" I don't want to hear it!"
"But daddy listen to me!"
"Anomie I said shut UP!"
"But daddy I-"
Inuyasha turned away from his daughter and crossed his arms. Anomie, knowing it was no use, stopped arguing and looked down sadly. He didn't even hear her out. All she said was that Kikyo was lying to her and he didn't want to hear another word of it.
"Mommy would have listened." She whispered sadly. "She always listens to me."
Inuyasha had enough. With a swift turn and grab he held his daughter by the front of her kimono.
"Listen to me Anomie. Your mother doesn't care if you live or die. She may be kind and warm on the outside but she really doesn't care for your well being. In time, she'll forget about her obligations to you and wander away from you. So just forget about it." He didn't yell or sound angry when he said that. It was said with a different emotion that Anomie had understood right away.
Anomie stared at her father with wide teary eyes. She wasn't very perceptive at her age but she knew that by her father's tone something horrible had happened to him. Tears slipped down her pink cheeks and onto the lush grass. Both for sympathy and pain. She didn't know what pain her father was feeling but it must of felt similar to the way she felt now.
Hurt.
"What did she do to you?" Anomie asked, her voice barely a whisper. "What did she do to make you so mad?"
Inuyasha looked at her, crying. Now he felt guilty. But how could he make her understand? He let go of the front of her kimono and scooped her up in his arms. He carried her over to a willow tree and sat beneath it. Cradling her in his arms he rested his chin atop her head and hushed her.
" Your mother didn't make me mad," he said in an unusual calm voice. "It's just that......." he sighed. How could he explain it to his child if he couldn't even explain it to himself? He never hated Kagome. She had raised his child with love and forgiven him when he had abandoned her. Her heart could never feel hatred towards anyone. Even for him. Deep down she cared for him even after everything he had ever said and done to her.
"I'm scared," he finally confided. "I want to raise you and love you. I want to be the father I never had. But... what if I'm bad at it? What if I do something wrong and something happens? Could I ever handle such a responsibility of raising another life?" he said with a soft voice. Anomie laid her head against his chest and listened to his words and heartbeat at the same time.
" And don't think that I never listen to you. I do. It's just that your givin' me a hard time and I just want you to relax. Stop complaining all the time, Anomie. It makes me feel as if I've wronged you somehow. And I get angry to feel that I'm failing you and that I'm not providing you with a life that you don't have to complain about. I love Kikyo but you are always number one in my heart. How could you not? You're my one and only child and I'm proud." He said.
He realized then that she was no longer crying. In-fact she had fallen asleep in his strong and protecting grip. His heartbeat calmed her and his soft voice lulled her. Slowly he smiled and closed his eyes, joining his daughter in a peaceful slumber.
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"I am so lost." Kagome muttered as she walked through the forest. Not for the first time, she wished more than ever that she could have senses like her daughter or Inuyasha. And not for the first time her wish wasn't granted.
Sighing loudly she continued through the forest blindly walking in any direction. It was strange. Her stomach was tied up in knots and she had goose bumps all over her skin. It was like she was scared but she saw or felt nothing to be afraid of.
Suddenly her legs gave way and she dropped to the floor. Her stomach seared in sudden and unbearable pain. She wrapped her arms around her torso and bowed her head, trying to control it. Until it was too much to handle and she gave an ear-splitting scream.
She was dreaming again. She was exactly where she was now, but the corners of her vision were a hazy pink. Then with amazing speed and skill she had never possessed, Kagome moved through the forest with amazing grace.
Within minutes (which would have taken her hours is she had walked) Kagome had reached the top of a hill that overlooked a vast field of wildflowers. Near the edge of the field was a large house. Not as huge as a mansion but big enough for a family to live in. Kagome turned her head to the side and suddenly the sky darkened. She was suddenly at the bottom of the hill and standing a few feet away from Inuyasha
In his hands was Anomie's limp body.
Inuyasha was smiling again. In-fact he was laughing. But as he did, tears were running down his cheeks.
"You are going to die." He said in a stone cold voice. His laughing grew more hysterical as the tears fell more steadily. He threw his head back and laughed and laughed and laughed.
Anomie stirred ever so slightly. She was still alive this time, yet Kagome could feel the life leaving her body. Inuyasha looked down at his daughter, his face serious and kissed her forehead. His tears fell on her cheeks and he smiled at her.
"Don't worry, princess. I'll get rid of this so called mother." He said. He set the girl down and watched as her breath stopped.
Once more she had died.
Inuyasha turned towards Kagome. "I trusted you," he said angrily. "I swear I'll kill you for this."
He charged at her, his claws raised. They were covered in blood.
He was just about to strike her when suddenly a strong force slammed into her back, so hard her spine vibrated. She closed her eyes and opened them again only to find that she was back were she had started.
The sky was blue again, Inuyasha and Anomie were no where to be seen and Sesshomaru was leaning on top of her, staring at her with crimson colored eyes that burned with fury. He was pissed more than ever.
"I'm tired of you," he growled out. "You have been nothing but a mere nuisance since the time I met you."
She struggled under his iron grip, trying to get free. Now she knew something was wrong. She needed to find her daughter and FAST!
"LET ME GO!" she yelled.
Sesshomaru raised his hand and gave her an almost bone shattering slap to the face. (Almost!) Her Jaw was already turning red. "For once in your pathetic life just remain silent." He growled. His heart was driving him crazy. While his mind shouted to end the girl right here and now, his heart ordered him to apologize and to listen to her. She needed him and he mustn't kill her. There were voices in his head telling him a million things to do at once.
"Just be silent!" he yelled. His head was pounding ever since the girl's scream had shattered her spell over his mansion. Suddenly his head was quiet except for one loud voice that rang out. 'KILL HER!' it demanded. Sesshomaru growled and raised his claw. He would end it now! Pinning her more forcefully to the ground he growled and.....
"But daddy listen to me!"
"Anomie I said shut UP!"
"But daddy I-"
Inuyasha turned away from his daughter and crossed his arms. Anomie, knowing it was no use, stopped arguing and looked down sadly. He didn't even hear her out. All she said was that Kikyo was lying to her and he didn't want to hear another word of it.
"Mommy would have listened." She whispered sadly. "She always listens to me."
Inuyasha had enough. With a swift turn and grab he held his daughter by the front of her kimono.
"Listen to me Anomie. Your mother doesn't care if you live or die. She may be kind and warm on the outside but she really doesn't care for your well being. In time, she'll forget about her obligations to you and wander away from you. So just forget about it." He didn't yell or sound angry when he said that. It was said with a different emotion that Anomie had understood right away.
Anomie stared at her father with wide teary eyes. She wasn't very perceptive at her age but she knew that by her father's tone something horrible had happened to him. Tears slipped down her pink cheeks and onto the lush grass. Both for sympathy and pain. She didn't know what pain her father was feeling but it must of felt similar to the way she felt now.
Hurt.
"What did she do to you?" Anomie asked, her voice barely a whisper. "What did she do to make you so mad?"
Inuyasha looked at her, crying. Now he felt guilty. But how could he make her understand? He let go of the front of her kimono and scooped her up in his arms. He carried her over to a willow tree and sat beneath it. Cradling her in his arms he rested his chin atop her head and hushed her.
" Your mother didn't make me mad," he said in an unusual calm voice. "It's just that......." he sighed. How could he explain it to his child if he couldn't even explain it to himself? He never hated Kagome. She had raised his child with love and forgiven him when he had abandoned her. Her heart could never feel hatred towards anyone. Even for him. Deep down she cared for him even after everything he had ever said and done to her.
"I'm scared," he finally confided. "I want to raise you and love you. I want to be the father I never had. But... what if I'm bad at it? What if I do something wrong and something happens? Could I ever handle such a responsibility of raising another life?" he said with a soft voice. Anomie laid her head against his chest and listened to his words and heartbeat at the same time.
" And don't think that I never listen to you. I do. It's just that your givin' me a hard time and I just want you to relax. Stop complaining all the time, Anomie. It makes me feel as if I've wronged you somehow. And I get angry to feel that I'm failing you and that I'm not providing you with a life that you don't have to complain about. I love Kikyo but you are always number one in my heart. How could you not? You're my one and only child and I'm proud." He said.
He realized then that she was no longer crying. In-fact she had fallen asleep in his strong and protecting grip. His heartbeat calmed her and his soft voice lulled her. Slowly he smiled and closed his eyes, joining his daughter in a peaceful slumber.
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"I am so lost." Kagome muttered as she walked through the forest. Not for the first time, she wished more than ever that she could have senses like her daughter or Inuyasha. And not for the first time her wish wasn't granted.
Sighing loudly she continued through the forest blindly walking in any direction. It was strange. Her stomach was tied up in knots and she had goose bumps all over her skin. It was like she was scared but she saw or felt nothing to be afraid of.
Suddenly her legs gave way and she dropped to the floor. Her stomach seared in sudden and unbearable pain. She wrapped her arms around her torso and bowed her head, trying to control it. Until it was too much to handle and she gave an ear-splitting scream.
She was dreaming again. She was exactly where she was now, but the corners of her vision were a hazy pink. Then with amazing speed and skill she had never possessed, Kagome moved through the forest with amazing grace.
Within minutes (which would have taken her hours is she had walked) Kagome had reached the top of a hill that overlooked a vast field of wildflowers. Near the edge of the field was a large house. Not as huge as a mansion but big enough for a family to live in. Kagome turned her head to the side and suddenly the sky darkened. She was suddenly at the bottom of the hill and standing a few feet away from Inuyasha
In his hands was Anomie's limp body.
Inuyasha was smiling again. In-fact he was laughing. But as he did, tears were running down his cheeks.
"You are going to die." He said in a stone cold voice. His laughing grew more hysterical as the tears fell more steadily. He threw his head back and laughed and laughed and laughed.
Anomie stirred ever so slightly. She was still alive this time, yet Kagome could feel the life leaving her body. Inuyasha looked down at his daughter, his face serious and kissed her forehead. His tears fell on her cheeks and he smiled at her.
"Don't worry, princess. I'll get rid of this so called mother." He said. He set the girl down and watched as her breath stopped.
Once more she had died.
Inuyasha turned towards Kagome. "I trusted you," he said angrily. "I swear I'll kill you for this."
He charged at her, his claws raised. They were covered in blood.
He was just about to strike her when suddenly a strong force slammed into her back, so hard her spine vibrated. She closed her eyes and opened them again only to find that she was back were she had started.
The sky was blue again, Inuyasha and Anomie were no where to be seen and Sesshomaru was leaning on top of her, staring at her with crimson colored eyes that burned with fury. He was pissed more than ever.
"I'm tired of you," he growled out. "You have been nothing but a mere nuisance since the time I met you."
She struggled under his iron grip, trying to get free. Now she knew something was wrong. She needed to find her daughter and FAST!
"LET ME GO!" she yelled.
Sesshomaru raised his hand and gave her an almost bone shattering slap to the face. (Almost!) Her Jaw was already turning red. "For once in your pathetic life just remain silent." He growled. His heart was driving him crazy. While his mind shouted to end the girl right here and now, his heart ordered him to apologize and to listen to her. She needed him and he mustn't kill her. There were voices in his head telling him a million things to do at once.
"Just be silent!" he yelled. His head was pounding ever since the girl's scream had shattered her spell over his mansion. Suddenly his head was quiet except for one loud voice that rang out. 'KILL HER!' it demanded. Sesshomaru growled and raised his claw. He would end it now! Pinning her more forcefully to the ground he growled and.....