Chapter 2: My babies
Disclaimer: Don't own any digimon, never have, never will so quit pestering me OK?
Wow, I finally finished it. This chapter is probably PG13 though I am no good at rating stories. Thanks to all of you who have read and reviewed my fics, I love all of you guys. I am slowly getting on with all the chapters that I need to do. Ok, I think I have talked enough, let's get this chapter started..........
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I was paralysed with shock and strangely, fear. For what seemed like an age time stopped. All I could see were those two forms in front of me. I knew them now, for I had know it was them since I had first seen them but so much of me had wanted to deny it. I was almost overcome by tears.
I recognised them now. I can remember the day I gave birth to them. Such pains and suffering during labour but it was all worth it in the end. I can remember holding them in my arms and, for the first time in my life, being truly happy. That's what people told me before, it's a feeling you can't describe, having your first child. Well my first child was twins so the feeling doubled intensely. It was like my heart had split open because of the swelling of pride, love, hope and, well, light.
David had come first. Even in the early hours of his birth we could tell that he looked almost identical to his dad. I say we because well, TK was at the birth with me. To tell you the truth I have never seen him look prouder, of me and the children. We were one big happy family, then. I looked at David now. His face was lined with concern, seeming beyond his years. His entire attention was focused on the small form beside him. Emma hadn't moved at all. When she had been young she had always been very small and rather frail. I can remember that she had asthma as a baby. This piece of news which I had only just remembered came as a shock to me. As a baby, Emma's asthma had been really bad. There had been a few crucial hours soon after her birth when I almost lost my baby, my darling.
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I turned instinctively to David. I no longer had any knowledge of onlookers Emma may really need her inhalers and no one was doing anything,
"David," I asked, my voice nervous, what would happen, "David, when was the last time Emma used her inhalers? "
I could have predicted the reaction. David was calm but the onlookers were all looking quizzically at me but at the same time, they were waiting for David's response. David turned his eyes on me and, although I could see his eyes wee brimming with tears, he was looking at me with respect and almost love as though, I was the only one in the world who understood. He addressed me directly,
"She's ok, I think, but her inhalers were burned in the house so she is going to need new ones," I smiled feebly at him, on the verge of breaking down. I motioned to the nearest nurse,
"If you can remember what the inhalers were then we can find them for you, tell this nurse"
He nodded and quite suddenly pulled me towards him,
"Please come and see us again, Dr Tao," he whispered imploring me.
I smiled at him, "Please David, call me mum.... Call me Kari." I was still smiling at him when I heard a voice behind me who began to pull me away, away from my darlings. I wondered for the second time in my life, when I would ever see them again.
I heard a door close behind me, "Right Kari," Mike's face was hard but a little confused, "What do you know, how did you know that that kid was asthmatic, Kari? Kari, what's the matter? For Mike could see me clearly now. I was sobbing hysterically, tears rolling down my face. Mike didn't say anything, he just pushed me into the chair next to him and sat down,
"Please Kari," he said, taking hold of my hand, "I want to help, tell me what is the matter."
I looked into those great grey eyes and, still sobbing hysterically, I told him everything,
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I was about three months since I had returned to my home town. I was still badly shaken and missing my parents like hell. I was ringing Tai everyday because I needed to let out the emotions that I was keeping bottled up inside. Tai was great. He is the greatest big brother ever and I know that I can count on him for everything I want. He is the best.
One night I was walking home from the grocers. It was late and I was only about two blocks away from my apartment. I was crossing a street when I was basically run down by a car. I was picking myself up, when the driver got out of his car to help me. I knew him at once. Takeru Takaishi. He and I had grown up together. Of course, once he realised it was me he wanted to go for a drink to catch up on old times. I let him take me. It wasn't that I did not want to, to tell you the truth, I had always fancied TK for a very long time.
Well, we went out and we had a great time. We talked and laughed like old friends. But, that was all that we were, friends. That night, I got a lot off my chest and it made me feel a lot better. I still didn't tell him that my parents were dead. I didn't want his pity, having only just got over it. Over the next few weeks we went out a whole lot. Like I said, it was great. But we never did anything, kiss or further. I didn't know if I wanted him to. For the time being, we were happy being just friends.
But I couldn't keep up the charade for ever; I had to tell him the secret that had been haunting me for so long. So when we were watching a film at home, I told him. I told how I had been orphaned in that terrible plane crash, how brilliant Tai had been and how, all I wanted to do now was forget. I poured my heart out to him in 15 minutes but, at the end of it all, I suddenly felt so alive. A huge burden was lifted from me and I could finally be myself, who I wanted to be and stand tall and proud.
Throughout my story, T.K sat and listened to me. When I had finished and stared at him, wondering what he would say to me, all he could say was, "I'm sorry Kari, sorry for everything." Then he took me in his arms and kissed me warmly. It was slow at first, but then it became more passionate and rough. It was beautiful; I never wanted it to end. But that night it went farther than it should have ever done. So, nine months later, I was in the Tokyo hospital (I didn't want anyone I knew seeing me like that) where I gave birth to David Samuel Takaishi-Kamiya and Emma Rebecca Takaishi- Kamiya. I chose to keep my children because, I would well be a hypocrite after all, I spend my days as a doctor in the children's hospital don't I?
T.K was at the hospital with me. He was smiling so much and I have never seen him look happier. We chose not to get married because, as much as we loved each other, our children were still the result of a one night stand. I am glad we never did.
Three months after I started going back to work, I returned home to find T.K in bed with another woman. He told me it would never happen again, a mistake he said. The next day I came home early from work because of a bad headache to find much the same scene unfolding before my eyes.
So after a lot of talk and nearly two bottles of brandy we decided to separate. We went to the courts to decide who would retain the custody of our children. As I was working late shifts most nights, with never a guarantee of when I would be back and T.K was working from home, the courts ruled that the children were to live with Takeru. I was meant to see them on weekends but, soon after this ruling, I returned to the house to find that they had moved to England with another woman.
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"And I never came after them Mike," I finished, "I never went to find my babies though I have missed them so much, everyday I think of them. And now, and now Mike these children do not even know who I am." I buried my face in his shoulder and sobbed hysterically.
Gingerly Mike patted my arm. "What are we going to do, Kari, what are we going to do?"
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Hope you liked it. Please review, thanks to everyone who reviewed so far. I'll update soon
Boxer-and-dusty xxx
Disclaimer: Don't own any digimon, never have, never will so quit pestering me OK?
Wow, I finally finished it. This chapter is probably PG13 though I am no good at rating stories. Thanks to all of you who have read and reviewed my fics, I love all of you guys. I am slowly getting on with all the chapters that I need to do. Ok, I think I have talked enough, let's get this chapter started..........
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I was paralysed with shock and strangely, fear. For what seemed like an age time stopped. All I could see were those two forms in front of me. I knew them now, for I had know it was them since I had first seen them but so much of me had wanted to deny it. I was almost overcome by tears.
I recognised them now. I can remember the day I gave birth to them. Such pains and suffering during labour but it was all worth it in the end. I can remember holding them in my arms and, for the first time in my life, being truly happy. That's what people told me before, it's a feeling you can't describe, having your first child. Well my first child was twins so the feeling doubled intensely. It was like my heart had split open because of the swelling of pride, love, hope and, well, light.
David had come first. Even in the early hours of his birth we could tell that he looked almost identical to his dad. I say we because well, TK was at the birth with me. To tell you the truth I have never seen him look prouder, of me and the children. We were one big happy family, then. I looked at David now. His face was lined with concern, seeming beyond his years. His entire attention was focused on the small form beside him. Emma hadn't moved at all. When she had been young she had always been very small and rather frail. I can remember that she had asthma as a baby. This piece of news which I had only just remembered came as a shock to me. As a baby, Emma's asthma had been really bad. There had been a few crucial hours soon after her birth when I almost lost my baby, my darling.
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I turned instinctively to David. I no longer had any knowledge of onlookers Emma may really need her inhalers and no one was doing anything,
"David," I asked, my voice nervous, what would happen, "David, when was the last time Emma used her inhalers? "
I could have predicted the reaction. David was calm but the onlookers were all looking quizzically at me but at the same time, they were waiting for David's response. David turned his eyes on me and, although I could see his eyes wee brimming with tears, he was looking at me with respect and almost love as though, I was the only one in the world who understood. He addressed me directly,
"She's ok, I think, but her inhalers were burned in the house so she is going to need new ones," I smiled feebly at him, on the verge of breaking down. I motioned to the nearest nurse,
"If you can remember what the inhalers were then we can find them for you, tell this nurse"
He nodded and quite suddenly pulled me towards him,
"Please come and see us again, Dr Tao," he whispered imploring me.
I smiled at him, "Please David, call me mum.... Call me Kari." I was still smiling at him when I heard a voice behind me who began to pull me away, away from my darlings. I wondered for the second time in my life, when I would ever see them again.
I heard a door close behind me, "Right Kari," Mike's face was hard but a little confused, "What do you know, how did you know that that kid was asthmatic, Kari? Kari, what's the matter? For Mike could see me clearly now. I was sobbing hysterically, tears rolling down my face. Mike didn't say anything, he just pushed me into the chair next to him and sat down,
"Please Kari," he said, taking hold of my hand, "I want to help, tell me what is the matter."
I looked into those great grey eyes and, still sobbing hysterically, I told him everything,
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I was about three months since I had returned to my home town. I was still badly shaken and missing my parents like hell. I was ringing Tai everyday because I needed to let out the emotions that I was keeping bottled up inside. Tai was great. He is the greatest big brother ever and I know that I can count on him for everything I want. He is the best.
One night I was walking home from the grocers. It was late and I was only about two blocks away from my apartment. I was crossing a street when I was basically run down by a car. I was picking myself up, when the driver got out of his car to help me. I knew him at once. Takeru Takaishi. He and I had grown up together. Of course, once he realised it was me he wanted to go for a drink to catch up on old times. I let him take me. It wasn't that I did not want to, to tell you the truth, I had always fancied TK for a very long time.
Well, we went out and we had a great time. We talked and laughed like old friends. But, that was all that we were, friends. That night, I got a lot off my chest and it made me feel a lot better. I still didn't tell him that my parents were dead. I didn't want his pity, having only just got over it. Over the next few weeks we went out a whole lot. Like I said, it was great. But we never did anything, kiss or further. I didn't know if I wanted him to. For the time being, we were happy being just friends.
But I couldn't keep up the charade for ever; I had to tell him the secret that had been haunting me for so long. So when we were watching a film at home, I told him. I told how I had been orphaned in that terrible plane crash, how brilliant Tai had been and how, all I wanted to do now was forget. I poured my heart out to him in 15 minutes but, at the end of it all, I suddenly felt so alive. A huge burden was lifted from me and I could finally be myself, who I wanted to be and stand tall and proud.
Throughout my story, T.K sat and listened to me. When I had finished and stared at him, wondering what he would say to me, all he could say was, "I'm sorry Kari, sorry for everything." Then he took me in his arms and kissed me warmly. It was slow at first, but then it became more passionate and rough. It was beautiful; I never wanted it to end. But that night it went farther than it should have ever done. So, nine months later, I was in the Tokyo hospital (I didn't want anyone I knew seeing me like that) where I gave birth to David Samuel Takaishi-Kamiya and Emma Rebecca Takaishi- Kamiya. I chose to keep my children because, I would well be a hypocrite after all, I spend my days as a doctor in the children's hospital don't I?
T.K was at the hospital with me. He was smiling so much and I have never seen him look happier. We chose not to get married because, as much as we loved each other, our children were still the result of a one night stand. I am glad we never did.
Three months after I started going back to work, I returned home to find T.K in bed with another woman. He told me it would never happen again, a mistake he said. The next day I came home early from work because of a bad headache to find much the same scene unfolding before my eyes.
So after a lot of talk and nearly two bottles of brandy we decided to separate. We went to the courts to decide who would retain the custody of our children. As I was working late shifts most nights, with never a guarantee of when I would be back and T.K was working from home, the courts ruled that the children were to live with Takeru. I was meant to see them on weekends but, soon after this ruling, I returned to the house to find that they had moved to England with another woman.
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"And I never came after them Mike," I finished, "I never went to find my babies though I have missed them so much, everyday I think of them. And now, and now Mike these children do not even know who I am." I buried my face in his shoulder and sobbed hysterically.
Gingerly Mike patted my arm. "What are we going to do, Kari, what are we going to do?"
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Hope you liked it. Please review, thanks to everyone who reviewed so far. I'll update soon
Boxer-and-dusty xxx