Going Under
The Question
"What's your name?"
"Go away."
"How old are you?"
"Go away."
"Are you a youkai?"
"Go away."
"What's your favorite color?"
"Go away."
"What's your favorite foods?"
"Go away."
"Why are you here?"
"Go away."
"Do you like squash?"
"Go away."
"Do you like Sesshomaru-sama?"
"KID-"
"Rin, leave the woman alone."
I jumped at the sudden voice. I looked over to the door and saw Sesshomaru standing in the doorframe. Rin stood up and walked out singing some song along the way. Sesshomaru closed the door and stepped in. I slid further into the futon pulling the blanket over my legs.
"You must forgive her," his voice held laughter, though he wasn't laughing. "Rin never talked much until I found her. Since then she has only but asked questions. Since I ignored most of the questions she would ask Jaken. It seems she has someone else to question now."
I felt a soft laugh escape me as I turned to meet his eyes. "What possessed you to take in a human child? A girl none the less. I thought you despised humans."
Sesshomaru seemed to tense at my question. His face lost all emotion like it usually would. He turned his head staring at the door. "If you want to know the real reason, it was because I was tired of Jaken's babbling. I only kept him around for company. When Rin came along I knew I'd end up never talking to her much, but she seemed to be fun to watch around Jaken."
I sensed the happiness and laughter in his voice start to return. "She is a sight, I must say. You would think the same if you watched her. She's innocent. Jaken suspects the reason I keep her around is because she helped try to heal me when I was near death. I repaid her for that act by bringing her back from hell. I don't know she knows she died, but she does remember the wolves. When you were out earlier Rin was with me for a short while. When that wolf walked in Rin started screaming at the top her lungs. When I finally calmed her down she said Kouga's wolves were the ones who attacked her."
"That can't be!" I shouted sitting straight up. "Kouga would never hurt her!"
Sesshomaru raised a brow suddenly making me nervous. I slowly lowered myself back down as he continued.
"Kouga informed me that he did indeed attack her village. His heritage is that of man-eating wolves. Shortly after, he came across Kagome. He fell in love with her, and never ate a human afterwards."
So Kouga did do it... but why would he stop? How could he fall for a human? It's just so strange.
I felt a strange presence on me and looked up to find Sesshomaru staring me in the eye. My cheeks started to get the burning sensation again so I tried to look away, but something kept me from doing so. What was this? This is... the same feeling... when Kouga kissed me.
I pulled my hand up setting it over my chest to feel my heart beat. It almost hurt. It reminded me again of when Kouga kissed me. The feelings and sensations were starting to return.
"Wh-what are you..." I started. I felt my voice leaving me as he started to lean down towards me. I knew what was happening but my mind seemed to suddenly haze. The next thing I knew I felt his lips against mine and his arm reaching under me to pull me up. I reached my hands up and felt his slender neck. I moved my arms around them to pull myself up to him.
"I've... always wanted you..." he breathed out breaking the kiss. I gasped feeling his lips again. I shuddered feeling his hand reach down and pull me into his lap. It must be hard with only one arm...
"Ever since I laid eyes on you..." he said again. I let out a soft moan as he gave me no time to catch my breathe. I felt his tongue press against my lips begging entry. I wasted no time in replying. It felt like jolts of electricity were flowing through me. I felt hot and suddenly cold as shivers went down my spine. I felt my back arch towards him as another cold shiver went through me. His hand moved up pressing the back of my head. I felt another moan erupt from myself as our kiss deepened.
*****
Kouga growled faintly and closed the small crack in the door. He sighed letting his sadness show on his features as he walked down the corrider. So she'd chosen the inu youkai. She didn't want this ookami youkai.
Kouga ducked his head and shut his eyes tightly. His fists clenched together and began to shake. A small stream of blood started to leak from his fingers. Kouga ignored the pain and bit his lip creating even more. Ever since Naraku forced Kagura to kill the last of his wolves he'd been unable to control his emotions. Ever since Kagura let him cry against her, since she'd told him it was alright to cry.
"Damn it," he muttered as he opened his eyes letting the tears fall. He quickly made his way to the entrance and exited the taiyoukai's palace.
*****
I felt Sesshomaru pushing me down onto the futon when even I recognized a scent. Even if I wasn't a dog demon, I was a demon.
"Sesshomaru," I whispered pulling myself slightly from his grasp. "I smell blood."
Sesshomaru seemed to ignore me. I set my hands against his chest and pushed him up. "Sesshomaru," I said sternly. He seemed to take me seriously and stopped. He sat up but kept his hand on mine. I pulled it away and sat up ignoring the sensations in me. They were like the ones I had around Kouga, only stronger now. As I started to sway Sesshomaru stood up to catch me. I let him hold me until my vision came back.
"Please, just let me go see."
Sesshomaru let me go as I started for the door. "Gomen," I added and walked out. The smell of blood quickly became thicker once outside. I looked around and noticed a small spot a few feet away from the door. I walked toward it and spotted another crimson colored drip not too far away. I followed the constant spots until I came to the front door of the palance. I opened the door and peered outside. I turned my head to the side and spotted Kouga not to far away. I ran outside forgetting to close the door.
"Kouga!" I yelled out to him. "Kouga!"
He stopped but didn't turn around. As I finally caught up he turned to me. I felt a knot of guilt twist up in my stomach at his face. I swear, he looks like he'd been crying. Though there was no wetness, his eyes had a tinge of red around them. His smile was fake. I could feel the sadness emitting from his soul. It astounded me. Where demons really able to tell all these things? I could never sense them before.
"What's wrong?" he asked softly. I looked down at his hand which had been clenched up until I started to approach him. I saw a glint of red on his finger. I reached the tip my kimono's sleeve and tore a piece of the red and white fabric off.
"You're bleeding," I answered and reached for his hand. I turned it over and was suprised to see four cuts. Had he cut himself? They looked like claw marks. I took the small article in my hand and wrapped it around his palm and securly tied it.
"Thank you," he said in the same tone as before. He started to turn around away from me. I grabbed his hand with both of mine making him stop again.
"If something wrong?" I asked. Kouga turned to look at me again. His smile slowly faded and he sighed turning his head away.
"Kagura, it's complicated. I'm confused and need to sort some things out. Please, let go."
His voice held more sadness than before now. He asked me to let go; he could easily pull his hand from mine without even harming me. Yet, he's asking me to let go as though he wants me to leave.
"Kouga..." I let his hand slip from mine and pulled mine back. I watched him walk past the gates out of the palace grounds. I sighed heavily and walked to the gardens. I sat down on one of the benches and stared down at my lap. I reached into the sleeve of my kimono pulling my fan out. With a simple flick of my wrist it opened up. I felt the winds hault awaiting my commands. I slowly closed it back up letting the winds shift and blow at their own wills. I simply stared down at the fan in my hands letting time slide away. I'm not sure how long I sat there but was soon awoken from my thoughts.
"It's late," a voice made me jump. I turned my head to see Sesshomaru walking around the bench and sitting next to me.
"Is everything alright?"
I sighed and looked up at the gate and towards the direction Kouga had left. "Sesshomaru, what do you do when you love two people?"
There was something about his smile I didn't quite like. It's as though he knew what I was thinking.
"These... two people. Do they love you back?"
I nodded. "I've been with both...but..."
"But?"
"But I don't know what to do. I want to be with both of them. I'm afraid that if I stay with one, the other will be sad."
"That is true, one will end up sad."
I looked up to him. He had that look on his face again. "But...how do I know which to stay with and which to leave? How will I know when I have the right one. How-"
His fingers against my lips prevented any further questions. Slowly he lowered his hand placing it on my chest where my heart slowly started to beat faster.
"Follow your heart."
I felt my face flush as he stood and walked back into the palace. I lifted my hand setting it against my chest where his hand had been. Follow...my heart? How-
Oh, to hell with the questions. I need some sleep.
I stood and followed where he had gone into the palace. I went into the room he'd provided with me and lied down onto the futon to sleep.
The Question
"What's your name?"
"Go away."
"How old are you?"
"Go away."
"Are you a youkai?"
"Go away."
"What's your favorite color?"
"Go away."
"What's your favorite foods?"
"Go away."
"Why are you here?"
"Go away."
"Do you like squash?"
"Go away."
"Do you like Sesshomaru-sama?"
"KID-"
"Rin, leave the woman alone."
I jumped at the sudden voice. I looked over to the door and saw Sesshomaru standing in the doorframe. Rin stood up and walked out singing some song along the way. Sesshomaru closed the door and stepped in. I slid further into the futon pulling the blanket over my legs.
"You must forgive her," his voice held laughter, though he wasn't laughing. "Rin never talked much until I found her. Since then she has only but asked questions. Since I ignored most of the questions she would ask Jaken. It seems she has someone else to question now."
I felt a soft laugh escape me as I turned to meet his eyes. "What possessed you to take in a human child? A girl none the less. I thought you despised humans."
Sesshomaru seemed to tense at my question. His face lost all emotion like it usually would. He turned his head staring at the door. "If you want to know the real reason, it was because I was tired of Jaken's babbling. I only kept him around for company. When Rin came along I knew I'd end up never talking to her much, but she seemed to be fun to watch around Jaken."
I sensed the happiness and laughter in his voice start to return. "She is a sight, I must say. You would think the same if you watched her. She's innocent. Jaken suspects the reason I keep her around is because she helped try to heal me when I was near death. I repaid her for that act by bringing her back from hell. I don't know she knows she died, but she does remember the wolves. When you were out earlier Rin was with me for a short while. When that wolf walked in Rin started screaming at the top her lungs. When I finally calmed her down she said Kouga's wolves were the ones who attacked her."
"That can't be!" I shouted sitting straight up. "Kouga would never hurt her!"
Sesshomaru raised a brow suddenly making me nervous. I slowly lowered myself back down as he continued.
"Kouga informed me that he did indeed attack her village. His heritage is that of man-eating wolves. Shortly after, he came across Kagome. He fell in love with her, and never ate a human afterwards."
So Kouga did do it... but why would he stop? How could he fall for a human? It's just so strange.
I felt a strange presence on me and looked up to find Sesshomaru staring me in the eye. My cheeks started to get the burning sensation again so I tried to look away, but something kept me from doing so. What was this? This is... the same feeling... when Kouga kissed me.
I pulled my hand up setting it over my chest to feel my heart beat. It almost hurt. It reminded me again of when Kouga kissed me. The feelings and sensations were starting to return.
"Wh-what are you..." I started. I felt my voice leaving me as he started to lean down towards me. I knew what was happening but my mind seemed to suddenly haze. The next thing I knew I felt his lips against mine and his arm reaching under me to pull me up. I reached my hands up and felt his slender neck. I moved my arms around them to pull myself up to him.
"I've... always wanted you..." he breathed out breaking the kiss. I gasped feeling his lips again. I shuddered feeling his hand reach down and pull me into his lap. It must be hard with only one arm...
"Ever since I laid eyes on you..." he said again. I let out a soft moan as he gave me no time to catch my breathe. I felt his tongue press against my lips begging entry. I wasted no time in replying. It felt like jolts of electricity were flowing through me. I felt hot and suddenly cold as shivers went down my spine. I felt my back arch towards him as another cold shiver went through me. His hand moved up pressing the back of my head. I felt another moan erupt from myself as our kiss deepened.
*****
Kouga growled faintly and closed the small crack in the door. He sighed letting his sadness show on his features as he walked down the corrider. So she'd chosen the inu youkai. She didn't want this ookami youkai.
Kouga ducked his head and shut his eyes tightly. His fists clenched together and began to shake. A small stream of blood started to leak from his fingers. Kouga ignored the pain and bit his lip creating even more. Ever since Naraku forced Kagura to kill the last of his wolves he'd been unable to control his emotions. Ever since Kagura let him cry against her, since she'd told him it was alright to cry.
"Damn it," he muttered as he opened his eyes letting the tears fall. He quickly made his way to the entrance and exited the taiyoukai's palace.
*****
I felt Sesshomaru pushing me down onto the futon when even I recognized a scent. Even if I wasn't a dog demon, I was a demon.
"Sesshomaru," I whispered pulling myself slightly from his grasp. "I smell blood."
Sesshomaru seemed to ignore me. I set my hands against his chest and pushed him up. "Sesshomaru," I said sternly. He seemed to take me seriously and stopped. He sat up but kept his hand on mine. I pulled it away and sat up ignoring the sensations in me. They were like the ones I had around Kouga, only stronger now. As I started to sway Sesshomaru stood up to catch me. I let him hold me until my vision came back.
"Please, just let me go see."
Sesshomaru let me go as I started for the door. "Gomen," I added and walked out. The smell of blood quickly became thicker once outside. I looked around and noticed a small spot a few feet away from the door. I walked toward it and spotted another crimson colored drip not too far away. I followed the constant spots until I came to the front door of the palance. I opened the door and peered outside. I turned my head to the side and spotted Kouga not to far away. I ran outside forgetting to close the door.
"Kouga!" I yelled out to him. "Kouga!"
He stopped but didn't turn around. As I finally caught up he turned to me. I felt a knot of guilt twist up in my stomach at his face. I swear, he looks like he'd been crying. Though there was no wetness, his eyes had a tinge of red around them. His smile was fake. I could feel the sadness emitting from his soul. It astounded me. Where demons really able to tell all these things? I could never sense them before.
"What's wrong?" he asked softly. I looked down at his hand which had been clenched up until I started to approach him. I saw a glint of red on his finger. I reached the tip my kimono's sleeve and tore a piece of the red and white fabric off.
"You're bleeding," I answered and reached for his hand. I turned it over and was suprised to see four cuts. Had he cut himself? They looked like claw marks. I took the small article in my hand and wrapped it around his palm and securly tied it.
"Thank you," he said in the same tone as before. He started to turn around away from me. I grabbed his hand with both of mine making him stop again.
"If something wrong?" I asked. Kouga turned to look at me again. His smile slowly faded and he sighed turning his head away.
"Kagura, it's complicated. I'm confused and need to sort some things out. Please, let go."
His voice held more sadness than before now. He asked me to let go; he could easily pull his hand from mine without even harming me. Yet, he's asking me to let go as though he wants me to leave.
"Kouga..." I let his hand slip from mine and pulled mine back. I watched him walk past the gates out of the palace grounds. I sighed heavily and walked to the gardens. I sat down on one of the benches and stared down at my lap. I reached into the sleeve of my kimono pulling my fan out. With a simple flick of my wrist it opened up. I felt the winds hault awaiting my commands. I slowly closed it back up letting the winds shift and blow at their own wills. I simply stared down at the fan in my hands letting time slide away. I'm not sure how long I sat there but was soon awoken from my thoughts.
"It's late," a voice made me jump. I turned my head to see Sesshomaru walking around the bench and sitting next to me.
"Is everything alright?"
I sighed and looked up at the gate and towards the direction Kouga had left. "Sesshomaru, what do you do when you love two people?"
There was something about his smile I didn't quite like. It's as though he knew what I was thinking.
"These... two people. Do they love you back?"
I nodded. "I've been with both...but..."
"But?"
"But I don't know what to do. I want to be with both of them. I'm afraid that if I stay with one, the other will be sad."
"That is true, one will end up sad."
I looked up to him. He had that look on his face again. "But...how do I know which to stay with and which to leave? How will I know when I have the right one. How-"
His fingers against my lips prevented any further questions. Slowly he lowered his hand placing it on my chest where my heart slowly started to beat faster.
"Follow your heart."
I felt my face flush as he stood and walked back into the palace. I lifted my hand setting it against my chest where his hand had been. Follow...my heart? How-
Oh, to hell with the questions. I need some sleep.
I stood and followed where he had gone into the palace. I went into the room he'd provided with me and lied down onto the futon to sleep.