And that is the last time I try something like that. What was I thinking? That he would say the same thing back to me? Just like that?
'Yeah right'.
Takuya mentally hit himself as he made his way back home; it was 2.00pm and hadn't been as great as the Saturday he had hoped for. The whole month had lead up to this day; Takuya had been thinking it through for weeks, he knew exactly what to say and how to say it. All that time. Wasted.
He carried on walking alone, and couldn't help but wish someone was there with him. Not just anyone though. The one person he had feelings for.
The one who had rejected him that day.
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He continued to walk…taking no notice of the people he knew around him, keeping his eyes on the ground in front of his dragging feet.
What has that person got that I haven't anyway? Why would he choose them over me? Doesn't he care about How I feel?..
Starting to kick the ground as he walked, Takuya was finding himself getting angrier rather than disappointed.
Takuya finally got to his home and ran straight up the stairs into his room, not even bothering to greet his parents before doing so. He only felt like being alone now that he couldn't have that one person he wanted.
He took off his shoes and red jacket, throwing them on the floor hastily, not caring about the mess it left. The brunette boy didn't seem to care about anything right now.
Letting himself fall back onto his bed, exhausted, Takuya continued to question his admired one's answer.
…………………..
He just must have known about me before them, my feelings. Would he ignore me like that? Why?….
…who would he be with right now anyway?…a girl from school?…No, not him. I can't see him with a girl…but maybe I'm wrong.
I don't understand…any of this.
He turned over, resting on his side while staring out the window, many confused thoughts still plaguing his mind. Not knowing what to do…should he ignore his desires?….try again?…improve himself for them?
Takuya forced his eyes shut, deciding he would try again, if only it weren't for someone being in the way. He wouldn't want to force his love into something he didn't want…not when he already had someone he cared for.
But I need him so badly…
Takuya sighed.
Why do these things have to be so difficult? Why can I never get what I want?
Sitting up, he glanced over at a photo on his desk…
Why did he have to choose someone else?...When he knew. It's like he's trying to hurt me on purpose…
Suddenly Takuya felt the need to cry…
'Kouji….'
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Just then….his cell phone rang. Takuya jumped to pick it up from atop of his desk, looking to see who was calling.
'K…Kouji'??
He didn't know what to do.
Should I answer him?….No. I can't think. What would I say to him? ……. Takuya sat still, holding the ringing phone in his right hand, shaking slightly before throwing it across the other side of the bed.
Staring at it nervously until the ringing had finally stopped.
He felt bad as Kouji may have wanted to apologize….or give him a chance. But couldn't take the risk.
'I just can't talk to him right now…not when I'm like this. He would probably think it's all some kind of joke I was pulling on him….'
The boy lay back down on the bed and sighed again, his arm covering his eyes from the sun…
Now what?
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*beep*
'No…He's not answering' The long haired boy put his cell phone back into his pocket and turned around to speak again..
'I guess he took it pretty bad….I never thought he really meant it like that though.' Kouji lowered his head in thought before a hand reached out to pull his face back up into eye contact.
'What exactly did you tell him?' A distrustful look crawled over the other boys face.
Kouji stepped closer to the slightly taller person in front of him. Reaching up to hold onto his shoulders.
'No. It's not like that. I didn't tell him anything about you…just, that I have someone. He doesn't know it's you, don't go thinking it.'
'good' Kouichi smiled as he wrapped his arms around kouji's back and pulled him into a kiss.
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Authors rant, er…notes. - WELL. THAT….that! Is my first ever try at fanfiction. Like. Ever. O.o
Do tell me what you think..^.^ Even if it is bad..X3; reviews are always good…epecially as I'm a beginner at writin' ^^; and never was any good at school.
Sorry for the short chaptah thou….I'll try and get another done in the next couple days for you guys ^-^
I do hope this story is gonna go somewhere..^^;
Kat~