Secrets
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Disclaimer- I don't own Final Fantasy 8 or anything under the "Final Fantasy" license. Just pretty much anything owned by Square-Enix. I'm just 'borrowing' it.
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Control
***Flashback***
"Kiros. Pass the butter." Laguna asked, swing a hand over to his friend and in turn received a glare. "Kiros?Hey come on!! It's not my fault!"
"So it isn't your fault that we are locked in a smelly Galbadian Prison because of YOUR bright idea of stealing a car that already had someone inside?" Kiros asked bitterly. Laguna looked down, ashamed. He looked back up innocently.
"It would have worked if that guy didn't hold us up for our money and turned us in." Laguna mumbled. Ward rolled his eyes. "Will you PLEASE just pass me the butter!" Ward started to laugh. Soon Kiros joined in. He looked around confused.
"Laguna..THERE IS NO BUTTER!!" Kiros exclaimed, falling into another fit of laughter again. Laguna jumped up and shook his fist at his companion.
"Hey! Keep it down in there!" The guard screamed, hitting the steel door three times. When the laughter subsided, Laguna was already thinking of another devious plan. One that could get them out of the jail. And one that could help him get Ellone back.
***
"Mommy? MOMMY WHERE ARE YOO!!!" A lone voice called out hysterically. The darkness seemed to swallow the room entirely.
"I'm here baby. Squall! Come here! Fol-follow my-my voice." Raine called out. Squall ran toward the light where his mother was sitting. She was clutching her stomach, her face squeezed in pain.
"MOMMY!!" Squall yelled, hugging her tightly. "I love yoo mommy!" Raine smiled and with great difficulty, ruffled his hair.
"I love you too little guy. I-I need you to promise me something. Okay?" Squall nodded and sat down in front of her. " The-The faeries are going to take me to..a happy place. I will always..watch over you. Don't be afraid ok?" Squall nodded but frowned.
"But I don't want the faeries to take yoo away!" Squall murmured. RAine smiled and lifted her son's chin high so that he was looking up at her.
"Squall don't ever be afraid. Remember Dada and me ok? Then you'll always..always be safe." A tear ran down her cheek as she felt her life draining away from her.
"Squall..go..go to Shiva. She'll protect you ok? Go." She ordered him weakly. Squall nodded and stood up. But he turned back to her.
"I love you mommy. Be happy with the faeries!" He smiled and walked as fast as his small legs could take him through the darkness and toward the blue light. Raine smiled lightly as she fell into her final rest.
"I love you too my baby. Don't forget me.."
***End Flashback***
"What does Cid want now?" Quistis groaned, sliding away from Sefer's embrace once she heard the speaker call her name. Seifer shrugged stood up with her.
"Who knows what goes on inside a 50 year-old mans head?" Quistis smiled and kissed her boyfriend slightly on the lips.
"You walking me up?"
"Of course."
***
"Good morning Quistis." Cid greeted warmly with wide smile on his face. He was leaning over his messy desk. A small bit of sunshine peered through the pulled down blinds. Sweltering heat hit her once she entered the room.
"Good morning to you too Headmaster." She answered lightly, bowing her head slightly. She felt a thin film of perspiration on her forehead but quickly brushed in away.
"Since you are still a Rank A SeeD I am sending you on an important mission on request of Esthar's president Laguna Loire." Cid stated, handing her a file folder then motioning for her to take a seat. How could he NOT be sweating? She thought. She flipped through it lightly and looked back up at the elderly man.
"You want me to gather up 5 SeeDs for this mission?" Cid nodded and smiled.
"You may ask that cowboy fellow to come along as well. I'm sure Laguna wouldn't mind." Quistis nodded and stood up, straightening her skirt. She smiled though, having an odd feeling as Cid seemed to know exactly who she was going to ask.
"Ah..Quistis..Laguna himself will come and pick you and your colleagues at 15:00." She nodded and walked out of the stuffy room. As the rush of cold air hit her she smiled and searched for Seifer. He was sitting across the room, flipping a coin in the air continuously. Quietly, Quistis crept slowly up behind him.
"BOO!" Seifer jumped away from his seat like he was touching fire. She bursted in to laughter. Students around them stared but kept walking. He widened his eyes but then came up to her draped his arm over her shoulders.
"Déjà vu." Quistis smiled and giggled.
"I remember." Seifer kissed the top of her head.
"So what did the old man need you for?" He asked just as they reached the elevator.
" I am going to Esthar..and so are 5 other SeeDs" Quistis explained. Seifer smiled.
"Am I going?" Quistis nodded.
"I'm planning on asking Squall, Rinoa, Selphie...and you of course."
"Who's the last dude?"
"That's for me to decide." Quistis grinned, stepping in to the waiting elevator.
***
"Do we have to go to the quad? Couldn't we just go to the training area?" Irvine looked around and leaned in toward Selphie's ear. "Or the dormitories?" She rolled her eyes and pushed his head away.
"WE ARE GOING TO THE QUAD MISTER WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!!!!" Selphie screamed jumping up from her seat and dragging her complaining but much taller boyfriend to the quad entrance. Before they got that far Irvine pulled on her arm slightly, this stopped her in her tracks. She turned around a very angry expression on her face. The cowboy just grinned and bent down for a kiss. Selphie was surprised at first but started to kiss back. She suddenly parted and slapped him on the head.
"BOZO!" Selphie shouted playfully, ignoring the many looks that were given to her by Garden staff and students. One boy in particular was staring at her in disbelief and as if she was crazy. Selphie unfortunately noticed this and stomped over to him. Irvine, powerless to stop her watched form a far distance.
"WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT?" The boy looked like he wanted to run away. And that's exactly what he did. At least he tried to. Selphie caught him easily by the arm and slapped on the top of his head.
"N-Nuh-nothing!" The guy exclaimed, backing away slowly. She glared at him and nodded lightly. Irvine burst into silent laughter.
"FINE! But if I catch you again.." She left her threat hanging and turn away. She stopped halfway and looked back.
"What is your name anyway?" The boy shifted his eyes back and forth nervously.
"N-Nida H-"
"Selph! Just stop torturing the guy and let him go." Irvine said calmly, but in truth, he was scared of his life. Her head snapped back to face him.
"Fine!" Selphie looked back at Nida. "Scram!" He silently gave Irvine his thanks and ran as fast as his legs would carry him, not even looking behind him. The cowboy slowly crept up to His girlfriend. All he could see was her hair and back but he was afraid of her. At least for the moment. Irvine froze when Selphie turned around but was even more surprised when she had a goofy smile across her face.
"What?" She asked happily, reaching for his cowboy hat and putting it on her head. Irvine stared at her in disbelief but grinned and kissed her. Selphie took his hand and dragged him to the stage.
"So what do you think of this? I'm planning to have a BIG concert here! Isn't it beautiful?" He smiled and put his hat on again.
"Not as beautiful as you are." Irvine whispered. Putting he arm over her small shoulders and kissing her softly, ignoring the whispering going on around them.
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Squall's Journal Entry
'I look around the garden every single day of my life. The girls giggling with gossip and guys who pretend to be macho. I see this everyday and I feel jealous. Why? That's a question that has no meaning to me.
Seifer, Irvine, Selphie, Rinoa and Quistis. They're supposed to be my friends. But are they? They look to their respective boyfriends/girlfriends for support and love and receive some back. But do they look of give their friends support? But I can't do anything about it because it isn't any of my business. Selphie and Rinoa say "that you should open up. Or that you could care about us a little more." They don't even see that I do care. Is it a surprise? That the cold, impassive and unfeeling Squall Leonhart cares? They don't know me. I don't know them. They don't understand what I'm feeling of thinking.
Have they seen the pain that I've seen? Have they had a childhood filled with loneliness and tears? NO! They haven't. They DON'T care! So why should I care about them? Is that the real answer to the question of why I am the way I am? No it isn't. I have no reasons because of the way I am.
I look at Rinoa and see who I could be with her. But I'm not with her. Hell, I want to be. As does half of the male population in this Garden. But it doesn't work that way. At least not for me. It might work out for Seifer but never with me. Transitions are screwed up. I've lived through them in almost all the days of my life. My transfers from Trabia to Galbadia and from Galbadia to Balamb. I was pushed along from one foster home to another. From friends. From a regular childhood to one filled with prophecies and uncontrollable fates. From uncontrollable to controllable.
I choose my own fate. My decisions affect my future. As does my actions. So if I choose to be with Rinoa, I could have a picture perfect life? Maybe. Either way, I can't be with her. Perfect life or not, I'm just not supposed to. I took that risk when I chose to be in control of my life. An unpredictable, uncontrollable life or a controlled life without love. I chose and I got what I bargained for. Is that the real answer to why I am the way I am? Yes. It is.
Squall Leonhart
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Author's Note- This chapter is kind of like a filler. It doesn't really move the plot along but I think it's pretty good. I can't believe I actually put a journal entry in! I'll probably put more if I want. The next chapter should move the plot along. Please REVIEW and check out my 'songfic'-Tears. It's really sad and it's some of my best work. By the way..does anyone know Ward's last name? Shout outs to:
DBH
Verdanii
&
Angelgrl -For reviewing!
Hope you all enjoyed this chapter! The more you review, the faster I type.
'Till next time.
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Disclaimer- I don't own Final Fantasy 8 or anything under the "Final Fantasy" license. Just pretty much anything owned by Square-Enix. I'm just 'borrowing' it.
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Control
***Flashback***
"Kiros. Pass the butter." Laguna asked, swing a hand over to his friend and in turn received a glare. "Kiros?Hey come on!! It's not my fault!"
"So it isn't your fault that we are locked in a smelly Galbadian Prison because of YOUR bright idea of stealing a car that already had someone inside?" Kiros asked bitterly. Laguna looked down, ashamed. He looked back up innocently.
"It would have worked if that guy didn't hold us up for our money and turned us in." Laguna mumbled. Ward rolled his eyes. "Will you PLEASE just pass me the butter!" Ward started to laugh. Soon Kiros joined in. He looked around confused.
"Laguna..THERE IS NO BUTTER!!" Kiros exclaimed, falling into another fit of laughter again. Laguna jumped up and shook his fist at his companion.
"Hey! Keep it down in there!" The guard screamed, hitting the steel door three times. When the laughter subsided, Laguna was already thinking of another devious plan. One that could get them out of the jail. And one that could help him get Ellone back.
***
"Mommy? MOMMY WHERE ARE YOO!!!" A lone voice called out hysterically. The darkness seemed to swallow the room entirely.
"I'm here baby. Squall! Come here! Fol-follow my-my voice." Raine called out. Squall ran toward the light where his mother was sitting. She was clutching her stomach, her face squeezed in pain.
"MOMMY!!" Squall yelled, hugging her tightly. "I love yoo mommy!" Raine smiled and with great difficulty, ruffled his hair.
"I love you too little guy. I-I need you to promise me something. Okay?" Squall nodded and sat down in front of her. " The-The faeries are going to take me to..a happy place. I will always..watch over you. Don't be afraid ok?" Squall nodded but frowned.
"But I don't want the faeries to take yoo away!" Squall murmured. RAine smiled and lifted her son's chin high so that he was looking up at her.
"Squall don't ever be afraid. Remember Dada and me ok? Then you'll always..always be safe." A tear ran down her cheek as she felt her life draining away from her.
"Squall..go..go to Shiva. She'll protect you ok? Go." She ordered him weakly. Squall nodded and stood up. But he turned back to her.
"I love you mommy. Be happy with the faeries!" He smiled and walked as fast as his small legs could take him through the darkness and toward the blue light. Raine smiled lightly as she fell into her final rest.
"I love you too my baby. Don't forget me.."
***End Flashback***
"What does Cid want now?" Quistis groaned, sliding away from Sefer's embrace once she heard the speaker call her name. Seifer shrugged stood up with her.
"Who knows what goes on inside a 50 year-old mans head?" Quistis smiled and kissed her boyfriend slightly on the lips.
"You walking me up?"
"Of course."
***
"Good morning Quistis." Cid greeted warmly with wide smile on his face. He was leaning over his messy desk. A small bit of sunshine peered through the pulled down blinds. Sweltering heat hit her once she entered the room.
"Good morning to you too Headmaster." She answered lightly, bowing her head slightly. She felt a thin film of perspiration on her forehead but quickly brushed in away.
"Since you are still a Rank A SeeD I am sending you on an important mission on request of Esthar's president Laguna Loire." Cid stated, handing her a file folder then motioning for her to take a seat. How could he NOT be sweating? She thought. She flipped through it lightly and looked back up at the elderly man.
"You want me to gather up 5 SeeDs for this mission?" Cid nodded and smiled.
"You may ask that cowboy fellow to come along as well. I'm sure Laguna wouldn't mind." Quistis nodded and stood up, straightening her skirt. She smiled though, having an odd feeling as Cid seemed to know exactly who she was going to ask.
"Ah..Quistis..Laguna himself will come and pick you and your colleagues at 15:00." She nodded and walked out of the stuffy room. As the rush of cold air hit her she smiled and searched for Seifer. He was sitting across the room, flipping a coin in the air continuously. Quietly, Quistis crept slowly up behind him.
"BOO!" Seifer jumped away from his seat like he was touching fire. She bursted in to laughter. Students around them stared but kept walking. He widened his eyes but then came up to her draped his arm over her shoulders.
"Déjà vu." Quistis smiled and giggled.
"I remember." Seifer kissed the top of her head.
"So what did the old man need you for?" He asked just as they reached the elevator.
" I am going to Esthar..and so are 5 other SeeDs" Quistis explained. Seifer smiled.
"Am I going?" Quistis nodded.
"I'm planning on asking Squall, Rinoa, Selphie...and you of course."
"Who's the last dude?"
"That's for me to decide." Quistis grinned, stepping in to the waiting elevator.
***
"Do we have to go to the quad? Couldn't we just go to the training area?" Irvine looked around and leaned in toward Selphie's ear. "Or the dormitories?" She rolled her eyes and pushed his head away.
"WE ARE GOING TO THE QUAD MISTER WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!!!!" Selphie screamed jumping up from her seat and dragging her complaining but much taller boyfriend to the quad entrance. Before they got that far Irvine pulled on her arm slightly, this stopped her in her tracks. She turned around a very angry expression on her face. The cowboy just grinned and bent down for a kiss. Selphie was surprised at first but started to kiss back. She suddenly parted and slapped him on the head.
"BOZO!" Selphie shouted playfully, ignoring the many looks that were given to her by Garden staff and students. One boy in particular was staring at her in disbelief and as if she was crazy. Selphie unfortunately noticed this and stomped over to him. Irvine, powerless to stop her watched form a far distance.
"WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT?" The boy looked like he wanted to run away. And that's exactly what he did. At least he tried to. Selphie caught him easily by the arm and slapped on the top of his head.
"N-Nuh-nothing!" The guy exclaimed, backing away slowly. She glared at him and nodded lightly. Irvine burst into silent laughter.
"FINE! But if I catch you again.." She left her threat hanging and turn away. She stopped halfway and looked back.
"What is your name anyway?" The boy shifted his eyes back and forth nervously.
"N-Nida H-"
"Selph! Just stop torturing the guy and let him go." Irvine said calmly, but in truth, he was scared of his life. Her head snapped back to face him.
"Fine!" Selphie looked back at Nida. "Scram!" He silently gave Irvine his thanks and ran as fast as his legs would carry him, not even looking behind him. The cowboy slowly crept up to His girlfriend. All he could see was her hair and back but he was afraid of her. At least for the moment. Irvine froze when Selphie turned around but was even more surprised when she had a goofy smile across her face.
"What?" She asked happily, reaching for his cowboy hat and putting it on her head. Irvine stared at her in disbelief but grinned and kissed her. Selphie took his hand and dragged him to the stage.
"So what do you think of this? I'm planning to have a BIG concert here! Isn't it beautiful?" He smiled and put his hat on again.
"Not as beautiful as you are." Irvine whispered. Putting he arm over her small shoulders and kissing her softly, ignoring the whispering going on around them.
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Squall's Journal Entry
'I look around the garden every single day of my life. The girls giggling with gossip and guys who pretend to be macho. I see this everyday and I feel jealous. Why? That's a question that has no meaning to me.
Seifer, Irvine, Selphie, Rinoa and Quistis. They're supposed to be my friends. But are they? They look to their respective boyfriends/girlfriends for support and love and receive some back. But do they look of give their friends support? But I can't do anything about it because it isn't any of my business. Selphie and Rinoa say "that you should open up. Or that you could care about us a little more." They don't even see that I do care. Is it a surprise? That the cold, impassive and unfeeling Squall Leonhart cares? They don't know me. I don't know them. They don't understand what I'm feeling of thinking.
Have they seen the pain that I've seen? Have they had a childhood filled with loneliness and tears? NO! They haven't. They DON'T care! So why should I care about them? Is that the real answer to the question of why I am the way I am? No it isn't. I have no reasons because of the way I am.
I look at Rinoa and see who I could be with her. But I'm not with her. Hell, I want to be. As does half of the male population in this Garden. But it doesn't work that way. At least not for me. It might work out for Seifer but never with me. Transitions are screwed up. I've lived through them in almost all the days of my life. My transfers from Trabia to Galbadia and from Galbadia to Balamb. I was pushed along from one foster home to another. From friends. From a regular childhood to one filled with prophecies and uncontrollable fates. From uncontrollable to controllable.
I choose my own fate. My decisions affect my future. As does my actions. So if I choose to be with Rinoa, I could have a picture perfect life? Maybe. Either way, I can't be with her. Perfect life or not, I'm just not supposed to. I took that risk when I chose to be in control of my life. An unpredictable, uncontrollable life or a controlled life without love. I chose and I got what I bargained for. Is that the real answer to why I am the way I am? Yes. It is.
Squall Leonhart
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Author's Note- This chapter is kind of like a filler. It doesn't really move the plot along but I think it's pretty good. I can't believe I actually put a journal entry in! I'll probably put more if I want. The next chapter should move the plot along. Please REVIEW and check out my 'songfic'-Tears. It's really sad and it's some of my best work. By the way..does anyone know Ward's last name? Shout outs to:
DBH
Verdanii
&
Angelgrl -For reviewing!
Hope you all enjoyed this chapter! The more you review, the faster I type.
'Till next time.