jim? I only want to help." I feel his hands stroking my arms.
"You'll only hate me even more than you already do." I finally say, as I pull away from his hands.
"Jim! Don't you dare even start with me." He then pulls me back to him. "You know I don't hate you, Jim. How can you ever think that?" His, hands are gripping me, but it's his eyes that keep me still.
You'll hate me sooner or later, Fred. I guess I'll make it now.
"I did it for Gene" I say, having to turn my eyes away from his own before I say this. "Because I want to be with him.."
Fred does not respond at first, but when I look back toward him, I see him smiling.
"So you still have a crush on him, huh?" I look at Fred, not believing his 'cheerfulness' in the situation. But maybe I'm just giving myself way too much credit.
".St.Still?" I ask, confused.. I had never told Fred about Gene, I'm sure of it.
Fred laughs some, making me feel even more uncomfortable.
"You really don't remember?" .I shake my head at his question.
"Remember what?"
Fred is still smiling as he explains.
"When you were just a little kid. about this tall." He shows with his hand, my height. "I use to tease you about having a crush on Gene." I watch him as he speaks, leaving somewhat of a pause between sentences. And I begin to remember some.. "You would deny it, of course."
/ "Jim, you're boyfriend is here." Fred called me from outside my room. .Which, come to think of it, is the room we are in now.
"Rrrrrrr." I growled once I sat up from my bed and looked to Fred standing right in my doorway, "He is not my boyfriend! You're the one who likes him! And I thought I told you to knock if you wanted to come in my room."
"Oh! But I didn't want to come in!" Fred said as he exaggerated the fact he was not really inside my room, just standing outside of it.
"Don't be cute." I rolled my eyes as I approached Fred's smiling self.
"I can't help it." He joked, and I sulked at the corniness and gave him a shake of the head as I passed him.
He grabbed my shaking head, and gave me a noggie.
"Argh! Letgoame!" I can't help but laugh some as he starts to tickle me.
"Ahem." we both heard that cough, and looked up.
I was the only one to blush, though. Embarrassed as to what Gene would think. Making me quickly squirm out of Fred's hold.
"Hey Fred. Heya squirt." He smiled, while ruffling my hair. I push his hand away, and smile back.
"You're late!" I exclaimed, while keeping hold of his hand and looking up to him.
His smile faded some and he kneeled down to me, looking me straight in the eyes "I know, but I have a very good explanation."
"Oh yeah?" I looked at him, not believing for a second it would be an honest one. "What is it this time?"
"Well," he started, with that smug smile of his on his face "I actually made a list of excuses. So.. You can pick whichever one you like the best, and that'll be it!"
"You're too good to him, Gene" Fred chirped in, and Gene's smile widened even more.
"So where are we going today?" I asked, trying to block Fred out of Gene and my conversation.
"Well come on, we'll go for a walk, and see what happens." Gene begins to stand up, and I remember watching him stand so tall as he did. "We'll see you later, Fred."
"All right, Gene." Fred got up from leaning on the wall, and went to put his hand on my head, which I quickly dodged from.
"Come on, Gene! Let's go!" I said, grabbing Gene's arm.
I remember now, seeing Fred's disappointed face, instead of only Gene's smile.
"Bye Jim, be good." Fred called after, but I tried my best not to hear it. /
"You had daggers for me then, Jim." Fred smiles still as he remembers as well.
..I remember I use to hate Fred. I would even call him a faggot sometimes. I was a real pain. .But.. I didn't hate him just because he was gay. There was also something else. I know there was.
"Yeah.I forgot all about then. It's been.. such a long time." I say quietly, knowing it wasn't long enough to have forgotten, but maybe just some things that wanted to be so.
Why did Gene take me out? .It apparently hadn't been the first time.
"Gene. Isn't my dad. Is he?" I ask Fred.
Fred looks surprised at the question.
"No." He says, and begins to rub my back. "Gene found you, Jim.."
"Found me?" I ask, not really acknowledging his hand on my back, so I let it stay. "I thought you did."
"No. Gene left you with me, because he couldn't take care of you financially." Fred explains. "I think that's one of the reasons you hated me so much. Cause you wanted to be with Gene." As Fred mentions that, I know that it's true.
Another reason I use to hate Fred is because he wasn't Gene. Gene, who took me out of the streets... Why was I on the streets? ..Running from my family. Yeah. My father. I remember now. The beatings. I remember Gene, too. Who saved me. Who I looked up to. Who I loved. And I think. I still do.
To Be Continued.
Sorry for the weird stop, but I really wanted to get something down, to assure you that I am still working on this story! ..And, speaking of which, I apologize for the unpromptness... I have a list of excuses, and you can pick out the excuse you like best and use that one!
Hurricane Isabel took my power out for a whole month Driving School takes up 8 hours of my day My dog ate it I was at the bank I was out at the store I had bad guacamole and couldn't stop shitting School Alien spaceships
Har har har. Sorry, I'll stop being dumb. Or try to anyway.
Molly-chan the Anime/Game fan: Hey, thanks for the reminder in the mail. I'm almost positive that was you! ..Once I got it, I figured it wouldn't hurt to start typing up some of the next chapter.. And once I did start, I just didn't stop! (
Anime Lass: I hope that it's not so much that you won't read my story anymore. Yes, Jim is pretending to be a girl. But let's all pretend he can pass off like a pretty one. Heh heh heh.. ;)
leelee3: I'm starting to see what these ellipses are. But I think it's become a habit! I'll try my best, to remember this. :s sorry. Hope you're still enjoying.
In fact, I hope you're all still enjoying! And that some more readers are, and so on, and so forth! Thanks for the name confirmation, too.
Please review, they're so very much appreciated!