Going Under
One Who Cares
I still felt dazed. I could barely walk and I still felt my heart beating at a quick rate. What had he done to me to make me feel this way? When Kouga held me to cure my illness, I felt strange. When Sesshomaru embraced me, I felt the same sensation. What did it all mean?
I felt a wave of loneliness sweep over me. I remembered the encounter with Naraku and felt a shudder come up my spine quickly making the autumn air cold as winter. A chilly breeze blew filling in the effect. I wondered how Inu Yasha's group would react to my new freedom. Would they continue to hate me? Would they forgive me, like Kouga did?
I was so wrapped up in my thoughts I didn't notice the pair of bright green eyes following my movements. I did however, here the sound of feet quickly scampering away. That little brat kitsune was going to rat me out.
I felt scared. Should I show my fear? In front of Kouga he was gentle because he saw I was scared. But when I teased him he was rough.
I braced myself for an impact and sure enough I was soon shoved to the ground with a sword at my throat. I pushed back avoiding getting cut. I stumbled back tripping onto my rump and messily pulling out my fan. As I raised it I felt the sword's sharp tip at my throat. I froze.
"Don't. Move." Inu Yasha spoke coldly. I lifted my chin feeling my heart beating so fast it hurt. My ears were throbbing with blood racing in them and my hands were trembling. He looked confused for a minute. He leaned forward but kept his sword parallel with my throat so I couldn't move.
"You don't...smell like Naraku."
I swallowed nodding my head. I moved my free hand up placing it on my heart.
"I-I'm free now."
He cocked a brow and slowly pulled his sword away from me. Kagome walked out and let out a shriek of my name. My name...it was hideous. My name was only trouble. The monk and taijiya stepped out with a trembling kitsune on the monk's shoulder. They all stared at me for a moment. The kit leaned forward taking in my scent.
"Sh-she's different!" he shrieked out. They slowly advanced towards me.
"If you have something to say spit it out," I said obviously in an annoyed tone while crossing my arms.
"How?" the hanyou asked quietly. I looked to the ground.
"On the new moon. I...I attacked Naraku. I got hurt but I got away. I got away with my heart and now he no longer has control over me. I don't have to kill against my will."
I lifted my head and saw them giving me pitied looks. At least they weren't going to kill me. I released a breath I didn't know I was holding. I saw Kagome walk up pulling Inu Yasha away slightly. She glanced at me before finally offering to help me up. I kept my head low in respect as I stood.
"So...you're free?" It seemed like everyone was asking me that over and over. I simply nodded my head.
"Keh," I heard Inu Yasha's usual insult, "I won't kill you because Kagome's doesn't want to." He glared at me and I glared back before turning. I walked slow, still tired from travels and battles. I could still hear them talking.
"Kagome! What the hell were you thinking?!"
"I was helping her!"
"She's the enemy!"
"But-but she's free now!"
"And you trust her?!"
"She didn't attempt to kill us did she?! NO! You just pummeled her to the ground without warning! Osuwari!!!"
I heard him sink into the ground with a clapping noise. He cursed into the dirt spitting it out.
"You jerk! I want to give Kagura a chance!"
I heard Inu Yasha growl at Kagome. "Bitch! That wicked witch will never get anything! No chance, no destiny, no love-with an ugly name like that I'm surprised how Naraku even-"
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I felt a knife cut through my heart. The commands for the rosary around his neck didn't soothe my pain either. I held my head low and continued along the trail.
He's right. I don't know why I didn't just let myself die in the first place. I am ugly. I'll never find my true destiny. I had no chance in life. I didn't really understand love. For once again I say, I've only felt bitterness and hatred before.
I felt the wind pick up around me but kept walking. About two or so hours passed. I felt an immense wind start in front of me. I didn't try to stop it as it suddenly stopped.
"Kagura," I glanced up at Kouga but kept my gaze down as I passed him. He caught my wrist but I yanked it away.
"Leave me alone," I hissed stomping away. He easily leapt landing in front of me. He grabbed my face with his hands forcing my face to look at him.
"What's wrong?" I looked at him. His face wore concern all around it. I felt my eyes tremble as my vision started to blur. Damn, no, I couldn't be crying, not now! Of all times I-
"Shh," he moved a thumb over my cheek rubbing off a tear. I felt a sensation go through me as I quickly pushed my head to his chest letting the unshed tears fall freely. I soon ran out of breathe and inhaled sharply for another supply.
"Shh," he soothed again wrapping his arms around my shoulders and back rubbing gently with one hand while holding me with the other. I moved my arms around his waist for support as my knees shook threatening to give way. He slowly knelt down making it much easier to stand. The ache in my heart slowly left. I never knew a heart could ever feel so different at times.
As I started to quiet he raised a hand to my head gently stroking the loose hairs.
"Now what's wrong?"
I looked up to him but turned my head away. He grabbed my chin but didn't pull my head up.
"I-I..." I found myself speechless once again like when they had held me before. He waited patiently for my nerves to return. I inhaled slowly letting it studder out with my sobs.
"I was j-just walking when I-Inu Yasha attacked. He let me l-live, but when I was leaving I-I heard him talking to K-Kagome. H-He mentioned how I had no life and n-no chances in this world. How ugly I was and my name. How I would never find love when I'd never experienced it."
I felt like I was in a confession booth. I glanced up and saw his eyes wide with shock and anger. He pulled me closer making me blush.
"I can't believe Inu-koro said such things. He's so stupid, has a wonderful girl near him but is too lazy to notice her. I wanted Kagome because she could sense Shikon shards."
I looked up at him again as his anger grew. "He's wrong..."
I heard a deep growl emit from his chest. "That bastard...you're not ugly, you're beautiful. You're name is lovely-it suits you."
I nearly burst out in tears again. He sensed this, I guess, and took my face into one of his hands. I let the tears flow down as I stared forward. His ice blue eyes shimmered over to a glossy look as I bit my lip holding back more tears.
"You've never felt love?"
I nodded my head pulling my hands, fists balled up, to my chest. He blinked moving closer. I felt that pounding in my ears again that came from my fast heart.
"Ko-" I couldn't talk again. I felt his hands tighten on my face. I let out a loud squeak as he pulled me forward pressing his lips to mine. I pushed my hands against his chest trying to push away.
I slowed my whining and struggling as his hands gently moved around my face, urging me forward. Slowly my lids slid shut with his as I moved my arms around his neck. I could feel the strong, slick neck and shoulder muscles tense at my touch. I felt a strange rumble in my throat that ended up being a quiet moan. I felt a blush heat up in my cheeks but he only seemed to be further excited by the small noise. His lips moved more frantically. I let out another small moan. His hands twitched and rested on my hips and began to rub around them as well.
"Ko-" I tried to say something but every time I tried he only moved quicker.
I felt his tongue swoop gently over my lower lip and I froze. I felt a tight knot form in my stomach making it hurt to no end. I shuddered feeling a sharp fang graze my skin. He leaned forward brushing his two main and largest front fangs against my cheeks nipping and licking every now and then. My hands trembled feeling like they were on fire.
As quickly as he started he stopped. I felt flushed and exhausted from the experience, as well as having a beat red face. I blinked making sure this was real. My lips felt swollen and I could feel the gentle scrapes he made start to show on my cheeks. They wouldn't be there long but it made me blush none the less.
"That...is what love feels like," he said between a gasp for air. I wrapped my arms around his chest setting my head against his shoulder. He stood trembling a little but seemed to quickly get over it. As my head slid to his shoulder I noticed his scent. It was full of his wild spirit along with his clean sweat smell that covered him thickly. My mind drifted off in a river of thoughts.
If that was what love felt like, I think I'm going to enjoy it.
One Who Cares
I still felt dazed. I could barely walk and I still felt my heart beating at a quick rate. What had he done to me to make me feel this way? When Kouga held me to cure my illness, I felt strange. When Sesshomaru embraced me, I felt the same sensation. What did it all mean?
I felt a wave of loneliness sweep over me. I remembered the encounter with Naraku and felt a shudder come up my spine quickly making the autumn air cold as winter. A chilly breeze blew filling in the effect. I wondered how Inu Yasha's group would react to my new freedom. Would they continue to hate me? Would they forgive me, like Kouga did?
I was so wrapped up in my thoughts I didn't notice the pair of bright green eyes following my movements. I did however, here the sound of feet quickly scampering away. That little brat kitsune was going to rat me out.
I felt scared. Should I show my fear? In front of Kouga he was gentle because he saw I was scared. But when I teased him he was rough.
I braced myself for an impact and sure enough I was soon shoved to the ground with a sword at my throat. I pushed back avoiding getting cut. I stumbled back tripping onto my rump and messily pulling out my fan. As I raised it I felt the sword's sharp tip at my throat. I froze.
"Don't. Move." Inu Yasha spoke coldly. I lifted my chin feeling my heart beating so fast it hurt. My ears were throbbing with blood racing in them and my hands were trembling. He looked confused for a minute. He leaned forward but kept his sword parallel with my throat so I couldn't move.
"You don't...smell like Naraku."
I swallowed nodding my head. I moved my free hand up placing it on my heart.
"I-I'm free now."
He cocked a brow and slowly pulled his sword away from me. Kagome walked out and let out a shriek of my name. My name...it was hideous. My name was only trouble. The monk and taijiya stepped out with a trembling kitsune on the monk's shoulder. They all stared at me for a moment. The kit leaned forward taking in my scent.
"Sh-she's different!" he shrieked out. They slowly advanced towards me.
"If you have something to say spit it out," I said obviously in an annoyed tone while crossing my arms.
"How?" the hanyou asked quietly. I looked to the ground.
"On the new moon. I...I attacked Naraku. I got hurt but I got away. I got away with my heart and now he no longer has control over me. I don't have to kill against my will."
I lifted my head and saw them giving me pitied looks. At least they weren't going to kill me. I released a breath I didn't know I was holding. I saw Kagome walk up pulling Inu Yasha away slightly. She glanced at me before finally offering to help me up. I kept my head low in respect as I stood.
"So...you're free?" It seemed like everyone was asking me that over and over. I simply nodded my head.
"Keh," I heard Inu Yasha's usual insult, "I won't kill you because Kagome's doesn't want to." He glared at me and I glared back before turning. I walked slow, still tired from travels and battles. I could still hear them talking.
"Kagome! What the hell were you thinking?!"
"I was helping her!"
"She's the enemy!"
"But-but she's free now!"
"And you trust her?!"
"She didn't attempt to kill us did she?! NO! You just pummeled her to the ground without warning! Osuwari!!!"
I heard him sink into the ground with a clapping noise. He cursed into the dirt spitting it out.
"You jerk! I want to give Kagura a chance!"
I heard Inu Yasha growl at Kagome. "Bitch! That wicked witch will never get anything! No chance, no destiny, no love-with an ugly name like that I'm surprised how Naraku even-"
"SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT SIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I felt a knife cut through my heart. The commands for the rosary around his neck didn't soothe my pain either. I held my head low and continued along the trail.
He's right. I don't know why I didn't just let myself die in the first place. I am ugly. I'll never find my true destiny. I had no chance in life. I didn't really understand love. For once again I say, I've only felt bitterness and hatred before.
I felt the wind pick up around me but kept walking. About two or so hours passed. I felt an immense wind start in front of me. I didn't try to stop it as it suddenly stopped.
"Kagura," I glanced up at Kouga but kept my gaze down as I passed him. He caught my wrist but I yanked it away.
"Leave me alone," I hissed stomping away. He easily leapt landing in front of me. He grabbed my face with his hands forcing my face to look at him.
"What's wrong?" I looked at him. His face wore concern all around it. I felt my eyes tremble as my vision started to blur. Damn, no, I couldn't be crying, not now! Of all times I-
"Shh," he moved a thumb over my cheek rubbing off a tear. I felt a sensation go through me as I quickly pushed my head to his chest letting the unshed tears fall freely. I soon ran out of breathe and inhaled sharply for another supply.
"Shh," he soothed again wrapping his arms around my shoulders and back rubbing gently with one hand while holding me with the other. I moved my arms around his waist for support as my knees shook threatening to give way. He slowly knelt down making it much easier to stand. The ache in my heart slowly left. I never knew a heart could ever feel so different at times.
As I started to quiet he raised a hand to my head gently stroking the loose hairs.
"Now what's wrong?"
I looked up to him but turned my head away. He grabbed my chin but didn't pull my head up.
"I-I..." I found myself speechless once again like when they had held me before. He waited patiently for my nerves to return. I inhaled slowly letting it studder out with my sobs.
"I was j-just walking when I-Inu Yasha attacked. He let me l-live, but when I was leaving I-I heard him talking to K-Kagome. H-He mentioned how I had no life and n-no chances in this world. How ugly I was and my name. How I would never find love when I'd never experienced it."
I felt like I was in a confession booth. I glanced up and saw his eyes wide with shock and anger. He pulled me closer making me blush.
"I can't believe Inu-koro said such things. He's so stupid, has a wonderful girl near him but is too lazy to notice her. I wanted Kagome because she could sense Shikon shards."
I looked up at him again as his anger grew. "He's wrong..."
I heard a deep growl emit from his chest. "That bastard...you're not ugly, you're beautiful. You're name is lovely-it suits you."
I nearly burst out in tears again. He sensed this, I guess, and took my face into one of his hands. I let the tears flow down as I stared forward. His ice blue eyes shimmered over to a glossy look as I bit my lip holding back more tears.
"You've never felt love?"
I nodded my head pulling my hands, fists balled up, to my chest. He blinked moving closer. I felt that pounding in my ears again that came from my fast heart.
"Ko-" I couldn't talk again. I felt his hands tighten on my face. I let out a loud squeak as he pulled me forward pressing his lips to mine. I pushed my hands against his chest trying to push away.
I slowed my whining and struggling as his hands gently moved around my face, urging me forward. Slowly my lids slid shut with his as I moved my arms around his neck. I could feel the strong, slick neck and shoulder muscles tense at my touch. I felt a strange rumble in my throat that ended up being a quiet moan. I felt a blush heat up in my cheeks but he only seemed to be further excited by the small noise. His lips moved more frantically. I let out another small moan. His hands twitched and rested on my hips and began to rub around them as well.
"Ko-" I tried to say something but every time I tried he only moved quicker.
I felt his tongue swoop gently over my lower lip and I froze. I felt a tight knot form in my stomach making it hurt to no end. I shuddered feeling a sharp fang graze my skin. He leaned forward brushing his two main and largest front fangs against my cheeks nipping and licking every now and then. My hands trembled feeling like they were on fire.
As quickly as he started he stopped. I felt flushed and exhausted from the experience, as well as having a beat red face. I blinked making sure this was real. My lips felt swollen and I could feel the gentle scrapes he made start to show on my cheeks. They wouldn't be there long but it made me blush none the less.
"That...is what love feels like," he said between a gasp for air. I wrapped my arms around his chest setting my head against his shoulder. He stood trembling a little but seemed to quickly get over it. As my head slid to his shoulder I noticed his scent. It was full of his wild spirit along with his clean sweat smell that covered him thickly. My mind drifted off in a river of thoughts.
If that was what love felt like, I think I'm going to enjoy it.