The Unforgivables
"Harry it's time to get up." Came Dumbledore's voice. Harry moaned a couple times before he opened his eyes to see Dumbledore bending over him.
"How much time do I have till Moody's class?" Harry yawned.
"About a half hour. Hungry?"
"Yea." And with that Dumbledore conjured up two chocolate chip waffles, and some orange juice. "Thanks."
"Well I know that's what you kids eat. Your owl came by sometime after you fell asleep, I gave him a treat and then he went back to the owlry."
"Is it a letter from Lupin?" Harry wondered.
"It's a letter, but I didn't read who it was from." Dumbledore told him.
"Oh okay."
"How are you feeling Harry?" Dumbledore wondered.
"Well I was wondering, what's beyond the veil Professor?"
"Well to tell you the truth I don't know, all I know is what choices wizards have when they pass through the veil. Why do you ask?"
"When I saw Sirius last night, I followed him and we came to the veil. He brought me beyond it and that's when I saw all of those memories."
"Well maybe that's what is beyond the veil, not death Harry, but living experiences. Sirius wanted you to see the memories you did. They might come to use later in life."
"So you're saying that Sirius is now a part of me too? He can control my dreams and what I see?"
"It seems when it is important for you to know something, he is there with you, yes."
"So now I have two wizards controlling some of my thoughts?"
"Well soon you won't have Voldemort with you Harry."
"Has anyone gone beyond the veil before?"
"Not that I know of."
"No one even went to look for Sirius's body beyond the veil? How do they know he's really dead then, he could be just on the other side waiting for someone to come save him!"
"The veil is the best place for a dead body to be, for there it is said that they can become a part of any living wizard they want and some of their powers will be given to the wizard they choose to be with. I see some of Sirius's powers in you, so that is how I know that he really has passed."
"Why did he come to me? Why didn't he go and live in death with my father?"
"It seems that Sirius feels he should still protect you even in death. That is why the Boggart may have also turned into Sirius, for he was able to see how miserable you were and wanted to give you a little of himself. His spirit may have been in that Boggart when you hugged him, that's why he smelt like you said he did."
"So I have some of Sirius's powers within me now? Is that why I've been doing so good so fast in Occlumency?"
"Yes Harry that could be the reason, but you have great powers yourself."
"I do feel Sirius with me a lot, in my dreams mainly. Has he seen everything I have?"
"Well since he is now a part of you his feelings and thoughts have merged with yours."
"How long is he with me for?"
"Well that's the thing with the veil, the one who dies beyond it can only choose to be with one wizard, but once the wizard he chose to be with no longer needs the wizards help, the wizard can move onto the death world. Once the wizard moves on away to the death world he cannot return to the wizard he chose to be with. It must have been hard for Sirius to not go to be with James again, but he probably feels sworn into protecting you. He wants to protect you."
"Sir, how can Sirius protect me if he's only a part of my thoughts?"
"Being a part of your thoughts enables you to make choices based on higher wisdom. Also having some of Sirius's powers gives you higher strength. Now Harry I feel that you have asked enough questions for one day."
"Oh, sorry. Well, just one more, what did Snape say when you told him I wasn't going to be going to his class today?"
"Hey didn't seem to mind too much, although he looked suspicious about something. Is there something you wish to tell me Harry?" Should I tell Dumbledore about Snape? I'm risking being brought to Voldemort when I am not ready to face him. Sirius what should I do? Harry then felt the urge to keep what Snape is to himself, not yet Harry heard a voice whisper.
"No, nothing. Can I read my letter now?"
"Well Harry if you feel there is nothing to tell me then go right ahead, the letter is on the table. Once you've read it you should go down to your next class. I'll be in my office."
"Bye Dumbledore, and thanks."
"Help will always be given to those who ask for it." Harry looked down at his feet and then smiled up at Dumbledore before reaching onto the table to retrieve his letter. Dumbledore walked up to his office as Harry unrolled the parchment. The letter was surely from Lupin.
Harry,
I hope that you are doing better now. I'm sorry I'm not there with you right now, things at the order are getting hectic so sorry this letter is taking so long to get to you. Meet me in the Gryffindor common room at one o'clock on Friday.
Hope you are doing well. I'll talk to you soon.
Lupin
Harry then rolled the letter back up, instead of writing back to Lupin, since he was going to talk to him tonight. Harry felt that if he should tell anyone about Snape now, it would be to tell Lupin. Hopefully Lupin will know what to do. Harry thought. Harry was also going to tell him about the past night. I wonder what he has to tell me. Harry wondered.
Then Harry thought of the song his mother sang to him when he was a baby as he made his way to the Gryffindor tower to get his books.
Anytime you feel
Like you just can't hold on
Just hold onto my love
And I'll help you be strong
Anytime you need love baby I'm on your side
Just let me be the one that could make it all right
Anytime you need love baby your in my heart
Baby I could make it all right
Harry then wondered if this song meant anything or if she was just singing. It's just a song Harry, don't take everything so literal. Harry thought to himself. A vivid picture of Harry's mother shined in front of his eyes. She's so beautiful Harry smiled. Then Harry thought of the baby he saw in the beginning of the memories and after. There was no scar on his forehead in the beginning; Harry actually lived for some time without a cursed scar. Sirius must have been too upset to notice my scar the night that he rescued me. It's weird to think that I actually had parents, and I was actually alive with them, they used to hug me, and talk with me. I knew Sirius many years ago, and if I only remembered, then I could have helped him out of Azkaban many years ago; I could have lived with him.
Harry stop thinking like this came another voice in Harry's mind.
I can't help it, I just want to be with my parents again, and see what my life would have been like with them, and having a constant Godfather by my side.
Harry stop making yourself feel like this, just live life as it was brought to you. It felt as though Harry was having a fight with himself. Harry tried to stop thinking like this, and instead Harry cleared his mind as though he were in an Occlumency lesson. Harry then made his way to his dormitory and grabbed his books, everyone else was in Potions right now, except Ron who Harry figured was in the Great Hall eating until Defense Against the Dark Arts class was going to start. Today they were to be doing Unforgivables. Great more for me to remember my parents. Harry thought to himself as he put on clean robes. Harry then grabbed his books and headed for Moody's classroom. On the way he caught Jenna and Hannah who were also on their way to his class.
"Oh hey Harry, this is Hannah, Hannah this is—"
"Who could not know Harry Potter Jen? Hey Harry."
"Hey guys, huh, ready for those Unforgivable curses today? They take a lot out of you."
"You would know." Said Jenna remembering what Moody said about Harry being the only one who survived the Avada Kedavra spell.
"Yeah, well we also did do them in fourth year." Harry told her.
"Yeah and Harry you were the only one who actually was able to fight the Crusatious Curse." Hannah reminded Harry.
"Yeah…"
"Harry is there anything that you can't do I mean honestly!" Jenna laughed.
"Err… yea loads of things." Harry responded.
"Oh yea like what?" Hannah wanted to know.
"I can never do my homework right, I have teachers constantly following me, well now they always have to stay in the hallways, but still. I can't defeat Voldemort. (Both Jenna and Hannah flinched), and I can't do any family related things." Harry told them.
"How come you can't do any family—" Hannah started but Jenna nudged her really hard in the stomach to make her shutup.
"What Hannah means to say is wow I never knew someone so famous couldn't do things. Didn't you Hannah." Jenna saved.
"Uh yeah." Said Hannah rubbing her stomach. Then Hannah whispered softly to Jenna, "I know he doesn't have parents, but doesn't he have other family?"
"Well actually, my other family pretends I don't exist when I'm home for the summer, and they don't ever let me do my "magical" homework. They never allow me to ask about my parents." Harry told them since he overheard Hannah.
"Oh that's horrible!" Hannah screamed. "What about your Christmas and Easter holidays?"
"I don't go back there are you kidding? I wish I could just live here. I hate going back to them. I don't get any presents anyways, unless you can call a toothpick a gift." Harry told them.
"Harry you can't be serious, that's what presents you get for Christmas and Easter! What about your birthday?"
"Nothing, well on my third year they brought home Aunt Marge who says nothing but ways to fix me up to be more like my cousin Dudley. She insulted me so much, about my parents that I blew her up by accident and I left. I was so surprised that I wasn't expelled." Harry told the girls. He didn't know why he was telling two people he barley knew about his background, but they seemed interested enough, so Harry just continued to tell them about some of the things the Dursley's do to him. The girls would sigh here and there until they were almost at Moody's classroom.
"Wow Harry, when my parents died, and I was given to another family, they treated me with so much love, I can't believe the childhood that you had to grow up with! Here must be like heaven to you!" Jenna explained.
"Oh believe me it is. I always count down the days till I get to come back, where are you living now that your adopted parents passed?" Harry asked Jenna kindly.
"I don't know, another family I s'pose. But no one has come to this school to check me out all year so I have no hope to get another family so far. Plus, who's going to want to adopt someone who's gotten two sets of parents pass, I mean they will think that they are next, like I'm cursed or something." Jenna responded.
"Well I would invite you to live with the Dursley's and me, but they would hate having another magical folk in their house, and I don't think you'd really want to live there anyways, I mean I can't wait till I get to move out. I almost did too, I was going to live with my – my godfather." Harry finished quietly.
"Is he what the Boggart turned into your first time?" Hannah wondered.
"Yeah…" Harry now wished he never brought up this subject. Jenna must have noticed because she put her hand on Harry's shoulder and said,
"Well those Unforgivables! Man I hope we get more chocolate for doing this!" Harry tried to crack a smile at this and Hannah started to laugh,
"I know! I love chocolate!" The three of them finally arrived at Moody's classroom and saw him standing in the hallway,
"Dumbledore wants me to now stand outside this dam classroom until my whole class arrives, says that's what other teachers are doin." Moody grunted as the three of them passed him and went into the classroom to their seats.
"Sorry about Hannah, she's never lost anyone in her family before. I know how hard it is to talk about it. I don't have Godparents, you're lucky. Do you know who your Godmother is?" Jenna told Harry as they went and sat in their own seats. It now just clicked in Harry's mind, the reason that McGonagall was in the memory last night was because she is his Godmother! I can't believe she never told me. Harry thought.
"Yea, I actually just found out last night. You know Professor McGonagall, yea, she's my Godmother." Harry told Jenna.
"Really? Wow I would have never guessed. How come you just found out if you've been going to this school for what six years now?"
"Well I found out from a dream I had, I don't know why she never told me. I think I have Transfiguration this afternoon, I'm going to ask her about it then." Harry told Jenna.
"Harry, why do you tell me all of this? I mean, you just barley met me, and you already tell me so many personal things."
"Because you've been through much that I have. It's nice to talk to someone that knows how it feels like, and you opened up to me. You tell me much about your personal life also." Harry responded.
"I feel the same way. Harry, I know this is going to sound weird, but I think we were supposed to meet, like, I have these feelings, and, I dunno, like, maybe I came to this school because we were supposed to meet, you know, to like, you know…" Harry looked at her and knew what she was trying to say.
"Like we were meant?"
"Yeah, so you see, that's why I want to just hang out just you and me at Hogsmead next week, you know, test out fate, like, you know." Harry has never seen Jenna act this nervous before.
"Yeah, well its just that, I don't know if I should be telling you this, but my friend Ron, he also has a fling for ya, and well, I don't know, he really needs someone and I don't want him to feel like I'm stealing you away from him or anything."
"But you're not, I mean I never talk to that kid… oh I know! Try to get him to like Hannah. I'll try to get Hannah to like Ron, so we could like set them up you know." Jenna said.
"Not a bad idea, but we only have a week and a half to do this. We have to work fast. But Jenna, why me? I mean you have all of those other guys all over you."
"Because you strike out to me the most. And something about you. And your eyes! I love your eyes." Harry now stared down embarrassed, they are my mum's eyes, Harry thought to himself, thanks mum. "Oh but don't let me forget your smile… alright I'll shutup now."
"Ha, no please continue." Harry laughed jokingly.
"The rest I guess you are just going to have to figure out for yourself." Jenna then laughed. Just as she did more of the class started to pile in. Harry saw Ron enter as he nervously made his way up to Harry.
"Harry where were you last night?" Ron asked kind of squeakily.
"My Occlumency lessons dragged a long time, Ron, my parents, Voldemort, Sirius, Minerva, I have so much to tell you." Harry told Ron, knowing that Jenna was probably listening in.
"Harry what?!"
"I can't tell you now Ron, class is about to start, I'll tell you at lunch." Harry tried to explain.
"Ok fine." Ron said kind of madly, as he made his way to his table with Hermione.
"I'll tell you at Hogsmead." Harry turned to Jenna who looked a little concerned.
"You don't have to."
"But I want to." Harry explained to her. She then smiled which struck Harry. That is one of the things that he loved about Jenna- her smile.
"Alright, ready to be tormented by the Unforgivables? Well too bad, you need to experience the pain to fight it. Potter get up here." Moody growled as he clunked his way to the front of the classroom.
"He always makes you do everything first." Jenna whispered to Harry as he got up and made his way to the front of the classroom. Harry nodded his head back to her.
"I hear that my imposter Moody already showed you what these curses look like by demonstrating on spiders, so I'm going to start right away. First curse, the Imperious Curse, I want to see you fight it Potter. Imperio!" Harry then jerked into a new view.
"Jump on the desk." He heard a voice say.
"NO!" Harry yelled and jerked himself backwards and broke out of the curse.
"Harry how were you able to fight it so fast? No one's that good unless—"
"He's done it to me before." Harry muttered.
"Him? You mean Voldemort?" The whole class flinched at his name.
"Yes. Fourth year, graveyard." Harry muttered again so low so he hoped that only Moody would hear him.
"Well then you have first hand experience on this. Did he do the Imperious Curse also?"
"Yes, many times." Harry muttered.
"Then mine should be no problem to bear. Crucio!" This curse from Moody didn't harm Harry as much as Voldemort's did, although it still hurt. He fell himself fall to the ground and start twitching. He then tried to get himself up and Moody stopped leaving Harry with a splitting headache.
"Very good Potter. Tell me, how much does Voldemort's curse affect you more to mine?" Moody asked. Then a voice sounded in Harry's mind.
"Come on Harry, let's show him how mine works." Did the class hear Voldemort's voice?
"NO!" Harry shouted.
"No what Harry?" Moody grunted.
"Moody, he's hear, he's listening he's—" Harry tried to warn Moody in a soft voice so that only he could hear Harry speak. But as Harry tried to warn Moody that Voldemort was about to curse him through his scar, and as Harry tried to use his Occlumency lessons to block his mind, Voldemort's Imperious Curse hit him.
Harry then felt pain beyond anything yet, his head was bursting with fire and he felt his scar burn with more pain then he has ever experienced. He felt the black ooze splitting out of it; he felt his eyes rolling into his head.
"This is what you get Harry for trying to take Occlumency lessons to rid of me! You can never get rid of me Harry, for I am now a part of you. I can control you. I am reading your mind and thoughts right now; as a matter of fact I think I'm speaking out loud for you. Hello Harry's class, see what happens to people who try to surpass me! Feel and breathe pain Harry. I saw those memories of your parents yesterday; don't you love what I did to them? Dead. I have much more power than I ever had in the past, all because of you, Sirius can't help you, I've found a way to block out his powers from you, and now I found a new way to communicate to you, which is going to take more than mastering Occlumency to get rid of. Why I don't think you can get rid of me. Oh Harry are you seeing a light? Don't worry you'll be with your filthy Mudblood mother and her songs soon Harry." Voldemort's voice burned through Harry's ears. Harry was surely dying now. He could feel it. There was no way to fight it.
"Oh and Harry's class, this is what a real Unforgivable Curse looks like, not what this powerless Moody is teaching you, nothing he teaches you can prepare you to face me! THE MOST POWERFUL SORCERER IN THE WORLD! Am I right Harry?" Shutup Harry thought. Harry couldn't fight Voldemort's powers anymore, he can't use anything from Occlumency, and he can't be saved anymore by anyone. He was dying. He couldn't see anything around him. It was all blurring together. "Why Harry don't you wonder why all this bad stuff happens to you in Defense Against the Dark Arts? Well it is now that I am always with you, it is now that I always make bad thing's happen to you. I don't need Serveus to bring you to me, for I don't even need to be with you to hurt you." Voldemort laughed. Harry shuddered with so much pain, why aren't I dying? Why can't he just kill me?
"Harry I'm not going to kill you now don't worry, I want to see your face as you die, I want to see and feel your pain." The black ooze erupting from Harry's scar was exploding all over his face and burning his skin. Then why don't you stop!
"Oh Harry where is the fun in stopping when you are in so much pain? I like to see you feeling what I had to for many years. It's not fun is it? See what you did to me! But now I'm back Harry. You can't run forever, actually, you can't run at all for I know where you are at all times." Voldemort laughed again, and then lifted the Curse from Harry. It didn't matter that the curse was lifted for Harry still felt the pain and still couldn't stop shuddering. This is worse than death. Harry thought. He just lay there seeing only the back of his head, for his eyes weren't rolling back into place. Harry was then in so much pain that he fainted.
When he awoke, he wasn't in the hospital; instead he was laying on the ground still with the whole class standing over him.
"Where's Moody." Harry fought out of his mouth.
"Harry! You're all right! Moody went to go get help. Harry we were so scared for you." Came a soft voice.
"We heard You-Know-Who's voice, we heard him Harry." Came another voice sounding as though it were in terrible pain just from hearing the Dark Lord's voice.
"Harry, how do you live with him, he's so terrible." Came another voice sounding on the verge of tears.
"Everyone stop crowding around him! Give him space!" Came an angry Hermione. Harry couldn't see anyone's face; all he could see was a blur of colors. Harry wanted to go back to the Order now; he wanted to be with Lupin. Lupin! I have to meet with him tonight. Harry thought. Harry get up, you can't see him if you're like this, get up! Harry tried to get himself up, but he couldn't move. He could feel the black ooze trickle down his face. He felt his body so weak and unable to move. Harry had a splitting headache. Maybe I shouldn't take this class anymore, most of the time I come, something bad always happens.
Then another voice sounded in Harry's head. Harry, I'm sorry I was unable to protect you, I continue to fail you Harry. Tell Dumbledore about Snape now. Harry I never knew all of this you have to go through, hold on, and don't quit this class! Stay strong.
Sirius I can't! It's too much, how can I beat him if he keeps getting more and more powerful? How can I beat him in person if I can't even fight him off of my mind?
Then Harry heard someone humming the song his mother used to when he was a baby. He felt someone dabbing off something off of his face – the black ooze. Mum? Harry wondered, as he tried to open his eyes to get a look at the woman who was dabbing his head. All he could see was a blur. Harry felt his body being lifted and brought somewhere. He knew where he was going, the hospital wing. But when Harry landed again, he felt something different about this hospital bed. Harry tried to open his eyes and saw red, am I in Dumbledore's office on his couch? Harry wondered. Harry felt a hand touch his shoulder. This was a strong hand. Lupin? Harry wondered. Harry was in so much confusion. Did this all really happen to me? Harry tried to open his eyes again, but once again blurriness.
"Dumbledore Harry is no longer safe anywhere. Voldemort was talkin' to him. I heard him god dam'it. I try to teach em all somethin' and Voldemort always affects Harry in some way. Harry can't be saved by anyone." Moody grunted. "Voldemort said that Occlumency lessons wouldn't help fight him off at all. There is no way to help Harry fight him off."
"Headmaster what should we do?" Asked Minerva.
"We must put a charm on Harry, we have no other choice. The charm will have to last out until we find another way to fight off Voldemort." Dumbledore responded.
"Harry's been through so much Dumbledore, I saw how he suffered in the summer. Can't we put a long lasting cheery charm on him?" Came Lupin's voice.
"If we did, what would it do? Make Harry live in a fake world? We need to prepare him for the worst, and putting a cheery charm on him isn't going to make him any stronger." Dumbledore answered. Harry heard the woman humming the song again.
"Mum?" Harry croaked out. The room went silent. Harry could feel all of the people in the room's eyes' looking at him. Harry your mother isn't there what are you talking about! She will never be there. Harry thought to himself.
"Dumbledore, look at him suffering." Said Lupin sadly. "He hears his parents voices you know, he told me. When he said he heard James, I-I, and now Sirius! I can't believe how Harry's holding on, but Dumbledore, I don't know how much more this poor boy can take."
"Lupin—" Dumbledore started.
"No Headmaster, I agree with Lupin, I think Harry needs a break, ever since he came into our world he has continued to gain more and more pain." Minerva said.
"Godmother." Harry croaked trying to tell McGonagall that he knew, but Harry was too weak to say much.
"What?" Minerva asked Harry. But then she paused and thought over what he said. "Oh Harry I—"
"Lied." Harry finished softly for her. "Why?"
"I didn't want others to think I treated you with favor because I was your Godmother. Not only that I didn't want you to take advantage of my class. And I was going to tell you when you found Sirius, but you were too happy with him, so I decided to wait, when he passed and I saw how miserable you were, and I decided not to tell you because I don't want you to be like that if I died." Minerva tried to explain.
"Stop treating me like a little boy, I can handle things. Just leave me alone." Harry breathed out. He felt so betrayed. He just wanted to be with someone who never lied to him. Harry wanted to be free.
"Harry, how'd you find out?" Minerva asked.
"Sirius told me." Harry said weakly. Harry was slowly gaining strength, although his vision was still blurry.
"How could Sirius have—"?
"Sirius is a part of Harry, from passing beyond the veil, the wizard he chose to be with is Harry. He's been showing him clips from his babyhood." Dumbledore explained.
"Oh God." Lupin said sadly. He then tightened the grip he had on Harry's shoulder. "I lost everyone from my childhood, first James and Lily, then Peter (like I care now), and Sirius. The only thing I have left of the ones I cared for are all in Harry. So what are we going to do about him and Voldemort?"
"Minerva, get Professor Flitwick, we are going to perform a really dangerous, but entirely helpful charm. Madam Pompfy put Harry to sleep for we cannot risk Voldemort knowing which charm we used." Dumbledore instructed. Everyone went off to do as Dumbledore had asked them to.
"Don't worry Harry, this will be over before you know it." Came Lupin's calm voice as Harry's eyelids were becoming heavier and heavier.
Harry saw black upon black again. This time there was no sign of Sirius. Harry took one step forward and was put into a place of burning houses again.
This place looks familiar. Harry thought as he saw Hermione, Fred, George, Ginny, Ron, and a group of others running toward him.
"Harry we got to get out of here." Hermione screamed as she grabbed Harry by his shirt and made him follow.
"Help us Harry." Came Kate's voice. Why does this dream keep repeating itself? Every time I see it, it goes more in detail. Harry thought. He then turned around to go help the order.
"Harry don't go we need you, I need you." Came Hermione's voice as Harry teared himself from her grasp and ran in the opposite direction. He heard a woman's scream and laughing. Harry ran faster now. Got to save Mrs. Weasly. Harry thought. He was approaching the sounds of spells faster now. Then he heard the screech of the animal that he's heard many times before. It landed in front of Harry and blocked him from getting any further. The creature was a dead night black with big fang teeth. It was at least ten feet tall and had huge bat-like wings. It had the head of one of the three-headed dogs, and the body of a standing dragon. Its tail was long, black and horned with black spikes. Its screech almost blew out Harry's eardrums as it tried to attack him.
Harry jumped back from its sharp teeth. Harry felt around his clothing for his wand. When he found it he shot out a curse right through the center of the beast. The beast moaned and made its way for another bite of Harry. Harry dodged it and again shot out another curse at the animal. The animal started to shrink into a human-like form, who is this beast? Harry wondered. Just as the beast was halfway to human form, it became blurry in Harry's vision and Harry's scar started to sear with pain again. He saw the flames around him everywhere as he screamed a deathening scream…
"Harry wake up, do you feel any different?" Came Dumbledore's voice.
"Uhh…" Harry groaned wanting to know who that creature was.
"Does your head still sear with pain?" Dumbledore asked Harry.
"I feel like a new man! Hahaha—"
"No Harry this is important, do you feel any other power present with you?"
"Not at the moment ya loony. HAHAHA"
"Dumbledore did the charm work?" Asked Lupin.
"It's only a matter of time before we will truly know." Dumbledore answered. "Harry, we are still going to carry out Occlumency, and I will be attending your Defense Against the Dark Arts lessons." Harry heard this and didn't quite process it. He felt like he was drunk or something because he had the urge to start dancing like crazy.
"What's that all about?" Harry said in a weird voice, and he started to laugh like crazy. Then he jumped up and started to walk around and couldn't stop laughing. He walked up to a bookshelf and started to tear books from their spaces and opened a couple to start laughing again. Harry then walked over to the phoenix and started to scream, "BURN!!!" And then laughed again.
"What's wrong with you Harry?" Minerva asked in concern.
"He's experiencing a side effect of both the sleeping potion and the charm put together." Dumbledore explained.
"Yes, but he's acting, well DRUNK!" Minerva yelled.
"Yes, and he needs to get everything out of his system." Dumbledore explained.
"So you're just going to let him terrorize your office!"
"Minerva what am I supposed to do, tie the kid down? Let him have fun."
"Look at the pretty colors! HAHAHAHA!" Laughed Harry pointing at one of the pictures on Dumbledore's wall.
"Oh and this is only the first stage, he's going to experience what it's like to come slowly out of a coma. He will go through a swearing stage next. He will start to be mean to everyone, but we all just have to stick around with him."
"I WANT A UNICORN!! I could fly around and go crazy!" Harry continued as he flew like an airplane around Dumbledore's office. "What the FUCK! Haha that's a funny word. FUCK. Hahaha shit, damite, I hate that Voldemort ass, he's gonna fucken die for all the shit he put me through! I want my fucken dad! He should be in my god dam life right now! HAHAHA."
"Oh my God Harry! I don't want to hear those words come from your mouth!" Minerva yelled.
"Shutup you bitch, I hate you, you lied to me! Not even tell me you're my god dam Godmother until I find out about it! What is this!" Harry screamed back at Minerva.
"That's it—"
"Minerva calm down, he doesn't know what he's saying, let him get everything out of his system, this is the only way he can heal. He's releasing much of his anger right now, don't take anything personally." Dumbledore explained.
"And you!" Harry screamed pointing at Dumbledore, "You should have taught me those dumb Occlumency lessons in the first place, then I wouldn't have seen my Godfather and then I wouldn't have went to save him and him end up in my fucking head!" Then Harry laughed and then started the cry like a wussy. "I want him back! I hate you all! I want him back! He's the only good thing that happened to me you idiots ruined my life! I HATE YOU ALL!" Then Harry both laughed and cried. "Where's that Snape looser? He should go take out whatever's shoved up his ass! I mean he thinks he can corner me and tell me if I told you (Harry pointed at Dumbledore again) that he was still a death eater then he would send me directly to Voldemort knowing where he his at all the fricken time. Ha! Like Snape can control me! I want him to die! Hahaha that would be so funny! Where's my mum? I want to hear her songs…
Anytime you feel
Like you just can't hold on
Just hold onto my love
And I'll help you be strong
You're so afraid to loose
Baby I can't reach your heart
I can't face this world that's keeping us apart
And I could be the one to show you
Everything you missed before
Just hold on now
'Cause I could be the one to give you more
Anytime you need love baby I'm on you're side
Just let me be the one I could make it all right
Anytime you need love baby you're in my heart
I could make it all right
Mum come make it all right, I'm miserable without you. And Sirius, come let me ride your motorcycle. Teach me how to get the ladies. Be here with me Sirius." Harry then started to laugh and cry again.
"Wait Harry what did you say about Snape?" Dumbledore wondered.
"Why do you want to know? So you can feed me to Voldemort? Yea, if you did he'd be the one that'd die anyways not me! HAHAHA Voldemort, what a dumb name, came from Tom Marvolo Riddle, DUMB NAME!! Hahaha."
"No Harry, I'm serious—"
"Sirius!"
"No Harry, serious, and Sirius are two different things."
"Like you even cared about him!"
"Harry, I did care—"
"Yeah right, you don't even show it! Ha and you call yourself headmaster! HAHAHA!"
"Dumbledore maybe you should wait till Harry's himself again before asking him about Serveus." Lupin explained.
"I hate my life! No one cares about me! My cousin and Aunt and Uncle all treat me like shit! I don't even exist to them! And you Dumbledore continue to make me live with them! Stupid Muggles. They never let me talk about my parents or do my magic homework! They hate me! They never give me birthday presents or any presents and they don't even acknowledge my birthday! Do you know how it feels? Then when I had hope of living with Sirius, you (Harry pointed to Lupin) have to turn into a fricken werewolf and allow Peter to turn into a fricken rat and get the frick away! If you hadn't done that I would be living a happy life with someone who cared about me! But no, I can never be happy, I can never have a fun free thought life cause I got some stupid cursed scar when I was young which ruined my whole life! In that memory, it looked like my life was going to be perfect! I was supposed to have a sister you know! A little sister! I want a sister! I HATE MY LIFE! It's everyone's fault! Just leave me alone! I hate everyone except my parents and Sirius. They are the only ones who cared. Now they died and I have NO ONE! Even Ron and Hermione aren't too supportive of everything. I can't tell them everything I could to Sirius. Sirius was like my angel and then his stupid cousin goes and kills him! I want to kill my cousin and I swear I will someday! HAHAHA I can't wait to Aunt Petunia and Uncle Vernon's face when their little Dudder's dies and all they have left is good ol' ME! HAHAHA! AND I escape Voldemort countless times and I get no acknowledgement for it! I've saved this school's ass and I get nothing for it! No but I continue to hold in all my feelings! Well I'm sick of holding things in! You can all go to hell for all I care! I don't care what happens to anyone anymore! It's all because of everyone else I got this Prophecy! If no one else existed then I would be able to live a happy life with my parents, but no once again I can never be happy. When will I ever be happy? When I'm dead I mean seriously! I'm sick of everyone. Just leave me alone; you already damaged my life beyond repair. GO AWAY!" Harry once again cried and then laughed and brought himself into a little corner by the sorting hat." AND you stupid hat, if you ever think that I would have done well in Slytherin I'll burn you! Maybe that's what the flames stand for… me burning the sorting hat!"
Everyone in the room – Dumbledore, Minerva, Lupin, Moody, Madam Pompfy, Lupin, and Flitwick could do nothing but stare at Harry. When he directed something to one of them they bowed their head down thinking to themselves he doesn't mean it, he doesn't know what he's saying. But really Harry was meaning every word.
"What the hell is this kid on? This is pathetic." Moody grunted to the others.
"Dumbledore how much longer is this going to go on for?" Minerva wondered.
"Couple more minutes before he collapses and falls asleep." Dumbledore told the others.
"And I want to be free Voldemort so get out of my head! It's for my thoughts and my thoughts alone! I'm sick of everyone's crap. You know what I think about you all—" And with that Harry collapsed right where he was and fell asleep snoring.
"Wow those were some pretty hurtful things he said." Lupin announced.
"Well that's all the feelings that's he's been keeping bottled inside of himself." Dumbledore explained.
"I've never seen Harry act like that in my life, I don't like it. I've never heard so many bad things and so many sware's in one short period before." Minerva explained.
"Well I don't want anyone to treat Harry any differently from this, he just needed to release everything. Now he will feel like a huge boulder that's been on his shoulder's has been lifted. So no grudge toward him or else this anger is going to build itself right back up." Dumbledore said.
"When shall we wake him?" Lupin wondered.
"What do you mean when shall we wake him? He needs rest, rest, REST!" Madam Pompfy yelled.
"Tomorrow we will wake him and find out about Serveus and if the charm worked or not, but until then I want everyone to keep this confidential, no one finds out about what just happened in this room, for if I heard from Harry about Serveus what I think I heard, then he is in greater danger than we all think. I'll see you tomorrow, but Madam Pompfy I ask you to stay and watch Harry for the night, and Lupin you may stay here if you wish to." Dumbledore instructed. They all left except for Madam Pompfy and Lupin who brought Harry to the couch and set the blanket comfortably around Harry.
"Goodnight Headmaster." Madam Pompfy said as she noticed Dumbledore heading up the stairs to his space. Lupin couldn't stop staring down at Harry.
"Goodnight to you, and goodnight to Lupin and Harry." Said Dumbledore as he went into his room.
Author's note: Hey everyone, so sorry for all the swearing and everything, but Harry needed to get out his anger and ya. So Harry was releasing his soul subconsciously, and now let's see how the teachers treat Harry now that they know what he really thinks about them all. And oopsy Harry told Dumbledore about Snape.
Harry's class is completely freaked out hearing the actual Dark Lord talk to them. Well I'd like to see them live Harry's life for a day.
Jenna and Harry are really starting to heat things up yeah baby yeah. And I know JK Rowling would never make Harry swear like a truck driver like that, but that's what makes my story different. And yeah everything bad does happen to Harry, so I feel he was allowed to have an outburst like that.
I'm now I pg. 121 single spaced baby yea! Thanksgiving yesterday was so yummy yummy in my tummy! Hehe yeah but I'm gonna reread the third book cause that's my favorite one and ah man, Lupin Sirius and Harry all together, I just simply love it! Anyways I'm going to try to finish this story within another week or so, still got loads to write about, but you know how time flies when ur writing, wait no u don't! lol REVIEW PLEASE! ENJOY!