A/N: In the last chapter, I accidentally said 'full moon' not 'new moon'. Gomen, gomen!
Going Under
Thoughts of Captivity
I didn't dare make a noise. I glanced at the chains that held me. Blue flames surrounded them ensuring my escape inevitable. There was no escape. But-this was better than death, right?
I was almost regretful that I went to Sesshomaru for help. Almost. At least he didn't try to kill me. He was sensible. Humble-most of the time. Calm-around that ningen child. He'd given me the courage to stand up to Kouga and Naraku in the first place. But-I wish I hadn't. Now I'm stuck down here for hell knows how long. Stuck in darkness. Stuck in silence. Stuck in solitude.
At least...it's quiet. I can think without being interrupted. I can be calm for a few moments.
Was it worth it all? What sound I do of Inuyasha's secret? Should I tell Naraku when he becomes human?
No. It would be useless. Naraku is human on the same night. They wouldn't do anything but be able to throw insults to each other.
And what of Kouga? I guess I beat him up pretty good. And that time-that time is was...me. When I killed his comrades before, Naraku was controlling me. That time, I had control. If he wished to kill me-he deserved it. I can't believe I'm thinking this. I must be going insane! Never-never!-Have I thought of Kouga that way. Neither have I Sesshomaru.
My wrists are sore from being held so still. Now what was I saying just a minute ago? Oh, that's right-At least it's quiet? I can think without being interrupted? I can be calm for a few moments? Scratch that. All of it.
Quiet? Solitude? I'm just now realizing how social I use to be. Usually with Kanna. She occasionally talked back.
Thinking? Heh, I usually think most during a battle. Looks like I won't be needing that awhile.
Calm? I'm calm, but inside I'm dying. Why? Why must this happen to me? I was taken from the wind, where I belonged. Naraku-he did this to me. He's turned me bitter. Where I was calm I am now harsh. Where I was gentle I am now fierce. Where I was...once beautiful am now ugly. An ugly detachment who will serve only one purpose, his purpose. And Naraku's idiotic purpose is to cause havoc for the hanyou and his friends. To make their life a living hell. I think it is enough. Especially that young girl. Kagome? Was that her name? It is lovely-compared to mine. Now-when my name is spoken its purpose is for death. No longer am I called forth for gentle winds-but death! Why? Why? Why?! WHY?!
It wasn't fair. To be forced from your home that you've lived in since the beginning of time-and to brought into the real world. Kanna has nothing to fear-for she is that-nothing.
I was manipulated. Used. I battled and killed against my will. After a few weeks I got used to it-and submitted my wishes to return home to the depths of hell. My only memory for a short time consisted of knowing Naraku was my master. Then I had to battle Inuyasha. After awhile I remembered I was the wind. I wanted freedom!
I looked around again. It was boring here. But-what should I do the next time I get to be free? Should I stay inside the castle, or try and run away again? I just don't know.
Going Under
Thoughts of Captivity
I didn't dare make a noise. I glanced at the chains that held me. Blue flames surrounded them ensuring my escape inevitable. There was no escape. But-this was better than death, right?
I was almost regretful that I went to Sesshomaru for help. Almost. At least he didn't try to kill me. He was sensible. Humble-most of the time. Calm-around that ningen child. He'd given me the courage to stand up to Kouga and Naraku in the first place. But-I wish I hadn't. Now I'm stuck down here for hell knows how long. Stuck in darkness. Stuck in silence. Stuck in solitude.
At least...it's quiet. I can think without being interrupted. I can be calm for a few moments.
Was it worth it all? What sound I do of Inuyasha's secret? Should I tell Naraku when he becomes human?
No. It would be useless. Naraku is human on the same night. They wouldn't do anything but be able to throw insults to each other.
And what of Kouga? I guess I beat him up pretty good. And that time-that time is was...me. When I killed his comrades before, Naraku was controlling me. That time, I had control. If he wished to kill me-he deserved it. I can't believe I'm thinking this. I must be going insane! Never-never!-Have I thought of Kouga that way. Neither have I Sesshomaru.
My wrists are sore from being held so still. Now what was I saying just a minute ago? Oh, that's right-At least it's quiet? I can think without being interrupted? I can be calm for a few moments? Scratch that. All of it.
Quiet? Solitude? I'm just now realizing how social I use to be. Usually with Kanna. She occasionally talked back.
Thinking? Heh, I usually think most during a battle. Looks like I won't be needing that awhile.
Calm? I'm calm, but inside I'm dying. Why? Why must this happen to me? I was taken from the wind, where I belonged. Naraku-he did this to me. He's turned me bitter. Where I was calm I am now harsh. Where I was gentle I am now fierce. Where I was...once beautiful am now ugly. An ugly detachment who will serve only one purpose, his purpose. And Naraku's idiotic purpose is to cause havoc for the hanyou and his friends. To make their life a living hell. I think it is enough. Especially that young girl. Kagome? Was that her name? It is lovely-compared to mine. Now-when my name is spoken its purpose is for death. No longer am I called forth for gentle winds-but death! Why? Why? Why?! WHY?!
It wasn't fair. To be forced from your home that you've lived in since the beginning of time-and to brought into the real world. Kanna has nothing to fear-for she is that-nothing.
I was manipulated. Used. I battled and killed against my will. After a few weeks I got used to it-and submitted my wishes to return home to the depths of hell. My only memory for a short time consisted of knowing Naraku was my master. Then I had to battle Inuyasha. After awhile I remembered I was the wind. I wanted freedom!
I looked around again. It was boring here. But-what should I do the next time I get to be free? Should I stay inside the castle, or try and run away again? I just don't know.