ch. 5
Inuyasha sat by my side all evening long. It has been hours since we sat together on the well. And now all he had done was nod when metioned to and glared at the fire in the middle of the room. Miroku and Sango had long since curled up together and fallen asleep. Kirara and Shippo had done the same the only ones awake were of me and him. Kaede had tended to a woman in labor so she was out for the night. He inched closer to me when he shivered. What has gotten into him? Is he that upset over my decision? Should I cut---no I promised myself i will not harm him and harm him I will not. No matter who ends up hurt, even if by my own happiness, I will not harm him.
"Inuyasha?" I asked as he began to shake. He looked up at me and I saw in his gold eyes were sorrow, hurt, loneliness. I wanted to cry to hold onto him for the last time since tomorrow may be the last day we spend together alive. "Aa, Kagome?" He asked as he held my hands in his. I wanted so bad to keep my strong facade up but I knew I couldn't, never could. I cried, I cried into his chest and he held me close and I heard him begin to sob with me. After a few minutes of desperate crying I let go of him and looked up once again in his watery gaze. "Inuyasha, I really don't want to die...but if it means souta will live freely, I have to." My thoughts came out of my mouth in a hurry as more sobs wracked my throat and again he cluthced me tighter not letting me go. I placed my ear on his heart and listened to his fast beating heart as it drummed me to a fitfull sleep.
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Kagome, why, why do you have to die? Why can't you just cut him on the arm? Sometimes your just a plain softhearted bitch. Always thinking of others before yourself. But think about me, your friends and family. What will they do when they find out you gave up your life to save Souta, they'll cry like they did for Souta. And even if Souta stays alive, he'll end up wasting his life away mourning for you, blmaing himself for your death. What kind of life are you giving him then? Kagome, what about me? What about a family? What about a marriage? Will we ever be able to now? I'll be alone again Kagome, I don't wnat to be alone any longer. It hurts don't you know? Of course you don't. You always had friends, you've always had your family. But what about me? All I ever had was Kikyo and then she was gone and now you, I don't think I can live anymore if you died.
I felt her place her ear over my heart and finally her breathing even out and she fell into a fitfull sleep, occasionally whimpering but nothing more. I looked down at her face as her brows was in a frown. I took my finger and smoothen it out adn her face finally looked peacful. Kagome, what am I gonna do, when I lose you too? The question echoed through my mind all day since she decided what she'll do and now I sleep dreaming of the future and what come with it.
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Morning came by faster than I would've wanted it to. I sat up off Inuyasha chest and rubbed my eyes as I heard Inuyasha stretching. "Kagome?" "Yes?" I turned to look at him, his gold eyes lost its brightness and his smile was no longer on his face. "Sango and Miroku went off early in the morning to bathe, seperately Sango told me." He had a slight smirk but not close to a real smile. "Oh, where's Shippo and Kirara then?" I asked as I rmeember seeing no one as I woke. "He went off on a walk just a while ago. Said he wanted some time to think or something." I laid my head on his shoulder as I thought. Todays the day, I feel it, I know it. "Want to eat something?" I asked as I played with his silver hair. He nodded and I pulled my bag over and made some ramen for him and me to enjoy together.
We ate in comfortable silence as we sat inches away. He wasn't eating at his fast pace but at a more steadily pace, his eyes were staring at his food as if he was in a faraway land. I just kept quiet, he might want his time alone.
"Kagome...can we...take a walk?" Inuyasha asked solemnly as I stood up. "Sure, let's go." I said as he took my hand and I helped him to his feet and we both went out of the hut into the clear blue day.
"So..." He said trying to end the silence that engulfed us on our small walk. "Inuyasha, I have to know, do you understand why I'm doing this?" I asked as I let go of his hand. He gazed deeply into my eyes intently then it soften and he turned away, "Yes, I do. But---" I placed my lips on his and he was tense for a moment then he wrapped his arms around my waist. We released to gather our breathes.
"Kagome, I--You know I just don't want to lose you. I mean. I Lost my parents and then Kikyo and now you? I can't bear it all." He confessed and he let his head fall limply to hide his fogged gold eyes. I held back my emotions and just stood there looking at him crumble before me. "Inuyasha, I told you. It is what i have to do, not what I want to. The thing I want most is to live with everyone I love alive and healthy and with you by my side forever." He let his head snap up at my remark. "Really?" "But it won't happen." I said as I walked further away from him. He silenced and followed suit.
We passed a river and I turned around decided a quick funtime might make the heavy sorrowful air lighten up a bit. I quickly grabbed Inuyasha's hand and ran all the way back to the gorgeous river. "Hey! Kagome where are you going?" "You'll see!" And I saw it just up ahead and rn even faster than I thought possible, wanting to have fun with him and have it as a memory and wanting the sadness to disappear even for just a little while. I leaped into the air and Inuyasha had been taken with me and we both fell into the cold, but refreshing water. "Kagome!" "Hahaaha, Inuyasha, let's play!" I started to splash water on him and he began to smile again and ran after me around the shallow edge of the river. Then we swam into the deeper running parts and floated feeling the current pass through us, enjoying the feel.
"Kagome, what made you think of doing this?" Inuyasha asked as I silenced down. "I wanted to have fun!" I screamed and he chuckled a bit at how childish I had sounded. I wrapped my arms around his neck and leaned in and whispered into his ear, "I love you, because you love me." He blushed and I moved my lips from his ears and onto his lips. It was like a scene out of a romance novel. Two lovers who are destined by fate to be apart kiss passionately in a river. Wet and glistening in the sun. I departed his sweet lips and dove under to just be completely surrounded by blue. He followed suit and we both held hands under smiling. Then I saw something and started to say something- then remembered I was underwater and I was drowning so I quickly popped back up and gasped for air while Inuyasha was cracking up behind me. I scolded him but not too serious though because i was laughing myself.
We had moved from being in the water to laying on the side of the grass and drying ourselves in the warm heat of the sun. He had his left arm under my head and his right covered the front of my waist while my hands were clutching at his hakama. My eyes felt so droopy that i closed them wanting to sleep, but before i do... "Inuyasha, for all you wanted to know, if you asked me to marry you sooner I would. If you are sad when I die, I won't forgive you. Please live for me, please? Marry someone who deserves you and you them. I love you..." I drted off into a endless dream.
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"Kagome?" I asked but found she had fallen asleep in my arms. I looked at her face and at her figure, she was lovely, perfect. Why did I have to lose her though? I jerked from my thoughts and searched around the surrounding area. I had sense and smelled someone, someone is Souta. "Where are you Souta!?" I demanded and heard a rustling nearby and I was going to go off alone but Kagome was up and on her feet in no time.
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Souta, he came, just like I felt it, predicted it if you say so. Today's the day, Souta, Inuyasha, Everyone else, I'll miss you truly I will. "Souta." I stated as he stepped into the clearing. I saw his hands were covered in blood and his eyes in tears. "Kagome, help me." Souta said with inaudibilty. I stood my ground , you'll be free soon dear brother, free soon.
A/n: Arggh! Sorry so long! AS I said I'm 13 which means I'm in 8th grade and it's getting around the tyme where school stuffs is hard to handle and stuf but i try to work little on litte on my stories its just that I didn't have enough inspriation to write much on the days I'm soo tired. So sorrie again for making you wait! I promise to end this fic soon! Bye and again please review!
Inuyasha sat by my side all evening long. It has been hours since we sat together on the well. And now all he had done was nod when metioned to and glared at the fire in the middle of the room. Miroku and Sango had long since curled up together and fallen asleep. Kirara and Shippo had done the same the only ones awake were of me and him. Kaede had tended to a woman in labor so she was out for the night. He inched closer to me when he shivered. What has gotten into him? Is he that upset over my decision? Should I cut---no I promised myself i will not harm him and harm him I will not. No matter who ends up hurt, even if by my own happiness, I will not harm him.
"Inuyasha?" I asked as he began to shake. He looked up at me and I saw in his gold eyes were sorrow, hurt, loneliness. I wanted to cry to hold onto him for the last time since tomorrow may be the last day we spend together alive. "Aa, Kagome?" He asked as he held my hands in his. I wanted so bad to keep my strong facade up but I knew I couldn't, never could. I cried, I cried into his chest and he held me close and I heard him begin to sob with me. After a few minutes of desperate crying I let go of him and looked up once again in his watery gaze. "Inuyasha, I really don't want to die...but if it means souta will live freely, I have to." My thoughts came out of my mouth in a hurry as more sobs wracked my throat and again he cluthced me tighter not letting me go. I placed my ear on his heart and listened to his fast beating heart as it drummed me to a fitfull sleep.
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Kagome, why, why do you have to die? Why can't you just cut him on the arm? Sometimes your just a plain softhearted bitch. Always thinking of others before yourself. But think about me, your friends and family. What will they do when they find out you gave up your life to save Souta, they'll cry like they did for Souta. And even if Souta stays alive, he'll end up wasting his life away mourning for you, blmaing himself for your death. What kind of life are you giving him then? Kagome, what about me? What about a family? What about a marriage? Will we ever be able to now? I'll be alone again Kagome, I don't wnat to be alone any longer. It hurts don't you know? Of course you don't. You always had friends, you've always had your family. But what about me? All I ever had was Kikyo and then she was gone and now you, I don't think I can live anymore if you died.
I felt her place her ear over my heart and finally her breathing even out and she fell into a fitfull sleep, occasionally whimpering but nothing more. I looked down at her face as her brows was in a frown. I took my finger and smoothen it out adn her face finally looked peacful. Kagome, what am I gonna do, when I lose you too? The question echoed through my mind all day since she decided what she'll do and now I sleep dreaming of the future and what come with it.
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Morning came by faster than I would've wanted it to. I sat up off Inuyasha chest and rubbed my eyes as I heard Inuyasha stretching. "Kagome?" "Yes?" I turned to look at him, his gold eyes lost its brightness and his smile was no longer on his face. "Sango and Miroku went off early in the morning to bathe, seperately Sango told me." He had a slight smirk but not close to a real smile. "Oh, where's Shippo and Kirara then?" I asked as I rmeember seeing no one as I woke. "He went off on a walk just a while ago. Said he wanted some time to think or something." I laid my head on his shoulder as I thought. Todays the day, I feel it, I know it. "Want to eat something?" I asked as I played with his silver hair. He nodded and I pulled my bag over and made some ramen for him and me to enjoy together.
We ate in comfortable silence as we sat inches away. He wasn't eating at his fast pace but at a more steadily pace, his eyes were staring at his food as if he was in a faraway land. I just kept quiet, he might want his time alone.
"Kagome...can we...take a walk?" Inuyasha asked solemnly as I stood up. "Sure, let's go." I said as he took my hand and I helped him to his feet and we both went out of the hut into the clear blue day.
"So..." He said trying to end the silence that engulfed us on our small walk. "Inuyasha, I have to know, do you understand why I'm doing this?" I asked as I let go of his hand. He gazed deeply into my eyes intently then it soften and he turned away, "Yes, I do. But---" I placed my lips on his and he was tense for a moment then he wrapped his arms around my waist. We released to gather our breathes.
"Kagome, I--You know I just don't want to lose you. I mean. I Lost my parents and then Kikyo and now you? I can't bear it all." He confessed and he let his head fall limply to hide his fogged gold eyes. I held back my emotions and just stood there looking at him crumble before me. "Inuyasha, I told you. It is what i have to do, not what I want to. The thing I want most is to live with everyone I love alive and healthy and with you by my side forever." He let his head snap up at my remark. "Really?" "But it won't happen." I said as I walked further away from him. He silenced and followed suit.
We passed a river and I turned around decided a quick funtime might make the heavy sorrowful air lighten up a bit. I quickly grabbed Inuyasha's hand and ran all the way back to the gorgeous river. "Hey! Kagome where are you going?" "You'll see!" And I saw it just up ahead and rn even faster than I thought possible, wanting to have fun with him and have it as a memory and wanting the sadness to disappear even for just a little while. I leaped into the air and Inuyasha had been taken with me and we both fell into the cold, but refreshing water. "Kagome!" "Hahaaha, Inuyasha, let's play!" I started to splash water on him and he began to smile again and ran after me around the shallow edge of the river. Then we swam into the deeper running parts and floated feeling the current pass through us, enjoying the feel.
"Kagome, what made you think of doing this?" Inuyasha asked as I silenced down. "I wanted to have fun!" I screamed and he chuckled a bit at how childish I had sounded. I wrapped my arms around his neck and leaned in and whispered into his ear, "I love you, because you love me." He blushed and I moved my lips from his ears and onto his lips. It was like a scene out of a romance novel. Two lovers who are destined by fate to be apart kiss passionately in a river. Wet and glistening in the sun. I departed his sweet lips and dove under to just be completely surrounded by blue. He followed suit and we both held hands under smiling. Then I saw something and started to say something- then remembered I was underwater and I was drowning so I quickly popped back up and gasped for air while Inuyasha was cracking up behind me. I scolded him but not too serious though because i was laughing myself.
We had moved from being in the water to laying on the side of the grass and drying ourselves in the warm heat of the sun. He had his left arm under my head and his right covered the front of my waist while my hands were clutching at his hakama. My eyes felt so droopy that i closed them wanting to sleep, but before i do... "Inuyasha, for all you wanted to know, if you asked me to marry you sooner I would. If you are sad when I die, I won't forgive you. Please live for me, please? Marry someone who deserves you and you them. I love you..." I drted off into a endless dream.
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"Kagome?" I asked but found she had fallen asleep in my arms. I looked at her face and at her figure, she was lovely, perfect. Why did I have to lose her though? I jerked from my thoughts and searched around the surrounding area. I had sense and smelled someone, someone is Souta. "Where are you Souta!?" I demanded and heard a rustling nearby and I was going to go off alone but Kagome was up and on her feet in no time.
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Souta, he came, just like I felt it, predicted it if you say so. Today's the day, Souta, Inuyasha, Everyone else, I'll miss you truly I will. "Souta." I stated as he stepped into the clearing. I saw his hands were covered in blood and his eyes in tears. "Kagome, help me." Souta said with inaudibilty. I stood my ground , you'll be free soon dear brother, free soon.
A/n: Arggh! Sorry so long! AS I said I'm 13 which means I'm in 8th grade and it's getting around the tyme where school stuffs is hard to handle and stuf but i try to work little on litte on my stories its just that I didn't have enough inspriation to write much on the days I'm soo tired. So sorrie again for making you wait! I promise to end this fic soon! Bye and again please review!