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"What if I said"
Separate disclaimer: I don't own the song, its Anita Cochran's "What If I Said." I just thought this could go well for these two.
"Hey, everything ok?" Kim asked finding Jason sitting on the dormitory steps.
"Oh, yeah hey Kim. How was practice?"
"Ok, I guess. I'm just a little tired. What's that?" She asked spotting the letter he held in his hands. "From back home?" She asked. It still surprised her that he'd left Angel Grove and come all of the way here to spend time with her. Not that she didn't know about what happened with his new powers. Jason was one of the only guys from back home she still had contact with. He'd not faulted her for breaking it off with Tommy. He'd even understood that she had had to do it. Not because she was seeing someone other than Tommy but because she'd known that what they'd had would fade with her being so far away. He'd had that same problem when he'd left for The Peace conference in Geneva. He'd left his girlfriend Joanna. It had been hard and had fallen apart.
Then there was his break up with Tommy, Kim really didn't think she'd have come through the whole thing with out his support. True he'd wanted to be there for his bro but they were friends first and foremost and so he'd tried to stay neutral.
She didn't kid herself that he'd have taken her side outright. He and Tommy had worked so hard on having a long lasting friendship and she didn't want to come between that anyway.
"Hey, that from Emily?" She asked and he nodded listlessly. Only then did she notice the pained look in his dark eyes. On impulse she reached out a hand and touched his arm.
"What's wrong?"
"She just doesn't think that she's ready for anything as drastic as leaving home, even for me."
"Hey you know what?" She asked and he looked at her and she rubbed her tummy. "I'm famished, there's this new sushi bar in town what do you say we go grab something?"
"You want sushi?" He asked his eyes narrowed.
"Yeah, I just have to grab my purse and."
"Wait I'll buy." He said and she shook her head.
"Jase, you're on vacation and you really should watch what you spend."
"I know but Kim come on, you paid last time."
"Fine then lets go."
We've been friends for a long long time You tell me your secrets and I'll tell you mine She's left you all alone And you feel like no one cares But I have never failed you I've always been there
As she watched him coming back to the table his plate heaped high with his favorite food in the world Kim noted that he was losing weight. True he'd always been lean but he was losing too much now.
Kim wondered what she could say or do, was there anything at all to make him feel better? She really didn't know. When she'd thought Tommy was first interested in Katherine she'd felt hurt and betrayed. It had been Jason who'd been there, just like always. A little smile tilted up the corners of her lips at the memory of him arriving at Aisha's house in the middle of the night and throwing rocks at the window to get her attention. She'd thought it was Tommy, since Jason was still supposed to be out of town.
"Jason? What are you doing out there?" She called down to him.
"Heard you were upset so caught the first spaceship home."
"You're crazy." She called back trying to be quiet, Aisha was out at Kat's but she still didn't want to wake Mr. or Mrs. Campbell.
"So you've said before. Are you gong to come out here or are you going to make me look silly? That made Kim giggle, Jason was big and strong and the idea of anyone thinking he looked silly was just so outrageous. Usually she just thought he was cute.
"Ok, I'll be out in a sec." She called and the sound of him plopping down his plate on the table brought Kimberly back to the present with a clank.
"Off in lala land?"
"Hmm? Oh, yeah, so find anything you like?"
You tell your story It sounds a bit like mine It's the same old situation It happens every time Can't we see it oh maybe you and me Is what's meant to be? Do we disagree?
He'd been watching her, and now that she asked he knew there was one thing he liked. He liked her, the way her soft brown hair fell in the braid down her back, the way her eyes could sparkle or be understanding. He especially loved the way they went all dreamy. It was a look he'd seen all too little in the last years. Now a days Kim was serious and tired, he hated that. He hadn't been there when she'd taken the fall that Kat had illustrated but he had called her in the hospital as soon as he'd heard about it. She'd sounded odd, not like herself. It was then that he really knew there was something wrong. Unfortunately he'd still been stuck at the summit and hadn't been able to leave just yet. When he had that had been after she'd left and he'd been in Florida as soon as he could find a plane. That had been about the time she'd sent the letter. He'd seen her turmoil and had been torn. Not between loyalty to her or Tommy but in feeling that maybe he might have a chance. But deep down he knew he couldn't even try, she had just broken off one of the most loving relationships he'd ever seen, with one of his best pals. He couldn't do that to Tommy and besides did he really want to risk losing what they had just for a chance at happiness?
If was funny that Emily had just only broken up with him. Even before he'd left Angel Grove that had been over. He didn't even know why he'd gotten involved with her. He had thought that it might be a good distraction when he'd had to move back to town. It would keep his mind off the only one he really wanted and yet could never have. In ways she'd been like Kim, getting in with the wrong crowd. True Kim had never really done that but how many times did she need saving from situations. Not that she was incapable, no; she just couldn't always handle things alone. "They have a great selection." He said remembering her question and she smiled a little.
"Good, I thought you might like it."
"It's great." Like you, he added silently.
What if I told you what if I said that I love you? How would you feel what would you think What would we do? Do we dare to cross that line between your heart and mine? Or would I lose a friend or find a love that would never end What if I said
Kim bit into the roll and wondered why she didn't see any of the light in his dark eyes. Had Emily really hurt him that bad? She hated seeing him like this. He was so sweet. She didn't know how the blonde could just let him go. Jason was so perfect, brave and sweet.
"Hey, want to grab some frozen yogurt after we blow this Popsicle stand?"
"Hmm," She said and took a drink of her soda.
"Kim you ok?"
"Yeah, I was just thinking about Emily. She has to be crazy to just let you go."
She doesn't love you oh its' plain to see I can read between the lines of what you're telling me He doesn't hold you the way a woman should be held How long can I go on keeping these feelings to myself?
Jason's heart nearly stopped at her words. Did that tone mean what he thought it did? She just sounded so indignant on his behalf. Could it mean she felt.?
Woe, boy, he told himself, he was letting his thoughts get away from him. She wasn't crazy about you too. She's just being a good friend. He tried to tell himself but he just had this feeling.
"So, how was practice?" He asked and she shrugged as if it were the furthest thing from her mind.
"Hard as usual."
"That great hmm?"
"It's just getting harder the closer we get to the games."
"Well, at least it will all be over in a couple of weeks."
"Says the one not competing."
"Come on, you know it doesn't matter how you do, just that you have fun."
"Yeah," she wished that was true, her mother and the coach would have a fit if she didn't at least get a bronze.
"Kim, what's wrong?"
"Nothing," she managed a smile, she was supposed to be cheering him up not getting depressed. "Hey, I was thinking maybe after the games are over I'll use the money I'll probably get from my mother for the trip home to find an apartment."
"You're not going to go to Paris?"
"No, this is my home, I love my Mom and stepfather but Paris is just so far and I don't want to go that far."
"So do you know where you want to live?" He asked and hoped it would be easy for him to get too. They'd been friends too long for them to just lose contact. Even if there wasn't anything between them. He visited Zack and Trini whenever he had the chance.
What if I told you what if I said that I love you? How would you feel what would you think What would we do? Do we dare to cross that line between your heart and mine? Or would I lose a friend or find a love that would never end What if I said
"I'm not sure." She said and thought about asking if he wanted to get an apartment with her. The thing was that would be totally wrong. He had a family and a lot of other friends. Why would he want to live with her?
"Well, I was thinking of getting a place over in Mariner Bay. It's not Angel Grove but it's pretty nice. I drove through on my way here."
"Hmm." She wondered did this mean he wanted her to live with him. Her heart skipped a beat. What was she thinking? This was Jason Lee Scott, the same guy how beat up Bulk and Skull in the second grade for cutting one of her braids off. There was no way he'd like her, but what if.
Oh we've both had our share of loneliness So who's to say that we can't have a little happiness? And if I found that in you It would make my dreams come true Or would you walk away Hear what I have to say
As they paid the bill and headed out into the evening air Jason slid an arm about Kim's shoulders and almost jumped at the current that went through him. Man, that had never been there, had it? The truth was, he'd not even thought about it, not the physical aspect of his feelings. After all they were old friends, touching in a casual manner was nothing new. That electricity was though.
Did she feel it? He glanced at her face and didn't see anything register there; maybe the whole thing had just been wishful thinking.
As they headed for the frozen Yogurt stand Kim sighed. Her eyes were fixed on the couples eating their treats and he wondered if I was the ice cream like desert she was yearning for or something totally different. Either way she seemed to shake it off and he led her for the stand.
What if I told you what if I said that I love you? How would you feel what would you think What would we do?
She'd felt that spark and had nearly stumbled. That it was odd but tonight something just seemed different. She knew he was upset but there was just something in the air.
Kim stood there looking at the couples and wondered if that could ever be them. They all looked so happy, some talking, some laughing and some play fighting.
She knew that if she didn't take the chance that it would be gone and yet as he urged her forward she didn't know if she could.
It was odd, as if in a dream, she reached out, touched his other arm. When he looked down at her she lifted up on her tip toes and pressed her lips to his in a sweet kiss.
Do we dare to cross that line between your heart and mine? I've always wondered from the day we met What if I said What if I said What if I said
***
Well? I know some of the thought sequences might have been a little convoluted but this was just what came to me when I was listening to the song. Besides I think they show how two people secretly in love can think under these circumstances. Anyway, PLZ R&R and let me know what you think.
"What if I said"
Separate disclaimer: I don't own the song, its Anita Cochran's "What If I Said." I just thought this could go well for these two.
"Hey, everything ok?" Kim asked finding Jason sitting on the dormitory steps.
"Oh, yeah hey Kim. How was practice?"
"Ok, I guess. I'm just a little tired. What's that?" She asked spotting the letter he held in his hands. "From back home?" She asked. It still surprised her that he'd left Angel Grove and come all of the way here to spend time with her. Not that she didn't know about what happened with his new powers. Jason was one of the only guys from back home she still had contact with. He'd not faulted her for breaking it off with Tommy. He'd even understood that she had had to do it. Not because she was seeing someone other than Tommy but because she'd known that what they'd had would fade with her being so far away. He'd had that same problem when he'd left for The Peace conference in Geneva. He'd left his girlfriend Joanna. It had been hard and had fallen apart.
Then there was his break up with Tommy, Kim really didn't think she'd have come through the whole thing with out his support. True he'd wanted to be there for his bro but they were friends first and foremost and so he'd tried to stay neutral.
She didn't kid herself that he'd have taken her side outright. He and Tommy had worked so hard on having a long lasting friendship and she didn't want to come between that anyway.
"Hey, that from Emily?" She asked and he nodded listlessly. Only then did she notice the pained look in his dark eyes. On impulse she reached out a hand and touched his arm.
"What's wrong?"
"She just doesn't think that she's ready for anything as drastic as leaving home, even for me."
"Hey you know what?" She asked and he looked at her and she rubbed her tummy. "I'm famished, there's this new sushi bar in town what do you say we go grab something?"
"You want sushi?" He asked his eyes narrowed.
"Yeah, I just have to grab my purse and."
"Wait I'll buy." He said and she shook her head.
"Jase, you're on vacation and you really should watch what you spend."
"I know but Kim come on, you paid last time."
"Fine then lets go."
We've been friends for a long long time You tell me your secrets and I'll tell you mine She's left you all alone And you feel like no one cares But I have never failed you I've always been there
As she watched him coming back to the table his plate heaped high with his favorite food in the world Kim noted that he was losing weight. True he'd always been lean but he was losing too much now.
Kim wondered what she could say or do, was there anything at all to make him feel better? She really didn't know. When she'd thought Tommy was first interested in Katherine she'd felt hurt and betrayed. It had been Jason who'd been there, just like always. A little smile tilted up the corners of her lips at the memory of him arriving at Aisha's house in the middle of the night and throwing rocks at the window to get her attention. She'd thought it was Tommy, since Jason was still supposed to be out of town.
"Jason? What are you doing out there?" She called down to him.
"Heard you were upset so caught the first spaceship home."
"You're crazy." She called back trying to be quiet, Aisha was out at Kat's but she still didn't want to wake Mr. or Mrs. Campbell.
"So you've said before. Are you gong to come out here or are you going to make me look silly? That made Kim giggle, Jason was big and strong and the idea of anyone thinking he looked silly was just so outrageous. Usually she just thought he was cute.
"Ok, I'll be out in a sec." She called and the sound of him plopping down his plate on the table brought Kimberly back to the present with a clank.
"Off in lala land?"
"Hmm? Oh, yeah, so find anything you like?"
You tell your story It sounds a bit like mine It's the same old situation It happens every time Can't we see it oh maybe you and me Is what's meant to be? Do we disagree?
He'd been watching her, and now that she asked he knew there was one thing he liked. He liked her, the way her soft brown hair fell in the braid down her back, the way her eyes could sparkle or be understanding. He especially loved the way they went all dreamy. It was a look he'd seen all too little in the last years. Now a days Kim was serious and tired, he hated that. He hadn't been there when she'd taken the fall that Kat had illustrated but he had called her in the hospital as soon as he'd heard about it. She'd sounded odd, not like herself. It was then that he really knew there was something wrong. Unfortunately he'd still been stuck at the summit and hadn't been able to leave just yet. When he had that had been after she'd left and he'd been in Florida as soon as he could find a plane. That had been about the time she'd sent the letter. He'd seen her turmoil and had been torn. Not between loyalty to her or Tommy but in feeling that maybe he might have a chance. But deep down he knew he couldn't even try, she had just broken off one of the most loving relationships he'd ever seen, with one of his best pals. He couldn't do that to Tommy and besides did he really want to risk losing what they had just for a chance at happiness?
If was funny that Emily had just only broken up with him. Even before he'd left Angel Grove that had been over. He didn't even know why he'd gotten involved with her. He had thought that it might be a good distraction when he'd had to move back to town. It would keep his mind off the only one he really wanted and yet could never have. In ways she'd been like Kim, getting in with the wrong crowd. True Kim had never really done that but how many times did she need saving from situations. Not that she was incapable, no; she just couldn't always handle things alone. "They have a great selection." He said remembering her question and she smiled a little.
"Good, I thought you might like it."
"It's great." Like you, he added silently.
What if I told you what if I said that I love you? How would you feel what would you think What would we do? Do we dare to cross that line between your heart and mine? Or would I lose a friend or find a love that would never end What if I said
Kim bit into the roll and wondered why she didn't see any of the light in his dark eyes. Had Emily really hurt him that bad? She hated seeing him like this. He was so sweet. She didn't know how the blonde could just let him go. Jason was so perfect, brave and sweet.
"Hey, want to grab some frozen yogurt after we blow this Popsicle stand?"
"Hmm," She said and took a drink of her soda.
"Kim you ok?"
"Yeah, I was just thinking about Emily. She has to be crazy to just let you go."
She doesn't love you oh its' plain to see I can read between the lines of what you're telling me He doesn't hold you the way a woman should be held How long can I go on keeping these feelings to myself?
Jason's heart nearly stopped at her words. Did that tone mean what he thought it did? She just sounded so indignant on his behalf. Could it mean she felt.?
Woe, boy, he told himself, he was letting his thoughts get away from him. She wasn't crazy about you too. She's just being a good friend. He tried to tell himself but he just had this feeling.
"So, how was practice?" He asked and she shrugged as if it were the furthest thing from her mind.
"Hard as usual."
"That great hmm?"
"It's just getting harder the closer we get to the games."
"Well, at least it will all be over in a couple of weeks."
"Says the one not competing."
"Come on, you know it doesn't matter how you do, just that you have fun."
"Yeah," she wished that was true, her mother and the coach would have a fit if she didn't at least get a bronze.
"Kim, what's wrong?"
"Nothing," she managed a smile, she was supposed to be cheering him up not getting depressed. "Hey, I was thinking maybe after the games are over I'll use the money I'll probably get from my mother for the trip home to find an apartment."
"You're not going to go to Paris?"
"No, this is my home, I love my Mom and stepfather but Paris is just so far and I don't want to go that far."
"So do you know where you want to live?" He asked and hoped it would be easy for him to get too. They'd been friends too long for them to just lose contact. Even if there wasn't anything between them. He visited Zack and Trini whenever he had the chance.
What if I told you what if I said that I love you? How would you feel what would you think What would we do? Do we dare to cross that line between your heart and mine? Or would I lose a friend or find a love that would never end What if I said
"I'm not sure." She said and thought about asking if he wanted to get an apartment with her. The thing was that would be totally wrong. He had a family and a lot of other friends. Why would he want to live with her?
"Well, I was thinking of getting a place over in Mariner Bay. It's not Angel Grove but it's pretty nice. I drove through on my way here."
"Hmm." She wondered did this mean he wanted her to live with him. Her heart skipped a beat. What was she thinking? This was Jason Lee Scott, the same guy how beat up Bulk and Skull in the second grade for cutting one of her braids off. There was no way he'd like her, but what if.
Oh we've both had our share of loneliness So who's to say that we can't have a little happiness? And if I found that in you It would make my dreams come true Or would you walk away Hear what I have to say
As they paid the bill and headed out into the evening air Jason slid an arm about Kim's shoulders and almost jumped at the current that went through him. Man, that had never been there, had it? The truth was, he'd not even thought about it, not the physical aspect of his feelings. After all they were old friends, touching in a casual manner was nothing new. That electricity was though.
Did she feel it? He glanced at her face and didn't see anything register there; maybe the whole thing had just been wishful thinking.
As they headed for the frozen Yogurt stand Kim sighed. Her eyes were fixed on the couples eating their treats and he wondered if I was the ice cream like desert she was yearning for or something totally different. Either way she seemed to shake it off and he led her for the stand.
What if I told you what if I said that I love you? How would you feel what would you think What would we do?
She'd felt that spark and had nearly stumbled. That it was odd but tonight something just seemed different. She knew he was upset but there was just something in the air.
Kim stood there looking at the couples and wondered if that could ever be them. They all looked so happy, some talking, some laughing and some play fighting.
She knew that if she didn't take the chance that it would be gone and yet as he urged her forward she didn't know if she could.
It was odd, as if in a dream, she reached out, touched his other arm. When he looked down at her she lifted up on her tip toes and pressed her lips to his in a sweet kiss.
Do we dare to cross that line between your heart and mine? I've always wondered from the day we met What if I said What if I said What if I said
***
Well? I know some of the thought sequences might have been a little convoluted but this was just what came to me when I was listening to the song. Besides I think they show how two people secretly in love can think under these circumstances. Anyway, PLZ R&R and let me know what you think.